The last time I felt like thi...

By Gentillefille

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Have you ever had a Deja vu feeling with someone? This couple had and what they're going to discover will stu... More

Chapter 1 , "Islands in the stream"
Chapter 2 , "The promise"
Chapter 3, "The reception"
Chapter 4 , "Romeo and Juliet"
Chapter 5, "The trip to Chicago"
Chapter 6 , "The visit to the Pony Home"
Chapter 7 , "An unwanted visitor"
Chapter 8 , "Back in New York"
Chapter 9 , "I was a nurse..."
Chapter 10 , "The waltz of hope"
Chapter 11 , "I could've danced all night"
Chapter 12 , "Ten minutes ago..."
Chapter 13 , "Good time in Brussels"
Chapter 14, "I love London..."
Chapter 15 , "The visit at St. Paul College"
Chapter 16 , "The past meets the present..."
Chapter 18 , "My heart is hurting"
Chapter 19 , "Peace time in Bangkok"
Chapter 20 , "Please forgive me"
Chapter 21 , "A few days in Bangkok"
Chapter 22 , "The wedding preparations"
Chapter 23 , "In life, after life, in age after age, forever..."
The last time I felt like this - chapter 24(complete)

Chapter 17 , "I knew I loved before I met you"

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By Gentillefille



Candy and Terry went back to the castle, holding each other. They were now feeling free to declare their love. It was like they had taken off a weigh from their shoulders. Their souls had finally managed to be together. They entered the castle and Terry took Candy by the hand and they went upstairs to the master bedroom, which was the biggest and the more luxurious. The furniture was from the Schnadig Empire Bedroom. The bed was very big and the borders were handmade and painted in gold. The room was big, a room made for a king. Candy and Terry took their relationship to a new level : they consummated their love.


Freckled girl, you are so lovely

With you standing there, I'm so aware

of how much I care for you

you are more than now

you are for always

I can see in you

my dreams come true

Don't you ever go away

You make me feel like

there's nothing I can't do

and when I hold you

I only want to say I love you

Freckled girl, the joy you bring me

every day and night

holding you tight

how I've waited for your love

sometimes I've wondered if you'd ever come my way

now that I've finally found you

this is where my heart will stay

I, I'm never going to break your heart

never will we drift apart

cause all I want to do is share my whole life with you

you make me feel like

there's nothing I can't do

I guess I finally realized

there's nothing else like loving you

Freckled girl, you are so lovely

I can see in you my dreams come true

don't you ever go away

Freckled Girl


Terry was the first one to talk.


- Candice-Blanche, you were a virgin, he said still stunned


- Yes, she said against his chest


- Oh my God! You were a virgin!


- Honey, I knew I was a virgin, I've always known it, she said laughing.


- But I didn't know... if I had known, I would've been gentler, I would've waited our wedding...


- You were wonderful, my love. Wedding?


- Yes, Candice-Blanche, will you marry me? I love you and I can't live without you, I want you with me forever...


- Oh Terrence, yes, yes, I want to be your wife! I love you! She said laughing curling up against him.


He was laughing and he kissed her on the lips, for a long time.


- I don't have a ring to give you at the moment, but we'll go chose one together


- Don't worry about it, honey


- I'm so happy to finally have you in my bed....


- To have me in your bed? Was that what you were thinking the first time you saw me?


- No the first time I saw you I had a déjà vu feeling on the boat...


- We met on a boat in our former life...


- That's why I talked about your freckles... I was wondering where that came from


- You couldn't have known that you were reliving the meeting between Terrence Graham Grandchester and the love of his life... Candice White Andrew


- This story is unbelievable!


- Annabelle wants to write a book about it...


- Really?


- Yes, she's the one who suggested me to that it might be a memory from a past life


- How did she get to that conclusion again?


- Well, I told her the story I was telling about the little orphan Candy I invented, and she told me about the "Charmed" episode with the new sister who though she had invented a fairytale, but it was a memory...


- Oh yeah, an episode of "Charmed"


- Yes, you  know the show? With the three witches...


- I think so, maybe I should watch more telly...


- Then, I started getting those flashes, or I had them for a while I just didn't pay attention to them...


- I also had the flashes and I couldn't get you out of my head, I even thought our meeting was a flash


- What?


- Yes... since you disappeared in the fog, I thought I imagined you, the perfect woman for me... it's when you entered my office with your ridiculous clothes that I realised I hadn't imagine you...


- Really?


- Yes...


- You think I'm perfect?


- You're perfect for me, Candice-Blanche, you're the one I've been waiting for... You should've told me you were a virgin...


