ANDREA'S POV
Shiz! I hope he wouldn't misunderstand things. But knowing Baekhyun, he surely will. Akala niya may namamagitan saamin ni Chanyeol, akala niya si Chanyeol ang mahal ko.
I don't know what to do. Feeling ko mas lalong lalayo ang loob niya saakin. He's so... distant, noong nakaraang mga araw. Then? Mas lalo siyang mabibigyan ng rason kung bakit siya lalayo ng husto. I don't effin' want that!
But, as I look upon him I can't even move, not a single step. As if my feet are glued into the ground. All I can do is stare at his gaze, letting myself drown into those orbs which makes my knees go jell-o.
I want to utter a single word however, my mouth won't even move. Why am I like this? I really want to get close to him, close the gap between us. Break this wall he keeps on building every single day. Let him say the words I've been dying to hear.
"Sorry for disturbing," He said then look at Chanyeol for about three seconds then to me, halos hindi ako makahinga sa titig niya. Ang tagal ng titig niya at hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal ito, yet it's enough to make my heart race and make my stomach churn.
"Ah, Baek, a-anong pinagsasabi mo?" Chanyeol made an awkward laugh. Napatingin ako sakanya, alam kong he's doing his best para hindi mamisunderstand ni Baekhyun ang lahat.
"Well, as I enter the rooftop my eyes fell on the both of you, hugging and her... kissing you." Halos manlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya, lalo na ng diniin niya ang salita sa huli. So, h-he thought na...
"Oh, congratulations! I never thought I'm the very first creature to know that the two of you are now official so---"
"B-Baek..." This time I already have found my voice, and my tongue seems to move at my will, blurting his name.
His gaze fell upon me and I shudder, his eyes were so... cold and intense. Now, my voice once again have abandoned me, leaving me speechless. Well yeah, I guess I'm the most idiot person in this planet.
"What now?" He said, raising his left brow while holding the knob of the door, titling his head as if waiting for me to speak.
"P-pwede ba akong l-lumapit sa'yo?" He stiffened a little bit but regain his composture, hindi niya siguro na inaasahan na sasabihin ko ang mga katagang iyon.
He laugh, not the laugh which I like, it was an empty one... a bitter kind of laugh. How can the sweet Baekhyun I knew before can transformed into this kind of creature? Is he really Baekhyun? Is this really a part of Byun Baekhyun's?
"Why? Scared of me, young girl?" No, I am never scared of you. Takot lang ako na baka pag lumapit ako, itulak mo ako palayo dahil ayaw mong lumapit saakin, dahil ayaw mo akong maging parte muli ng buhay mo.
"Nope, I am not." I look at him. A smirk made it's way into his lips, since when did he learn to smirk?
Lumingon ako kay Chanyeol, he also looked at me. We smiled onto each other before facing Baekhyun, is he testing me? I glaced at Chanyeol once again, he gave me a reassuring smile at ngumuso sa pwesto ni Baekhyun, sinasabi na tumuloy na ako.
I nodded in response as I took a single step, I beamed.
This time, I will make my move.
'Cause I want my Baekhyun back.
STELLA'S POV
It's cute how a small thing can be so significant yet it also hurts knowing that the "small thing" can also ruin a perfectly built relationship.
Life is really cruel and bizzare, right? It was so enigmatic and funny at the same time. A mystery that no can can predict, a no-definition kind of a thing. Can you define life? No, no one could. Even Einstein couldn't, despite of his high IQ.
And, how can I relate this to my situation, you say?
Okay, I tell you, the "small thing" in my life is the word trust. It was significant at the same time it can ruin my relationship with these twelve guys I love whole-heartedly. Yet, I can't blame them because I'm the one who light the fire.
Then enter life here, 'cause right now I am having a quality time with the person whom I want to distant myself with and news flash is he also want it that way.
I don't even know how did it happened, how Suho approved. Sabi ni Sehun hindi parin daw ayos si Luhan at Suho hanggang ngayon at ayaw niyang sabihin ang dahilan kung bakit, basta ang sabi niya bro fight lang daw.
Am I happy? No.
Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko dahil naiwan ako sa bahay kasama si Luhan, na well, may sakit daw ngayon at ako daw mag-aalaga since tinawagan sila ng manager at kailangan daw nilang magkita sa SM Building.
Life. Life. Life. How can this be?
Ano, magpapanggap nanaman ako? Na parang walang nangyari between me and Luhan? Shiz, ang hirap naman ata no'n. The cut was too deep, okay masyado naman ata akong emotional ngayon. May pa small thing small thing and life kuno pa akong nalalaman. But I can't help it. I can't freakin' help it!
