Lauren's POV
I woke up to the sound of rain hitting the ground loudly followed by sounds of thunder, I just go and do my morning rituals then go down the stairs to see Lisa.
What is she doing here?
Not that I'm complaining or anything.
"Hey Lise," I say while rubbing the sleep off my eyes.
"Hey," she plainly says.
"So what are you doing here?" I ask sitting across her.
"Oh just wanted to hang out you know."
"Uhm Dani and the boys aren't here, remember they're at some camp," she then laughs while I looked confused.
"You think I came here for them?" I just nod and she shakes her head.
"I came here for you Lauren," she says and I give her an appreciative smile.
"Well what are we supposed to do? We have the whole house to ourselves," I say to her.
"A movie marathon?" She asks and I simply nod then help her get the blankets. I sit down on the couch as she puts the first movie in the DVD player.
"What movie did you choose?" I asked as she sat down beside me.
"Wait and see," she smirks. As the movie's title got showed up I could already tell what kind of a movie that was.
A horror movie.
"Lisa you know I hate horror," I say to her. But right at that moment the first jumpscare just popped.
Really at the beginning of the movie?!
I grabbed onto Lisa's arm and closed my eyes shut, I then don't hear anything coming from the TV, maybe Lisa paused it. "Hey I'm sorry I should've chosen another movie," she said while making me face her and I open my eyes slowly to be met with her concerned brown ones.
"I'm really sorry Lauren," she says.
"It's okay," I say but then she pulled me into a hug. But something felt wrong, she seemed as if she needed the hug more than I do.
"Lise?" I ask as she was still hugging me.
"Y-yeah?" she stuttered, why is she stuttering?
"Are you okay?" I asked really concerned as to why she's acting like this, pulling away from the hug I can see that her eyes look glossy but then she looks down.
"Lise are you okay?" I asked again. And she shakes her head.
"It's really hard, to hide and contain these feelings," she says quietly while still looking down.
"What do you mean Lise?"
"I'm sorry Lauren I really am, I just can't stop myself," she sobs and I pull her into another hug.
"What can't you stop?" I whisper to her.
"My feelings," she says.
"What's wrong?"
"Don't hate me please," she says and my heart shattered knowing that my older sister would think that I would ever hate her.
"I can never hate you Lise,"
"I l-like someone Lauren," she says.
"Okay and who is that someone?" I asked.
"It's y-you,"
I stood there shocked that...
She felt the same.
"I know it's weird and bad I'm sorry Laur," She sobbed louder.
"It's okay Lise......... Ah-I-I feel the s-same," I admit for the first time I told someone my secret and it's to the person that I love.
"R-really?" She looked me in the eye pulling away from the hug. And I just nod my head at her.
Finally I can be with her.
~Two Weeks Later~
It was late at night, Lisa and I were in my room in each other's arms as we talked about how we were going to break it to our parents about what we had right now.
"I'm scared, they might hate us Lise," I say honestly to her.
"I am too Laur but if they really love us, they'd accept what we have," she says.
I now sit up and she does the same.
"Do you ever wish that you never should have fell for me?" I ask her out of curiosity.
"No, because I'd regret it," she replies simply.
"Why?"
"Because not liking you is a mistake any stupid person would make," she says and I could feel my cheeks heating up.
"Really Lise?" I ask her
"Yes Lauren, I love you," she says.
"I love you too."
~Morning~
No one's POV
Lauren and Lisa are both in the living room of the Cimorelli's house, being all lovey dovey. Dani, Lynne and Michael, and the boys are all out so they have the whole house to themselves.
"Babe, what did I tell you about doing that?" Lisa asked. Lauren looked confused.
"What do you mean," Lauren asked giggling. Lisa rolled her eyes. Lauren thought for a second until it clicked. Lauren smirked and did it again. Lip bite.
"Laureeeeeen," Lisa whined.
"What?" Lauren asked innocently.
"I said don't do that," Lisa says.
"What? This?" Lauren asks doing it again to tease her older sister.
"I said don't,"
"Why? What's wrong with this?" Lauren asks doing it again.
"We both know why," Lisa said.
"I don't know, tell me," Lauren says even if she does know.
"It tempting me to..." Lisa trailed off.
"To what," Lauren asked trying to contain her laughter.
"This," Lisa grabbed Lauren's face (in a nice way) and smashed her lips to her's. They continued their make out session that they didn't even notice their mother knocking. Lynne got tired of knocking so she looked for her key in her bag and eventually found it. She slowly put the key in, opening the door. She went in and got shocked when she spotted two of her daughters making out in their couch. Instead of scolding them both, she quietly went upstairs, disappointed.
The day after
Lauren's POV
I couldn't even look at anyone in the eye when I found out that mom saw something she wasn't supposed to.
Gosh why was I so stupid to let that happen?!
"Lauren," I heard Lisa say.
"Yeah?" I said as if nothing was wrong.
"Lauren I know that you're lying to me," she said holding my hand as I sighed.
"I just didn't think that mom would find out about us that way Lise," I honestly say to her.
"Me too but we can't do anything now, she saw and I don't know how to take that back," she says.