- Well you've never asked me the question, and you just assumed that I wasn't


- Well the first evening at the reception with Daniel Reed...


- That loser stole a kiss from me! I almost slapped him but I didn't want to be on the front page of the sleazy tabloids.


- Then, there was William, who spent the night with you and you said were doing what couples do...


Candy looked at him surprised. He had paid attention to all the details of her private life!


- I didn't know you paid so much attention to me...well for me, what normal couples do is kissing, and as you were able to figure out, if I spent the night in William's arms, it was completely platonic. What kind of girl did you take me for?


- Well you have to say, from where I was standing, you were kissing Reed and William...


- I've kissed my boyfriends; that's all I did...


- Now I know... you gave yourself only to me... oh my darling, I'm so happy!


- My little sister calls me the "virgin queen", but I didn't care, I was waiting for the perfect man and I only wanted to have one lover, the one who was going to marry me and I would feel it and I would know when I see him, because I was seeing him in my dreams ever since I could remember....


- You're the one I saw in my dreams ever since I can remember too...


- I thought you were going to think I'm crazy if I told you that we knew each other in a former life... I had to know the truth, before I could tell you about my feelings...before I give myself to you completely


- You didn't know I was living the same thing


- I suspected it... you always called me after my flashes... and when we did Cinderella; her first dance, I had the feeling it was for us, perfect for our first meeting...


- Have you ever danced with nothing on?


- Aside from in front of my mirror? Not with a guy


The soft music was still playing. It was "I knew I loved you" by Savage Garden. They got out of the bed and danced.


Maybe it's intuition

But some things you just don't question

Like in your eyes

I see my future in an instant

And there it goes

I think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason

Only this sense of completion

And in your eyes

I see the missing pieces

I'm searching for

I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you

I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life


They looked at each other with love and they started kissing, while they were dancing. When the song was over, they went in the bathroom to shower. The bathroom looked ancient but everything had been modernised; the tiles were dark blue and the bathtub was a Jacuzzi installed inside the floor, with dark blue tiles also. There was in individual shower. Candy took a shower while Terry was getting the bath ready. He followed Candy in the shower.


- I thought you were getting ready to take a bath? She said smiling.


- Yes, but I always take a shower before I soak in a bath. That way I don't feel like I'm washing myself in my dirt...


- That's what I do too! Incredible!


- Well you're my soul mate; that means our souls were one and they were separated in two, so it's like the same soul living in two bodies...


- So, you're me, and I'm you?


- Yes...


- I can call you Candy and you can call me Terrence?


- Yes...


- Candy, she said, can you scrub my back?


- Of course Terrence, he said taking the loofa from her hands...


They burst out laughing and took a shower together and then they went soaking in the hot and scented, bubbly bath. He was sitting in the back, and he took the loofa and was gently rubbing her back, then he rubbed her breast very softly. Candy closed her eyes.


- Oohhh she moan.


- You want me to stop?


- Nooo... my love...


So he continued caressing her and making her feel good, while they continued talking until the water got cold. They got out of the bath and they wrapped themselves together with a giant towel, the same blue as the tiles. They walked, holding each other and laughing. Candy changed the sheets on the bed her purity had stained.


- The maids are going to be shocked, said Terrence


- To see that I made the bed myself? She asked smiling.


- That I had a guest so pure and a good housekeeper on top of that! I love looking at you in Eve's costume.


- I have to admit that it's the first time I'm in this costume for so long...


- Well, it's the first time you spend a night of passion.


- You mean everybody does that? She joked, if only I knew!


They burst out laughing.


- Do you regret waiting?


- No, I was waiting for my soul mate and that's you. It was worth it...


He approached her; he took her in his arms and kissed her. Then they went back to bed and they made each other feel good again, for the rest of the night. Terrence showed her all the techniques of love. He was proud and happy to have been the first to teach her how to love, how two people in love express it.


The wind, so peaceful and serene,

caressed by the soft moonlight,

gave magical feelings to the night.

The soft blue glow,

the lovers' words that then did flow,

their lips closer and closer

until, locked in the throes

of a passionate embrace,

he decided to express his feelings,

to keep her safe.

He whispered softly,

his words like music to her ears,

"I Love You,"

and her response the same,

heard like the gentle breeze,

"And I, love you, forever."

That was the night they promised

to be together through everything,

each to care for the other when old and grey

A lovers' pact

the most likely to last.

