Ever since Ricky has proposed he's been off, or I mean he's been spending so much more time with Jessica.
Jessica is getting big, she's 5 months along only 4 more to go.
Honestly I really don't forgive her for what she had done to me but I've learn to bite my tongue and be civil with her.
Ricky has been out with Jessica baby shopping, and honestly I'm starting to feel like the third wheel but I'm sure it's just because she's having his child.
Ricky hasn't even told me he loves me in weeks.
I guess I should hang out with someone today and not be by myself like I have been the past few days.
I call Ryan-Ashley to see if she wants to go out shopping or something.
"Hello?" Her voice says, I hear slight buzzing in the background.
"Hey Ryan it's Cheyenne," I grin even though she can't see it.
"Oh hey! What's up?" She asks.
"Well I was wondering if you wanted to go shopping, or go out for lunch or anything," I suggest.
"Gee that sounds really fun but sadly I can't, the shop is really busy today, we could do something another time," Ryan explains.
"Oh ok, yeah another time,"
"But hey, congratulations on the engagement," Ryan cheered.
"Thanks I can't wait till I'm married to Ricky," I smile.
"I bet, Josh has yet to make a move or anything," Ryan sighs.
"I'm sure he'll do something soon,"
"Maybe, anyway I have to go talk later,"
I hang up and sigh.
I don't have a lot of friends here. I guess I'll go out by myself.
I get dressed wearing simply a Guns 'n Roses shirt and skinny jeans. I slip on my shoes and leave.
I got to the mall and decided that I'll buy new lingerie and surprise Ricky, maybe he'll pay attention to me more and we can discuss stuff for the wedding.
I look at the bras and there are pretty cute one but I want more a sexy turn on piece.
I found this piece, it's red and black.
The top is like a push up bra but has fabric that goes down to my hips.
Then a black g-string, with stockings that attach to the top part.
It's perfect to get Ricky turned on.
I get it and walk to Hot Topic.
I find a few more things and decide to head home.
I get home and I take out the lingerie.
Ricky is out with Jessica today shopping and just spending time together, I have this feeling in my stomach thinking they are doing something.
But he's my fiancé I doubt he'd be doing that with her. Plus she's pregnant, you can't have sex with someone when they're pregnant. Can you?
I push the thought away.
Ricky should be home soon.
I go take a shower cleaning every part of me.
I hope out and out on the lingerie, I blow dry my hair leaving it loose and sexy.
I light some candles and wait.
It's been three hours that I have been waiting.
It's now 11:36pm.
Now I'm really getting a bad feeling about what Ricky is up to...
I take the bra and everything off and throw it in my closet bitterly.
I sigh and just put my sports bra and shorts on.
I blow out the candles and lay on my bed.
I close my eyes.
I hear the front door open.
I put on a shirt and go downstairs to find Ricky and Jessica in a laughing fit.
Ricky is bending over laughing his ass off while Jessica is leaning on the door frame.
"What's so funny?" I ask giving them a small fake smile.
"Oh it's nothing you wouldn't get it," Ricky laughs.
"Oh... Well where have you been all day?" I ask crossing my arms over my chest.
"We went shopping but Ricky didn't find anything he wanted, then we went out for lunch, we went to the park and then went to see a movie," Jessica giggled calming down.
"Oh well I hope you had a lovely day, a lovely two weeks," I say half heartedly walking away.
I hear Ricky sigh as he says goodbye to Jessica.
Ricky comes up behind me and grabs my arm.
"Ok, what is wrong?" He asks in an annoyed tone.
"Nothing," I simply say walking away.
"Seriously Cheyenne there's something wrong, is it that I'm spending time with Jessica? Because I'm not gonna stop hanging out with the mother of my soon to be baby girl," Ricky informs me.
"It's nothing," I quietly speak.
"Cheyenne what the hell is wrong with you?!" Ricky snaps.
"Everything is wrong with me!!" I scream. "It's been two fucking weeks since you proposed and we haven't even talked about when the wedding is gonna be, who's gonna be invited, not even the location! Then you're out all day and all night with Jessica God knows what you two are doing!" I yell throwing my hands up in the air.
"You seriously think so low of me as to think I'd cheat?!" Ricky scoffs.
"I have every fucking reason to think you'd cheat! You cheated before," I cry.
"I'd never cheat on you again, especially because I'm marrying you," Ricky explains.
"I just don't know..." I whimper.
"Don't know... What?" Ricky's voice lowers.
"You know what it doesn't matter, can we please just talk about the wedding?" I ask.
"Can we tomorrow? I'm really tired Jessica-"
"Jessica! Why is everything Jessica now?! Jessica this! Jessica that! I'm sick of it!" I scream losing it.
"Seriously Cheyenne stop being such a bitch! Jessica is my friend! My friend! You're my fiancé!" Ricky shouts at me.
Tears fall down my cheeks.
"If I'm being such a bitch why do you put up with it?!"
"I don't know!"
"Then don't bother!" I sobbed.
"...What?" Ricky softly asks.
"I said don't bother..." I hiccup as tears stream down my face.
Ricky doesn't say anything he just walks up to me and cups my face. He leans in and kisses me.
"Baby I need you, I bother because I love you, I'm sorry I'm always out with Jessica, we'll talk wedding plans tomorrow ok?" Ricky whispers.
I nod my head as he wipes my tears away.
Ricky picks me up and takes me to my room. He lays me down in my bed and tucks me in.
He gets up to leave but I grab his wrist.
"Please.. Don't go, sleep with me tonight," I ask.
"Ok babe,"
Ricky strips down and climbs in beside me and spoons me.
He kisses my head and holds me close to him.
"I had something special for you tonight," I mumble.
"Oh yeah? What?" He asks curiously.
"I got new lingerie and candles and it was gonna be a special night for us," I say, a bit of anger building back up from talking about it.
"Oh I'm really sorry I missed that," Ricky apologizes.
"It's fine, we'll have our wedding night for that," I giggle.
"I haven't said this in two weeks and I'm sorry, but I love you so much," Ricky whispers.
"I love you too,"