i want to dedicate @Jordanallie for the amazing song that helped me get through this chapter, it really describes Andys mind set at the beginning of the chapter....but that all changes. So thank you again so much! so listen to it over there---->
if you know of any other songs please let me know, it really does help :D
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It took me a while but I finally convinced myself that this was the right thing to do…or at least that’s what I told myself.
Today I was plagued with questions that I had no idea how to answer.
How do I feel about Mason? Is the way I feel real? Is it worth losing him? How does he feel? How am I going to get over this? Is it even possible?
The only answer to all those questions was to have fun, and that’s exactly what I was going to do.
If I went out and for once had a good time maybe I’ll see that these feelings I think I have aren’t real at all...that would make everything a lot simpler.
Or maybe ill just end up hurting everyone and myself I care about…
But as I walked down the long walkway towards the large house surrounded by people I couldn’t help but push all those thoughts away.
As I stood outside the door listening to the blasting music coming from inside I let out a deep breath. I couldn’t help but mentally congratulate myself for successfully avoiding Mason and I thought I looked pretty good for a person who was a having a mental breakdown.
I was wearing a white lace dress that came up to about mid thigh, and had sleeves that stopped at my elbows with my converses of course (PICTURE OVER THERE---->)
After I finally gathered up the courage to knock on the door Ken opened the door and looked at me with a smile after he gazed up and down my body lustfully.
“Hey Andy!” he said happily over the loud music.
“Hey.” I said as I walked inside and stood beside him in the crowded foyer.
“Where’s Mase and the twins?” he asked and I couldn’t help but be annoyed. Everyone and their mom expected me to be on the arms of my brothers or Mason. For once why can’t I be on my own?
“Don’t really know….” I said and he nodded as some blonde girl tapped him on the shoulder.
“Hold on…” he said before he turned his attention to the blonde. I looked around the crowded house. There were more than a hundred people dancing in the living room and half of them I didn’t recognize.
“Listen I got to go handle something, but drinks and snacks are in the kitchen…enjoy.” He said with a smile before he followed the blonde girl upstairs.
I couldn’t help but feel out of place without Mason or my brothers as I stood in the entrance of the house looking around at the dozens of girls sloppily dancing with some boy who just wanted in their pants.
“Look who’s all by her lonesome.” I heard Matty say from behind me and I couldn’t help but roll my eyes.
“How can I help you Matty?” I asked with a raised eyebrow.
“Chill Andy I just wanted to offer you a drink, unless you're to scared to take it without your knight and shining armors by your side.” He said with a smirk.
I knew he was just baiting me and trying to get me annoyed, and it was working. Because after a few moments of staring at the red solo cup in his hand debating on what to do I grabbed the drink and chugged it back.
I wanted to have fun and let loose, and the only way to do that way to go out of my comfort zone…do things I’d never do.
“Looks like I’m going to need another one…” I said challengingly as he nodded at me with a smirk, I could already tell tonight was going to be fun.
***
After a few drinks I danced along with the crowd in the living room between some girl who I had a few classes with and Matty.
I had a few drinks and some shots with Matty but luckily I wasn’t a lightweight and I could handle my liquor. I was a little tipsy but that was it…
It was the perfect stage of intoxication. Where everything was a tad warm and fuzzy, where it was easy to relax and go with the flow without taking it to far.
As I moved my hips against Mattys dancing to the rhythm of the music feeling his hand gripping my hip I couldn’t help but smile at the lustful stares at the guys surrounding us.
For once I was letting loose and having fun…and I loved it…
Everything was going perfectly. Matty looked at me like I was something he wanted to hold on to forever and I couldn’t help but smirk at the thought.
I turned around and smirked at Matty who looked at me hungrily. I wrapped my hand around his neck as I felt his arm wrap around my lower back pulling me closer towards him.
“Andy?” I heard the familiar voice say, I turned to see Rob looking at me with his eyes wide and his jaw dropped.
“Oh hey Rob…” I said with a smile as I pulled away from Matty.
“Don’t ‘hey Rob’ me! What the hell are you doing?” he asked as he gripped my forearm pulling me away from the dancing crowd.
“Dancing? Having fun?” I said with a smirk.
“Where the hell is Mason or your brothers?” he asked and I shrugged.
“I should take you home…” Rob said.
“No way in hell, for once I’m doing something on my own…let me be…” I said and he just shook his head in disapproval but I just shrugged. I wasn’t going to be concerned with everyone else, I was doing this for me and I was happy…and there was nothing that was going to stop me.
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I continued to drink and have fun…and everything was going great…until Matty and I resumed where we left off.
On the crowded dance floor I couldn’t help but wrap my arms around Mattys neck and bring my lips closer to his.
