Contractions We're Minutes Apart,The Pain Continue To Get Worse And Worser
Jalen Was Rushing Me The Hospital As I Called August
He Answered The Phone "Wassup"
"My Water Broke,You Need To Get On The Next Flight Back Home Now,Im In So Much And I Don't Wanna Have This Baby By Myself" I Said On The Verge Breaking Down
"Mama You Gotta Calm Down,Listen To Me Im In New Jersey Its Gon Take Me A While To Get There No Worrys God Got Us And Me You And Ayden We Gon Be Good,Baby You Can Do This Go Bring My Son In The World"August Said Calming Me Down
"Just Get Here Okay"I Said
"Im Finna Be On The Next Flight To Atlanta Right Now,You Just Stay Calm I Love Ya"He Said
"I Love You Too August"I Said And It Felt So Good To Say Those Words Back To Him
Contractions Kept Coming Closer And Closer And The Pain Was Unbearable I Was Screaming It Hurted So Bad
I Never Been In So Much Pain In My Life Yes The Contractions Was Just That Bad
When Jalen Got Me To The Hospital I Was Already Dilated To 10 cm He's Was Definitely Coming Tonight I Couldn't Even Get And Epidural It Was Already Time To Give Birth
A Few Big Pushes Later
Dr.Taylor Said "He's Almost Out He's Beautiful Push One More Time"
I Held Jalen Hand As I Pushed One Last Time And Than Dr.Taylor Said "He's Here A Beautiful Boy,You Wanna Cut Umbilical Cord" She Asked Jalen
Jalen Looked At Me And Said "Nah"
"Okay Than"She Said As She Cut The Umbilical Cord
I Heard My Baby Boy Cry For The First Time It Was The Most Beautiful Sound I've Ever Heard
Tears Of Joy Fell Down My Eyes,My Sweet Ayden Was Finally Here
Dr.Taylor Said "He's Perfect"
And I Cried Even Harder Jalen Kissed My Forehead And Said "You Did Good You Did Real Good"
Dr.Taylor Wrapped Him Up In A Blanket And Placed Ayden On My Chest
And My First Words To My Son Were "I Love You So Much"
I Look Down At This Beautiful Little Boy He Had A Head Full Of Hair,And Looked Just Like August
"Ayden,Ayden,Oh How I Love You Ayden"I Said Holding My Life In My Arms
All The Pain Was Worth It,Im Someone's Mother,I Have Someone To Love,I Have Someone Who Loves Me For No Reason,My Son Had Given My Whole Life Purpose It Was One Of The Best Feelings In The World
How Can Something So Tiny Bring Me So Much Joy My Heart Was Overfilled With Love
"He Was Born At 1:45,8 Pounds And 9 Onces" Dr.Taylor Said
Ayden Was Born At 1:45 My Grandmother Died At 1:45 Ain't That Something
Looking Down At This Bundle Made Me Sit And Wonder What Did I Do To Deserve This Precious Angel
I Promise Myself That From This Day On I Will Always Do What Best For Ayden No Matter What Happens In This Life
"Im So Lucky To Have You Now You Completed Me Ayden"I Said To My Baby Boy As I Kissed His Forehead
I Made Jalen Go Home,Than I Closed My Eyes And Went To Sleep
August Woke Me Up At 6 In The Morning
"Look Who Finally Made It"I Said As I Opened My Eyes And Sat Up On The Bed
"Its Nice To See You Show Up To Your Son Birth"I Said
"Don't Start You Don't Know What I Been Through Just To Get Here"He Said
Than He Looked At Ayden "Hey Daddy's Here"
"He's So Calm He Cried Like One Time,I Cried More Than Him"I Said
"Cool Little Guy,Just Like Me He Looks Like Me"August Said
"Unfortunately"I Said As I Giggled
August Picked Ayden Up "He's Is Knocked The Hell Out"
"Like He's The One Who Just Gave Birth"I Joked
August Sat Down In A Chair Next To Me While Holding Ayden And Said "How You Feel,Did It Hurt"
