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I know I loved you then
Chapter 16
The euphony sway of music did somehow brought Seulgi back to the track. By all odds, she steered clear away from Jaehwan holding back her tears.
In an eye blink before detouring her way back to the crowd, the image of Seokjin welcome her sight, surprising her. She recognized the cause of worry in his eyes attempting to make a spark of fret.
He wanted to speak out, seeking for an answer why she's down and crying. But he ended up marking a clouded appearance. Seokjin never wanted to call distance between them.
Not this time. But in a devoid of utterance, he was feeling an urge to enlighten the mystery on her look. He is dreadfully coveting for an answer, coveting for her calmness.
Closing the gap between them, Seulgi too, want someone who can understand her situation. So she engaged an act that put him beyond confusion. Seulgi put her arms around him tightly, filling the void in her.
Seokjin, was for sure didn't complain in a slightest degree. He was left stiff to react. Now she learned, the feeling of being rejected. It caused ache. Nothing but a hole inside the heart. Seulgi, in the end, felt what was like to be refused.
She's never felt prior castaway, but Seulgi admitted she's no far from weak. Seokjin had tried to pick her up, reaching for her hand but declined it. He was one step closer but Seulgi disregard it. Remorse was slowly eating her.
All this time, she haven't realize that it just all started from an infatuation and she could not bear the fact it holds merely less than a love. It was just a plain admiration.
She wasn't truly inlove with Jaehwan, he isn't either. So she guess it is the point at which her admiration towards him will no longer exist. But instead, she will let it fall into an endless drop.
"You cannot force someone to love you so you better back off and move on." Those words keep coming inside her mind replaying over and over again reminding her the thorn-like words that Jaehwan said to her.
His choice of words weren't careful either. It pricked her painfully.
"I am so sorry, Seokjin." Those five words certainly made Jin in a strangled of bafflement. That caused his cluttered mind to leap out in grateful and disquiet at the same time.
Oh how he wanted to hear again her sweet and agreeable voice. "What are you talking about? There's nothing that you could say sorry for."
Looking down to her, Seokjin saw that Seulgi tighten her embraced on him, more tears began to flow out from her eyes.
"I'm really really sorry for everything. I turned you down and choose to avoid. I know its hard for you that why's I'm sorry. I hurted you, I didn't mean it."
Inwardly laughing at her response, Seokjin didn't know Seulgi can act this way. The way that is more far than the usual Seulgi that he knows. That's what makes him to suddenly keep her from distress.
Now, after observing her current state, the butterflies that should be over long before constantly brought back in existence. He realized his feelings for her will keep on haunting him, dragging him back to Seulgi.
Jin is always zealous when it comes to her.
"You are always be forgiven to me. Even if you didn't start any fuss or something that will make you say sorry. I understand."
Seulgi leisurely brought an eye contact with him, the liveliness in his eyes filled her total yearning. He moved to cupped her face, completely brushing off her tears. "Why are you crying anyway?"
She chuckled, recalling the reason why she brought tears upon herself. Fully spitting out the reason that comes honest, she said. "I-I confess to Jaehwan and I guess he don't feel the same. He will never be."
Amused at how blunt the way she is spoke, Seokjin understood why she's acting this way. And however, Jin managed to spill a smatter of probity.
"I'm sorry about Jaehwan. He's a douchebag." He said. "Maybe he already fall to someone. Perhaps you're best friend, Wendy. They're inseperable."
Taking it all in, finally a sign of a smile displayed to her lovely face. Next second, she released a faint chuckle and blunted a thought that currently crossed her mind. "Well if that's the case, then. I bet they feel the same interest."
But before they could proceed entirely into another topic, Seokjin suddenly held her hand.
He won't let the world to take her away from him for another time. "So seulgi before anything else." Desirious and avid, Seokjin asked. "Would you let me court you again?"
[16]
Amidst their exchange of sentiments babbling whatever their thoughts come upon with, Wendy remains to be spacing out. Lingering in the world she created to herself to think.
Lucky enough, it wasn't so obvious.
Few moments passed and their causeries pretty much turn into idle. Wendy on the other hand never hoped to disturb the needless bustle about how she ended hopping into his reckless notion.
For one thing, Wendy didn't stop reminding Jaehwan to bought her new clothes as she keep on fussing about changing her dress.
She doesn't want to go home to get her own clothes because her sister will surely be there. Gwen will know and might tell to their parents. No! And Jaehwan did not even complain nor spoke a single carp.
