(This book is finally reaching the ending chapters! Be ready for the feels cause I'm not even ready.)
Ari POV:
What is this...? He kissed me? He's still kissing me... Taemin is kissing me...after all this time he still feels this way. But now I knew for sure he was a lire. While he as kissing me, I was having all these thoughts. These crazy thoughts that I had no answers to. The questions of "How?" and "Why?". But I also got some clarification. He's more than someone who just walked into my life. He's more than a man. This is more than love with him. It's also clear to me now how Taemin was actually feeling. I know that he was actually dying inside. Every time I walked out the door he watched me; dying a little. He made it clear that seeing me with someone else hurt him. I don't wanna do this anymore... I don't wanna be the reason why... I don't wanna hurt him anymore... Now I see that trying to make him hate me was only leading him to more pain. I'm the reason why he's so hurt. So now I need to find out how to make this all right again. But right now I have no answer...
He released me finally from his lips and I looked him in the eyes and he was slightly crying. I guess I was too because something slid on my cheek and down my neck.
"Taemin-ah..."
I didn't know what else to say but his name. I looked at Namjoon and he looked extremely confused. As for Naeun, she picked up her bag and let without a word. I guess that was the end of them.
"Yah! Who said you could kiss my girlfriend!" Namjoon yelled at him while grabbing his collar but Taemin didn't resist as if he wanted to be hit by him.
"Namjoon don't hurt him!"
"Oh, so you're on his side? Do you love him back Ari??" he asked.
I looked back and forth between the two. What was I supposed to say? I was too confused at this moment, but I knew how I felt. I just couldn't say it. Instead of answering his question, I ran out the restaurant, and went home. I can't love him...I just can't.
I don't wanna be without him but I don't want a broken heart either. I don't wanna take a breath without him but he makes it harder to breath. I know that I love him but I don't wanna love him in any way. I don't want either of us hurt anymore. Its so hard trying to fall out of love with Taemin.
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Taemin POV:
After Ari left I left too not wanting to be left alone with her boyfriend. I decided to go back to the dorm and ask one of my hyungs for help. I knocked on the door and Minho had answered.
"Taemin... What are you doing here?" he asked me.
"I came to see one of the others. Something happened with Ari and I need to fix it." I said slipping past him.
"Wait." he grabbed my arm.
"Talk to me." he said sounding concerned for me.
"Why?"
"Cause I'm the reason why you two aren't together now." he confessed.
"Look, that night you saw me and Ari kiss, it as me who initiated it. She had no intention of kissing me at all. It's not her fault. You need to forgive her. I'm sorry."
I looked at him and froze. All this time...she was telling the truth. I guess my trust issues got in the way of believing her. I can't believe this...
"So you're telling me, that this whole time I was blaming mostly her for all this but it was all you?" I asked for clarification.
"Yeah... I'm so sorry Taemin."
I was so angry and relieved all at the same time.
"Please forgive me." he begged.
"...Thank you." I gave him a small smile.
"You helped me realize what I have to do to make this right."
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Ari:
My phone kept ringing and ringing. Of course I didn't answer. I can't hurt him anymore with what I might say to him.
"Even though I call you, you don't answer."
Taemin:
She wasn't answering me. I started to feel weak in the chest as I kept looking at the screen of my phone seeing it go to voice mail over five times.
"I always thought breakups weren't hard, but they are with you."
Ari:
Even though I wanted to answer I just couldn't. But I wanted to tell him that I loved him still...
"I want to have you again."
Taemin:
"I press your number, please answer."
"I'm getting impatient. I'm going to see you."
I grabbed my car keys, hopped in, and went to her house. The house we used to share together.
***
I sat on my kitchen counter and cried not knowing what to do about Taemin and all these missed calls. Oh shoot! I forgot about Namjoon! I should call him and apologize for what happened. I called him but he took a while to answer me.
"Yeoboseyo?"
"Namjoon ah...I'm really sorry about what happened earlier."
"So you two did have something going on before?" he asked.
"Yes but I didn't wanna tell you because I didn't want you to feel a certain way towards him. I just wanted everyone to be friendly you know?"
As I was explaining, I heard someone calling my name from outside. It sounded like...
"I get it. But you should've just told me the truth." Namjoon said through the phone.
"Uh yeah..." I was distracted by the sound of my name. I looked outside and Taemin was at the door.
"No!" I yelled.
"Ari? Are you okay??"
"Umm...yeah I'm okay." I lied.
"Ari let me in! I need to talk to you!" Taemin yelled at my door.
I closed the curtain and ran back into the kitchen.
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Taemin POV:
Dammit! Why won't she answer the door! I looked into the window the best I could but saw nothing. Wait... This used to be my house too! I still have the key in my car! I ran to my car and grabbed the key as quickly as I could.
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Ari POV:
"Namjoon, I do love you but I-"
My front door opened.
"Ari?" Namjoon asked through the phone.
I stayed quiet. Was Taemin in my house?? Dammit! I never did get the key from him! Next thing I knew he was in my kitchen, and we were face to face once again.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"Because I'm sorry. Minho explained everything to me today about what happened and I now know that it's not your fault. I'm sorry for not believing you when you told me you didn't mean for it to happen. And I'm sorry I left you when I promised you I'd stay right by your side." He said coming closer to me with every word.
"Ari? Who's with you??"
I had forgotten Namjoon was still on the phone.
"I'm sorry that I never thought about how you felt and I was too stubborn to listen to you. You make me everything I was meant to be. I know now that our love never really faded away and neither one of us got over each other because if we did, I wouldn't be standing here right now telling you that I love you and you wouldn't love me back."
My tears flowed endlessly at what Taemin had to say. I was so overwhelmed that all I could do was cry.
"Taemin ah... I'm sorry..."
He came closer to me and took the phone from my hand and pressed end.
"Don't be sorry."
He held my hand and I went completely weak in my arms.
"I still love you Ari. And I'm still gonna live up to the commitments I made to you. I'll stay with you, be with you, raise a family with you, and I'll love you more than anyone ever could."
Did he really mean all this?
"Now answer me this. Do you really love that guy?"
I stayed silent and looked away.
"...No."
"Tell me you love me."
I was finally able to look him in the eyes. I did love him. More than anything.
"I love you Lee Taemin."
He smiled at me. A real, genuine smile. A smile I've been missing and yearning to see. I smiled back and as if he's been holding it in, he kissed me with full passion. Starting off with small pecks one after another after another. Then it became deeper. He moved me to my room and he really showed me he loved me from then on to the rest of the night.