(Changes made to the story on 06/11/2020)
So sorry to all of you for not updating in a while! Being a mom* is hard work, plus I haven't been feeling well lately - stress has made me zombie-like and not in the mood to write. (Health issues may have been partially due to having a brain aneurysm! I still have it btw, I just now have medications to treat my health issues it's causing. Ughhhh.) Anyway, I'll TRY* to update whenever I feel up to it though so no worries :) Oh and as you can see I finally decided who would play the ever-so-irresistable Austin, I love Stuart Townsend and he's perfect for him Mmmmhmmm ;)
I'm also considering a total review and rewrite of my stories just as a way of relaxing and seeing how much I've changed. I'm going to be leaving the originals up though so be on the look out for stories labeled 2.0. They'll be my new versions!
Lily's P.O.V. >>>>>>>>
So it'd been almost five days since I'd decided to see if I could go with Austin's family when they left, and I'd still not worked up the actual nerve to ask him.
He was going to be at my house any minute, and even though I made sure to look great in hopes to impress his mom on the inside I was freaking out. Which of course I was, I'd waited so long that if they said yes I'd be moving out of Sandpoint that weekend.
I hardly knew Austin's mother and here I was asking if I could pretty much live with them, something that would be huge no matter who you were and how supposedly cool you were.
Hearing my text music go off on my phone I saw Austin's name and flipped it open to read 'Be there in 5 mins. See you soon beautiful' and blush from it. That right there was one of the many reasons I was falling for him so fast. Austin didn't call a girl fine, a hottie, smokin' or any crap like that.
He was always calling me beautiful, baby girl, love and his sexy girl. Sure I knew the last one was still a little on the perverted side, but I liked that he was a little on the kinky side. Course, what woman wouldn't like being called sexy by a man she's falling for?
Grabbing my purse I head outside, and at the perfect time cause Austin's sister's car was turning the car at that exact moment. Hoping in the car I give him a sideways hug and then lightly pull on his chin and give him a sweet quick kiss.
Looking into his gorgeous green eyes I say "Hey handsome. You have fun packing the past few days?" and rest my head on his shoulder.
He places his hand in mine before saying, "It was alright. But I bet it'll be better having you there to keep me company." and shoots me a quick smile before we pull away from my house and head to his sisters.
It only takes about five minutes to get there and when we do I'm surprised. They had done quite a lot in a few short days, which was slightly shocking since there was five little kids there who couldn't really help which just made them in the way of the three adults who had been packing.
Giving Austin's hand a quick squeeze I go to open my door and he says, "Hold on" and runs around the car to open my door himself. Blushing from how sweet it always is when he does that, I take his hand and we go up the stairs to his sister's apartment.
That was when I began to freak out again and badly. I hadn't told Austin about wanting to leave with him, and this was the last chance i had before they left that weekend.
Austin's P.O.V. >>>>>>>
Glancing at Lily, I could instantly tell there was something on her mind as we walked into my sister's place. We quickly said hi to everyone and I took her to the back room, planning on seeing what was wrong with this beautiful woman I cared about.
Locking the door so my family couldn't walk in on us cause the room I was in was also the room my sister used to smoke cigarettes so the rest of her apartment didn't stink like them. I pull Lily close, softly wrapping my arms around her and enjoy her warmth.
I hadn't seen her for a few days so just in case she was about to tell me we couldn't be together I was going to take in her amazing scent and the way she felt in my arms one last time before I figured out what was on her mind.
After a few minutes of just standing there holding each other, her cheek on my neck and my face buried into her soft hair I finally pull away a little and prep myself in case our friendship was going to get weird in a few moments.
Still keeping her in my arms but not as close anymore I look deep into her brown-red eyes and say "I can tell there's something on your mind babe. You wanna tell me what's got my beautiful girl looking so nervous and sad?" and lightly caress her cheek.
She closes her eyes and rubs her cheek into my hand looking like she's enjoying the feeling, maybe for the last time and my heart skips a beat in fear.
