Jin opened his eyes confused. He had no idea where he was. The walls was a shade of dirty white and the only thing in the room was a little desk on his right side, the bed he was on and a window that couldn't be open. A door was on his left. Jin held his head as he remembered everything that had happend. He groaned slightly as he sat up. His best guess was they had taken him to the mental hospital. Rage filled his body once more but quickly vanished as he felt he was exhausted. He wondered what the time was and a little clock on the wall told him it was six in the evening. Jin sighed and looked down on himself. Someone had changed his clothes to long sweatpants in white and a t-shirt to match. He didn't seem to have any bruises and as he carefully stood up he realised his only pain was because he was sore. He wondered where Namjoon was but maybe he couldn't find him in here. A little click sounded from the door and he turned his head towards it. A head was stuck inside and smiled when she saw Jin was awake.
"Hello Jin, I'm-"
"I don't care who you are. I want to speak to Doctor Lee." Jin said and crossed his arms.
"Everything in it's own time. First I bring food." She said and pushed a little cart in with food. By the smell of it Jin's stomach growled. He looked at it embarresed. She smiled friendly to him but Jin could tell that if he stepped just a little out of line, the smile would dissapier in a matter of seconds. She placed a tray with the food on his lap after he had sat against the wall. Jin ate without saying a word. He could feel himself get eager to get out and find Namjoon. He needed him by his side but he also knew he shouldn't try to get out without knowing the place a bit better first. When he was done she informed him Doctor Lee would come shortly after. Jin sat on the bed waiting. Every second dragged out and felt like hours. He was suprised to realise he didn't feel anything towards his parents. He simply didn't hate them but he didn't love them either. When he got out of there, he didn't want anything to do with them. Who would lock their son away, just like that, without warning because they thought he was crazy. They defently didn't want the word to come out. He sat swimming in his thoughts when the door opened again.
"Hello Jin." Doctor Lee said and Jin narrowed his eyes.
"Hi." Jin said and Doctor Lee sat on the other end of the bed.
"As you probably have figured out, we brought you here after you passed out." He explained. Jin looked empty on him, he clearly knew that and saying it seemed pointless. "We're gonna take good care of you here. We're gonna help you fix the problem. In fact I thought I could ask you some questions right now. Do you mind?"
"Go ahead and ask your questions, I'll see if I'll be bothered to answer them." Jin said in a colder tone than he had ever used before. He felt as he somehow had lost some of his innocence being taken away and betrayed by his parents. Something inside him had been stolen but he couldn't figure out what it was.
"Alright. Who is it you're talking to when you're alone in your room?" Doctor Lee asked. Jin thought for a moment if he should say the truth or make up a lie hopefully to scare him off and have a little fun.
"It's a dead boy." Jin answered.
"A dead boy? Does he have a name?" Doctor Lee asked and Jin rolled his eyes.
"Of course he has a name! Who dosn't have a name?" Jin said like he was stupid.
"Sorry of course he has a name. What is it?" Doctor Lee asked.
"I don't really think is in my right to talk about someone elses business. Besides I haven't seen him since this morning when my parents locked their only son away." Jin said again in a cold tone. He didn't want to talk too much about Namjoon.
"Jin you have to understand, he isn't real." Doctor Lee said. It hurt Jin to hear that because of course Namjoon was real. He was somewhere out there looking for Jin.
"How do you know he isn't real?" Jin asked getting annoyed.
"Because you're the only one who can see him." Jin made an unamused sound.
"That's a crap reason and you know that." Jin said and he could tell he caught the doctor of guard. "Just because I'm the only one who can see him, dosn't mean he isn't real. If I see a flower out on the field and I'm the only out of three who can pin it down with my eyes. Does it mean is not real?"
"Of course no-"
"Then come with a better explanation. I would like to see you try." Jin said and raised his eyebrows.
"Jin your school told me you didn't have any friends and your parents are busy people. It's possible your mind just created someone so you could talk with them." Doctor Lee said and Jin thought for a moment.
"See I would believe that if it wasn't because I'm 100% the boy is real. If he was creation of imagination why does my hand go cold when I try to touch him? Why isn't he with me all the time? Why isn't he with me right now?" Jin said and looked around.
"There can be many reasons for that. I'll have to talk to you some more before giving answer." Doctor Lee said and Jin saw a crack in his surface.
"Yeah you do that." Jin said. "Now if you'll excuse me, I think we're done for tonight." Jin said and even though Doctor Lee was in charge he stood up.
"We'll talk tomorrow." He said as he opened the door.
"Can't wait." Jin said in a sarcastic tone and watched as he left the room. Jin walked to the window after the door was closed. It was very long way down and he suspected they had put him so high up on purpose. There wasn't much to do in the room so he kept looking out of the window. It was getting dark and Jin felt himself longing for Namjoon's smile. He had a wonderful smile and laugh. He wished with all his heart that Namjoon could be there with him.
