The Matrimony Book#2 (Completed)

Chapter 19-Breakdown Part 2

By The Time Me And My Mother Got Home Cathrine Was Sitting On My Couch And By The Look On Her Face I Could Something Wasn't Right So Immediately I Asked Her "Whats Wrong"

She Looked At Me With This Sorrowful Look Upon Her Face Said The Worst Possible Thing You Can Say To A Mother She Opened Her Mouth And She Said"August Filled For Full Custody"

"What...No August Promise He Wouldn't Take Ayden From Me...Thats Can't Be Right..He Said That He Would Give Me Time To Get My Shit Together He Can't Take Ayden From..... He Can't....Right"I Said Looking At Both My Mother Cathrine

"He Can And He Is..Sorry"Cathrine Said

"No No..No...He Can't Do This Ma He Can't Do This"I Said As I Started Crying

I Fell To My Knees I Felt Like I Was Gonna Die Soon My Heart Hurted So Bad

"What Am I Gonna Do Now"I Cried Out Cause I Honestly Had No Idea If August Take Ayden From Than I Betta Start Preparing For My Funeral

I Was On My Knees Breaking Down

When My Mother Wiped My Tears And She Grabbed Me By My Face With Her Hands And She Looked Me Dead In My Eye "Im Goin To Tell You What Your Gonna Do Your Going To Get Up And Go Pack Your Goin To The Nearest Rehab Immediately"

My Mother Was Serious As An Heart Attack "Mama I Can't Go To An Rehab" I Cried

"You Will....!"She Told Me

"What If It Don't Work Mama What If I Failed At Rehab Too"I Cried To Her

"You Won't....You Know Why You Won't"She Asked Me

I Cried And Said "Why"

"Because Of Ayden You Gotta Fix This For Ayden Because You Don't Want Him Growin Up Hating You Like You Hated Me" She Said

That Touched My Heart She Hit A Nerve Just Like That

I Would Be Completely Heartbroken If Ayden Said He Hated Me Like I Said I Hated My Mother On Many Occasions

I Could Never Understand How My Mother Put Her Addiction Over Me Now Im Walkin Her Same Shoes And I Understand Clearly Now

Parents Are Still Humans Just Like You And I,And Its Only Natural To Make Mistakes As Human

I Neglected My Son For These Drugs And I May Of Lost My Son For Good Because Of Drugs

I Reached The Point Where I Realized The Love I Have For Ayden Is Stronger Than Addiction I Now Wanted Help

"Mama Im Scared"I Said To Her

"Are You,Your Scared Of Gettin Your Life Together And Succeeding Living Your Life The Way God Intended To Be You Can't Possibly Be Afraid Of Bettering Yourself"She Said To Me

For The First Time In My Life My Mother Was Finally Being A Mother I Needed Her To Be After All These Years She Finally Stood Her Ground With Me

"You Gonna Do This...Aziah I Will Die And Go To Hell Twice Before I Let You Continue Living Like This Do You Understand Me"My Mother Staring At The Demons In My Soul

Cathrine Held Her Hand Out "Get Up...Lets Start Packing"

That Day My Mother Saved Me From Me Because I Was My Own Enemy

I Was Hurting Everyone Who Loved Me And Most Of All I Was Losing My Son

I Was Ashamed Of Self And I Didn't Wanna Keep Living Like This Anymore

It Was Time...I Get My Together

I Wiped My Weaken Eyes...Took A Deep Breath And I Got Up Off That Floor