10. Monday
I'm still so overwhelmed about what happened yesterday and it's taking me a long time to come to terms with all this devastation. For the first time I feel so alone, lost, abandoned. I think why all of this had happened to me. Have I done something wrong, so wrong that I am homeless , orphaned and left to keep myself alive , is there even a point? Is my life worth living?
I quickly push all those thoughts out my mind and get changed into some fresh clothes , I stayed at my house last night and Jake went home . I didn't want to overstay my welcome even though he insisted I kindly declined , I wanted to spend every last minute in my childhood home . I couldn't help think though what there was to do next , Friday I am to leave because I have no money to pay rent . The only thought that stands out is calling my father and trust me that's the last thing I want to do.
I immediately remember I have school today ! Crap! I'm not ready to see Kate and Jake will act so different . I go and lie in bed and the next thing I know it's 2 o'clock , I must of fell asleep , and school finishes in an hour so I get into my pjs and just go back to bed remembering to set my alarm for the morning . Maybe I'll actually make it to school at some point .
* I just wanted to say a real big thank you to everyone who reads and votes ! Especially queendreamyx romione_fan_no1 AineAldridge ...
Also , I know I'm not writing as much as usual but I have been sooooooooooo super busy but I promise to publish as much as possible , thank you X *