I just read a book and.. ugh. My emotions are all fucked up, along with my mind. I had to remove it from my library because I couldn't take it anymore. 💀
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I roll over on my side, my hand falling in an empty and cold spot on the bed. My eyes squint open and I realized that Kian was no longer sleeping by me.
I look over at the time. It read, 8:57am, I was supposed to be up and ready at 8:30am. I could've sworn that I had set my timer!
I shot up and quickly made my bed before rushing towards my closet to get ready.
"Ki- woah" I stopped my voice from calling out for him after it suddenly cracked
I cleared my throat and gave it a second try
"Kian!" I call out
There we go.
"What?" I heard a door open - the bathroom door, and soon Kian appeared in the doorway
"Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked, but was mainly focused on getting my adidas sweats over my pajama shorts.
"You got in late so I figured you need more sleep and turned off your alarm." He shrugged
"Well, thank you." I smile up at him "although, It takes like half an hour to get to the airport from here. That's why I set that alarm."
"Well then hurry up." He laughed and disappeared back around the corner
"I'm trying! Thanks to you I couldn't get ready in my own time." I lazily did two bunny ears to tie the strings of my sweatpants before walking back out
"Thanks to me, you got to sleep in more." He says while brushing his teeth
I stand near him and slightly bump him with my hip so that I could brush mine as well.
He gargled mouthwash as I spread toothpaste on my brush.
"Why is it so spicy?!" He asked after putting water in his mouth and spitting it back out
"It's just strong, is all." I shrugged and continued to brush my teeth
"That shit is fucking hot dude" he shivered and pushed the bottle on the floor childishly
I rolled my eyes "your profanity never seems to amaze me."
"Oh please," he picked up the mouthwash and placed it back in its original place
"You curse more than I do."
I gargle mouthwash as well before spitting it back out into the sink, "Curse?"
"Yeah. Curse." He raised an eyebrow
"Cuss." I correct him
I turned off the faucet, purposely switching off the light and walking out of the bathroom.
"Potato, patato. Who cares?" He switched the light back on
"I do." I joke and sat on the edge of the bed, watching him fix his hair
My eyes scanned over his outfit, it was pretty simple if you'd ask me. He wore his original white converse, black skinny jeans, and a simple grey shirt.
"Oh my god" he gasped dramatically
My eyes snap back up at him in worry. He was just staring at himself in the mirror.
"What? Is something wrong?" I asked in concern
"No," he shook his head "im just so goddamn sexy."
I shook my head at his playfulness as he begin to make fuck boy faces at himself through the mirror.
"Alright," he laughs and shuts off the light "let's go."
I stood up and slipped on my shoes before grabbing my phone and keys.
Kian grabbed all his stuff, making sure everything was packed, and then grabbed his suitcase. We quietly made our way out of the room so that my parents don't wake up.
We made our way downstairs, towards the door and out of the house. It was a bit warm outside, which is kind of nice because of how cold it was yesterday.
"Your dad is gonna miss me." Kian smirked as we walked towards my car
"For sure" I laughed and unlocked the trunk to help him load his bag and suitcase.
I couldn't help but feel really sad at the fact that Kian was leaving. I know I couldn't spend as much time as I wanted to with him from everything going on this past week, but I'm really gonna miss him.
"You okay?" He asked
I snap out of my thoughts and proceed to close the trunk once all the stuff was in.
"Yea. I'm fine." I reassure him
He smirked "thinking about me?"
I rolled my eyes "no. Your ego is too huge for my liking."
"There's a lot of things huge about me. Im sure at least one of them would fit your liking." He winked at me as we got in the car
I scrunched up my nose "you're a pig."
"Says the one who snorts when they laugh." He says while buckling his seatbelt
My cheeks flush in embarrassment as I start up the car.
"You pay attention to my laugh?" I glance at him and then payed attention to backing out the driveway
"Who doesn't? It's funny and cut-" he stops him self
I raised my eyebrows in shock "cute?"
"I didn't say that" he turns his head to look out the window
"You almost did!" I laugh
"Aww, Kian! You're too kind" I placed one hand over my heart and looked over at him
He fell silent and that just causes my smile to grow wider.
"Don't be all shy now," I tease "Mr 'i'm just so goddamn sexy"
"I'm not shy. I never get shy." He finally spoke again
"Is that so?"
"Yup." He nods
It was silent - a comfortable silence, only for a minute until I spoke out again.
"So you think im.." I laugh "cute?"
"Whose got a big ego now?" He looks at me with eyes full of amusement
"You still do."
"Mhm. So what if I said your laugh was cute? It's nothing compared to everything else about you." He cheesed
What he says sounds sosososososo cliché, but just hearing him say it about me? It made me want to scream and fangirl like I had just met Harry Styles.
