Chapter 21
Loving His Demons
Wyatt's POV
October 10th (21 weeks pregnant)
I walk into David's office at home and lean against the doorframe. "Babe?" I call softly. He looks up at me and signals me to continue. "Do you want to go out to eat tonight?" I ask softly.
"I can't I'm busy" He dismisses and I feel my eyes water "O-okay" I say and leave his office I walk back to the bedroom and sit on my bed and bring my knees to my chest and silently cry.
He forgot my birthday... or maybe he didn't forget and he's just punishing me for what I said about our daughter last week. I didn't mean it though! I really don't know why I said that and ever since then David won't look at me. He sleeps on the couch but whenever I have a nightmare about the assault he comes into my room and calms me down but then leaves when I fall back to sleep.
I know he said he still loves me... But I feel like he hates me now and that thought has me breaking into sobs.
"Daddy! Look Look what I got!" He says and I quickly wipe my tears away as he jumps on the bed and shows me his new stuffed animal.
"Daddy? Are you crying? What's wrong?" He asks and I shake my head. "I'm not crying. I'm okay baby why don't you go play with you new toy" I say and he frowns and puts his head and gets off the bed and walks out of the room.
Once he's gone I break into sobs again thinking about the possibility of David hating me. I jump when I feel myself being moved to David's lap which only makes me cry harder. I wrap my arms around his neck and sob into the crook of his neck
He rubs my back softly and let's me cry. "Y-you Hate me!" I cry and he sighs. "I don't hate you Wyatt" He says and I look up at him only to see him looking at the wall.
"Yes you do! You haven't called me babe or button in a week. You barely speak to me! You sleep on the couch! You can't even look at me!" I cry into my hands
David gently moves my hands away from my face and wipes the tears out of my eyes. He kisses my forehead and looks me into the eyes.
"I do not hate you Button" He says softly and kisses me.
He gives me a small smile when he pulls back. "Come on let's go take a shower" He says holding his hand out.
"Together?" I ask him and he nods his head and I wince making him raise a questioning brow.
"What?" He asks and I sigh as my self-loathing rises.
"You're going to be so mad at me" I mumble and he looks at me confused.
Sighing I take my long sleeved shirt off and he looks over my body until he spots my arm making his eyes widen at the angry marks and words on my arms.
He grabs my arm causing me to wince slightly as he reads over the words
'fuck up'
'hated'
'fat'
'pathetic'
'worthless'
"Jesus Christ Wyatt" He looks up at me with tears in his eyes.
"Babe why would you do this to yourself?" He asks softly.
I shake my head and try taking my arm back but he holds onto is tightly.
"I-I was hurting... I thought you hated me... I know that's no excuse but I was so overwhelmed.... I'm sorry" I say putting my head down in shame. David tilts my head up and kisses my forehead lightly and tugs me into his arms. I hug him back resting my head on his chest.
He lifts me up and I wrap my arms around his neck as he walks us into the bathroom. He sets me on the counter and turns the shower on. He starts removing his clothes and I remove mine. When the water is warm I get off the counter and we get into the shower.
I let the hot water run against my back and I caress my belly. David leans down and kisses my belly and then stands up and grabs my injured are.
"Fuck up" he reads out loud and looks into my eyes. "You're not a fuck up you made a mistake we all do" he says and I start getting angry. "If you feel that way why have you been treating me like shit for the past week!?" I yell and he smiles and kisses me. "You'll know tonight I promise." He says and goes back to my arm
"Hated" He reads and again looks me in the eye. "You're not hated I love you very very much" he says
"Fat" He says and looks at me. "You're not fat you're pregnant and carrying our child and you have never looked more sexy than you do while carrying my child."
"Pathetic" He reads and looks at me. "You're only pathetic if you allow yourself to pity yourself. But I do not believe you're pathetic" He says and reads the last word.
"Worthless" He whispers and rubs his chest lightly where the same word is scarred onto his skin.
"Button you're not worthless. You are worth so much to me. You have made me become a better less angry person. You are helping me overcome my demons of the past. You are an amazing father to Parker and Scarlette they need you, our unborn child needs you and so do I so you cannot possibly be worthless" He says and then kisses me.
He rubs his hands down my back until he reaches my hips I moan into his mouth giving him the opportunity to stick his tongue into my mouth and search every inch of my mouth with his hot tongue. I feel my self growing hard against him and he travels his hands from my hips to my ass and squeezes them and pulls me against him.
"Please" I whimper into his mouth and he smirks. "Please what?" He whispers huskily as he trails his hands from my ass to the light pubic hair that I have. I moan as I feel goosebumps rise over my body.
"Please David. Please make me feel good." I moan and he grabs my erection and starts pumping me slowly causing me to whine.
He begins sucking on my neck while keeping the slow pace he has. I groan "Faster please" I moan out and he increases his speed and runs his thumb over my slit causing me to cum all over his hand.
I reach out to touch his erection but he steps away from me. I put my head down in shame and feel my eyes start to tear up. I turn from him and reach for the body wash. I feel myself getting pulled back into David's chest and he nips my ear. "Don't over think things Button I'd love for you to touch me but if you did that I would bend you over and fuck you so hard you wouldn't be able to walk for a week and I have plans for tonight which requires me to leave the house." He whispers in my ears.
I turn in his arms and look at him sadness creeping inside me slowly. "You have plans tonight?" I ask sadly and he looks at me confused and I sigh. "Oh" I say and try to grab the body wash again but he pulls me back to him again. "Why do you looks so sad?" He asks and I shrug. "I miss you but you have plans tonight which is fine. I guess this is punishment for what I said." I say softly. David looks up at me with amused eyes and then smacks me lightly upside the head.