"Buy me simple jeans and t-shirt, please. Just comfortable ones." She ordered.
He went to the mall while Wendy stays at his car still dressed on a long gown. Bought her costly clothes, hands her the paper bags, leaving her dead shocked. "Your kidding me? These are high-end!"
"Thank me later." He winked.
Is this normal?
Disregarding the thought, Wendy pushed him out of his car to get changed. Atleast, the windows are tinted.
After they drove away for the main route, her eyes cut a glanced on Jaehwan from the shotgun seat. She was judging him in addle as he steered his car warily into a dark parking space.
Jaehwan gaze at Wendy, sensing her unreadable expression. "What?"
"We stopped."
"Yeah, I know we stopped." He said. "What's the problem with that?"
Wendy was thrown into the world of confusion. This time, she complained. "Seriously, what are we going to do here? It's so dark."
Jaehwan made a gentle supressed mirth. He showed his eyesmile in motion through looking at her puzzled look. "To make out."
"W-What?"
"Just chill your tits. Of course we're not doing that. Just follow." He said.
Jumping out of the car, Wendy followed him as he started strolling down the sidewalk. Upon sauntering in the gray moisted brick underneath them, he cut a glance to Wendy.
For a moment, Jaehwan thought he saw a glimmer of excitement flickering behind her eyes. But as he look deeper into it, he knows Wendy didn't get the concealed fun he has in mind.
And he wasn't planning about spoiling the fun either, instead he will let Wendy discover it by herself.
"Oh, please don't give me that look." Wendy grunted, judging the mischievous staring he is giving. "Where are we going, huh?"
"You'll see it when we got there." The thrill tone he uttered sync perfectly with the calmness of his voice.
Apparently, Wendy suddenly felt like she's been strike in galvanize. Never suppressing the quickness of her heartbeat.
"Jaehwan, I'm serious alright. You're scaring me. I don't even know why are we doing this. Typically, you don't want me to be with you. Heck, I even forgot how I agreed to go with you."
There. she said it all. Gladly for her, Wendy didn't utter the inappropriate words or the less amusing sentences.
No. Nope. Bad idea.
"I just thought that, you help me alot in our useless deal. It was pretty crazy I know, but I decided to bestow you a night with no more bickering as my thanks." He winked. A wink that practically took her breath away.
"A night with no more bickering?" Wendy wanted to make clear of his current statement.
"Yes, and also to primly show you what a rebellious living is." Firmly, he said. She almost stumbled on the uneven pavement as she realized they are still abiding their walking.
"Rebellious? My mom would kill me for that."
Whereupon Wendy wanted to react more, Jaehwan instantly shifted her direction to her right. He took her shoulder and make her to look to where his eyes directed.
"We have arrived!"
Lost in a studious attention, she was just staring. Unblinking and impassive. She hadn't moved an inch, but a slight poke on her cheek had somehow snapped her out from her deep trance.
"What? Never been here before?" He asked, releasing a typical smirk of him.
"I can't believe you." she said. "You brought me here? Of all places why a bar? This is illegal-" Jaehwan hurriedly covered her mouth as Wendy keep on complaining for more.
"No more fussing. This is what you need, a little rebellion. Enjoy your teenage life while it lasts." His jaw slackened back, yanking her to make a course into his usual place. "Now, let's go. I'm a VIP, here."
"Wait! Wait! Wait! Please." She pleaded, remaining her position unchanged. "I don't want go there, Jaehwan. Please, there's a lot of people."
But frankly, her mother would disown her if she knew this occurrence.
"Can we just go somewhere else besides here. I'm not used to go out in a very crowded place. With lots of drunk people and probably with party drugs."
"Just try it for once, trust me." Crawling his hand to reach for her's, Wendy gradually felt secured in his assurance as if he will never let go of his definite words. "Stop worrying."
Butterflies in her stomach once again flew around as if they are telling her to come with him. Stupid, stop!
"You are no fun. This is a treat of mine." Attempting to lift her up, Wendy immediately stopped Jaehwan before he could fully take a grasp of her in a higher position.
"Alright! Alright, I'll come. But!" She warned him. "Don't let any trouble come near me."
"Yes, ma'am!" He mocked.
Once again smiling, he throw his head back at the sight of her naiveness. Laughing as he sensed her annoyed appearance.
"Okay, just don't mind me if get drunk. We've got a lot more places to go." Jaehwan reminded.