"Ten minutes everyone! Ten minutes till 2017!" My mom was thrilled for the new year. She had just gotten a raise at her work for the New Years and she was more than excited to celebrate what else the upcoming year had to hold.
We all gathered around the TV, watching as the celebrities and News Anchors were talking about the New Years and what was to come.
James grinned down at me and kissed me chastely on the lips. "I get to kiss you for the New Years," he slurred, his eyes glazed over and a bit red.
I frowned and scrunched up my nose in disgust. "James have you been drinking?" I asked.
"Not just drinking little lady," he purred into my ear. It sent shivers down my spine, but not very good ones.
"Hey stop, babe," I smiled softly and pushed him away a bit. "I love you but this is a bit much. Never thought you would be into this kind of stuff."
He frowned and gave me a funny look. "Into this kind of stuff? C'mon Lil, a little bit of drugs never killed anyone."
I frowned and rolled my eyes. "Actually they have. Plenty of times."
He groaned and kissing my jaw, pulling me flush against his body. "C'mon baby... lets dance.." he kissed down my neck and I finally pushed him off completely.
"Go away James. Don't talk to me when you're like this."
I huffed and went to go grab something to drink. How the hell did he even get drugs?! This was a family thing. Both of our families were here and he was on God knows what kind of drug, probably drunk too.
"Hey, Lilly! It's about to happen!" One of my cousin's pulled me to the TV and handed me a cup of 12 grapes and champagne.
"Okay you guys! Remember the rules; for the last twelve seconds of 2016, eat a grape! For each grape you eat, it's a month of good luck in the New Years." My mom smile and once she explained what was going on, she sat back down between her sisters.
None of my relatives looked at me the same way since I've gone to the asylum. My cousin's were nicer, my aunts and uncles gave me a kind smile but didn't say anything more.
I was better now, but at the same time I can tell they still think I'm damaged.
I'm not.
I'm fine.
"One minute!" My mom held her glass tightly and I quickly downed my champagne. I sighed softly and smiled a bit before counting down the seconds.
James reappeared in the room and moved next to me. The tips of his hair was abbot wet and it looked like he had splashed water on his face.
"You okay?" I asked.
James nodded a bit. "Yeah... I'm sorry babe. I'm trying not to do anything dumb."
I smiled a little and nodded. "Okay you guys!" My mom announced. "Here we go!"
The last twelve seconds were coming up and everyone got their grapes ready. When the last twelve seconds came, everyone started to eat their grapes. Several people laughed and a few choked a bit on the grapes but nothing hat would need medical attention.
Like every year, I only got a good five or six grapes. Well looks like the New Year will be slightly decent.
When the clock struck midnight, everyone cheered and hugged one another. James pulled me into a hug and kissed me softly on the lips. It would have been a romantic gesture had his breath not wreaked of alcohol.
"Happy New Years Lil," he spurred softly with a loose grin and droopy eyes.
I sighed but smiled regardless. "Happy New Years love," I kissed his cheek and patted his shoulder before finishing the rest of my grapes. For the next few minutes I hugged and kissed several relatives ( on the cheeks, don't worry ) and watched as they all poured themselves another glass of champagne.
I don't get New Years. It doesn't feel like it. It feels like a holiday we celebrate while we just continue on day after day after day.
Days make more sense to me in all honestly. Those night and day, times where we can make sense of things. While a year is just a bunch of days complied into months, which them repeat over and over and over again until the cycle is interrupted.
It feels like any other day. Frankly it doesn't even feel like January. It feels like December is still dragging on.
Well, in all honesty our Christmas tree that's still up doesn't exactly help the whole "moving on process."
In fact, this entire two week break from school felt more like time to relax verses holidays and time for your family. It's just a relaxation week away from school and I'm SO not dreading going back to school in the next few days.
I poured myself some more champagne and after dosing that glass, I made myself another one.
Someway through the night a few other types of drinks mixed its way in and soon my breath smelled just as bad as James's breath.
