Divorce...
Really...
A fucking...
Divorce...
I know I left him... For fucking almost five months...
But divorce...
My heart clenched as the reality dawn upon me...
Fuck...
I close my eyes.
His touch, his eyes, his voice..
I had miss all that so much in those five months.
And he is even ready to feed your greedy father with what he want... Only for you... To be with you...
Does he..really.
Does he love me?
Or its just lust...
Damn ...
I don't know what is it but I just only know I can't repeat the same mistake again.
Living without him was like hell.
The effect of his touch on my body, which runs number of shivers run down my spine...aren't just nothing to me...
I'm fucking up my own life along with his...
Trust...
He just want me to trust him...
He say he will handle everything I just need to trust him.
Can't i just trust him..
Simply just trust him...
Whether it ends up good or bad ....we will be just ...together...
We can just face them together....all problems, all hurdles, all grief.
I face palmed myself...
I'm a dumb... A fool...
How can I be so ridiculous...
I left him when he needed me the most...
Oh no...
What kind of wife I'm...
I don't even deserve him... His love...
Fucking shit!!!!
I have done a blunder... Oh god.
Now its the time to correct it...
I wipe off my tears with the back of my hand...
I think I know what I have to do now before its too late...
**********
after battling for long time from myself....
Here I'm..
In front of his door again...
I close my eyes ...
"I know mom, you are always with me" I whispers slowly..and smiles...in my heart...
I took a deep breath not letting tears come out again...
I softly knock on the door...
His door...
And almost immediately, I heard a" come in..."
I open the door ajar and first peek my head in first.
Lights are on..
Our last encounter in our room, yesterday, make a blush crept over my cheeks...
I enters And close the door behind me...
There he is looking outside the big window glass, his hands folded across his chest... His biceps and back muscles bulging out from the white linen shirt. As his back is facing me.
I clear my throat to get some attention...
But he didn't turn...
"You really don't need to knock before entering every time." His voice was soft but not the dead calm..
"I... I'm sorry.. I mean... Really sorry...Randhir..." I am twiddling with my fingers..by now looking down at them...
"I know I'm stupid... An idiot...but I'm really sorry... And I mean it.. I'm just rea...." I just stop when I felt a finger is pressed against my chin and pulled upwards only to get lost in those black orbs..
"I'm sorry" I whispers breathlessly. This proximity. he is standing so close to me.
The jitters in my abdomen is not stopping ...
"Sorry for what Sanyu! " he whispers back as he search my eyes. his voice soft, filled with worry and care...
His other hand lift up and come to rest on my left cheek. I lean into his touch.
"For everything Randhir.. I know I'm not a good wife.. I left you alone at the time when you must be needing me the most.. I should have waited. I should have shown some patience..I'm just......really sorry.." I said and I just break down in his arms...sobbing badly..
I felt him wrapping his warm arms around me and rest my head on his chest. But I just sobbed, wetting his shirt...
He pats my back, my hairs and whispers sweet nothings in my ears...
"Sshh Sanyu..its okay.. Don't cry.. Its never your fault... It was all mine.. I can't even make you trust me..and I can't even stop you from going if I wanted too. Because I was the one who told you to go out.. Because the situation I was going through was just.. Just so complicated .and I don't want you to suffer there..." I felt him choke..
Is he crying?
I lift my head up from his chest and look in those black orbs...
"Its not that I don't trust you Randhir. I do. Isn't that's why I came back at the first place to give a second chance.. To us... Our relation... Our lo...." I stop in the middle of my sentence.
My eyes search his. Maybe his eyes would give away.
Tell me, Randhir
You love me
He kept numb.. Not a single word..
My heart broke in million pieces.
Oh damn, what I have done to our relation...?
"I trust you Randhir. I do. " I close my eyes and rest my head against his chest again.
I felt him put his head over my head after planting a soft kiss on top of my head..
This feels so good... Me and Randhir ...together
But what about his baby... And Shreya...
But I decided not to be a moment spoiler....for now.
***
To lighten the atmosphere...
"You should know that I trusted you always.. Otherwise I would have run away, when you had locked yourself in your room.." I chuckles...
"Dang..!!! I'm sure you didn't try it. It was locked." He smirks...then laugh.
I pull my head up and glare at him.
"If you think I am ever letting you go away from me again." He took a long pause and lean in closer to my face...
His hot breaths hitting my lips. His hands holding me tight from either side of my waist.
"....then you are mistaken, baby.." He chipped and his lips got plastered to mine, in a slow and sensuous move.
He groans as I bite lightly his bottom lip lightly.
That groan was so.... Hot...
I took my hands up into his hairs and hide my finger in his soft black locks...massaging his scalp.
He groans again letting a vibration emitting from his chest to mine...
"randhir" I clipped between the kiss...
"Hmm.." He just hummed ...
"I love you." I break the kiss...
"I know" he chipped, smirk and joined our lips again...into the most passionate lip lock ever.
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