" Its getting bad again. And I dont know
what to do. Or where to go. Or who to tell.
Because no one really cares right?"
I roll my eyes at Chase and kiss his lips quickly before letting him drag me into the huge house. Its been a week since my slip up and things have been going calmly thankfully. I look up and stare at the house, you could hear the music a block down the street and when you first pull in you'll see foam come form one of the top bedroom windows while drunk teens scattered the lawn.
I honestly never understood how I found myself in these situations. I rip my gaze away from the ground and up to Chase. He smiles and kisses me before pulling away, "I'll get us drinks," He says.
I snort and kiss his cheek, "Not too much Mister," I whisper. He laughs lightly in my ear, causing a shiver to run down my spine.
My gaze drifts around the room and caught on a head of blue hair, my eyes widen slightly and I feel a grin take over my face as I approached the girl.
"Hey Blue," I say softly.
The girl turned around fast and her brown almost black eyes lit up and she squealed, "Baby!" She pulled me into a bine crushing hug which I returned.
She was that one person you needed in your life, she was my bestfriend, "So how've you been?" I ask and watch as she chugs her glass before grabbing two more and handing one to me.
I sip it and stare at her, "Just moved back in with my grandparents actually, and Silas still hates me," She says with a small giggle.
I snort, her and my brother were like cats and dogs. They cant stand each other, I was never able to get the reason.
An arm slings around my shoulders and I chug my drink before locking eyes with Chase, while grinning sheepishly.
"Who's this?" He asks, handing me a drink and frowning at the blue headed girl.
I smile, "Chase, this is Graylen. Graylen, this is Chase," I state and she shot me a knowing look.
Chase ended up disappearing and I ended up in the kitchen doing shots with Graylen, The music was loud and my blood was pumping. It felt like all the weight in the world was taken off my shoulders. I could breathe.
She was bouncing up and down when Asher walked in and grinned, "Ashy baby!" She screamed before jumping up and hugging him.
He chuckles and holds her up, Graylen also knew Veronica very well which is why she and my brother Asher had a wonderful relationship. Us three, me, Graylen and Veronica; we were like a trio.
"Nice to see you Spen," He says, using his own nickname for her. I smile at them two before making eye contact with Silas who snuck around behind everyone.
When he was looking at Graylen he almost looked pained and when he looked at me his eyes went cloudy.
I push through people and pull at Silas' sleeve, feeling like a small child, "What's-" He cut me off by shaking his head and laughing under his breath.
"It sucks when your hurt, that you have to be high or drunk, or on drugs, so you can get on a higher level then the rest of the world just to smile." He snaps before leaving me there dumbfounded.
I grab a cup out of the hand of a random guy who walked by and began chugging the bitter liquid, "You probably didn't want to do that," He stated.
I ignored him and stumbled up the stairs, I grin and feel my head spin, I think the drink might've been laced.
Giggling to myself I push open a door and stumble in on two people, I squint my eyes and feel my heart drop in my chest while my blood went cold, "Chase?" I ask softly.
My voice sounded so small, he literally jumped in the air and looked over at me, "Its not what it looks like baby!" He shouts.
I felt completely numb, his voice was just a whisper to my ears as I close him out, "We're done Chase, I hate you." I snapped and the door slammed shut between us.
My shoulders slumped and even though I was extremely hurt, those pills were kicking in and the hallway was spinning. I hear a shout and push open a door, my eyes widening at the scene.
The room was completely filled with foam and there was even a small blow up pull. The music was blaring and I grin. I strip out of my jeans and boots, leaving me in just my white t -shirt that hit mid thigh.
I grab another drink and start chugging, my shirt was glowing since it was pitch black and only neon lights. I spun around and stumble into someone.
Looking up I see his eyes and smile, "Hello," I say and his eyes flickered down to my lips. It felt extremely hot and with his hand still on me, it felt hard to breathe.
"Iliana," He whispers and I couldn't take it anymore, I pressed my lips against his and felt his fingers tighten on my hips.
He growled against my lips and pushed me against the wall while kissing me aggressively. My body felt like it was on fire and for just the slightest moment, the lights flickered above us and the music stopped.
I kiss him back before pulling away for air, he left airy kisses along my neck and I dug my nails into his shoulders, "Ben," I mumble out, trying to calm my racing heart.
He placed his lips back on mine and somehow we ended up tripping and falling into the small pool. I giggle out and wrap my legs around his waist, while running my hands up his bare chest and wrapping them around his shoulders.
Ben kissed my lips before standing up, he placed his hands on my bare thighs to keep me from falling down or off him. He walks downstairs with ease and ends up bumping into another guy carrying a girl.
I frown, "Silas?" I question.
His head shot up and he looked at me than up to Ben, "Benjamin," Silas snapped and I felt my heart skip in my chest.
Ben snorts and nods his head, he looks down at the blue headed girl Silas was carrying and scowled, "Graylen," Ben stated with distaste.
Graylen's eyes pop open and she looks at me, "Baby!" She exclaims. She looks up at my brother and frowns before looking back over at me.
"Where's Chase?" She asked and I tensed up.
Ben rubbed circles on my legs with his thumbs and I breathed in deeply, "We'll talk tomorrow," I mumble.
We all walk out and towards the cars, Ben and Silas do that weird bro head nod thing before getting into their cars. Ben placed me in the passenger seat and grabs a blanket from the back seat so he could wrap it around me.
I grin at him and watch as he speeds out of there, my head was spinning and I didn't feel like any of this was real, it was all a dream. The drive was fast and short and before I knew it he was pulling up in front of my house. My parents had gone away and its looks like Asher was still at the party and Silas still was dropping Graylen off.
Ben helps me out and holds me while unlocking the front door with my house key. He pushes open the door and kicks it shut behind him. When we got upstairs to my room he dropped me on my bed and walked towards the window.
I stumble over to him and look up at the sky and swore I seen a shooting star pass by, "Shooting star," I whisper and Ben looks over at me and smiles softly.
"My mother would tell me that shooting stars are really just angels throwing away their cigarettes before God could catch them smoking," The whole time I couldn't help but stare.
He sighs out and glances at me, "Its probably good you wont remember any of this," He states before leaning in softly, "You're so addicting," He adds on. His breath fanning across my lips.
My heart races and I lean into him, connecting our lips softly. But it became more rough, like we both needed it.
I couldn't stop the grin that took over my lips while kissing him, "Perhaps God will have mercy on us," I whisper against his lips.
He chuckles, and his eyes lit up, "Perhaps," He says softly before reconnecting our lips.
I grab his hand in mine and pull him towards my bed, "Will you stay until I fall asleep?" I asked and he looked at me and groaned.
He closes the space between us and kisses the edge of my lips, "Of course,: he says, slipping in next to me.
His arm wraps around my waist and he buries his head into the crook of my neck, "Your all the good I ever wanted," he whispered against my lips.
I smile and peck his pink lips, "And your all the bad I ever needed," I say, kissing him before falling onto my side.