Then she looks me deep in the eye and says "Austin, I love being with you. You've made me happier then any man I've been with in years. And it scares the hell out of me, BUT there's something I really want to ask you. I just hope it's a good thing I feel this way, cause I feel like I'm about to take the biggest risk in my entire life. Austin..... What would you do if I told you I want to leave with you to your mom's place? I know it's a long sho" and I cut her off with what felt like the most passionate kiss I've ever given someone.
We spend I don't even know how much time like that, both enjoying the feel of our lips on the others before she finally pulls away and looks me in the eyes again waiting for an answer.
Doing my best to keep a smile off my face, I say to Lily "Baby, I would love to have you come with me. But it's not my choice on if you can go, we're going to have to ask my mom if she's okay with it. Now. We're leaving soon so if your going to go with us we have to know her answer now so you can pack up all your stuff if it's yes."
Lily's P.O.V. >>>>>>>>>
So happy Austin wanted me with him I felt like I was on Cloud 9 even though we still had to ask his mother. I still knew there was a chance I couldn't go, but I still couldn't help being a little happy that he wanted me with him that much.
Lacing my fingers in his, I let him lead me back into the living room where his mom was relaxing with her grandkids. Not even wanting to look her in the eye I was so nervous, I waited for Austin to begin. He was quick, sweet and actually quite elegant in asking her.
He pointed out how I could help watch the kids, along with anything else that she'd need my help with plus he was even told her he'd try to get a job so we could have our own place and that I could try and find work as well.
I hardly paid much attention to what he was saying though, I was busy trying to gauge his mother's reactions to his asking if his girlfriend could come live with them. I felt like it may be a no since she wasn't really responding much, just looking back and forth between us and nodding occasionally.
After what felt like hours Austin's mom finally began to speak "Well son, I hardly know her first off so it's kind of hard to judge if what your saying is really who she is, but I know you and you can read people pretty well.
I guess, as long as she proves she can help out and everything I don't see why she can't go. IF she's willing to get on food stamps and everything so that the's enough money for all of us cause you know that since it's going to be snowing up at the property in a few months that nobody will be able to leave since the drive would have to be plowed and we can't afford that unless someone's willing to do it cheap.
Plus there's the fact that since we have to deal with getting Clint off my land and all that, I doubt any of us will have any time to even be able to look for work until next year at the earliest since we'll have so much on our plates already with getting ready for winter. But, if she can hold her own and there's more then just a city girl in her I don't see any problems with your girlfriend coming with us."
And with that it was decided. I was going to be moving in with Austin and his family, finally escaping my mother's insanity. Squealing in joy, I bear hug Austin and start saying "Thank you" a million times over.
I couldn't believe my luck! Not only had I found a guy who may be worth risking another broken heart, but he was going to help get me out of the house that was making me feel insane and his mom was okay with me living with her son.
Letting go of Austin, I calm down long enough to tell his mother thank you properly instead of how I had been saying it, and then I drag a smirking Austin out of the living room and back into his temporary one.
Closing the door behind him, I jump him literally. I just leaped into his arms and just started hugging him like he was the last person on the planet. Pulling his head down roughly I give him the hardest, sexiest, most passionately happy kiss I'd ever given him yet.
We spent God knows how long like that, enjoying each others kisses and the fact that today wasn't going to be one of the last days we could do that.
Finally coming up to catch our breath, Ausin looks at me with a twinkle in his eyes and says "I knew you wouldn't be able to let me go. I love you Lily." and pulls me back into his embrace. Smirking, I decide to screw with his mind a little.
"Oh you knew I was going to say that huh? And what if I'd only said that to use you to get out of Sandpoint huh boy huh?" and start tickling him. After a few moments he decides he's had enough and pins my arms against me, and he's really strong it turns out.
