It's short and it's from Phebs' POV, almost at the end of Backfire and beginning of Misconceptions. Just for you to understand a bit how she felt during that time. Hope you like it, Comment, vote!
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That Moment - Phoebe
That moment when you look at him and you heart beats so fast it hurts yet you can't do anything about it. You're frozen in your spot, waiting for something you know it will never happen. You see him and see all the good things, all you ever wanted but you know it can never be yours because he's someone else's, because he doesn't look at you the same way, because he doesn't think of you like that.
That moment when all you want is for him to look at you and to be the only girl in his eyes. When you wish so badly things would be different but they are not. He still has his girlfriend, someone you can't hate because she's great and makes him happy and even more than your own happiness, you want his. Even if it means it will break your heart into a thousand pieces.
That moment when you cry at night alone in your room because you hate to love him so bad and you can't change how you feel even if you try. When you only want that peace you had before but at the same time you don't want to quit the warm feeling in your chest when you see him smile because he's just incredible. He's just him, the kind, nice and sweet boy who would never hurt anybody on purpose. The boy who can be so serious one moment and then a complete child. The boy you love but who doesn't love you back. He's Liam Payne.
That moment when you see him with her, smiling, his eyes shining and showing how everything is different when he's with her and you wish to be the reason that lights up his world. But you're not. You're just his friend, someone who he would never want in another way. And it hurts so much its beyond words.
That moment when you realise he's never going to love you the same way, no matter what you do, you're simply not what he wants and you have to accept it. You have to move on even if it seems impossible. You have to heart to take a break, to heal and maybe let it love someone else. But no one will be like him, no one will be Liam and you wonder if it is even worth it to try to move one because there is not going to be someone better than him. Not in your eyes. But you have to believe, you have to think you'll find someone for you. It's not going to be Liam, it's not going to be like that, but maybe you will be happy and he'll want you back.
That moment when you just give up and lose all hope, when you stop dreaming that something will change someday. When you just accept he's not meant for you ad you have to held your head high and walk away from the pain. When you decide you have to keep going and try to look for happiness far away from him. When you know you have to stop putting yourself in this painful situation. When you have to stop the pity party and assume he has a girlfriend, and she's no you and she'll never be.
That moment when you take the first step to forget about Liam Payne.