"It Hurted So Bad To The Point Where I Think Ayden Is Gon Be My First And Last Child"I Said
"Nah We Gotta Have Like Two More We Gotta Give Ayden A Sister And A Brother"He Said
"Maybe One More,Im Glad He's Finally Here"I Confessed
"I Love Em Soo Much Already,I Could Hold Em All Night Long"August Said
Than He Looked Down At Ayden "You Just Made Me A Better Man,You Just Inspired Me To Be A Better Me,You Don't Know How Long I Waited Fa You I Love Ya Yeah Daddy Loves Ya"
Seeing August Holding All Night Long Made Just Wanted To Work It Out With August I Now Wanted That Family I Never Had
It Could Be Me,Ayden,And August Just Us Three Just Our Little Perfect Family
The Morning I Was Eating Breakfast While August Was Holding Ayden When Cathrine Walked In
"Hey Mama"August Said
"Ooo Give Me My Grandbaby I Couldn't Sleep Last Night I Was Too Excited To See Him"She Said
August Gently Gave Cathrine Ayden
She Wrapped Ayden In Her Arms And Said "Look At Those Chubby Cheeks How Much He Weigh"
"Eight Pounds"August Said
"Your A Big Man Aren't You Little Man,Its Ayden Right"She Asked
"Yea Its Ayden Nathaniel Alsina"I Replied
"Well Why Isn't His Name August It His Baby Ain't It?"Cathrine Said
Here We Go She Was Killin My Vibe As Always
"He Have His Own Name Mama Because I Want Him To Be His Own Person Be His Own Man"August Said
"Ayden,Hi Im Your Grandma Cathrine "She Said Smiling At Ayden
Than August Looked At Me And Noticed How Tired I Was And Asked "You Good"
"Yea Im Just A Little Tired"I Said When Really I Was Exhausted
"Girl Please You Had One Baby And You Tired These Young Girls So Damn Lazy These Days Child I Had A Few Babies And Im Not Tired Yet"Cathrine Said
"Mama Don't Start"August Said
"Im Nothing Starting Anything,Did You Send Miracle A Picture Of Ayden Yet"Cathrine Said Being Messy
"Why Would He Send Her A Picture Its Not Her Baby She Has Nothing To Do With My Baby"I Made Clear
"Well Miracle Is His Girlfriend Would It Kill You To Show Her Some Respect,And Stop Being So Sensitive"Cathrine Said
"Respect?? Shes Get No Respect From Me What So Ever August Betta Keep His Little Girlfriend In Her Little Place"I Said Frowning My Face At Cathrine
"Mann Na Yall Putting Me In Yall Drama,Gimmie My Son He Don't Needa To Be Heardin All This"August Said Takin Ayden From Cathrine
"How Long Yall Gon Do This?,My Mother Should Get Along With My The Mother Of My Child Yall Gon Have To Do Better For The Sake Of Ayden"He Said To The Both Of Us
"It Don't Be Me Yo Mama Ain't Neva Like Me Since Day 1"I Said
"I Don't Have To Like You Little Girl,Ayden And I Have The Same Blood Runnin Through Us Me And You We Ain't Nothing"She Said As She Folded Her Arms
"Cathrine Im Fine With That,Im More Than Happy To Be Nothing To You"I Said Back Unbothered
Than August Phone Ringed He Answered It And Started Smiling "Goodmornin Gorgeous" He Said To The Other Person On The Phone
From The Looks On His Face I Can Tell It Was Miracle He Was Talkin To
He Stood Up And Walk To The Other Side Of The Room And Started Grinin And Smilin Having His Self A Good Ol Conversation
And Im Just Staring At Em Wishing That He Was Still Mines And That Miracle Never Exist To Him
I Think I May Of Really Lost Em For Good I Can Just Tell By The Look In Eyes And The Ways His Face Lit Up When He Answered Her Call
Its Looks Like I Won't Be Havin That Perfect Family After All