Jaspar one-shots (Completed/Discontinued)

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(A/n) i'm done with trying to have it all and ending up with not much at all. Now i know not everyone is out to screw me over, and maybe, just maybe, they just want to get to know me. Also i have allot of different people inside my head, i still wonder which one you like best. The one who wanted nothing but the world. The one who wanted to be a beauty king on a silver screen, the one that wants to be alone and wants the world to go away. Or the heartbreaker who wants to control other peoples minds like puppets. If only you knew how i lived my life in fear. And if only you knew the end is near. Because my life is a play, full of lies and things i don't wanna know. Bc after all i only live in the dark, im living dead, having been controled for my whole life. But now it's all over,   and i dont know y im still here, i always feel like a nobody and i dont even make the cut in the movie that is my life. I never play the starring role in anybody's heart and where the holy father made his mark is where i give my life. Is where i pay the price. Because just bc i prayed for forgiveness doesnt mean i get it. So, now you know how ive been desperately alone, how im never happy and all my problems grow like weeds. The lights of the world blind me, and it's time to end that so, holy father, prepare heaven because i'm coming