Tuesday ( 03/06/14 )
Harry Pov
I woke up around 7 , because needed to get ready for collage . It's quite weird when Louis didn't wake me up today but then I realised Louis himself didn't wake up yet. I sigh and get up to get my towel and straight to the bathroom to take shower .
~ 35 minutes later ~
I was fully dressed when I get out from the bathroom. I go to Louis side and shook him to make him awake . " lou , wake up ! '' I said gently . He open his eyes , " oh sorry . What's time is it ? " he said slowly .
" It's 7 : 40 , I wake you up cause well you never wake up late and I'm kinda worry . You okay ? " I said while looking at him . He rubbed his head and said " yea I'm okay , just tired . " he forced a small smile .
I just nods and takes his hand " if you aren't feeling well , tell me alright ? I want to take care of my boo. I really love you . Now , you should sleep , you look tired . Okay . I'm going now , take care and call me if you need me ! I love you " I kiss his forehead and he nods and smiled . " take care too . I love you hazza. " he said back and I smiled .
I stood up and wave at Louis. He wave me me back and with that I get out of the room . I go to the kitchen and make something for Louis . My class started at 9 : 20 today , I just remembered that .
So I still have time to make something for breakfast. I open the cabinet and saw a noodle , so I decided to make a fried noodles. Then I took out other ingredients in the refrigerator. Then I started to cook .
~ 8:40 a.m ~
Well done harry . I said to myself proudly . I took my container on the cabinet to bring this fried noodle to collage. I will just eat there if I had a time . Usually I have . I put as much as I want and probably niall can also eat with me which is he always did .
I didn't put any of seafood in the noodle such a shrimp and a cuttlefish which is I usually does but as soon as I know Louis allergic to it , I stopped buying any seafood when we do the groceries.
Now , everything is done. Let's go to hell. I means collage .
Louis Pov
What's time is it ? I asked myself . I look at the digital clock and it's showed 11 : 20 . I sigh . Feeling wanted to sleep again. I'm soo freaking tired . My illness start to make me freaking weak .
I should go to hospital today for my legs . My walking has improved and it's like I walking like normal people . So , I want to meet the doctor and tell him , I should stop seeing them for therapy .
I got up from my bed and start to tidy the bed. My mom doesn't like it if the duvet aren't properly in the bottom of bed. Even she's gone now , this things have become my routine everyday to tidy up the bed when I wake up .
Once it's done , I take my towel and goes to the cabinet and took out cloth that I want to wear . Black shirt and black jeans . Then I go to the bathroom to take a nice shower.
~ 30 minutes later ~
When I'm done showering , I go to the kitchen but stopped when Larry rub his cheeks on my legs . I pick him up and said " who is hungry ? Hah . You right ! It's you ! '' Larry start to meowing and I hold him on my arms .
I go to the refrigerator and took a milk and pour it on Larrys bowl . Then I let him down and he start to lick his milk . I smiled at how greedily he looks when he lick those milk . I took out the cats food and pour it on the other bowl .
Larry seem don't know what to eat first like he stopped lick his milk and watch two of the full bowl . But then he decided to eat the cat foods . I go to dining table and saw a fried noodles on the container. Looks like harry cooks this .
I took my plate and fork and start to dig in and eats . Delicious. He is such a great cooker . I eat and eat till I'm full . I close the container and wash my dish .
When everything is done, I start to call taxi to pick me up to go to hospital. I took my wallet and my phone and waited outside. I have licence but since the accident, I'm afraid to drive . I heard a hon and I look up and saw a taxi coming over. I lock the door and get in the car .
Harry Pov
" are you alone curly ? " I sigh when I saw George in front me. " I really don't want to deal with anyone right now , so fuck off ! " I said and shoved him to the right and start to walking to library.
It's 12 and I really want to go home . We aren't study that much so let's just skip another class . I go to my car and start to drive and gave the security guard lies again and again he believe me .
I drive home but saw Louis in the taxi . Where did he go ? So I stopped my car in front of the house and called Louis .
