I Was Working On Operation Get August Back And Nobody Wasn't Gon Stop Me Not Jalen Not Miracle Not Even Cathrine
I Just Want My Baby Back I Want Em Back Now Where Im At Is Where He's Belong Im At His At Best Interest Who Gon Love Him Like I Do?
And I Know He Wants Me Back Too He Just Doesn't Realize It Yet,But Deep Down He Knows Me And Him Are Meant To Be
I Don't Cares What No Ones Say Ima Get My Baby Back And Ima Give My Son A Family With Two Parents
Ayden Deserves Two Parents,He Deserve A Family Thats Why Me And August Gotta Work It Out For Ayden
Remembering Back In My Life And How I Never Had An Family
I Had Two Parents Arguing All Day All Night I Just To Think Back When I Hated Being Home Hearing My Father Call My Mother Every Name But A Child Of Jesus Really Fucked Me Up
I Can Remember Me Being A Young Child Listening To My Mother And Father Yell And Fight I Used To Pray To God To Make It All Stop Cause I Was Just Sick Of Hearing Them Fight
Where Im From We Don't Have Happy Families,Fathers,Or Hope
You Don't Know What Its Like To Watch Your Father Pack All His Things And Leave You Don't Know What Its Like To Watch Your Mother Slowly Die Inside
I Can Remember Askin My Mother "When's Daddy Coming Back"
And I Can Remember Her Tellin Me "You Ain't Got A Daddy No More!"
My Father Left My Mother And My Mother Hated My Father
If They Loved Me They Should Of Put Their Differences Aside And Been There For Me But They Didn't My Mother Got A Drinkin Problem And My Father Got Himself A New Family
Guess Thats Why Im Fightin So Hard For Me And August To Come Together
August Came Over Early Today To Spend Some With Ayden
August Was Layin In My Bed With Ayden And I Was Putting My Hair Up
I Had On A Big T-shirt And No Make Up On
August Was Over There Crackin Up At Ayden
"What Is So Funny"I Said Beginning To Giggle
"Don't Shit Phase Ayden Im Over Here Bein Silly He Will Not Smile He Lookin At Me Like Im Stupid"August Said
"He's Very Observant All He Does Watches You"I Said As I Crawled Next To Him
"Look At My Big Boy,You Ready To Eat Some Cornbread And Collard Greens"I Said To Ayden In A Baby Voice
Ayden Grinned A Little
"There Go A Smile"I Said To Ayden
"Oh You Like It When We Talk About Food Well Ya Want Some Popeyes And My Mama's Gumbo"August Said To Ayden
Than Ayden Grinn Fade Away And He Straight Faced August
I Began Laughing "How Cute Is That I Have The Cutest Little Baby In The World"
"Stop Callin My Son Cute Tell Ya Mama Real Nigga Ain't Cute Say Im Handsome Just Like My Daddy"August Said
"Mama Fine Too Tho"August Said Looking At Me
"Im Very Fine Thank You Very Much"I Said To August
"Beautiful"He Said
I Smiled And Said "Tomorrow Is His First Doctor Appointment And We Would Love It If You Could Join Us"
"Im There I Won't Be Miss Any More Of My Son Life,I Already Missed The Birth I Ain't Missin Nothing Else So I'll Be There,And Oh Yeah My Mama Havin A Get Together She Wanna Show Ayden Off So Yall Be Ready Ima Come Pick Yall Up"He Said
"Your Mother Been Great She's Been Coming Over Helpinn Out With Ayden You Was Right Shes A Great Grandmother"I Admit
"I Told Ya My Mama Loves Babies,When You Gon Let Ya Mama Meet Ayden"He Asked
"Im Not,She Bet Not Come Near Ayden"I Said
August Shook His Head "Well You Know Erica Just Got Back From Vacation"
"I Know Right She Just Hit Me Up She Wanna Go Out Tonight But Im Not Up For It I Rather Just Stay In With My Babies"I Said Kissin Ayden
Just Us Three At The Crib Chillin August Fried Some Good Ass Chicken And We Watched Some Movies It Was A Good Night
August Had To Get Up Early The Next Day He Had A Show To Prepare For
And Me And Ayden Was Up Getting Ready For His Doctor Appointment
And My Baby Was Blessed Ayden Had More Clothes And Shoes Than Me I Could Decided What To Put Him On
His Closet Filled With Fendi,Burberry,Marc Jacobs,And Gucci
I Literally Tried Ayden On 30 Different Outfits And He Looked Cute In All Of Em I Just Couldn't Decide
"Best Part About Havin A Baby Is Dressin You Up"I Said To Ayden
Brea Walked In And Said "Wassup People"
I Turned And Looked At Brea And Said "Hey Auntie Brea Is Here" As I Picked Up Ayden
"Look At The Little Baby He Got Bigger Since The Last Time I Saw Him Back At The Hospital He So Cute Lookin Like August Lightskin Ass"Brea Said Holding His Little Hand
