I Was So Sick Of Crying,Hurting And Being In Pain Over People Seems Like No Matter What People Was Always Letting Me Down My Mother,My Father,August,Even My So Called Friends
People Were Always Disappointing Me,And I Always Blame Myself For Even Letting People In
It Took Me So Long To Put My Guard Down With August And When I Finally Did He Hurt Me Like Everyone Else In My Life.My Heart Stayed Broken,My Eyes Stayed Wet,And My Trust For People Has Always Been A Challenge
I Just Wanna Be Happy,Yeah I Was Happy I Was A Having A Baby,I Had Happy Moments Sometimes But As A Person I Just Wasn't Happy
Inside I Felt Empty And Broken Beyond Measures I Wanted To Be Happy But Never Truly Was And I Tried So Hard To Be Happy But It Always Seems To Fail
Why People Always Wanna Hurt Me And Take Advantage Of Me? Whats So Wrong With Me Thats Makes My Mother Hates Me And My Father Leave Me?What Did I Do To Deserve This?
Sounding Like A Insecure Little Ass Girl But I Couldn't Help It Its How I Really Felt So I Asked These Questions To My Self Over And Over Again In My Head
I Was Beginning To Hate Myself And I Had No Reason Too But I Let People Make Me Feel This Way
Make Me Feel Unwanted,Sad,Hurt,Ugly,Ashamed,And Miserable
This Rain Cloud Above My Head Was So Heavy That I Couldn't Even Pray To God
I Was Losing Faith Slowly And Running Out Of Hope Quickly
Even Though I Felt Like Shit Inside I Still Put On My Bestest Dressed And Did My Make Up To Perfection
I May Broken On The Inside But Outside I Was Flawless
I Had On This Tan Dress With The Split On The Side,I Had This Long Wavy Virgin Brazilian Hair Going Down My Back,A Pair Of Red Bottoms,With My Little Louis Vuitton Red Cluth
I Was Big...But Being Big Was The Least Of Problems
Jalen Picked Me Up In His Challenger He Took Me To Fortune Cookie A Chinese Restaurant
We Were Seated And Jalen Was Lookin At Me As If I Was The Most Beautiful Girl In The World
I Finally Smile Back At Him And Said "What You Lookin At"
"At You Beautiful..You Real Cute When You Waiting On You Food"He Said
I Giggled And Said "Shut Up Stupid"
"Man Who Would Of Thought We Would Both End Up Babies With Other People"He Said
"Not Me...I Still Wish We Would Of Kept Ours"I Said
"I Know...I Know You Do.."He Agreed
"Lets Not Even Talk About That Tonight Jalen Lets Not Dwell On The Past,In Less Than A Week You Gon Be A Father To Your Lil Princess And In A Few Weeks Im Gone A Mother To My Lil Prince"I Said Smilin
"You Right...Thats Awesome,What You Doing After Have The Baby"He Asked
"Work Out Soon As My 6Weeks Of Healing Are Over With If I Don't Have An C Section..He's Still Breech"I Said As I Start To Worry
"He's Gon Get In The Right Position Just Give Him Some Time"Jalen Said
"Im Hoping That He Will..Because I Really Just Wanna Have Normal Delivery"I Said
"Trust Me..You Will..Hes Going Turn Around When You Least Expect It"Jalen Said So Sure
"He's So Stubborn"I Said
"Just Like His Mama"He Said
I Smiled And Said "Oh Whatever"
He Smiled And Said "You Look Beautiful Tonight By The Way"
"I Look Big But Thanks For Trying To Make Me Feel Better"I Said
"Girl Im Serious You Big And Pretty"He Complimented Me
I Just Smiled At Him Me And Jalen Had A Good Time I Ate And Ate All Night Long
When I Got Home I Had Like 40 Missed Calls I Accidentally Left My Phone At Home
I Had Calls From Tamera,Brea,Mimi,And A New Orleans Number
New Orleans? Wait Its Only One Person I Know With A New Orleans Number
But Why Would He Be Callin Me
As I Dialed Brea Number To See Whats Up I Heard A Knock On My Door
I Opened The Door And It Was Brea,Tamera,And Mimi
"Gia...Told August You Pregnant"Brea Blurted Out
"Gia What Now?"I Said As All Three Of Them Walked In
"We Was Party,Drinkin Turnt Up To The Fullest Havin A Good Time When August Came Over And Started Askin Bout You Than Gia Said "You Should Know She Havin Yo Baby""Brea Said Talkin Fast
"Oh My God...Are Yall....Serious"I Asked Hoping That They Just Playin With Me
"I Can't Believe She Did It...She Really Told Him"Mimi Said
"Oh My God...How Did That Bitch Even Know I Was Pregnant"I Asked
"I May Of Told Her But She Knew You Didn't Wanted August To Know She Did That Shit On Purpose"Brea Said
"Brea!...It Nice To See Where Your Loyalty Is..You Out Here Telling My Business To A Bitch You Know Im Beefin With"I Said Angrily
"Don't Act Like Im A Fake Two Faced Bitch Cause You Know I Don't Even Roll Like That Come On..I Might Told Her You Was Pregnant Out Of Excitement But I Didn't Tell Her With Intentions Of Back Stabbing You!"Brea Said
"You Supposed To Be My Friend You Not Even Supposed To Bring Me Up In You And Gia's Little Conversation For The Simple Fact I Don't Fuck With That Bitch!"I Said
"Hol Up Wait Bitch Don't Put This All On Me Bitch If You Would Of Just Been A Woman And Told August The Real Maybe Gia Wouldn't Of Had Too..Not Saying Im Right Just Sayin Stop Actin All Innocent"She Said
And Than I Hear Somebody Starts Banging Loud As Hell On My Front Door
Please Dont Be August Lord
I Motioned Brea To Get The Door
Before She Opened She asked "Umm Who Is It"
"Its Aug Open This Fuckin Door"August Yelled Through The Door
"Fuck"I Said As My Heart Started Beating Faster And Stomach Dropped
Brea Looks At Me And Shrugs Her Ams Lookin Clueless
"Dont Make Me Break This Motherfuckin Door Down Open Up!"August Yelled Through The Door
I Closed My Eyes And Said "Shit"
Shit Was About To Get Too Real !