I had to get Luke out of here. I didn't know what I was doing and with all the weird decisions I was making someone could easily mistake me for a hormonal pregnant woman. Will birth control pills stop the erratic decisions I was making?
"What's wrong?" Luke asked like making out with him after telling him I don't feel like that for him was no big deal.
"Are you alright?" I didn't quite know how this would sound out loud but it definitely didn't come out right.
He smiled and shifted on my bed where he sat while I stood by the door, ready to run if I had to.
"After kissing you why won't I be but are you alright? So will you be my girlfriend or best friend?"
I nearly choked at that word. Not nearly though, I could tell if I was choking on air or spit but I could breath and Luke was rubbing my back and probably saying something I couldn't register because of this near death experience.
After I recovered I found myself on the floor with Luke beside me. His hand gently rubbed my back this time and I couldn't help but notice how my body had no response to it or him.
I sighed deeply. What I felt with Bellamy, I never felt that before. Not even with Keith...
I shivered at the memories that were forcing there way out from the locker in the back of my head. I need a distraction.
A distraction from bad boys.
I was with one and I slept with another and found myself attracted to her another one.
I have a really really really bad choice.
Luke was waiting for me to say something. I think he even just said something in but I wasn't listening. This day can't get anymore complicated.
Brianna said Luke never had a real relationship. He was always sex-driven. More than Bellamy for that matter but he said he stopped. I wish he hadn't. It would've made everything so easy for me. I wouldn't feel guilty for doing this to him but I have to get over Bellamy.
"Blake say something," he prompted me. I looked into his eyes.
"I know you don't like me like that but gave me a chance at least." Why was he being desperate?
"Are you betting on me?" I asked like he would actually come clean. He started to laugh.
"I'm bad at this stuff and you're awfully quiet and confusing. Can we try things out?" he suggested again.
"You sound really desperate." I laughed out.
Embarrassment washed over his face and I couldn't tell if I was being blunt or rude. Probably both.
"Forget it, you're just playing with me. I should've figured." My jaw dropped when I realized he was being serious.
He took his things and marched out of the door while I just stayed planted on the floor.
And I thought I was being hormonal today.
I bolted when I heard the front door open. Was I really going to run after him? Yes.
"Luke! Wait!" I slid in front of the door of the car to block him.
"What?" he looked everywhere but me and his eyebrows were furrowed.
"I'm just confused." I blurted out.
"It's been two hours already and I'm just looking at your gorgeous face waiting for a reply and you're doing everything but telling me what I want to hear!" he shouted out.
His demeanor definitely scared me for a second before he softened his stance.
"II'll be your girlfriend," I rolled my eyes and planted my lips to his.
I was going to get over the bad boy.
Moments later we heard howling and low whistles that forced us to stop kissing.
Did I mention what I good kisser he was?
"Finally!" Brianna cheerfully jumped around. Eliza smiled while looking between me and Luke.
"Nicely done bro," Harry patted Luke's back and I quickly removed my hands from his neck. "You guys!" I said in a scolding manner.
"Blake and Luke sitting..." Brianna and Harry sang us they entered the house. Eliza followed them inside. I turned around to see Chris searching for something in his. I was about to ask but he held his phone and sighed in relief.
That tiny device was full of pictures of Brianna and that too of every living and breathing moment of her. She no doubt fascinated him and although he didn't like photography he sure knew just how to get a good picture of my disoriented twin sister. Not identical might I remind you.
"Chrissy hurry up," I don't know why I called him that but the look on his face made me promise myself to always call him Chrissy. Luke laughed with me but we stopped when Chris made kissy faces at us and wiggled his brows.
"Whatever," I shrugged.
I can't sleep. How can anyone sleep knowing their using their friend? I'm not even cheating and I feel guilty.
After another ten minutes of shuffling in my bed since I couldn't even focus on reading my textbook, I decided to go Brianna.
She's worse than the love experts in Frozen.
Not caring about what she's up to, I walked into her room and found her doing some crazy cheer routine in her underwear. I immediately dropped to the floor and started to laugh.
"Shut up! you're going to wake mom up!" she threw a pillow at me and clearly she wasn't embarrassed by her god awful moves which made me laugh harder.
"Please don't do that! If you want to be Queen bee swear on your life that you won't repeat this in public!" I said gripping onto my stomach and propping myself against the wall for support.
"It wasn't that bad." She rolled her eyes and put on a robe while I shook my head trying to stop another round of laughter.
"Anyways, I need advice." I said dropping myself on her bed. "I know," she sighed and sat opposite me.
"I don't know what I'm doing," I said.
"You like Bellamy but you're with Luke?" she almost questioned the last part. I nodded my head.
After we were caught making out in the driveway we didn't really do anything after that. No touching basically.
"I feel so different around Bel, I can't help it." I admitted to her.
"It's an infatuation. You'll get over him. Luke's actually changing for you. It's not everyday a guy does that." she looked at me intensely with her big eyes that were sort of like moms just bigger.
"I know but I'm using him to get over Bellamy!" it sounded so wrong saying it out loud.
"You're thinking it the wrong way. Look, the right guy stepped in the wrong time and we all know what happens if you let him go. So, take the right guy and don't let it be a wrong time, you've kept this 'I don't like Bellamy in that way' facade on pretty well. No one will know you had a crush on him," she makes everything sound so simple.