I could hardly move an inch let alone break free. Looking into my eyes, Austin suddenly looks like a different person and says "Oh you were just using me? Well then I guess it's a good thing I'm just using you too. Don't worry though, we can use each other." and then he's the same person I'm falling for and releases my arms pulling them back around him.
So I kiss him real quick then say "Oh yes baby, we can use each other. As long as we're together we can keep using each other. I love you too by the way." and we both start laughing. I didn't even care that we'd just said I love you to each other, we both knew it wasn't the type of in love 'I love yous'.
We spent the next few hours enjoying each other's company, packing up his family's stuff and being all lovey-dovey the entire time. And I enjoyed it all the more cause I knew it wouldn't end.
Later that day Austin and I went back to my house, where we were greeted by my brother slamming a door in our mother's face cause she was yelling at him about some spaceship I guess he stole from her. For once her insanity didn't phase me even a little, cause I knew it would be one of the last days I'd be having to deal with it for a long time.
We didn't even bother to explain to my mother what was going on with me, she'd been so off her meds lately that half the time she didn't even remember I was her own daughter let alone that she had one in the first place.
It actually didn't take as much time as I thought it would to pack up my room. Then again when all your taking is the clothes in your closet and your roll up futon mattress that you'd been calling a bed for five years there's not really much to do.
After we found two suitcases in the garage we'd packed up all my clothes and used the three containers I had to put away anything glass I owned into the garage so that if my mom decided to go in my old room once I was gone she couldn't destroy anything I'd have to leave behind due to packing light.
When we were finished Austin and I decided that since we have three days til we leave and the only things left to do were get the U-haul and pack it and the two cars up we were going to go throw a party and celebrate our relationship.
So I hit up Angela on her cell phone since she was my party girl and told her, "I'm leaving Sandpoint this weekend. I want to have one last party to celebrate my freedom from the crazy woman, you down?"
Of course she was, Angela was the one friend I had where if you needed to de-stress with a party or have some girl time getting drunk and putting your problems on the back burner for a few hours of me time she was always the one to call.
Since it was one of my last nights in town we decided to do it up right. As it turns out Austin wasn't much of a drinker, but he was still wanting to drink with us just not to the point he'd be drunk. That was okay though, we were going to be throwing a party and one that wouldn't be forgotten after I was gone.
I had a more then decent secret bank account thankfully. I may not have been able to have a full time job but when I was in high school til last year I'd had a part-time one waiting tables at a restaurant in our mall, and I'd never really spent the money from it even after I'd worked there for six years.
I had almost ten grand hidden away, and nobody had ever known about it cause it was my secret safety stash. But seeing as how I finally had something to put it towards other then the occational small shopping spree, I decided to splurge on the party a little. I still wasn't going to tell anyone how much I had of course, I'd need most of it now that I was moving out.
So off we went to the bank to make a withdrawl. I took out about four hundred dollars to put towards the blow out I was going to throw and left the other nine thousand plus in there.
Thankfully I was twenty-one so our next stops were the liqour store and a fast food joint for party munchies. We went to B&E Liqour first and I bought two handles each of Jack Daniels, Jose Cuervo, and Captain Morgans along with some margarita mix, six two liters and a personal bottle of some hypnotic so I could mix me up a glass or two of an incredible hulk. Plus I wanted something sweet to drink.
Next stop was McDonalds and Jack in the Crack. We just ordered thirty hamburgers and chicken sandwiches along with fifteen large orders of french fries at MikkyD's and twenty orders each of jalepeno poppers and bacon fries at Jack in the Crack.
I knew that even though Austin and I didn't smoke marijuana some of my friends did, so since we'd be drunk and a few people high having some food to keep everyone from getting sick was the smart way to go.
Surprised that I still had a little over a hundred dollars left after that, I asked Angela if she'd be willing to go to some of our car-less friends houses and pick them up if I gave her eighty to keep her tank full for the night. She agreed, and we started hitting up everyone I knew after that.
Funny thing about having an insane parent, they don't care if you and your friends take over the garage all night to party. So after calling up everyone and sending Angela on her way to get them all, Austin and I shifted some stuff around in the garage to make room for everyone.