I knew what people were going to say about me, but for once I didn’t care…and I had a feeling that intoxication had something to do with it.
As soon as our lips connected I could feel Mattys lips quickly leaving mine. When I opened my eyes I saw Rick looking at Matty with such anger and intensity.
“What the hell are you doing man?” Rick asked angrily.
“What does it look like?” Matty responded with a smirk.
It was at that moment where it felt like everyone stopped what they were doing to watch the dramatic scene take place.
“Listen Rick just leave it alone…” I said but his eyes wouldn’t leave Mattys.
“No I’m not going to leave it alone…” Rick said as he got closer and closer to Matty with fire in his eyes ready to attack at any moment.
I put my arm out between the two to stop what was about to happen. I wanted to have fun and this wasn’t it at all.
“What’s going on guys?” I heard Cole asked from behind me and I couldn’t help but roll my eyes as the sound of voice.
“Nothing…” Rick and Matty said simultaneously just as Mason came to my side.
I couldn’t help but roll my eyes at the scene that was taking place, all I wanted to do was have fun but there was just way too much testosterone for that right now…
“What the hell is going on?” Mason asked looking between Matty, Cole, Rick, and me.
“Nothing really, I was just trying to have a little fun…” I said with a smirk.
“Yeah with my so called friend…” Rick said as he stepped closer to Matty who just smirked at him.
“Woah, woah, guys just cool it…” Cole said and I watched Mason look at him like he was insane.
“Seriously? You're going to come to her rescue?” he asked with disbelief.
“No ones coming to my rescue, because for once in my life I don’t need to be rescued.” I said with annoyance as I shook my head before I walked away ignored Mason and Coles protests.
Just as I walked through the kitchen I grabbed a cold beer off the counter and chugged it down.
This wasn’t how I hoped my night would turn out I thought to myself as I opened the back door and stood on the deck that looked over the large backyard.
“Andy…” I heard Cole say as he shut the door behind him.
“Where’s Mason?” I asked as I took another sip of the beer in my head.
“Sorting out the problems between Rick and Matty,” he said as he stood beside me leaning his elbows on the railing.
“Of course he is…” I said as I shook my head.
“I know you don’t need to be rescued…it was something I knew for a very long time.”
“But I always cared about you so much…we all did and we couldn’t let you fiend for yourself.” He said and I nodded.
“I appreciate the bonding, but why don’t you go back to your little girlfriend?” I said for once not wishing to take it back.
“What do you mean?” he asked and I just shrugged as I took another big chug of the beer, it was something I was going to need to get through this conversation.
“I had the biggest crush on you ever since I could remember…” I said as I looked out at the stars letting the warm fuzzy feeling of the alcohol take over.
“I do know,” he said and I couldn’t help but feel upset at his response.
“And I’ve had the biggest crush on you to…” he said and for the first time since he came out here I turned and looked at him in shock.
“I never ever could show it though…your brothers would have killed me. So I made sure that I was always there for you, watching your back…” he said.
“But when you came home it was so hard to continue to ignore my feelings…it was killing me…” he said and I couldn’t help but smile at him.
“I love it when you smile, I think it’s the most beautiful thing in the world.” He said as he lifted his hand and moved a piece of hair behind my ear.
For a few moments we stared at each other, looking into one another’s eyes. I couldn’t help but bite my bottom lip nervously as I watched Cole slowly bring his lips to mine. Just as I closed my eyes and braced myself for the moments that I waited for my whole life I heard the sliding door open.
“Oh My God Andy!” I heard Mase said and I couldn’t help but let out a deep breath as we both turned to Mason.
I could see the hurt and pain clear in his eyes, but I guess with the alcohol in my system it was so much easier to ignore.
“This is hilarious…” he said as he chuckled.
“Andy I’ve been trying to get in contact with you all day!” Mason said as he stepped closer to me looking into my eyes.
“I was busy…” I said as Mason looked at me puzzled.
“Well I was going to tell you that Cole, the guy who you think walks on water isn’t as perfect as you think…” he said as I looked at him confused.
“Are you going to tell her or should I?” Mason asked Cole who just looked at him intently.
“Well I guess I will…this guys a fraud, he’s been working with Ryan this whole time. I was in the pool hall earlier and I overheard them talking. He was in on Ryan and Matty bet…” he said and I looked at Cole whose eyes never strayed from Masons.
“He hated me so much that he wanted me to have nothing. He wanted Ryan to get you on his side and convince you that I was no good, he wanted to take you away from me, and my football positions next year.” Mason said and I couldn’t help but be shocked at this accusation as I turned to Cole who looked as confused as I did.
“Man you're nuts…” Cole said as Masons face turned to shock.