Harry : lou ! Where are you now ?
Louis : home .
Harry : liar . I saw you in the taxi when I drive home .
Louis : why you back home quickly ? you have class right ?
Harry : I got bored and wanted to go home and see you but you're not here . So where are you going ?
Louis : haih, to the hospital for my -
Harry : oh my godd! Are you okay ?
Louis : *chuckle* I'm fine hazza , just want to meet the doctor to stop my therapy for my legs. I think I walk perfectly fine !
Harry : I'm glad you're okay . Be back soon tho . Do you need a ride to home when you're done ? I can pick you up !
Louis : that would be great then. I just arrive at the hospital. I will let you know when I'm done ! Bye hazza , love you !
Harry : love you too . Take care
I end the call and drive to the hospital even tho Louis didn't say what time I should pick him up .
Louis Pov
I wait at the waiting room till my name was called . " Louis tomlinson ! Come in to room 26 please ! " I heard my name called and I got up and search room number 26 .
Once I get there , I met Dr.James. my usual doctor . " hi Louis ! How are you ? " he said while he gesture me to sit .
" hi . I'm fine . " I said with a small smile . " so why you here ?" He asked while looking directly at me . " well , I can walk perfectly fine I guess . So I'm here to stop the therapy. Besides I'm going to died anyway so why bother to fix my legs . " I said coldly . The doctor know about my illness .
" don't be like that Louis . Miracles might happens in your life , who knows . so don't give up ! " he exclaimed. I chuckle . " alright. That's all I'm here for . Do I sign anything for stopping the therapy? I already did the payment so .. " I said getting up from my seat .
" nope . You can go now . Fighting Louis ! I know you can beat the illness ! " he said while walking to me and hugs me . This doctor weird . When he let go of me , I give him a small smile and said thank you while I start to walking to get out from the room .
When I was in the hallway, I heard someone calling my name behind my back . " Mr. Tomlinson ? " I sigh knowing who he was . I turn around and said politely " yes Dr. Chris ? " he was the one who said I have one year to live.
" mind to follow my room ? I want to see your progress . " he said seriously . I'm about to decline but choose the otherwise cause I wanted to know my progress too. How long will I be able to enjoy this life ! Note the sarcasm.
" sure ! " I said and he start to walk , expecting me to follow him . This is going to be a long dayy .
When we arrived at his room , I sat down on the chair and he start to talk " how are you? " he said while looking for my file , I supposed .
" I'm perfectly fine, thank you " I said simply . " don't lie . Louis , I know this illness makes you weak , so tell me about it , how are you ? " he asked seriously. " of course it's make me weak . You do know that right ? It's make me dizzy all the time , makes me vomit every time . My boy- mates even thought I was anorexia ! He said I've gotten thin and thin . But I'm doing just fine ! " I said tiredly.
" okay . I need to see your cancer progress so follow me " he said as he stood up from his seat to go to another room and I hesitate at first but my feet betrayed me cause it's start to walk unwillingly.
~30 minutes later~
The doctor told me to wait outside and I'm actually quite nervous about my illness. Am I doing a right decision? I'm sure I do . I've been research about it .
But they mostly have 6 month left to live their life meanwhile I have less than 1 year which is I don't know how longer I can survive .
I tried to not believe when I will died by doctor words because it's not them to take my life away. I sigh and playing with my finger . But suddenly, I got a call . It's harry .
Louis : hello
Harry : lou, are you already back home ? Cause I'm waiting outside the hospital for almost one hour now ! Where are you?
Louis : I uh met my old friends and we kinda hangout at the Starbucks. Sorry for making you wait. I told y-
Harry : friends? Since when did you have friends?
Louis : ouch that's hurt hazza!
" Mr . Tomlinson ? " I heard my name called by the doctor . I held up my hands to ask to wait .
Harry : who's that ?
Louis : uh the cashier , yea. I need to go hazza , love you !
I said quickly cause don't want to harry know that I'm still in the hospital. I stand up and headed to the room . The doctor look serious when I sat in front him .
