You are mine

chap 15

For the rest of the week, I didn't see Josh at all. What I only saw was Kim who keep glaring and smirking at me. 
I tried to call him but I didn't reach it. I started to worry, I even go to his house but I didn't see his car outside.
Did he gone? Already gone, leaving me alone? 
"Hi, sissy," a cute voice greeted me made me back to reality. I looked down, it was Amanda. It was a very long time since I met her. I felt so happy that I meet somebody I know, somebody who has a connection with me and Josh.
"Hi, sweetie. Are you alone?," I asked her when I didn't see her parent around in this park.
"No, I come with Eddie," right, her boyfriend.

"Eddie's big brother drove us here," she added, sitting beside me.
Us? So Brian and Nicole were here? That's a good thing, I can join them.
"Really, send my regard to them. Tell them I will join them in a minute," 
"Okay," Amanda replied to me as she ran to get Eddie.
I quickly took my book and kept it inside my bag. I stood up from the bench I sat before and walked to them. It was nice to have somebody I know around, I was tired being on my own.
My parent had already left three days ago, they had something to settle before it come to their wedding. I smiled, wedding? I never imagine that but I was very excited to be bridesmaid for my mom.
As I walked past the big shady tree, day dreaming while walking, I heard somebody yell in pain.

"Oh...I'm so sorry," I said to a guy who was lying under the tree. I had stomped his left hand. How careless I am.
"Serena?," he said.
"Harry? What are you doing here?," I was surprised to see him here.
"I followed you here," he winked at me.
I couldn't tell whether he was joking or not but I take it as a joke. I smiled and sat beside him in the ground. I guess it's rude for you to leave you victim just like that. So why not, I spend a few minutes with him?
We chatted about random things until he finally ask about Josh.
I looked down, avoiding his eyes, preventing my tears from fell on my cheeks. Then I looked up again, the breeze blew against my skin made me smile.
"I have no idea," I said to him.
"Well, it's okay to have no idea," he said, tucking my hair behind my ear to keep it in place as the wind has ruined it and added," You can always have another idea,"
Is that an offer?

I smiled to him, understanding what he said," But I don't want another idea,"
Staring into my eyes, his mouth curved into a smile," Stubborn girl,"
"I a...," before I can reply his word, I heard a rush of air beside me, it happen so quick that I can't see it coming and the only thing I know is Harry's mouth was bleeding and Brian was standing beside me, raising his fist for a second attack.
"Brian...no!," I yelled but Harry was quick, Brian missed that punch. They both stood in front of each other, glaring and scowling.
"Serena," Nicole came near me.
"What happened?," I asked her but Nicole just shrugged. I was about to move in between them to prevent them from punching each other but Nicole held my hands tight.
What was all this about? It was a fight scene like I saw in movie but wasn't it supposed to be between Josh and Harry?

"Stay away from Serena, okay? What are you trying to do? Stealing her from Josh? Don't forget I was his best friend," 
"That's not my intention," he defended, rubbing his mouth from bleeding.
"But that what you are doing, asshole!," Brian screamed at his face.
"He didn't do anything. We didn't do anything," I explained, feeling like an idiot being accused like that.
"You didn't do anything, he did. He was trying to be nice with you so you'll forget Josh and go with him," Nicole said to me, glaring at Harry.
Where did she get that idea? That was never his intention. It did sound funny too.
"Yes, yes...I have tried that but it didn't work, okay?! She loves Josh too much to go with me," he said, raising his hand as a sign of surrender.
Oh, no. That was his intention. Okay, that's not funny.