"Had? I have a crush on him and its more than a crush if you ask me." I tugged on my hair a bit in frustration.
"Stop being overdramatic. Luke and you have a chance at this and trust me, you day you'll be laughing over the fact that you had feelings for Bellamy." Brianna said oh so simply.
I sighed and made my way to the door.
"I feel bad for Chris," I said closing her door. She muttered a few things but I chose to ignore.
...
I was purposely late for school. I was nervous about how things will turn out.
I managed to drag myself to school by the second period. I fiddled with the things inside my locker until I greeted by the usual strong arm that always slung around my shoulder.
"Hey," I greeted whilst turning to face the blonde boy with a dimple. He shot me one of his smiles and leaned in to kiss me. It was rather long and we pulled away to find a crowd around us. Whispers and the sound of hushed voices surrounded us. We threw a glare at them which quickly dispersed the crowd.
I rolled my eyes and laughed at the scene before us. "Can't wait for some hot gossip," I sarcastically told Luke who nodded in fake interest.
I hadn't seen Bellamy all day and I couldn't help but wonder where he was. I checked my phone a couple times contemplating whether it not I should ask him where he is.
"Aren't we going to the cafeteria?" I asked Luke who was guiding me somewhere else.
"Nope, we're going to sit at an old spot that new for you." I nodded and followed him past the lunch room and to the courtyard that was beside it. Our friends sat in the middle table, obviously.
"What about lunch?" I randomly asked as we approached them. "That's been taken care of." He smiled and we sat down.
It was then when I realized a knew face at the table. A girl with black hair and fair skin. She was clearly going through a black phase since her makeup matched the blacked of her clothes. Nevertheless she smiled brightly at me and I returned it immediately.
"Hi," I waved. "Blake, this is Natasha K-" she stopped and looked at Natasha who gave her a look and laughed. "Natasha Donovan," she cleared.
"Are you new here?" I asked to get the conversation started.
"Yes and no. I've lived her my entire life except for the last few months. We temporarily moved away. Thankfully we're back now." She smiled and I couldn't help but think she's forcing smiles at us.
"Now that you two have initiated your friendship, can I please burrow her?" Luke took my hands in his. "Nope, I'm hungry." I said and on cue a skinny scared boy brought two trays full of food that were probably twice his weight. Luke nodded at him and he scurried away.
"That's not nice. You people said you sit bully anyone." Natasha seemed to find my statement really funny while the others just looked away.
"Not even in a million years should you expect them to not act like cliche popular kids." She stated. I felt a close friendship brewing.
"Cliche," I repeated in mockery at Brianna. She hated being called that. Lets face it she thought she took down the baddy but she just took her place instead, just less brutal but still cliche.
"So where's Bellamy?" The question that I wanted to ask for a while now escaped from Natasha's mouth. Should I be threatened by her? Wait, I already have a boyfriend and its not him.
I turned my gaze to Brianna who gave me the 'you better not be thinking the same thing too' look. Clearly we can be telepathic if we want to be.
"He's with...Mandy."
Try not to choke.
Try not to choke.
Try not to choke.
My mind tried to keep me in check and although I didn't choke, I sure as hell didn't have some strange facial expression because of the look Luke gave me. I could probably cover it up.
I looked at Chris, I wanted to glare at him but its not his fault. He broke this devastating news.
I felt a heel kick me and I jerked up to find out it was Brianna.
Compose yourself Blake. Look at how calm your friends are.
They obviously didn't have Bellamy electrocute them with his touch.
I turned to Natasha just spat out water luckily missing Luke's face which I was going to kiss the life out of shortly.
So I'm not the only one. I sighed.
"Would why he do that? You said they were over for good when he pulled that prank on her." se practically asked all of them. Her gaze shifted to around her. As if she were searching for the two.
"I have no clue. I hair saw it happen in the janitors closet this morning." Harry shrugged.
"I think he was with her last night too. I swear I saw him drive out of her driveway." Eliza added. She and Mandy lived on the same street.
"He's just pissed. I'm sure someone will knock some sense into him." Chris shrugged and continued eating ketchup dipped in fries. Literally.
"Yea that someone isn't so happy them-self," Natasha chuckled.
"Don't you want to go? I'm bored." Luke spoke out of nowhere.
Yes please, let me take my anger out on your lips.
"Sure," I took his hand and we abruptly left the table. "To the car?" Luke asked and I nodded.
I definitely won't be opening any closets for a while.
Just then Mandy had to stride her way over to us.
"Whores," she muttered as we passed her.
"You asked for it." I muttered back and threw a punch right on her nose. She screamed and I decided to leave before a teacher would come. I turned and and hit a hard chest. I fell to the floor back Luke quickly pulled me up. I got a glance on Bellamy.
It was like slow motion, his eyes locked into mine and I couldn't figure out what emotions they held but there was something different about them. I almost noticed the faintest of smirks he has ever had. A chill went down my spine before my stare was torn from him.
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A/N
Surprise! An early update!
Firstly it's because of the feedback I have got. The amount of views this is getting makes me so happy and I'm not even delivering properly right now. Though the comments and votes are a few each one means a lot of me! I love reading your thoughts on the events of this book.
I also updated because I have an exam tomorrow and I feel really really stressed about it and for some reason writing a bit of this chapter helped me take my mind off the stress and I think I can start revising again now. Please wish me luck!
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