" I've got a bad news Louis. The cancer has spread to the other part and I'm afraid , you will have 6 months left if you don't do surgery as soon as possible! " he said with sympathy.
" oh " that's all I can say at this moment . My eyes are wide and I'm sure my body is shaking right now. " you okay ? " he asked and I give him shakily smirk .
" I'm wonderful when I heard those ! " I said sarcastically. " and I don't want to do the surgery. That way I will die faster ! " I snap .
" no Louis. You're wrong . It will slow the - " he tried to explain but I just got up and said " it's okay , I'm going to die anyway so why try ? Huh and I'm here for my legs not this ! " with that I stormed out of the room.
Harry Pov
Louis sound weird like he's lying. I will ask him later about it . For now , I start to drive home with a uncomfortable feeling. Haih harry , he is fine . He is perfectly fine .
~ 20 minutes later ~
I arrived home and I unlocked the door . When I get in the house , I smell something that makes me closed my nostrils. I walk slowly to the kitchen and spotted a brownish colored poop . Damn Larry , not again .
I bet that Louis forgot to throw Larry out of the house when no one's at home. Now look what happen ?!! I sigh and cleaned the mess that Larry did . Taking care of cat is annoying!
Once it done , I sprayed the perfume around the house . So that the smell of the perfume still stuck in the air . I'm satisfied with the smell of it .
I got bored so I decided to plug in the cctv. I have like five . I decided one in the bedroom , one in the kitchen , one in the living room , one in the backyard and last one I will put it in front the door . I'm excited to do this documentary! !
Louis Pov.
I'm too upset about my sickness that makes me walk to the park by myself alone. 6 months isn't that long . I won't be able to celebrate my first Christmas with harry , my birthday with harry and everything. I will died in December which is I don't know what's date would it be .
I cried and sit on the bench. I know I'm not supposed to believe that I'm going to died in December but thats illness makes me believe it . There is no cure for it . I cried silently with my hands on my face .
Suddenly something hit my feet , I look up and saw a boy that around 7 years old. " I'm sorry . " that boy said quickly as he took his ball on my feet then run to his mom .
Then that's hit me. I won't be able to marry harry and built a family with him . I'm going to diee without having those moments !!
Harry Pov
I'm on my laptop , setting the last cctv programs. Once it done , I look at all my cctv in my laptop, the spot that I put makes it look better . Suddenly I heard someone opening the door .
I got up and ran toward the person , knowing it was Louis . " Louis !! " I said excitedly . He looks down and said hi quietly. I hold his hand and pull him to the living room.
When we both sat down on the sofa , I took his hand and play with his finger . Waiting for him to break the silent . " hazza " he said , I look at his eyes which is red and puffy. His blue eyes turns into grey coloured . I wipe away his tear with my thumbs and kiss his forehead .
" what's wrong ? " I asked slowly , he whimpers and cried harder . " we .. we need to break up .. I'm sorry " he said slowly and looks down while pulling his hands off me . That's make me breaks into pieces.
" why ? " I asked him , hurts clears in my tone . " I . I cheated on you . I kissed Stan , my crush . I love him ! " he said without looking at me . " you're lying to me right ? " I asked painfully while my eyes start to blurry because of the tears .
"No , I don't . I'm sorry " he said simply . How can he be so fucking calm ? " then why did ... why did you cried when you told me this ? " I said trying to find any clue that he lies . He wipes his tear and looks at me " because I never loves you and this past few months I lied that I'm happy around you . I never was . I was acting " he snap .
" wow . Oh . Okay then . That's what you want then , I'm leaving " I said slowly and got up. I took my car keys and get out of the house with tears in my eyes . I wiped them off angrily and get in the car and drive as fast as I can to Niall and Liam apartment .
Louis Pov
I'm sorry hazza . I have to makes you hate me so that it won't hurt both of us . Once I'm gone , you are already moved on with your life and forget about me .
Hey .. Rest in Peace Jay ;,) Stay strong everyone (in my country it was around 11 pm , 9 Dec 16) .