I felt such a warm feeling being around him and it makes me so happy and at ease. The grin on my face hurt my cheeks so bad, I couldn't get rid of it or the blush.
"You're too good for me, Lawley."
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I parked the car in the front of the airport where you drop off someone, and unbuckled my seat belt.
"You're coming in?" Kian questioned
"Uh," I was in the middle of texting Zarah back so it took a minute for me to reply
"Yess...? Yeah." I gave him an answer after sending the text
"Oh my gosh!" He sighed dramatically
"get off your phone and acknowledge the person you were cuddling with like a teddy bear last night!" He joked
I shook my head at his childishness and continued to text. I then looked up and over at Kian, just to see he was already looking at me. I stare back at him weirdly as he just kept looking.
"What?" I laugh
"When will you be back in California?" He asked
I sighed, not really knowing myself.
"I don't know." I shrug "With everything going on down here.. I can't just leave my family so soon, ya know?"
He gives me a silent nod and small smile, showing that he understands.
I ran a hand through my hair "I have to go back pretty soon though. I have to meet up with a couple of producers to help form some music videos I guess. I just don't wanna leave so soon, my family needs me."
"So you're doing it?" Kian asked
I looked at him "doing what?"
"The music videos?" His lips formed into a slight grin
"Yea." I smile, feeling proud of myself.
"That's fucking great! I'm so proud of you." He congratulates me, seeming more excited than I was when I made the decision.
It honestly made my heart warm at the sight of him being so happy for something that I did.
"Thanks" I grin
"No problem, babe."
I hid my small blush and leaned my back against my door so that I could face him.
"My honest opinion is that you have to do this no matter what, before you miss the opportunity. Your mom and dad would perfectly understand why you have to head back so soon. You can always just fly back after the meeting." He suggested
"I agree. I don't want to keep them waiting for another week for me. Plus those songs hit it off faster than I could comprehend, I never me singing would ever get this far." I couldn't help but feel excited at the thought of being in my own music video
"You have a amazing fucking voice! I didn't even know you could sing. When I seen that post I swear I kicked Jc so hard from how excited I was." Kian chuckled at the memory
I laughed and then my eyes feel to the screen of Kian's phone that had just lit up. The time now read 9:34am
"Shit, Kian! Your flight!" I quickly unlocked the doors
"crapcrapcrapcrap!" Kian hurriedly got out the car, grabbing his luggage once I opened the trunk.
I quickly close it and ignored the guy who told me I couldn't park there. We basically ran into the airport and stopped so Kian could check in his flight.
I stood there and waited for him to get done. He smiled at the lady at the desk and mouthed a 'thank you' before walking back over to me.
He was walking towards me and I playfully pout "my teddy bear is leaving me."
He smirked and dropped his bags out his hands "shut up"
I was going to reply back until he cupped my face in his hands and pulled me in for, yet another, passionate kiss.
I smiled before kissing back with the same affection. Our lips move together slowly, not wanting to rush things - even though his flight was next to be called.
I had forgotten we were still in an public airport until I pulled away and rested my forehead against his.
"I'm gonna miss you." He kisses the top of my forehead before wrapping me in a hug
"I already miss you." I laughed playfully but I was pretty serious. I am gonna miss him.
"Thanks so much for being here for me, Kian. I appreciate you so much you don't understand." I say truthfully
He held me tighter in response and we just stood there for another 2 minutes until his flight was called over the intercom.
"Fuck, there's never enough time." He sighed and pulls away
"You better text me when you land. Dead ass, Kian." I tell him sternly
He tolled his eyes playfully "okay mom."
"I l-" I stopped to correct myself "I'll see you back in Cali."
He looked at me before smiling "don't be too long. I don't think I can go any day without bothering you."
I laughed "or a day without being a pervert."
"Thought I was a pedophile?" He raised his eyebrow
"You keep mentioning it, so I'm starting to think you're one." I teased
His face fell in panic "I swear I'm not-"
The second call for his flight was spoken over the intercom and I slightly pushed him.
"Go before you miss your flight! You still have luggage and shit!" I tell him
He lightly caught my arm that pushed him and tugged me towards him, just so he could kiss me again.
I stopped myself and blushed "Kian go!"
"Okokokokok!" He held his hands up in surrender
"I'll see you soon?" He grins as he picked up his bags
"Yea." I nod
"Text me." He says
"Text me." I say
"Alright. Cya." He laughed and quickly rushed off
I watched as he turned around and waved goodbye. I wave back and stood like that until he disappeared into the crowds of people.
My lips still held a wide grin on my face until I walked out into the cold air and got into my car. I started up the car and blasted the heat so it could warm up. My thoughts were still stuck on Kian and the entire week with him.
I'm falling so deep and I don't even know it.
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Idk about this chapter 🙄🤔 But we're ALMOST at the end of the book and getting closer to the dramatic parts, so it's all gucci til' then, xx. 😘❤️