"Ow! Monkey! That hurt why'd you do that?" I whine and pout while rubbing the back of my head. He chuckles and kisses the back of my head.
"Button the plans that I have tonight are with you" He says.
"Really!?" I ask excitedly and he nods his head "Yep but if we don't finish this shower we're never going to make it."
We quickly finish showering and I walk into the closet. "Monkey!" I yell
"What!?" He yells back. "How should I dress!" I yell at him again. "Something nice but comfortable!" He yells back again and I nod before getting changed.
I grab my vans as he emerges from the bathroom while looking mouth watering.
"Like what you see?" He asks and I nod my head. "Hell yeah I do" I say and he pulls me up from my seat.
"You look beautiful button." He says and kisses my cheek causing me to blush all over. He chuckles and leads me out of the bedroom. We walk downstairs and Parker see's me and yells "DADDY!" as he jumps up and runs over to me and hugs my legs tightly. I reach down and pick him up setting him on my hip I feel tears hitting my neck making me frown.
"Park? What's wrong baby?" I ask him and he picks his head up. "I missed you daddy. You never came out of your room" He says and I frown. "I'm sorry buddy I was just sad" I say and see David wince out of the corner of my eyes.
"Is Papa still mad at you?" He asks me and everyone in the room freezes at the word. I look over at David and see him fighting the flashbacks that come with that word.
I walk over with Parker and see David extremely tense and close to hyperventilating. I use my free arm and to pull David into the other side of my neck. I rub the nape of his neck "It's okay Monkey. He can't hurt you anymore" I whisper into his ear and I feel him relax against me.
He eventually steps back and Parker looks at me. "Daddy? Are you going to answer my question?" He asks and I snap my eyes back towards him. "Question? What was your question Parker?" I ask and he whines.
"Is Papa still mad at you?" He asks and I tense afraid of the answer. I look at David and await his answer.
David looks at Parker and smiles. "I'm not mad at Daddy anymore buddy" He says and Parker smiles. "Yay! I didn't like seeing Daddy cry Papa. Don't make him cry again" He says seriously and David chuckles. "I won't bud."
Parker nods in approval. "Now Parker. Where did you learn the word Papa?" I ask him and he frowns. "On the TV" He says and I nod and bite my lip. "Well um Park your dad doesn't really like that word" I say and David speaks up. "Wyatt it's okay." He says and I look into his eyes to see if he's actually okay with it. "Are you sure babe?" I ask and he nods his head. "Yeah positive" He says and I smile and nod.
"Okay Parker we're going out so be on your best behavior for your Uncle and Aunt okay?" I say sternly and he whines and turns towards David. "First you make him sad and he doesn't talk to me in FOREVER and now you're taking him away! Papa not cool! You have to share" He says pouting making us all burst out laughing.
"Park I'll play with you alllll day tomorrow okay?" I say and he nods in approval.
I kiss his forehead and wait for David to do the same and we leave the house and get into the car.
When we get into the car he pulls out of the driveway and I smile to myself and then frown when I remember that David forgot my birthday. I curse in my head when I feel a tear slip my eyes I quickly wipe it away stupid hormones!
I place a hand on my bump and rub it causing me to smile. David pulls into a huge house and I look over at him in confusion. He gets out and I follow suit and I look at the house in awe. He wraps his arms around my waist.
"Who's house is this?" I ask as he sways us back and forth. "It's yours. You didn't think I'd forget your birthday did you? Happy Birthday Button" He says and I scoff and push away from him.
"So your birthday gift for me is getting me out of the house!? I understand you were mad at me about what I said about you and our daughter but you don't think ignoring me was enough!? You had to go and buy me a house so you can kick me out!? Yeah what a great fucking birthday" I yell tears streaming down my face as I walk back to the car. I get into the passenger seat slamming the doors as I cry into my hands.
The door opens and David crouches down "Button. You misunderstood everything" He says softly.
I open my fingers so I can peak through them and sniffle "Really?" I ask hesitantly and he nods.
"I bought this house for you yes but it's OUR house. You me and the kids are going to live here" He says.
I take my hands away from my face and groan. "Stupid hormones!" I whine making him laugh.
I jump into his arms "Thank you so much monkey!" I yell into his ears and he winces and rubs my back softly. "You wanna go inside and look?" He asks me and I jump up and down and scream "Yes!"
We walk into the House and I look around the foyer
"Wow" I say in awe. He then leads me into the Family room
"This will be where the kids and us will have family time" He tells me and I nod my head.
Next to the family room is the dining area
After that he leads me into the kitchen where I jump in joy at how gorgeous it is.
We then go into the Living room or as David called it our "Special room"
We walk into the backyard and I get really excited when I see a pool. "Babe! This pool is gorgeous!" I squeal
He then leads me up stairs. He shows me the guestrooms and guest bathrooms
"This is Parker's room" He says
"And this is his bathroom"
"Here's Scarlette's room"
"This is our bedroom"
"And our ensuite bathroom."
"This is beautiful David I love it so much" I tell him and he looks at me nervously. "I have one more surprise" He says and walks me to the room right next to ours. "Don't get mad" He says and he opens the door and I see a nursery.
I walk inside and look around. "Wow David. I love it!" I say happily. "So you're not mad at me?" He asks nervously
"Of course not! This is all beautiful I love you so much Monkey!" I say and jump into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist.
"Soooo what do you say you wanna go break in our new bed?" He asks while wiggling his eyebrows. I laugh and nod my head.