"See, I told you, Serena. For god sake Serena, what are you doing? Don't leave Josh like that. He loves you so much, don't treat him like that,"
What?! Brian accused me being ignorant to Josh?
"Hey, I told you...she loves Josh so much to leave him. Don't ever accuse her like that!," Harry yelled at Brian, smacking his shoulder.
"Stop!," I screamed, my head was dizzy hearing all those yelling," I don't know where Josh is, he leave me. So you guys don't need to argue or do whatever for me, I can handle my own problem,"
I think so.
"He doesn't leave you, he was sick! Oh, Serena don't tell me you don't know this?," Nicole said to me, holding both of my shoulder.
My eyes widened, my head shook frantically in horror. I don't know that!
"He caught in high fever for almost a week. I just knew about this half an hour ago," Brian said.

Oh my god! High fever?! He's ill and I accused him leaving me? I was so mean! Fever? How did he get fever? It was raining last weekend...is it Josh? Is it him? It's not a dream?
"Oh...how was he? Is he still in high fever? How bad was his fever?," I asked hysterically.
"I don't know, I...," 
"He was better now, he just get home few hours ago," it was Harry who speak. How did he know? If he knows why didn't he tell me?
I looked at him with anger flashed in my eyes," Why don't you tell me?,"
He looked down," I was being selfish, yes...it is true I tried to seduce you, make you confuse until you come with me but I can't. I've tried but I've failed,"
"You shouldn't do that!," I said to him.

"Don't look at me like that, Serena. I'm sorry. I shouldn't do that,"
"I'm tired of all this. I want to see Josh, I want to see him. Brian, Nicole takes me there please," I begged them, turning around from Harry.
"Honey, go and get the car please," Nicole asked, holding my hand tightly.
As fast as he can, Brian ran to go and get his car.
"It may take a long time, he parked his car far away from here because the parking was full,"
"Oh...no,"I cried.
"Let me drive you there," Harry offered. I looked up at him, how dare he offer me after he did all that?

"Shut up, Harry. We don't need your help," Nicole said.
"Please let me made amend for what I've done. Serena, I will take you there. I never lie to you. I've told you that day about what I feel for you. About Josh, I didn't say anything because you didn't ask," he explained, staring deep into my eyes.
I don't know what I saw deep inside his green eyes but I slowly nodded, accepting his offer. I think I saw something honest in his eyes.
"Serena, no. You cannot follow him," Nicole tried to stop me.
I looked at her," He won't do anything. Trust me. Plus you'll follow behind us right?,"
Nicole stared at Brian and said," We'll be close behind you. If anything happen to Serena, you know what Brian and Josh will do to you,"
Harry nodded and asked me to follow him.

Josh? Oh...I need to go there quick. I want to see josh, I want hug and kiss him. Is that why he refuse to kiss me that day? But he kissed Kim? And the bet? 
Oh, push all that away. I don't care at all, I don't care if I were a fucking bet or a challenge or whatsoever as far as he, don't leave me. I want him by my side. I'll forgive for making that stupid bet, for kissing that slutty Kim, for not telling me he was ill, and for everything. 
He loves me, I know that. I can feel that.
After a few minutes, we reached Josh house. All the window and door closed. I scolded myself for leaving Josh spare key at home, what a stupid girl! 
I opened the door but before I can exit, Harry hands held mine. Raising my brow, I glanced at him.

"Serena, I'm sorry. Will you forgive me?,"
"I forgive you,"
"Thank you. I really like you that why I did that," he said as he bend down and kissed my cheek. Slowly he let go my hands.
I smiled to him and quickly exited the car. Behind me, I can hear Harry has gone. I eyed the house; I know Josh was inside the house, I can feel his presence.
I knocked the door about three times but no answer. I rang the bell but I got no answer as well. I kicked the door like I learned in my tae kwan do lesson but the door didn't even move a bit. 
Ouch! What a solid door.