I sighed and plopped down into the couch in a hot, smelly mess. My tummy churned and my head started to pound but I just wanted more of whatever my last drink was.
I saw a blur of people walk by before the couch dipped next to me and an arm was wrapped around my shoulders. "No no no no no, I have a boyfriend," I mumbled into their shoulder.
I tried to push them away but it felt like my hands were jelly and they just melted against their chest.
This person smelled awful too.
I scorched away and scrunched my nose up in disgust. "Go away you stinky hoe.." I mumbled.
The person laughed and pulled me closer. I felt myself gag a little bit and I had to put my hand over my mouth to keep from puking.
"Now is that any way to talk to your boyfriend?" They said.
Boyfriend? What?
I squinted my eyes at them and when my vision focused, I saw that it was indeed James.
"Ohhhh hey man!" I said and smiled all loopy. "C'mon lets go party!"
I couldn't tell if he was sobered up yet but that wasn't gonna stop me from dancing the night away.
I pulled him up off his feet and grinded up against him. "Yesss baby lets do this!" I hollered.
I felt his hands on my hips but he didn't exactly grind back.
"Are your hips broken boy?" I asked. "Don't you know how to rub back and all that jazz?"
"Oh my hips work, you're just causing a scene Lilly." He said and turned me around to face him.
"What?" I asked, completely bewildered. "I'm not making any scene! You know who's making a scene? You are for not dancing with me!"
I pouted and crossed my arms childishly. My eyes starting to sting and I realized they were watering. Fuck! All my beautiful makeup is going down the drain now because of my stupid tears!
"Lilly I have to go soon anyways. It's nearly 1 am now," is it really? "My mom and dad are getting tired." He paused and scratched his jaw before looking at me with a sigh. "Want me to take you to bed?"
I frowned and nodded. I reached up for him and I guess he thought he was gonna walk with me. I on the other hand thought he was gonna carry me. So when I kinda fell into his body and he didn't lift me up like the princess I am, it was a bit awkward.
"You're so heavy, lay off the Taco Bell would ya?" He said, huffing as he picked up all my weighted and hauled up the stairs.
"Yeeeee hawwww! Go on cowboy! I'm riding you go go go!" He snorted a little bit in laughter and shook his head.
"You're in my arms Lilly. You're not riding me."
"Not yet hot stuff," I winked at him and he rolled his eyes. Playfully, I'm sure.
He laid me down in bed and tossed me a big t-shirt. "Put this on and get out of that outfit. You don't wanna sleep in that."
He left to go to my bathroom and I sluggishly changed into the t-shirt. I never slept in shorts and James knew this well enough as to not be bothered by it. He came back with my makeup wipes and sat beside me on my bed. Well, he sat next to me while I laid down and stared at the ceiling.
"Stay still okay?" He took out a wipe and began to wipe away all the makeup, being gentle yet firm to really get it off without making my skin all red and itchy.
"I'm gonna hafta go now Lilly." He said and frowned softly at me.
"Nooooo Jamesy please don't go.." I held onto him and buried my face into his side. "I'm gonna miss you..."
He chuckled and ran his fingers through my hair momentarily before gently prying me off. "I'm sorry Lil, I'll come round tomorrow morning okay?"
I frowned and nodded, giving into him. He smiled and kissed my forehead before leaving my room and closing the door.
I sighed and laid back on my bed with a soft frown. I miss cuddling. I miss having someone here who's always gonna be here when I can't sleep.
It was nice to be with someone who was always here, but at the same time I missed the adventures I had with someone else.
I glanced at my window and looked at the clock. 12:42 am.
It's too late. He wouldn't come round at this hour. I've missed him.
I miss him. A lot.
But it's been nearly half a year since I've seen Thomas, and I don't think he's coming back.
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Happy New Years you guys! This is it. One more chapter and this story is done!
You guys are gonna hate me hahhahaha
Also read the author's note I posted and please comment on there!!!
Hope you all had a wonderful and safe holidays!!!
All the love,
Mercay