“You seriously don’t believe this guy…” Mason said but I just stood there looking between them both, and I knew exactly who I believed….who I had to believe. It was the only way that I’d be able to get rid of the feelings that I had…
If I let myself believe that Mason was lying to me, I’d be able to forget about how much I care about him and move on with my life. I wouldn’t put myself in a vulnerable place, and I’d never get hurt…especially from my best friend. It was something I had to do…I had no other choice.
Mason would get over this…eventually and then I’ll have my best friend back…
It was what I needed to do.
“Mason…how could you lie to me like this? I know you hate Cole but I never thought you would make something like this up…” I said in disbelief as I looked at Mason who just shook his head.
“Are you fucking serious?” he said.
“I can’t believe you believe him over me!” he yelled strongly.
“Whatever Andy…I hope you make a happy couple….” Mason said with venom in his voice before he walked away and slammed the door.
“Now where were we?” I said attempting to get Mason off of my mind. I watched Cole smile right before he brought his lips closer to mine.
As our lips connected I couldn’t help but feel disappointed in the way his kiss made me feel. As our tongues moved with each other my thoughts were elsewhere. I expected fireworks and electricity…but it wasn’t like that at all…
But I had to ignore that…
Because if I didn’t that alternative was just too scary…
**Masons POV**
As soon as I read Robs text I quickly drove to Kens place.
‘Get here ASAP Andy’s going nuts…-R’ was all the text said, and without asking questions I flew there.
I didn’t even stop to make conversation with Ken or any of the slutty girls tapping me on the shoulder because all I cared about right now was Andy.
As soon as I stepped into the living room I saw her kissing Matty passionately as the crowd surrounding them continued to dance to the loud music.
It felt like my heart dropped a thousand feet as I watched the scene unfold in front of me; it was as if I was frozen in place.
But as soon as I saw Cole get involved I knew I had to do something.
As much as I wanted to follow Andy after she stormed away, I couldn’t. I had to make sure that Rick knew that everything between Andy and him were over, and I had to threaten Mattys life for him to stay away from her.
But as soon as I was done with that I went after Andy, just to find her in the arms of the person I hated most…Cole.
As I thought about it now I couldn’t help but feel the ache in my heart as I took another shot ignoring the burning liquid going down my throat.
My best friend, the girl I loved with all my heart didn’t believe me and it was killing me.
Just the thought of their lips touching made me want to vomit…
I could feel the fiery anger burning through my veins just thinking about what was taking place outside, and that’s why I had to my best to get rid of any thoughts related to Andy…so I continued drinking.
And drinking, and drinking, and drinking.
To be honest if you asked me who Andy was right now I’d have no idea.
If Andy was going to come here alone, act like a little kid, and make a total mess…than that’s what I was going to do too…
I wasn’t going to sit around and mope at the thought of her being with a guy that was only trying to hurt her…I was going to do exactly what she was…but better.
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After a few hours of talking and watching Cole drink I couldn’t get Mason off my mind…and I think it was pretty obvious.
“Andy is everything okay?” Cole asked and I shrugged.
“I just don’t think I handled the situation with Mason the right way…” I said with a frown as Cole took my hand in his.
“Forget Mason…he was always a douche and he’s not worth your thoughts at all…” Cole slurred with the smell of alcohol clear on his breath.
“He’s my best friend Cole…” I said as I turned to Cole sharply and looked at him puzzled, I couldn’t believe he was actually saying this.
“Ever since I could remember I hated that kid. I always knew you had a crush on me; it was pretty obvious …” he said.
“But whenever you looked or smiled at Mason I knew it was totally different…it was as if you thought he was so amazing. You could actually see how much you loved him just by the way you looked at him…and I hated it.” He said and I couldn’t help but look at him in shock.
“Whenever he walked into a room your eyes lit up like he was the only person on earth…it was as if I couldn’t compete with him. Everyone knew the way you felt except you…you were so oblivious, still are…” he said and my heart beat fast against my chest.
I could tell Cole was drunk and I knew it was the only reason he was being honest.
But as I listened to every word Cole said I couldn’t help but realize how true it was…
Even when I was younger I knew exactly how I felt about Mason…
I knew how much I needed him, how much he made me smile and laugh…
I knew how much I loved him.
For god sakes even Cole knew…
“He was an asshole…and I’m glad you see that now…”he slurred but I just shook my head.
“I had to get him out of the picture and I finally did it…” he continued to slur as I looked at him sharply.
“Oh my god…” I said to myself.
“Mason was telling the truth about you!” I said as I leaped up from where I sat to look at Cole.
“Wha….” He slurred as I shook my head.
“I can’t believe you would do something like that! I thought you were my friend, my brothers friend!” I said as I watched Cole drunkenly try to gather his thoughts and come up with an excuse, but I just shook my head.