Where are Brian and Nicole? If they were here, they can help me open or kick the door. I looked around the house if there was an open window but all were closed. Suddenly I remembered, Josh's bathroom window was never lock so I ran to his room. 
Yes, my thought exactly! It was a bit higher and thank god it was big enough for me to sneak. I took the empty vase and slowly climbed on it. With a swift movement I was in I slowly climbed into the vase, slowly opened it and sneaked into it. 
I never sneak into anybody room but I did it for Josh. Josh always made me do crazy things. Once I was in, I slowly tiptoed to his room but I see nobody.
Where is Josh? I went to the kitchen to find him but all I see was a medicine in the table. I moved to the living room but I didn't see Josh at all. Where is he?
"Josh...Josh...where are you?," I yelled his name. But it was no answer, I started to become panic. Is he faint?

Slowly I opened the room a.k.a my bedroom in his house and I was surprised to see him lying there in my bed in my room. He was lying there, sleeping. His face was pale and his lips dry.
Oh Josh, I missed him so much. I felt like I want to hug him and kiss him so much. But I won't do that, he was sleeping. Let him rest first.
Slowly I walked there, didn't want to wake him up. I sat beside him, rubbing his hair. He felt hot, he was having a fever. I couldn't resist myself to touch him, I kissed his cheek. It felt hot too.
I reached the book beside him, it was his journal. The journal where I found that stupid bet. I don't want to read it, I don't want Josh to be mad at me again but I really want to see what inside.
I guess Harry is true, I was stubborn. The book was partly open, I took it and read it. It was dated two days ago.

"I missed her. Her smile, hair, lips, heat...."
I smiled at that. He missed me. I slowly open more of the journal. It was dated a few month ago, the day we met.
10th February...
"Bumped into Serena, sweet tempered girl. I couldn't help my self to hold back my desire. It was just a touch, but a real touch"
She doesn't like it. I can tell.
"She's not a whore person, I like that. Sweet innocent kiss, I never felt it before. It was real good. Hell, a lot better than before"
3rd Mac...
"I like her"
10th mac...

"I like her again. I want to kiss, cuddle and keep her with me forever"
5th April...
"It was the best night ever. Cupid? My girl believes it, so were her boy. She's my baby!"
12th April...
"She isn't worth any tears... it hurt me"
15th April...
"She will always be my baby. I think I have fall in love with her. Oh, I missed her now"
I smiled reading all that, it keeps my heart warm and made me felt those wonderful heartbeats again.
He really loves me...Josh. I glanced at him over my shoulder, I was a fool! I was fool, thinking he wants to leave me, thinking that he had hurt me. It's me who leave him and...hurt him.

Before I can read more, a moan escaped from Josh mouth, I quickly threw the journal away. I took the towel from the drawer and soaked it with water. I put the wet towel on Josh forehead, and as a reflect Josh hand-held mine and his eyes open a bit.
I bit my lips, waiting for his action. He didn't move a bit, he just looked at me with his half close eyes. 
"You came...," he smiled and added," even though in my dream. I'm so happy,"
I opened my mouth to say the truth but he pull me down and kissed me hard in my mouth. I was shocked at first but I let him kiss me as much as he wants.

"I missed you, love," he whispered on my lips before kissed me again and again.
I can feel his hunger match with mine and he call me love which made me happy. I cupped his face in my hands and kissed him back as passionately as he did, I open my mouth to let him in and I touched my tongue with his.
The moment our tongue met, I opened my eyes and I can see Josh eyes also widely open. 
He pulled for me just an inch away, examining my face, "You...real. Not...a...dream,"
I chuckled. When he was about to open his mouth to say something, I can feel his hot breath around my face. I put my finger to his mouth, shaking my head, refusing him for saying anything.
But he insist, he softly remove my finger from his mouth and smile," You are here... and you are real,"

"Yes, I am. Why you didn't tell me that you sick? As if I am not somebody important from you," I demanded from him, sounding a little bit angry and disappointed to be last one who knows.
He turned his position into a sit," I don't want you to sympathy me,"
" Well, I'm not going to sympathy you. Who ask you to play in the rain? And didn't anybody tell you that sneaking into somebody room in the middle of the night is not good and will be punished? It serves you right," I started babbling to him.
He chuckled softly, rubbing my hair before hugged me into his strong arm and said," I really missed miss you, baby. That's babble was really you,"
I laughed softly, feeling really comfortable in his arm," I miss you too, a lot. Can I ask something?,"
He nodded and I asked," Am I still you baby?,"
"Forever and always,"

