(JIN'S POV)
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
My mum cried out
I ran downstairs not fully awake yet, I ran into the side of wall and hit my arm but I just wanted to get to my mum to check on her. I as I open the bedroom door my was the floor crying.
"Mum what's wrong are you ok"
I asked as I got down on my knees
"JIN HELP ME ITS HURTS I CANT TAKE IT PLEASE, TAKE ME SOMEWHERE AAAAAAAAAA!!"
She cried I didn't what to do I had no idea what was wrong. So I help her up.
"JIN I CANT TAKE ANYMORE JUST END IT HERE, BABY PLEASE YOU WONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME ANYMORE IF YOU END IT!!"
"Mum what are you talking about, that's it I'm taking you to the hospital come on"
I didn't know why what she meant by end it, what!.....was she telling me to kill her I could never do that I just couldn't. I knew how to drive but I never used my car but right I really needed my car to take my mum to the hospital.
"Come on mum get in"
" JIN WHY DOES HURT SO MUCH, I'M SORRY I WASN'T A GOOD MOTHER!!"
My Mum just kept crying the on the way to the hospital. But then it got quite and she didn't say anything she looked out the window holding he stomach.
"Son I'm sorry of everything, but please don't hate your father"
She said out of nowhere.
"mum don't you understand why your hurting right now, it's because of him your this way and how can you not hate someone like my father he Left you mum and before he did, he made you do things you didn't want to,he hurt me as well mum please understand that he only used for your money and now that he toke everything, you and I have nothing left but each other."
I said trying to hold back my tears.
We got to the hospital and I toke her inside of course all the doctors and nurses knew us by now because of how many times we been here.
"Oh your back seokjin, oh my she bleeding"
One of the nurses says
"She what!"
I looked down at my mum, she was bleeding.
"We will now take her thank you, please wait outside seokjin or even better
go to school please, we don't want you to keep missing school"
The nice doctor said, doctor Ricky was a nice doctor who was my mother best friend when they were little he was there through everything, when my mum met my dad,
and how he hurt her all the time and he was the one he helped my mum give birth to me he was our family doctor. I'm pretty sure Ricky cares about my mum so much because he was once in love with her but she broke his hurt then my dad came along, Ricky never told my mum how he felt about her but he told me and asked me not to tell her because she would get even worse.
"No I can't go to school knowing my mum is sick and of gods sake she bleeding, that enough to make you worry even worse. Plus if I go to school I won't notice anything around me so please let me stay here and make sure my mum is better"
I begged with all my heart
"Ok seokjin stay here but at least go and have something to eat I'm worried about your health, you don't look so good and take it from me I'm doctor I should know, anyway I'll be going now and checking on your mother I want to run some tests and see what made her bleed and why she is hurting I'll see you around"
With those words doctor Ricky leaves to take cares of my mum I remember what he said about my health maybe he was right. I went to a coffee shop next to the hospital and sat down I ordered something to eat and it was good, I was wondering what classes I had today and what I missing out on. Drama, Drama was my first class today. Then I had English and then it was time to eat and that's when I could see Namjoon sitting in the library typing away on his phone, after that I had history, Maths and again we went out to eat and I wound walk around reading a book until I got to my special place outside and then I was go to the library again maybe see the Team A girls picking on Namjoon and I would just look around the library for another book or a book that Devni told I should read and then I would go to next my class which would be sports so I would have to get changed and then I was have to go and do some sports and we have to get changed AGAIN and go to our next class. Science and everyone would be laughing at what crazy things Mr park would do or say. Mr park was nice I liked him and he would always ask me if I was ok he would also tell me that it's ok if I ate in his classroom but I'm to shy to. After all of that it would be the end of day, where I would have to go to my locker and see Namjoon getting his stuff, but I would always miss him because I'm slow or sometimes get held back by a teacher.
After that long time thinking about how my day would of gone if I was at school I got up from my sit pay and left to the hospital again
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I saw Ricky walking around.
"Hey"
I called out
"Oh Jin your back, thank god,"
Ricky says excited but the it his face change to sad one and looked at me serious I was afraid of what he was going to say because the way he looked me made my heart stop
"is t-this good"
I asked
"Oh Jin I think you should sit down for what am about to tell you"
He says pointing to a sit next us.
"Working overtime has become the norm for most people. Unfortunately, it can have extremely negative impacts on their health, happiness and overall quality of life. Your mum has being be overworking her body to much that made lose her mind. When you're overworked, you're overtired. When you're overtired, you rely more on caffeine to get you through the day, you tend to make unhealthy food choices and working out becomes a thing of the past. You become irritable, your immune system weakens and you tend to stop enjoying life. You may react negatively to your family or coworkers, leading to more stress and anxiety. Eventually, you may become depressed. But for you mother was even worse, Jin as you know Stress affects us all. You may notice symptoms of stress when disciplining your kids, during busy times at work, when managing your finances, or when coping with a challenging relationship. Stress is everywhere. And while a little stress is OK -- some stress is actually beneficial -- too much stress can wear you down and make you sick, both mentally and physically. Stress can affect all aspects of your life, including your emotions, behaviors, thinking ability, and physical health. No part of the body is immune. But, because people handle stress differently, symptoms of stress can vary. Symptoms can be vague and may be the same as those caused by medical conditions. So it is important to discuss them with your doctor. You may experience any of the following symptoms of stress. As your mum was working and have to deal with your dad she overworked her body and she now very weak and can't do anything when she was bleeding was because she was cutting herself"
The Ricky explained all of that to me but all that was ringing in my head was 'she was cutting herself'
Is this why she was telling me to end it
"What to do mean cutting I didn't see any cut"
I yell as I walked out of the hospital walking.