I was more then happy how things were going in my life. I had a great boyfriend who I was going to be living with, I was getting out of my mom's reach finally, had a fat bank account to survive on just in case things went wrong with Austin and all my friends were on their way to the biggest party I was going to have ever.
I couldn't wait for everyone to get there, but I knew it was going to take a few hours to get all the people there. So to pass the time since it was only five o'clock, Austin and I get the garage even more ready.
We pulled out the fold-up table we had and placed all the bottles on it along with a stack of twenty cheap shot glasses I kept for occasions like this and put all the food and alcohol on it along with the blender. Can't have margaritas without them being blended after all.
Other then that there really wasn't anything left to do, so Austin and I just poured up some drinks and sat down to talk and wait for the first group to arrive. I went with an incredible hulk cause I wanted my something sweet and Austin had a rum and coke since I'd gotten that specific bottle of rum just for him.
I went to sit down after making my drink and Austin comes up and tells me "What are you doing get up." so I look at him funny and get up. He takes my seat and tells me to turn around. I turn around and surprise, Austin had wanted me in his lap instead of sitting next to him.
Leaning my head back so it was on his shoulder, I kiss him on the cheek and take a sip of my hulk. We sit there quietly for a few moments before Austin says "I'm not much of a party person Lily. I know I probably should have told you that earlier but you seemed really happy to have a going away party and I wasn't going to ruin it for you babe. Just know that if I'm being too quiet or something it's not your fault, I just feel a little uncomfortable k?" and starts kissing my neck softly.
Tilting my head so he could have easier access to my throat, I tell him "Mmm it's okay Austin. I'm actually not much of a party person too usually, I just like seeing everyone I know together in one place having fun and knowing it's thanks to me. I don't care about myself partying, long as my friends are having fun and I am too. Which since your here I know I'll be happy tonight."
I shut up after that, Austin was too busy making my mind go blank from all the sweet kisses to make it hard to think anyways. We stayed like that for a little while, Austin nuzzling my neck and me occasionally kissing his forhead.
We talked a little more after our small cuddle session, but it was mostly unimportant stuff. He asked how many people he might know at the party and stuff like that while I asked him about how he thought our trip to his mom's place was going to go.
We probably would have gone back to making out if Angela hadn't shown up with the first group of people right as I'd turned around to give Austin hot kiss.
I'd told her to get the people furthest from my place first, which took a while cause I lived in the center of town and they lived on the outskirts, and in different directions. She'd went and picked up Matt, JoJo, Dewie, Amanda and Kookie.
Giving all of them hugs I showed them where the food and booze was before going to Austin, grabbing his hand and dragging him over to the stereo to help me pick out what music to play first. I was the type of girl who literally listened to every type of music there was so I always had someone else help me pick what to play when I had company.
I told Austin to help me pick something then handed him my CD collection. There was Rascal Flatts, Insane Clown Posse, Sugarland, Tech N9ne, Disturbed, Metallica, Guns N' Roses, Nikki Minaj, P!nk, Three Days Grace, Creed, Thompson Squared, Alan Jackson, Evanescence, Big Daddy Weave, God is an Astronaut, Imogen Heap and so many more.
Kind of not surprisingly, Austin picked the perfect CD to play for my friends. He'd chose Angelic by Tech N9ne, which worked since even though most my friends had varied tastes one thing most of them liked was Tech.
Putting in the CD I hit shuffle and asked if anyone wanted to play any cards or drinking games til everyone else got there. We had probably another hour or two til Angela would finish picking everyone up and it was only six thirty.
Matt and JoJo wanted to take some shots to get the party started while the others wanted to play a card drinking game. So I grabbed up three card decks out of my room real quick and we decided to play Speed but make it interesting.