"Do you still love me?," I bit my lips while waiting for him to answer.
He loosened his hug and looked at me," Do you doubt that?,"
"I don't know. But I saw you kissing Kim that day. The day you refuse to kiss me. And you even moan when you kissed her. What was that mean?," I felt like a part of my body was tearing apart when I remembered that day. My eyes started to water again but I didn't move from his arm, I don't want to move. 
I want him to deny that because I really want him to be with me, loving me. I hugged him tighter, crying softly against his hard chest.
"You really shouldn't cry because of her. Didn't I said before this she isn't worth your tears, not even a single of your tear, baby,"
I looked up at him. He had said it before this when Kim kissed him in the Brian's garden. So it's mean... I'm wrong.

Wrapping his strong arm around me, he whispered against my hair, firm," I don't kiss her, she kissed me. It was a big difference between that,"
"But you did moaned when she did that," I accused him, smacking his shoulder softly.
He looked down at me," You know that I love you, baby. Don't ever think otherwise. It was not a moan of pleasure, it was moan of protest, disgust and pain. I'm not feeling well that time, she made it even worse!,"
Smiling up to him, I reached up to his face and kissed his mouth with a tender kiss," Oh, baby. I love you so much, I'm sorry for thinking all that! I shouldn't think of that,"
"You shouldn't. I refused to kiss you because I don't want you to get infected," he stated firmly, his face hard as he try to hide his disappointment.

I pressed my lips willingly against his mouth, teasing his lips to ease his feeling. I was feeling guilty over these entire things," I know I'm wrong. Blame me, I don't care. Punish me, I accept it but please don't look like that to me,"
After that I said," I'm going to be your nurse until you okay. I was the cause you caught a high fever and I'm going to take care of you. I'll consider that as my punishment, okay,"
He nodded and grinned at me devilishly. As if he was thinking something naughty. I looked at him suspiciously and raised my brow to him," What?!,"
"Awww...baby, you are giving me a naughty fantasy. I was picturing you clad in a nurse uniform, all white, tight top, short tight skirt....ahhh...baby, I'm sure...I'll be very happy and get well very soon," he said, grinning naughtily to me.

How could he imagine that! That so naughty and... and...sensuous, but I don't mind him being naughty to me, that shows he's a real man.
Josh stuck out his tongue and licked my lips, making me giggled and opened my mouth. He slid his tongue in my mouth and kissed me hard. He explored every curve of mouth, I love the feeling of his tongue. We both lay down in his soft bed, fully making out.
I was out of the world, he drive into this pleasure world, I moaned as loud as I can. 
"I missed your lips so much, it taste like honey," he kissed me again in my lips, then he trailed a hot path of kisses down my neck and said," I missed your scent...it reminds me wild roses and lilac...,"
I wrapped my arm around his muscled body," I missed your arm, my protection...I missed your chest, it was my perfect pillow and I missed your heat...,"
We smiled at each other, leaning closer to each other to kiss again when suddenly I felt somebody clearing his throat, a small voice gasped. Our head snapped at the direction of the noise.

Standing there are...Brian, Nicole, Eddie and Amanda was standing in front of the door. Brian was studying the vase in the table, Nicole was pretending to examine her pink nails while Eddie was staring at us shamelessly with his hands covered Amanda eyes to prevent her from seeing us.
I groaned. Oh no, I was just being viewed by this people kissing my boyfriend passionately. Oh. My. God. I was so shame right now. When did they come? How did they enter the house? The door was locked!
I need them half an hour ago but now I need them to go away and leave me with my boyfriend.