I couldn’t believe that I didn’t believe my best friend…
I ignored Cole’s drunken rambles as I hurried inside. I needed to talk to Mason, and I need to apologize for everything…
When I walked into the crowded kitchen I saw Rob standing against the wall talking to a few girls.
“Rob where’s Mase?” I asked urgently.
“Inside, but I wouldn’t talk to him if I were you…he’s kind of not in the best shape…” he said but I shook my head, I had to talk to him.
When I walked inside the crowded living room I saw Mason standing on the coffee table with Missy and 2 other girls by his side, with a bottle of vodka in his head.
There was a crowd around him chanting his name as he chugged the bottle of vodka.
“Mase!” I screamed trying to ignore the pain in my chest from the scene I was seeing and his eyes turned to me, and I could tell they were filled with pain and regret.
“Look who it is…” he slurred as the music lowered in the background.
“Mase we really need to talk…” I said as everyone’s eyes were on him and I, waiting for the dramatics to unfold.
“We don’t neeeeed to do anyting, cause you suck.” He slurred.
“Mase you don’t think that…” I said as I pushed back the tears that threatened to fall out.
“But I do…” he said with a smirk.
“I don’t need you…you're just some slut who likes to break hearts for the fun of it…” he said and I could feel my heart breaking in two.
“See…” he said drunkenly as he turned towards Missy and kissed her deeply as I felt a tear fall down my cheek.
“You…” he said as he jumped down from the table drunkenly.
“Mean nothing to me…” he slurred as he stood in front of me with a smirk.
“And you never will…” he continued as the smell of vodka filled my nose.
I tried to open my mouth, tried to say something…anything, but I couldn’t. It was like my dream was coming true and I wasn’t able to speak…like I was being suffocated from all of this pain and hurt that consumed me.
“Bye babe…” he said deviously before I watched him grab his jacket and leave through the front door.
For a few moments all eyes were on me, like this was the main event of the party and it was killing me.
“Alright nothing to see here, get back to what you were doing!” Rob yelled at he came to my side and stared at me.
I could barely breathe as I repeated everything that happened in my head.
“Andy are you ok?” Rob asked as he stood in front of me with his hands on my shoulders.
All I could do was nod because I couldn’t begin to form the words in my throat.
“Andy Mason left?” Rob asked and I just shrugged as I watched Robs eyes go from concerned to panicked.
“Oh my God, we have to go…” he said and I just looked at him puzzled as he held my arm and pulled me to the door.
I couldn’t get over the feeling in my chest as I stood outside with Rob who seemed worried about something.
“What’s going on?” I finally was able to ask in a husky dry voice.
“Its Mason…he left…” he said and I looked at him puzzled.
“He took his car…” he said and my heart almost stopped as I stood there with Rob.
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**Masons POV**
Everything was fuzzy to me except for the feeling of pain, anger and hurt that consumed me.
I had to get away and I did.
I drove away as fast as I could trying to get the image of Andy’s face out of my mind…because it was killing me.
The more I thought about it, the worse I felt, and the faster I went…
I couldn’t help but feel like I was falling apart from the inside out.
I could feel the tears falling down my cheeks as I thought about everything that happened and I could barely breathe.
As I drove fast down the dark empty road I took the fixed locket out of my pocket and opened it. Inside was a picture of Andy’s parents and another inscription. Just staring down at the locket made my insides turn and my heart skip a beat.
All I wanted to do was be with Andy and tell her how much I loved her…but it was impossible.
“Ugh….” I screamed in my car loudly with pain filling my voice as I looked up at the sound of the loud horn coming from outside. The last thing I saw was the bright headlights coming right at me, blinding me…and then it all went black…
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hi guys, if you've been reading my mesasges you would know that i've been very busy handling things with my mom who just had surgery. I've spent all day with her & i just had time to update. My heads been in another place so its not exactly the bestttt so sorrry. But my moms coming home tomorrow & i really hope things will start to go back to normal.
But since i couldnt sleep i decided to update, again I dont think itsss the best...but here ya go.
I know i left you a cliffhanger i'm sorrrrrry! but let me know what you thinks going to happen.
What happened to Mase? is he hurt? does Andy finally admit how she feels? Does she learn her lesson? does she talk to Cole? Does cole tell he eerything? Does her brothers let Cole live? lollll. LET ME KNOW.
ANDYS OUTFIT OVER THERE--->
Again listen to How to Be A Heartbreaker by Marina and Diamonds over there, thank you again @Jordanallie for the song. if you know of any other songs that relate to the story or any of the characters please let me know:D
Let me know how you liked it especially since i dont think its the best but again a lot has been going on and i really appreciate you all for being concerned & patient, its really amazing:)
HOPE YOU ENJOYED.
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