- Krista J. Mikula -


After a night full of passion, they were now on their way back to London where they had a business lunch at the apartment. The staff was taking care of everything, all they had to do, was get dressed and be there. They kissed before falling asleep in the car in each other's arms, until they got to Kensington where Terrence's apartment was. The driver had seen the kiss and he felt they were closer than ever. Once in the apartment, Candy and Terry wanted to quickly shower together, so they could get ready for their guests.


- We have guests... Terrence a 5 minutes shower should be enough...


- We've got time, he said entering the bathroom with her.


They brushed their teeth together laughing. The bathroom from Terry's room was bigger and more luxurious. There was a big mirror on the wall with two sinks. The walls had golden tiles, the sinks were a golden yellow too, the bathtub and the shower too. Terry had a 2 days' beard, he wanted to shave.


- A 2 days' beard, is very attractive, Mr. Grandchester, she said with a sensual voice


She kissed him passionately. It was wonderful.


If asked why I love her I would say

It's the sway in her hips,

the thickness in her thighs.

It's the lust in her lips,

the love in her eyes.

It's the softness of her skin,

the silk in her hair.

It's the twist in her walk;

it's the sweetness in her talk.

It's the way she loves me

that makes me love her each day.

That is what I would say.

- Justin Hutchins -


- Miss Grey?


- Yes, Mr. Grandchester?


- You can seduce me whenever you want, and where ever you want...


- Really? It wouldn't be appropriate, sir, after all, I'm your assistant... we shouldn't repeat this moment of weakness. I could sue you for sexual harassment...


- Not if I make you my wife and partner for life... I wouldn't want to lose such a perfect assistant at the office...and in bed, he said smiling.


- If I understand you correctly, you're giving me a raise? From a professional woman at the office to wife at home forever?


- You're going to get a promotion at the office too, because I can't stay away from you for a minute...


- What would my position be? Your partner instead of your assistant?


- Partner... in every sense of the word.


- Humm, I have to think about your offer, I don't know if I could take being your professional partner for life and at home too... that's a double duty...


- Your salary is going to considerably go up...


- My salary? Really? More money for more work at home and at the office?


- Hugging you, kissing you, physical love, love words, my presence by your side forever... I will never let you go again, whatever happens. I promise you....


- Sounds like a golden contract to me, she said smiling, you've got yourself a deal!


They burst out laughing and they kissed before taking a shower, laughing and playing like kids. They took their time... they got out of the room just as their guests were ringing the doorbell, interrupting their smooch...


- The guests are here, she said laughing, let's go Mr. Grandchester


- All right Miss Grey.


They arrived at the door just in time to greet the guests and they turned back to the boss and his assistant again during the luncheon. They had Asian business men around the table and they did business. A few hours later, the guests were gone and they left.


- Finally! Said Terry I thought they will never leave!


- It was a little difficult to concentrate when all we had in mind was to be alone in the bedroom


- I had to make the ultimate effort to stay professional


- We'd have to control ourselves otherwise, we won't be able to work together


- We'll see that later, said Terry approaching her, for the moment, I need my Candy dose...


She burst out laughing and they kissed again, he carried her to the bedroom, which had white bedroom furniture Louis XIV style, the carpet was white and thick, the bed was a king size... they took their clothes off...and enjoyed once again the pleasure of the flesh. They were living a double passion, Candy and Terry's passion and Candice-Blanche and Terrence's, no wonder they couldn't get enough of each other!


A few hours later, they were on the bed resting in each other's arms. Terry suddenly remembered his drawings. One of the reasons he was in London was to find those drawings in his father's attic. There were of course those he did for his mother on his laptop, but he wanted to show her more concrete drawings, so Candy could see the evolution of his drawings throughout the years.


- I have a surprise for you, he said


- Really?


- Yes, but I have to go get it at my father's castle


- Your father's castle?


- Yes, in my old stuff in the attic


- You want to give me something from your attic?


- It's special, you'll see. You're going to be happy


- All right, I trust you, she said smiling, I'm thirsty; I'm going to go get a glass of orange juice. Do you want something?


- I want one too...


She got out of bed and put on one of Terry's shirt which looked like a dress on her. She went to the kitchen to get a glass of orange juice. She poured some for Terry too and brought it for him in the bedroom.


- Thank you honey, he said smiling.


- Oh, I wanted to take the paper and read it, but it's in the living room, I'm going to go get it. I'll be right back...


- All right sweetheart, he said smiling.


Candy got out to the room to get the paper when she heard some noise at the door and voices. She went to see what was going on and was she surprised to see Dinah and Daniel Reed get in the apartment arguing. Candy was standing with the paper, wearing Terry's shirt looking at them. Dinah and Daniel saw her...