"Tell Me About It What You Doing Here This Early"I Asked
"I Had To Get Out That House Before I Killed That Nigga I Love My Baby I Hate My Baby Daddy!"She Said
"What Happened This Time"I Said To Brea
"It's Everything He Don't Have A Job,He Can't Help Out With The Bills,He Can't Help Take Care Of Our Daughter Im Working Two Jobs Supportin Him And Our Child I Just Can't Do This Shit No More"She Said
"Take A Deep Breath,You Seem Overwhelmed Brea"I Said
She Inhale And Exhale Slowly
"That A Girl Calm Down"I Said
"Aziah I Can't Even Pay For My Baby Daycare This Month Because All The Money I Made Had To Go Toward Over Due Bills"She Said
I Placed Ayden In His Crib As Brea Continued Venting To Me
"Its Like Everytime I Turn I Gotta Fuckin Bill In My Face And I Just Got Fired From My Second I Don't Know What Ima Do I Just Know I Need To Figure It Out Quick"She Said
"Brea,Look I Can Loan You Some Money So You Can Pay For Londons DayCare"I Said
"You Can?"She Asked
"Of Course I Can,August Putting Money In My Account Every Week Now I Have The Money"I Said
"I Appreciate It Aziah Ima Get You All Yo Money Asap I Promise You"She Said
"Brea Its Good Don't Worry Bout It Do Me A Favor Don't Stress Ya Self Out So Much You Doin The Best You Can"I Said
"Im Really Am,Im Trying To Stay Strong Aziah I Don't Know How Much Longer I Can Go On Like This"She Said On The Verge Of Cryin
I Took My Arms And Wrapped Around Brea Who Was Going Through A Tough Time
I Was Blessed Compare To Than Average Baby Mama I Didn't Have Money Issues August Was Putting In That Work Just To Make Sure Me And Ayden Was Good
My Son Had Everything And More Off August Income Alone While Brea Was Struggling To Put Food On The Table
And As A Friend You Don't Judge You Give An Helpin Hand And Thats What I Did Cause I Saw How Hard Of A Time Brea Was Havin She Was Near Her Breakin Point
I Wrapped Her In My Arms And Said "Im Here And You Gon Get Through This Brea Your The Strongest Person I Know You Can Make It Through Whatever"
"I Really Needed To Hear That I Feel Like I Can't Even Breath So Much Been On My Mind And Chest"She Said As I Hugged Her
As The Day Went On Me And August Took Our Son To His First Appointment And Everything Was Fine I Headed Home And August Headed Out To His Show
I Had Mrs.Franklin Put Ayden Down For A Nap As I Shower
After I Shower I Walked By Tamara Packing Her Things Up
"Tamera Don't Tell Me You Movin Out"I Asked Her
"I Am,Im Finally Out"She Said
I Jump Up In Joy "Yasss!"
"Don't Get Too Happy,I Won't Be Leaving For Another Week Or So" She Said
"Thats Cool, Thats Cool So You Found A Place And Everything?"I Asked Being Extra Exicited
"Umm Yeah Kinda"She Responded
"Don't Hold Back,Tell Me Everything"I Said
"Well I Audition For This Reality Show And I Got The Gig Im Movin Out To New York,They Gon Hook Me Up With An Apartment A Car,And The Money Is Lookin Real Good"She Bragged
"Tamera That Sounds Great,You And Zoey Are Gonna Love New York I Just Know You Are"I Said Being Happy For Her
"Actually Zoey...Zoey Not Goin With Me She Stayin Here With My Mom"Tamera Said With Her Head Down
"What Why Not"I Asked
"When I Get To New York i Start Filming,Ima Be Busy So It Best Zoey Stay Here With My Mama"She Said
"You Seriously Leaving Your Child For A Damm Reality Show"I Asked
"Aziah Don't Make Me Feel Bad I Feel Bad Enough"Tamera Said
"Well You Should! "I Said
"I Gotta Do What I Gotta Do We All Can't Get Pregnant By August Alsina"She Said
"Whats That Supposed To Mean?"I Asked
"Im Sayinn You Have A Two Thousand Dollar Louis Vuitton Diaper Bag,August Is Great To And Ayden You Wouldn't Have No Idea How Hard It Is To Be A Single Mother So Don't Judge Me Im Just Doin What's Best For Mines"She Said
"Right Because Packin Up Leavin Your Daughter Is Whats Best"I Said
"They're Offering Me Money I Can't Turn Dowm,Fame,A Chance To Finally Be Somebody Im So Sick Of Working A Nine To Five All Day Every Day Just To Make Meat Ends I Wanna Live Nice Travel The World,And Have Not A Worry In The World"She Said
"Tamera You So Selfish"I Said Shakin My Head In Disappointment
"Well Atleast Now Get Paid To Be Selfish"She Said As Continue To Pack