Okay Stella kaya mo 'yan. Inhale then exhale, mag into character ka na. Kaya mo 'yan. Go go go!
Matapos ang pagmumuni-muni ko nakarinig ako ng makalas na tunog na parang may nahulog at nabasag kaya nagmadali akong pumunta sa kwarto ni ano, L-Luhan. Langya talaga, nawa'y malagpasan ko ito.
Binuksan ko ang pinto at nakita ko si Luhan na nakahandusay sa sahig habang may basag na Soju sa gilid. Nanlaki ang mata ko, paano nakapuslit ng Soju ang nilalang na ito? Well, knowing him maraming alam na paraan iyan.
But of course, I have to help him kaya mabilis akong kumilos at hiniga siya sa higaan niyang magulo, pawis na pawis siya kaya kumuha ako ng twalya para punasan iyon.
Habang pinupunasan ko siya, nakapikit siya at parang nagrereklamo na akala mo bata siyang ayaw matulog kaya napatawa ako pero natigil sa narinig ko.
"Y-Yoona?" Okay, hindi masakit. May kung ano lang naman na tumutusok sa puso ko at may kung ano sa tummy ko na pinapalipit at parang ayaw ang nangyari, oo hindi nga masakit.
Sige na, si Yoona na ang gusto mo. Wala naman akong laban sakanya e. She's so gorgeous and plain looking lang ako, she's so admirable at ako ay hindi, she's so kind and all pero ako? Nah, I don't wanna talk about it.
"Hindi ako si Yoona." Mabilis kong sinabi habang patuloy na pinupunasan ang pawis niya, seriously? Naka-aircon na nga pinagpapawisan pa e ako halos mangisay na ako sa lamig. Balat Pilipino ba naman, sanay sa init. Hindi kami immune sa lamig 'no. Walang winter saamin, how I wish na meron.
"Then, who are you?" I just rolled my eyes. Paano mo malalaman e, nakapikit ka po.
"Try opening your eyes then." Oops, wrong move Stella. Dahil ng binuksan niya ang kanyang mga mata, ito'y nakatingin saakin.
His eyes is to die for. No wonder kung bakit ito ang asset niya, once you get drown while gazing intently at those sparkling orbs of his, you surely will have a hard time on snapping back. His eyes is as admirable as staring at a starry night sky, you can't help yourself to be amaze how beautiful it was.
I smile creep it's way into his lips. Nalaman niya ata na kanina ko pa tinititigan ang mata niya.
"Love my eyes?" He teased, kahit na halatang nanghihina siya nagawa niya pa akong asarin sa lagay na iyon.
Heck I do. "No way, mister." I cross my arms as I raise my brow.
He chuckled pero mabilis itong napalitan ng ubo kaya mabilis akong kumuha ng pitchel at baso na nasa tabi lang at binigay ito sakanya.
Umiling siya at saka inilayo ang baso sakanya. Muntik na ngang matapon ang tubig sa loob ng baso sa sobrang lakas ng paglalayo niya dito.
"No, iinumin mo ito." I said sternly. Kaya mabilis siyang napatingin saakin and titled his head, parang nagtataka.
He shook his head na parang bata na pinapainom ng bitter medicine at umiiling dahil ayaw ang lasa. Seriously? Ganito si bambi doll kapag nalalasing at may fever? Well, he looked cute though.
"Ayoko. Ayoko. Ayoko." He whined like a five year old kid which made me burst into laughter kaya tinapunan niya ako ng masama na tingin. Heck! I was enjoying this! Luhan acting like a five year old kid? Darn adorable.
"Isa!" Warning him like I'm his mother.
"Condition." He said while eyeing me. Ano ito? Parang isang basong tubig lang kailangan pa ng kondisyon. Omo!
"Okay. okay. Just drink this." Sabi ko sabay abot ng baso ng tubig at mabilis niya ito kinuha.
He was busy chugging a glass of water and hindi ko mapigilan ang pagtingin sa kanyang adam's apple as it goes up and down. No Stella, erase.
Matapos niya itong inumin binigay niya saakin ang basong walang tubig as he licked his upper lip at napapikit ako ng mariin.
Ugh, please young lad, stop teasing me.
"Oh, did I?" He grin at me. Shucks! Did I said it loud enough for him to hear me? Omo! He freakin' hear it! Oh my freakin' shiz! This ain't happening!
Isang malaking kahihiyan ito! Nawa'y hindi niya ito matandaan dahil first, he's drunk. Okay, not that drunk enough pero still may percentage na makakalimutan niya iyon. Second, he's sick and because of that he's acting like a five year old boy and maybe wala siyang maalala kinabukasan.