"Jin?" A voice sounded behind him and he could hardly believe his eyes. Namjoon was there but he was very transparent.
"Joonie?" Jin asked with happiness even though he could tell something was off.
"Jin I don't know how much time I have. This is very far away from where I got killed so it isn't easy to be here. It takes a lot of strength... I sort of filled out the gaps on how you ended up here." Namjoon said and walked closer to Jin. "I'm sorry. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have talked to you that day."
"No Namjoon is not your fault." Jin said and felt closer to his own self again. The Jin who didn't talk back but was nice and hardly had a temper. "I-I just don't know what to do if I don't have you to talk to." Jin said with tears in his eyes.
"I know is hard but you have to hang in there. If you do as the doctor say you'll get out fast." Namjoon said but Jin got a sour taste in his mouth.
"And come out to what?" Jin asked tears now streaming down his face.
"I never want to talk to my parents and the school was bad. My only reason to come out is if I can talk to you more." Jin said and Namjoon shook his head.
"No Jin you'll have to believe there's something more out there, something better." Namjoon said and walked closer to Jin. Whenever he did that Jin knew Namjoon wanted to hold him.
"I doubt that." Jin said and moved closer too. He would give anything in that moment to be able to touch Namjoon.
"Jin you're upset right now. I understand that, but please just give yourself a few days to come down." Namjoon said and Jin sighed. Maybe Namjoon was right, he needed to calm down.
"Alright I'm sorry. Will you lie with me?" Jin asked and Namjoon nodded.
"Alright but it's getting hard for me to be here." Namjoon said. Jin didn't answer but lay down facing Namjoon. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the feeling of Namjoon close by when it suddenly disappeared. Jin opened his eyes and Namjoon was gone. He sighed and pulled the duvet up over his head. He had promised Namjoon to give it a few days but he already knew he would hate it and with a heavy heart he fell asleep.
As the days went by Jin got more and more clear on what he had to do. He couldn't keep going anymore, he simply had nothing to live for. His parents hadn't come to visit him, not even once. The food was close to terrible. Doctor Lee kept pushing him to tell more about the dead boy and kept telling him he wasn't real. He had barely seen Namjoon as it was very hard for him to be there. When they did talk, Jin felt as always safe and warm and when he was gone, he felt cold and left behind.
Jin spend a few days figureing out how to do it. It was a difficult task as the security was high and he was afraid if he did it there, that he and Namjoon wouldn't be able to see each other because it was far away from where he died. He tried to find a way out but soon gave up that idea and simply decided just to do it at that place.
After he had done it everything seemed odd. It was like the whole world was speeding forward. He called Namjoon's name but he couldn't see him. Then suddenly it stopped and only a few steps away was Namjoon. He was sitting on Jin's bed with closed eyes. Jin didn't find it hard to be there at all and wondered if it was because he had grown up in that house or if it was because his heart belonged to Namjoon.
"Joonie?" Jin asked as Namjoon still didn't notice him. Namjoon opened his eyes and looked at Jin.
"Jin?" Namjoon asked clearly suprised. "How are you-I mean what..No Jin tell me you didn't." Namjoon said and shook his head lightly.
"I did. Listen Namjoon I had nothing to live for. You had tons of friends and a good family when you were alive but I had none of those things. My only way to feel happy was when I talked to you. I couldn't stand not being able to see you or touch you. Please don't be mad, I don't know what I will do if you hate me." Jin said and got tears in his eyes. Namjoon looked at him and smiled slightly.
"Jin I could never hate you. I know your life wasn't great and I..I'm happy I can be with you now. I couldn't ask you to do it but you chose it yourself." Namjoon said and as he reached out to dry Jin's tears away, Jin felt like time stopped. Namjoon's hand connected to Jin's cheek and it felt so sort. It wasn't cold at all and Jin smiled to Namjoon. Namjoon smiled back and put his arms around Jin. Jin put his hands on Namjoon's cheeks and noticed they felt soft too.
"I've been waiting so long to be able to touch you." Jin said and Namjoon nodded slightly.
"And I've waited so long to be able to do this." Namjoon said and pulled Jin into a kiss. It was much better than Jin had ever imagined it to be. His lips were more than kissable and Jin enjoyed every bit of it. When they pulled away Jin narrowed his eyes as a shining light hit them. Namjoon did too and they looked to the right while holding a hand up to their eyes.
"That's cliche. Are we suppose to go towards the light?" Jin said with a little smile.
"I think we are." Namjoon said and grabbed Jin's hand. "I'm happy I'm doing this with you."
"Me too. There's no one I would rather be with." Jin said and squezzed Namjoon's hand lightly. Together, step by step they walked into the light and just before it consumed them Jin looked back. He said a goodbye to his old life, then with a smile on his lips and happiness in his heart he looked at Namjoon and knew this was the best choice, he had ever made because never had he felt more loved.
I hope you all liked this mini story ^.^