"Maybe we don't have to take it back," I say to her.
"What are you saying?" She asks confused.
"I mean why don't we just tell them Lise, I know it's a bit too soon but if they really love us they'd accept what we have," I say.
"You're right but what happens if they don't?" She asked.
"Then they'll have to live with that because I'm not letting you go," I say.
"I won't too," she replied and with that we both feel asleep in each other's arms.
~Morning~
I woke up and immediately found that the other side of my bed was empty, I sat up and frowned thinking why Lisa left since she usually waits for me to wake up. I just shake the thought off hoping that I was getting paranoid. As I went down the stairs looking for someone I saw Lisa pacing around in the backyard, I hugged her from behind and whispered,
"Morning Lise."
"Hey," she simply says then immediately took my arms off of her waist.
"Listen I need to tell you something," she says seriously and I felt scared and worried but I pushed it aside and listened as she spoke.
"I don't love you the way you do Lauren," she simply says with no remorse or any other emotion.
"W-what?" I say and try to chuckle but she kept a straight face.
"It was just a phase Laur, what I felt for you was just a feeling I had and everyone knows that feelings disappear, they're only there for a limited amount of time. And the time's up Lauren I'm sorry," she said and entered the kitchen leaving me there shocked and feeling as if I just made myself a target to get hurt. I should have known that she never really loved me the way I do UGH I'm so stupid!
I now collapse onto the ground and try so hard to keep the tears from falling down my face, no more crying Lauren, no more. I just got up from my spot on the ground and made my way up to my room, thinking about what did I do wrong to deserve this?
~2 Days Later~
Amy asked me to help her design her room and I accepted since I really wanted to talk to Lisa and tell her how foolish I was to even think that she'd like someone like me.
"Hey I'm just going to get the desk I ordered from the furniture shop is it okay if I leave you here alone in the apartment?" Amy said.
"Alone? Why where's everyone else?" I asked.
"Christina and Katherine are hanging out and Lisa is, well, does anyone ever know where she is?" She chuckled then continued.
"So are you going to be okay here on your own?" She asked again.
"Yeah okay," I said then she nodded, closing the front door leaving me in here alone.
I thought about going onto Twitter while waiting for her but when I checked the counter my phone wasn't there where I assumed I last placed it, I began looking for it opening every door as I was about to go onto the last door, I opened Lisa's bedroom door but I seriously didn't notice since I was looking for my phone.
As I was about to close it a light blue notebook on Lisa's desk caught my eye, I wasn't really going to check it but then a thought ran into my mind as if a race was about to be won and that is that: Lisa writes about everything that had happened in her life in a journal, so it's possible that she wrote about what happened to us...
I wasn't going to but curiosity got the best of me as I closed the door and slowly opened her journal while sitting down on the floor with my back against her bed.
Flipping through some of the pages, I found the one that happened about two days ago.
Earlier today I did something that I regret but I know it's what's best for Lauren..
So as I woke up this morning Lauren was still asleep and I didn't want to wake her up yet as I stared at her peacefully, but then I felt dehydrated so I carefully let go of Lauren as I made my way downstairs drinking a glass of water.
"I don't accept it," I heard someone say from behind me so I looked to see my mom with her arms crossed.
"What?" I asked kind of playing dumb when we both know that she knows what's up.
"Lisa I do not accept what you and Lauren have," She said sternly at me.
"You don't understand Lauren and I we love - -," She cut me off.
"What? You love each other? I heard you two speaking last night and I was honestly rethinking everything I've done trying to remember what I did wrong."
"Well if you did hear us last night then you know that nothing can come between Lauren and I," I said as I silently prayed that she could just accept us
"Oh I did hear that part, the fact is you're going to have to let Lauren go, because if you don't I'll tell Christina and she'd be happy to kick Lauren out of the band," she smirked.
"What?! Why not me?!" I questioned her.
"Because Lauren is more caught up with this band that it would break her heart being kicked out for no reason," she smirked again as I had only one thing and one thing only in my mind:
She's won.
"Think about it," she says then leaves the kitchen as I went out into the backyard and thought if I could do this.
After a while Lauren showed up and I honestly couldn't feel more hurt than what I felt earlier today.
I told her that I didn't really love her but honestly that was the biggest lie I've told I am so in love with her that's why I'm doing this, I hope she understands that. Lauren I'm sorry that I broke your heart but we both know that the band means a lot to you and you being kicked out would hurt you a lot more and I'm not worth it just know that even if you won't ever see this that I love you so much and I hope one day we can be together.
And with that the line stops and I have tears in my eyes, tears that I kept but are now falling I should have known Lisa wouldn't just leave me like that, so I did something to assure her that one day we will be together.
I grabbed a red pen from her desk and wrote at the end of her journal....
Lisa's POV
What could Lauren be possibly doing in my room? Since she walked out of it smiling at me. The first thing my eyes saw is a red pen lying on my bed.... Beside my journal?! I didn't leave it there! And Lauren..... Oh no.
I pick my journal up and flip it to the part where it answers why me and Lauren broke up. A red ink caught my eyes...... it's Lauren's hand writing...
"I love you too, Lisa."