- There she is! Said Dinah, I told you she was my brother's mistress!


- Candy, said Daniel stunned, oh my God! What are you doing here? You're really Grandchester's mistress?


Candy didn't understand what was going on. What was Dinah doing with Daniel?


- What? Said Dinah to Candy, you've lost you're tongue? You thought my brother loved you? He hired you to keep you away from Daniel, for me!


- What? Said Candy surprised.


- Yes, he hired you per my request to seduce you so Daniel wouldn't be attracted to you anymore..., said Dinah.


- And you fell right in the trap! Said Daniel, you did it, you slept with him?


- But of course, look at how she's dressed; with my brother's shirt... what do you think, she was trying on that for fun? Said Dinah.


- Candy, said Daniel sorry, oh Candy...


Terry was in the bedroom wondering why Candy was taking so long to come back with the paper. He heard the voices which didn't sound like the staff's. He got out of bed, put on his pants and he went to the living room. The scene he found, he would've given anything for it not to continue. It was the stampede...


- What on bloody earth is going on in here? Said Terry, Dinah, Reed! What the hell are you both doing here?


- Terry, I came to show Daniel that his beloved was now your mistress, so he would stop dreaming about her and concentrate on me and my baby...


- Baby? Said Candy surprised.


- Yes. I'm pregnant and Daniel is the father of my baby; he didn't want me anymore because he saw you at the office building. So I asked Terrence to help me get rid of you... by seducing you, but since he was afraid of being sued for sexual harassment, I asked him to marry you if he had to!


Candy couldn't believe her ears. All that was just one big lie? No, it was not possible! He couldn't be so cruel! She couldn't have read him wrong so badly!


- Dinah, shut up... Candice-Blanche, said Terrence.


- Grandchester, you bastard! Said Daniel angry, she was a virgin! A virgin! I wanted to marry her! How could you do that, just so I marry your sister!? You bastard!


- Shut up Reed, you don't know what you're talking about! Said Terrence.


- Oh yes I do, said Daniel getting a file from his bag, Candy, he investigated you to seduce you better; if you don't believe me, look at this file on you; it's on everything you do, your interest, what you like, what passionates you...


Candy took the file like an automaton and she started to look at it. And Terry was wondering where the hell that file came from!?


- Candy investigated? I've never asked for Candy to be investigated! Said Terrence outraged, Candice-Blanche, you have to believe me, I don't know where that file is coming from!!!!


Candy wasn't saying anything, he face had become pale... the file had details on her life, details she didn't even paid attention to! Pictures, reports on her life...


- But, the file is addressed to you, Terrence, she said softly


- I don't know how!!!! Said Terry.


- Stop lying! Said Daniel, it's not enough you took her virginity, now you want to insult her intelligence?!


- Shut your mouth Reed! Said Terry between his teeth, Candice-Blanche...


- Did you hire me to keep me away from Daniel? Asked Candy with a neutral tone


- Yes, but, let me explain..., said Terry.


- Oh my God! Said Candy, this was all just one big lie? You had me investigated?


- No, Candice-Blanche...


- You did all this for your sister... I gave myself to you...I confided in you... and you were seducing me so Daniel wouldn't be interested in me anymore, and marry your pregnant sister?


- That sounds really bad when you say it like that, said Terrence, but my father's health is already frail, Dinah is his favourite, if he had learned that she was pregnant out of wedlock...


- So you wanted to make sure Daniel finds me repulsive...


- No, I wanted to marry you...


- Stop it! Said Candy angry, that was all a lie! You were ready to marry me so your sister would get Daniel?


- No, Candice-Blanche, I...


- Everything is on the file, what I like, how much sugar I put in my coffee, said Candy in tears, I was the biggest idiot!


- Don't say that, said Terry approaching her to take her in his arms...


- Don't touch me! She said angry, you're a monster!


- Candice-Blanche, please, let me explain..., he begged


- Leave her alone Grandchester... she doesn't want you, said Daniel approaching her, Candy, honey, I don't care if you slept with him, I want you, I love you more than anything...


- You too, don't touch me! Said Candy angry, how many time do I have to tell you I don't want you?! Which part of "no" don't you understand? Take your responsibilities with Dinah! You're going to be a father; you have to stop acting like a spoil brat who didn't get the toy he wanted! Grow up Daniel!!!


- But Candy, said Daniel


- No! Leave-me alone! She answered mad


Then she turned to Dinah.


- That's why you were mean to me? For this good for nothing daddy's boy? Because he got you pregnant and he wouldn't take his responsibilities because of me? Daniel Reed?!!?


