I'm so upset.
I'm so upset.
I'm so upset.
I'm so upset.
The past few months have been going horribly and I just feel like ripping my heart out. I've been so stressed and annoyed and feel like nothing is going right. I became really dependent on bands over this time period and it makes me feel so fucking weak. How can I be dependent on someone I don't fucking know? I feel so empty.
I feel so emotionally dependent on others and I feel nothing towards myself. I want to cry. I can't. I don't cry. I haven't fully cried since June and it kind of sucks knowing that I keep emotions to myself. I'm emotionally distant and I don't know who I am. I'm such a weak person and I have built up so many walls around myself. I have been so stressed and I want to rip my hair out and I've almost chewed through my nails (they're fucking acrylics since I chew my nails without them and I have fucking acrylics and I've almost chewed through them). I don't understand how I am such a mess and I don't understand on how I don't know myself. I'm so sad.
This rant was a mess and I said the same thing multiple times but I feel like slamming my face down on a hot plate at the moment.
-empty being