Every time one of us couldn't play a card first before we'd flip a new one they had to take a shot. Loser of the game had to take an additional two at the end. After three rounds of that we had to cut off Dewie and Amanda. Since they were both light weights and I didn't want anyone puking before the party really started I had them go pick something out to eat.
Hearing my phone go off for a text I check it and see it's from Angela. I check it and smile. She'd just wanted to know if her boyfriend that didn't like me could come anyways as long as he didn't piss me off.
She knew if he pushed my buttons that since he was on parole I could throw him back in jail right quick if he started something so we both knew he'd behave unless he wanted to go away for two years. I texted her a quick "Sure, long as u keep him under control u kno I dnt care. Jus keep him from talking shit all night as usual & we wont have any problems :)"
Since I had Austin there and I knew from our high school days about Austin's temper I decided i needed to tell him about Jeff. Especially if Jeff couldn't keep his mouth shut I knew that the police wouldn't be picking up just one guy I told Austin what had happened between me and Angela's boyfriend.
"Why are you even inviting him then Lily? If the asshole doesn't like you why do you want him around? You know if he says too much crap about you I'm going to have to handle him right?" Austin said right away after explained to him how Jeff was towards me. I sighed inwardly and knew I didn't want to spend all night dealing with with two overly dramatic guys so it was time for me to use my evil eyes instead of giving him every last detail of the problem.
Giving Austin my death glare I tell him "Baby I don't give a rat's ass about him. Angela loves him and if he just leaves me alone it doesn't bug me. He doesn't like me because when we met back I was heavy ans he still has it in his head that I'm the same loser from back then. That I'm some sort of awkward unlovable stuck-up virgin who can't get any friends and is a total weirdo.
But guess what? It's his problem that he doesn't like me, not mine. I'm not going to force someone to like me or go out of my way to keep them out of my life if they can't. So just please don't start a fight or anything with him Austin, because even if I decided to not call the cops if you two fight that doesn't mean my neighbors won't if they hear it.
If he's being a jerk we'll just have Angela or someone take him out of here so he can't make problems okay baby? I just want to hang out with my friends and enjoy being in your arms while I have one last party with them." and I place my hand on his cheek looking deep into his green eyes hoping he'd get the message.
I could also tell that when I told him the last part that he'd melted. He nodded okay and told me that he'd try which was all that mattered to me. Austin was an amazing guy, but I always knew he had just a bit of a temper problem, something that had thankfully gotten better over the years but how much so I was still unsure about.
Grabbing his hand, I wrap his arm around me and rest my head on his shoulder to whisper in his ear "I can't wait to have you all to myself. Your the best babe and I'm so glad I can call you mine." I wrap my arms around his neck at that point, look into his gorgeous green eyes and pull his head towards mine to place a soft kiss on his lips.
We kiss lightly but sweetly for a few moments before Matt opens his big mouth and says "Either break it up or go find a room and screw already! Enough of the PDA though, it's making me nauseous."
Sticking my tongue out at Matt I flip him off and say back "I bet you'd like that wouldn't you. Ya'll get left alone in here with six gallons of alcohol while I go enjoy some personal time with my man. Shame I'm not stupid hun!" and give Austin one more kiss before I be nice and don't rub my relationship in their faces.
I knew that I'd been kind of mean without knowing it by making out with Austin right in front of them, now that Matt had pointed it out. Matt had recently gotten dumped by Anna, Austin's own ex from high school, just a couple months ago and he still hadn't gotten over her. I hadn't told either of them that they had dated the same girl though and I wasn't planning to either. I could only hope that Angela would be unable to remember that particular relationship from way back when or I might have to deal with Matt grilling Anna's past over the phone once I've left. He's one friend I've always had a soft spot for after I found out he nearly died as a kid too. I guess that's what happens when you meet someone you share something traumatic with.
Also Kookie's ex had just ran off to Spirit Lakes and said she wasn't going to let him see their child and Amanda, who was Dewie's and Kookie's sister had just had a kid of her own about a year ago and her ex David was still in love with her too but she wasn't taking him back for some reason no one knew but them.