She was wondering how Terrence and his sister could've thought for one minute that she would be involved with Daniel, but also how could he have thought that he would be a good husband for Dinah...


- If your father really knew who Daniel Reed was, it's the fact that you're going out with him that's going to give him a heart attack! Said Candy very angry, oh one more thing, Mr. Grandchester, I quit!!!!!!!!!!!


- Candice-Blanche, said Terrence with a begging tone.


But Candy walked to her bedroom to get dressed. Terry let her go. She was much too angry to listen to what he had to say. He turned to Dinah angry.


- I told you I was taking care of this, Dinah, why did you come here and ruin everything for mw???!! Yelled Terry.


- You were taking too long and Daniel kept talking about her like she was some sort of saint...


- So you wanted to show her that his saint slept with me? Dinah!!!!!!!!!! Yelled Terry.


- You slept with her!!!!!!!!! Said Daniel angry.


Terry couldn't take it anymore, he punched Daniel, and he punched him again. Dinah started to scream... Candy, who got dressed in a few minutes, had her suitcase packed and her purse. She called a cab. She passed through the living room and she saw the fight and she didn't even react. She opened the door and got out. Dinah saw her go, but she continued screaming at Terry and Daniel to stop. Members of the staff, alerted by the noise, came and they managed to separate them.


- Get out of my apartment Reed! I don't ever want to see you here again without an invitation! You're going to marry my sister and make an honest woman out of her before the baby is born and before my father learns the news! Or not! I don't care anymore! Yelled Terry.


Daniel had blood on his mouth and he got out of the apartment.


- Dinah, I don't really feel like seeing you at the moment, go with your loser!


- Terry, I'm sorry...


- I have to speak to Candice-Blanche


- She's gone...


- What?


- Yes, during the fight, she had her suitcase...


- Oh no! Said Terry, how long ago was it?


- 15 minutes, I think...


- Why didn't you say anything? Oh yeah, you were jealous! You heard her tell your loser she didn't want him and to take his responsibilities with you?


- Yes, said Dinah looking down


- So, why did you do that? Why did you hurt her like that? You must have known that I really loved her...! And what's the story with the file???


- I found it at the castle, it's for you...


- And you opened it...?


- I saw the address of a private investigator...


- Dinah... Leave me alone now! Said Terry discouraged


Dinah got out without adding a word. Terry stayed sad. He had to find Candy, but where could she be? He had just got her, he didn't want to lose her already. Outside it was raining hard... Terry went to his room, not too long ago, he was happy with Candy. He was completely devastated. She was so angry and hurt that she wouldn't even listen to his explanations. The fact that Dinah humiliated her...she had just given herself to him and they had spend really good moments together, and now she thought everything that had happened between them was a lie. He had to find her to tell her how much he loved her, that they might have start working together because of Dinah, but the rest was sincere; he was in love with her since...since their meeting in the beginning of the 20th century...The universe was giving them another chance and he was not about to let it pass without a fight. He lied down on his bed and he couldn't stop thinking about her...


I didn't hear you leave,

I wonder how am I still here

I don't want to move a thing,

It might change my memory

Oh I am what I am,

I'll do what I want, but I can't hide

I won't go, I won't sleep,

I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me

I won't leave, I can't hide,

I cannot be, until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends,

They might wake me from this dream

And I can't leave this bed,

Risk forgetting all that's been

Oh I am what I am,

I'll do what I want, but I can't hide

I won't go, I won't sleep,

I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me

I won't leave, I can't hide,

I cannot be, until you're resting here with me


Candy was crying all the tears of her body in the cab. She was hurt deep down inside. Terrence lied to her. She still couldn't believe that for the first time she finally succumb to a man's charm, and enjoyed the pleasure of the flesh, was with a man she thought she knew in a past life, a man she dreamt about ever since she was a little girl. How could she had made such a mistake?! Everything was an illusion! All the past life thingy was just a stupid dream! All that wasn't real! It was only what her mind was telling her, it was too good to be true! Past lives? What a nonsense! It only happened in movies and it was the producer's imagination! She never knew Terry in a former life! How could Annabelle dragged her in this absurd adventure? Tears continued to come down her cheek while her cab was taking her to her destination.


If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one

Drying in the colour of the evening sun

Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away

But something in our minds will always stay

Perhaps this final act was meant

To clinch a lifetime's argument

That nothing comes from lying and nothing ever could

For all those born beneath an angry star

Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall

Like tears from a star, like tears from a star

On and on the rain will say

How fragile we are, how fragile we are

This chapter has been censured to fit this site. If you want the whole version, please send me a personal message. Mallory

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