Pleaseeeeeee. Sana hindi niya matandahan lahat ng ito, isa 'tong malaking kahihiyan na hindi ko makakalimutan habang buhay.
He knew that I was drooling over him? That even a tiny gesture of his can... ugh, enough!
"Shut it." I said sparing a quick glance at him bago ilagay ang baso kung saan ito nakapwesto kanina.
"And now, for the condition." Napatingin ako sakanya at nakita ko siyang tinaas ang kamay niya then signaling me to come near him at dahil may sakit siya pinagbigyan ko na gawin niya akong follower niya.
Umupo ako sa gilid ng bed niya throwing him a questionable look, lumapit siya saakin closing the gap between us. Not much na halos magdikit na ang ilong namin, parang kalahati lang ng ruler yet enough for me to hold my breath.
I stiffened as he lay his head on my shoulder. I nearly gasped as I feel his warm breath into my skin, hindi ko ata kaya ang ganitong Luhan.
"L-Lu-Luhan?" I heard him chuckled.
"Why are you stammering, Claire?" Fugde, Claire, freakin' effin' fudge. Why did I like it so much?
The way he said my second name, the way he chuckled first and blurted my name. I don't why, pero parang bagay na bagay ang boses niya sa pangalan kong iyon, it perfectly fit.
'Cause you're damn close to me, you bambi doll.
"Claire, I c-can't." I heard him muttered through gritted teeth, why do he seems so frustrated? Hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi niya. Anong hindi niya kaya?
Hinawakan ko ang balikat niya at nilayo siya ng konti saakin and there, his eyes said it. Ang dating cold na mata niya, and why he's wearing a facade. It all make sense to me.
Hurt. Anger. Frustration... lingers into his eyes. Pero why on earth is he avoiding me? I want to tell him that, yet hindi ko masabi. Dahil for sure mahahalata niya na niloloko ko sila, na hindi talaga ako nagka-amnesia.
"W-Why?" I mouthed still looking into his eyes.
Umiling lang siya and silence take over. Naramdaman ko nalang na nagtama ang mga darili namin sa kamay and we both look at each other, then again I was drown into his eyes.
His gaze were so freakin' intense. Parang may pinaparating ang mga mata siya saakin pero hindi ko alam kung ano iyon, hindi ko magawang maintindihan.
Nagulat nalang ako ng lumapit muli siya saakin. He's really now closing the gap between us, his eyes look down into my lips then back into my eyes.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko, I want to push him pero I'm stuck, I couldn't move or say anything. He stop until our nose touch, biglang may electric wave na dumaloy sa buong sistema ko. Pinigil ko ang aking hininga, dumapo ang tingin niya sa mata ko, studying me.
Then biglang nanlaki ang mata niya na parang nagulat siya sa ginagawa niya, he pulled away at binagsak ang sarili sa higaan.
I gasped for air at nakahinga ng maluwang. Umayos ako ng upo at lumayo ng konti sakanya. Bigla tuloy akong nahiya dahil hinayaan ko siyang lumapit ng ganoon saakin.
Tumingin ako sakanya at nakita kong nakatingin siya saakin, I looked away. Naramdaman kong uminit ang pisngi ko. The effect he had on me.
"Did I make you feel uncomfortable?" Napatingin ako sakanya at nakita ko siyang nakapikit habang ang isang kamay niya ay nakalagay sa noo niya.
Hindi ko matanggal ang tingin ko sakanya. Nagulat ako ng buksan niya ang mga mata niya, he caught me staring at him! Kahihiyan again!
Umiling nalang ako bilang tugon sa tinanong niya kanina. Lumapit siya saakin at lumayo ako then naulit uli hanggang narinig ko siyang bumuntong hininga.
"See? You're uncomfortable."
"N-no, I'm not."
"Then, don't move away from me Claire."
Damn, Claire. He said it again, bakit ba gusto kong marinig ulit iyon lumabas sa bibig niya?
Naramdaman ko nalang na may mainit na dumikit saakin kaya nabaling doon ang pansin ko. Luhan's right beside me and I dunno what to do.
"Good." He mouthed.
Napatingin ako sakanya. Why the heck is he doing this? Diba dati halos itakwil niya na ako? Pero bakit ngayon grabe siya makadikit saakin na parang sa sobrang close namin baka maging isa nalang kame.
Why are so unfathomable Luhan? You made my heart race then left me hanging which shattered my heart and then? You're picking up the pieces one by one, right now.
As if reading my emotions he said.
"Why am I doing these? I also don't know. But, even though I am this, you know, cryptic," he laugh bitterly then look at me with those captivating eyes. "which I know infuriated you... don't leave me here all alone and stay with me for tonight. That's my condition."