Hell, now that I'd thought about it the only person who I'd probably not insulted by accident was JoJo. He'd been with his girl Franie for over a year now and Angela was picking her up next along with Anna, Jeff and Nessa.
Realizing that I had completely forgotten that Elliot and Molly had their own cars and that since Molly was in A.A. she could be a designated driver I whipped out my cell and sent them both a quick text invite.
Thankfully they both said yes which meant that Angela wouldn't have to drive as much leaving her time to chill at the party with the rest of us. I had Molly go pick up her man, Andrew, his girl Emma, and James. I know I know, James is my ex and I probably shouldn't have him around my new boyfriend but we'd agreed to stay friends and after two years I'd finally forgiven him for all that had happened between us.
Besides as much as I'd loved him while we were together and then hated him when we broke up, I'd known him since the sixth grade. Jame was one of the first people to be nice to me when I'd moved to Sandpoint at eleven, and while we'd had the whole relationship fiasco I wasn't going to stop being his friend.
I was one of the only people in his life who didn't treat him like he was dog poop on their shoes every time he made a mistake. Much as I hated to admit it, even as just his friend I sometimes wondered if I was the only good thing in his life when his 'friends' would get mad at him and call him a bitch for bailing on them to skate alone cause he'd changed his mind about wanting to hang out.
Shaking my head a little, I snap myself out of the James-related thought train I'd found myself on. Enough thinking about him, I think to myself, he had his chance long ago and now I have someone way better.
Glancing at Austin sitting down alone, I wonder real quick if I was making the right choice. I knew I was falling for him and that I would definitely enjoy being with him, but was I being selfish? My mom had lost her mind because she'd lost her kids, would I make her mind worse abandoning her like this?
Yet at the same time I wondered if she'd even notice. She hadn't come out to the garage yet, forcing herself on everyone and trying to get attention. I hadn't even heard her fighting with herself in her room about how everything was hers and that everyone else living here was raping her in her sleep.
Reminding myself of that one thing made me not care again if I was being selfish or not. She'd been the one trying to rape people, my friends waking up to her trying to kiss them and other crap like that. Along with stealing her husband's car cause it was her spaceship, trying to throw down and rape my friend Johnny plus a whole mess of other bull.
And we'd tried everything to get her help too, at first. We'd called the cops when she was attacking people, taken her to mental health when she'd be hurting herself and way to delusional to care, even told the people at the mental place that we couldn't handle her anymore and that they needed to take care of her from now on.
None of it had worked. Cops couldn't hold her cause she was insane, mental health would only change her medications and send her back, and even after we told them we wouldn't take her back they had the cop drop her off at the house!
She'd pawned everyone's jewelry in the entire house, stole peoples clothes out of the laundry room - mostly underwear too for some damn reason, broke into bedrooms when we were sleeping and stared at us and repeatedly thrashed random rooms of the house then blamed us and would try and attack us for it.
As much as I loved my mother, felt bad that what had happened to her had happened, and wished for years I could change it I couldn't. And I wasn't going to stay here and risk turning out just like her.
Walking up to Austin and holding his hand, I remind myself that I'd done the best I could and it hadn't helped. Tried as hard as I could to save her even when I knew it wasn't possible. There was nothing wrong with walking away from something you couldn't help after you'd tried half your life.
Leaning on Austin to take in his delicious scent, I calm myself down from the anger I always felt thinking about how much we'd tried to help her. We'd all tried, and all she ever did was act like she didn't want us to.
So I wasn't going to try anymore, I was going to enjoy my party, leave with the amazing man standing right next to me and pray that God was watching over my mom since I no longer would be.
AND THAT'S ALL FOLKS! Hope you enjoyed chaper seven and I apologize for taking so long on getting it out to you lovely people. Seeing as how this one's way longer then the past chapters I've come out with it'll make it up to you a lil ;) Toon in next time for the next happy installment of Falling for a Dark God!!!!