"I think we should be leaving, we came here just to see you are all right," Brian said, understanding the hint.
"We are perfectly all right," Josh said.
Smiling generously, Nicole added," Yes, you look perfectly all right and happy...so let's go, Eddie, Amanda...come we are leaving,"
"Errr...okay..bye," I stammered, blushing furiously from head to toe.
"Bye, sissy," Amanda said shyly, her cheeks still tinted pink with blushing.
Eddie however didn't say anything, he just stared at me and Josh. Then he gave me a wink, Oh my little cupid.
Josh laughed softly and I hid my face on his chest, not knowing what else to do to cover my embarrassment.
***
Fixing my straw on my head, I smiled widely over my appearance in front of the mirror. I smoothed my evening dress a bit to keep it from wrinkle. Satisfied with my appearance, I took my silver wedges heel and put it on. 
I walked to the kitchen and took my picnic basket which is full with food and fruit. I looked from one to another, apple, banana, orange juice, plan water, bread, jam, chocolate bar, peanut butter, sandwiches and my homemade muffin.
Perfect! I glanced over the window, the weather is so nice, it was a sunny day. Not too hot, not too cold, just perfect for a picnic with my boyfriend, Josh.

We are going for a picnic today as I had canceled our picnic date last week. It was all because of that stupid bet. I didn't ask for Josh explanation yet, somehow I felt like I don't need to ask that, I don't want to know that and I want to forget all that. Whatever it is, I know Josh love me and that's all matter. 
I wear the same dress and put on the same effect of make up like I did last week. The only different thing is my straw hat. Oh yeah, where did I get my straw hat? I found it under my bed. 
It was not under Josh bed but it was under mine. Hah, very careless of me.
Picking my picnic basket, I walked to the door knowing that Josh had arrived. He looked at me up and down, I giggled.

Kissing my cheeks, he whispered at my ear," You look beautiful, sweetheart,"
I kissed him back on his cheeks and said," Thank you, baby,"
He raised my hand over her mouth and planted a kiss on it," Let's go,"
I smiled shyly over his gentlemen act and followed him to the car. After a few minutes, we reached a very green park with a breathtaking lake spread before us.
Josh spread a blanket under a big shady tree and I put all the things on it. I poured orange glass into tow glasses and unpack my sandwiches.
"It's look yummy...," he said, sitting beside me. He picked one of the sandwiches and put it on his mouth. 
I picked one and put it in my mouth too and asked him," How was it?,"
"Very delicious,"

I smiled, feeling really happy because he likes my cooking. After eating, we sat silently feeling the breeze against our skin. Josh put his head on my lap and I caress his hair softly.
He grinned devilishly at me and pulled me down to kiss full on my mouth. I felt so right and so warm and so sweet when he kissed me. I love all those heartbeats that I felt when he was around.
He pulled out from me, looking straight into my eyes," I am really happy being with you,"
"Me too,"
He slowly stood up and pulled me to sit on his lap. He then opened his backpack and took out his journal.
"I want to share this with you,"

My heart started to beat madly, I don't want to know about it anymore. I don't want to know about the bet, I am happy now and I don't need to know all that.
"This is from my father, he gave me before he died. It was the only thing I have now from him," he started, opening the journal.
No wonder he was mad at me when I read it, this journal has it own value. I felt guilty because I have read it without his permission.
"This is him," he smiled at me, the most beautiful smile I ever seen.
It made me more guilty. I looked at the picture of a very handsome man. Obviously, Josh inherited his charm.