"I can't believe this, all I had was one job and that was not let her come to this part she cut herself, I don't understand her and why didn't I see the cut when I was taking her to the hospital or then I was at the bedroom with her I should of have see it why am I so dumb"
I yell out
"Jin"
Ricky calls from behind
"don't blame yourself"
He says
"Your right it's all of his faults"
I said
"No Jin it's not you can't keep blaming your dad for this"
He says, I turn to look at him
"Why, why do you people keep says it's not he fault I don't understand you guys of course it's his fault, I hate the fact that his blood runs through my body. I hate him that's why and why am I so helpless, why can't I do anything right, WHY DO YOU KEEP TALKING EVERYONE I LOVE, WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE WITH THE ONES I LOVE, WHY, WHY, WHY, why"
I cried out and this time I didn't have Devni to hold me and I couldn't it help anymore I ran off to the parking lot and got in my car.
"JIN WHERE ARE YOU GOING COME BACK, YOU CAN'T LEAVE LIKE THAT YOUR MAKING ME WORRIED COME BACK JIN"
Ricky yell out loudly I just didn't want to hear anymore I went off and I kept driving not knowing where I wanted to go.
I just can't take anymore I tried so hard and why does this keep happening why do I lose everyone. I came to a stop I got out my phone and texted Devni
"Hey how is school"
Of course she won't answer me her phone is probably in her locker I'll just have to wait until she can read it.
But I had to tell her I didn't want to be alone.
"Devni I took my mother to the hospital she umm... She Cut herself, Ricky told me and I just don't want to be alone right now when you get this message phases answer me"
I text thinking twice before sending her the text but I sent it anyway, I got out of the car and sat at the front of the car, I looked up at the sky and wonder how my life become like this? When did my life become like this? Why did my life become like this? All of this question but no answer. My phone buzzed I look at it, it was text from Devni
"Jin come get me right now, I don't anything bad happing to you"
She texted
"Alright"
I texted back
I hoped into the car and drove to Devni's school.
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she was waiting for me outside when she saw me she ran up to the car and open door and sat down.
"How are you feeling? Are you ok? Have you done something you shouldn't have?"
She questioned but all this questions just pasted my mind. I look forward to see the little girl who is always hang out with Namjoon I knew it she did go to the same school as Devni, but Devni was still asking me questions.
"I'm fine don't worry about it"
I said
"Ok take me to the hospital I want to see your mum"
She asked
"But you have school and I can't just take you"
I replied
"It's ok I talked to the school I told I wasn't feeling well and wanted to go home they said it was ok for me to go home, plus school is going to be over in an two hours so what's the point"
She said, of course she was right. I started the car and drove to the hospital where we will meet my mum I didn't know what to do anymore.
As we close to the hospital Devni was looked worried and scared.
"Why did you come"
I asked
"What?"
She replied
"Why do you care so much about me"
"Jin I care about you because your like family to me who wouldn't care about their families"
"Yeah but......"
I was cut off by Devni
"No buts Jin stop thinking like that, you worked really hard to get here so please don't put yourself down"
She said, Carp why was is she always right. We come to a stop as we parked in lot of hospital, we walked in and went to Ricky's office. He was doing some paper work, Devni walked and asked which room my mum was staying in.
"Hey doctor Ricky which room is JIN'S mum in"
She asked
"Hello Devni I wasn't expecting you here, Jin did you get her out of school you sure are something"
He said
"No, no I told him to come get me. I mean she also like a mother to me you know that"
Devni said
"Yeah alright she is in room 61"
Ricky said
"Thanks Ricky, come on Jin let's go see your mum"
She said walking to outside
"Hey Jin"
Ricky called out to me before I left the room.
"What"
I replied
"You still have Devni so he hasn't taken everything from you"
He says and then smiled
"Yeah alright"
I said as I walked out to keep up with Devni who was almost at the room.
We went in and my mum was sleeping she looked so beautiful yet broke, like an angel who has fallen and broke her wings and can't leave this horrible place where you are focused to work until you can't take it anymore.
Devni just looked at her with her worried face.
I left the room after see my mum's wrist it had cuts everywhere, I wonder where she found somethings to cut herself. I went to get a drink of water.
I few minutes pasted and I went back to the room.
When I walked in I saw Devni sitting on the chair she was half asleep.
I sat next to mum's bed and fallen asleep, we all know how being in a hospital can get you tried.
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A/N
Wow well then, I not sure if it makes sense but hey I like it, oh by the way *** this mean that it's a Different part of the story ok. I think I will update one more chapter haha yeah well see ya in the next chapter bye~bye~
~Genieme