"He's handsome, just like you,"
"No, he's more handsome and wiser than me," he said, smiling at me and added," This journal's belong to him, he wrote his story in it. He gave it to me and said that he want me to write my own story. I didn't understand at first and when I read his journal, I do understand,"
He put his head on my shoulder as he continued, I listened to all his words," He captured every moment of him and my mother in this journal. He wants me to do like that but I never do that. I don't know how to do that, I don't know how to write and the most important thing, I don't know what to write. Nothing special and worth to be write,"
"You can write about yourself," I said quietly.
I felt he shook his head," I never write anything in it," he then kissed my neck and murmured against my skin," Until I met you,"
It made me smile, warmed my heart and made my heart thumping madly. He started to write this journal when he met me. I felt so special.
"Do you know how my father met my mother?," 
I shook my head.

"Do you want to know it?," I nodded, he chuckled.
"It was a bet, a challenge. My grandmother challenges my father if he can get my mother. My father was a heartbreaker at that time and my mother was known as a vey nice girl with a good manner. My father accepts it not knowing that it was a plan from my grandmother to stop him from playing around. Also she knew that my mother can change my father. My mother did have that ability, my father was madly fall in love with her...it was just a bet, a bet to love...,"
He finished his story and I was still shocked. A bet, a challenge...so it was his father not him! Stupid, Serena! Very stupid! Why don't you check the date before you read it! It must have been dated almost 20 years ago!

"Serena, what is it? Are you shocked that my father win that challenge but lose his heart to my mother? It's a challenge? Wait the minute, that was what you mad at me, you said that you was a challenge...oh baby...did you...,"
I cut him before he finished his word," Yes! I was mistaken that the things I read in your journal is yours. I'm sorry, I didn't know that it was your father journal. I swear, I didn't know it,"
He took my face to look at him, he rolled his beautiful eyes," That's why we didn't read other people journal without permission, baby,"

I felt so guilty right now, I sank my face with my hands," Oh...Josh...I'm so sorry,"
It was clearly, obviously ... my fault! I read his journal without permission, I accused him, I started this mess. It was my fault, he was innocent.
"It's okay, baby. Just forget about that, I don't mind anymore,"
"Really?,"
"Yes, although I must say, it hurt me when you ignore me, it hurt me when I didn't hear your voice everyday. I can't control myself that's why I sneaked in your house that night. I want to kiss you that night, I really miss your heat. And I know you afraid of thunder, that why I rush to your house although it's raining,"

"I am so sorry. I made this mess, it was my fault. I was so happy you came that night, but you caught high fever after that. I am so sorry, if I didn't so stubborn...,"
"It was worth it. You are with me now. I will get you back in whatever condition. You are mine, baby. Mine always and mine forever,"
It should be sounds scary when said that to you, knowing that somebody obsessed with you but not when Josh said it. It sounds like a promise.
"I am yours since your lips touch mine,"
'Yes baby, you are mine since our lips sealed," he leaned in and took my mouth in a swift kiss that made my stomach flipped inside. It was very ecstasy that made me want it there forever. I cried softly when he pulled away.

Hugging me close from behind, we stayed there under a shady tree, feeling a breeze touched our skin while we watched the sunset.
"As I am guilty, I want you to punish me. I made all this mess, I must be punished," I said, seriously.
Tightening his grip, he kissed my shoulder and said with a naughty tone," if you insist... I want you to nurse me. Be my nurse, baby...made all my fantasy come true,"
I looked at him curiously, he rubbed his hair, grinning to me.
"I'll be your nurse since I made you caught in fever but I am sure I don't know how this will fulfill your fantasy,"
He chuckled loudly over my curious behavior then he promised," It something naughty but nothing dirty,"

"Whatever it is, I agree. I know you won't do anything bad to me, or else I'll strike you with my Tae- Kwan- Do," I threatened.
He grinned," I love that. I love being threatened by you. You are very brave,"
"Yes, that is because I'm yours. I know you like it,"
"I love it. You are mine, sweetheart. Mine forever,"
Then we continued to watch the sunset with his hands wrapping over my waist, I lay my head in his chest, my favorite pillow. I smiled when I heard that promise. Even though I know those promises isn't a guarantee for me to keep him with me forever, but I know we will try our best to keep it from over.
*** THE END***