(Fast Forward Into the Future)
It was the night of the big dance and me and Julie were getting ready. She helped with my makeup and hair and I helped her zip up her dress. I actually felt pretty good looking at myself in the mirror. After months of working out and eating right it really paid off. Even though I'll never be as skinny as Julie i'm okay with it because I know that I'm healthy and I know that thats what my mom would would have wanted. I'm wearing a black dress that stops just at the floor and singes at the waist with a sweetheart neckline. I was wearing my "L" necklace that Ashton gave me for my 15th birthday that I never take off along my charm bracelet. For my makeup it was a simple black eyeliner with red matte lipstick. My hair was up to my mid back now so Julie thought it would look pretty with it curled and took two strands of hair from both sides of my face and clipped them in the back. I was wearing black heels for my shoes. Julie was wearing a gorgeous off the shoulder wine red dress that was was floor length with beige heels. Her blonde hair was in a milk braid headband with some curled hair strands to frame her face. Her makeup was a neutral eyeshadow with a glossy nude lipstick.
"Are you girls ready? The boys are here have been waiting a while now?" Julie's mom knocks on the door followed with her peaking through the crack. "We'll be right down!" Julie walks down the stairs first while I behind her trying not to fall. It was like a scene straight out of those romance movies where the girl walks down the stairs slowly as the guy stares in awe from the bottom of the stairs but this time it wasn't in a movie, it was happening in my life. Luke's mouth haven't shut closed and his eyes haven't left mine since I walked out of Julie's room. I guess Julie did a good job on me. Ever since that day I fought with Ashton we both haven't really made in effort to makeup with on another. I know it sounds childish but sometimes people grow apart and I guess we were it. I was kind of upset about it at first because it felt like that time I grew apart from Luke but after a while I started talking to Luke again and my mind wandered off from Ashton onto Luke. A few weeks later he asked me if I would go the dance with him. With no hesitation I said yes. Julie thought it was perfect because she just started dating this guy from her english class. "Wow. You look amazing." Luke handed me a red rose and grabbed my hands and kissed my knuckles. Never have I thought would I think I would be talking to him again. From all of those daydreams I thought this was one. "Thanks. You don't look too bad yourself." I tried really hard not to show that I was blushing.
"Pictures!" Julie's mom rearranged us into those prom like poses. Our dates wrap their arms around our waist as we pose as uncomfortably as we can. I'm still not used to this whole picture thing because I never really look at myself lot before this. I'm still not used to looking in the mirror as well. I was surprised that Skinny was silent. In situations like this she usually would take advantage of how uncomfortable I was feeling. Maybe she's gone for good. I really hope so. "Doesn't she look amazing?" Julie asks her date, Shane and Luke. "Yeah she does. I remember last year you were in my math class and you were huge." Shane looks at me up and down like i'm an animal thats never been seen before. "Thanks, I think." I give Luke a look and we both were thinking the same thing, we both burst into laughter. Julie and Shane look at us in total confusion.
We walk through the school doors and made our way to the gym. They did a good job on decorating because it looked amazing. The theme was a winter wonderland and there was white Christmas lights, snowflakes and snow covered trees. I walk in with my arm linked with Luke's. I could feel stares and whispers around me. "Don't worry about it." Luke whispers in my ear, easing my thoughts. "There's Kaitlyn." Julie drags Shane in Kaitlyn's direction leaving me alone with Luke. "Do you want to sit down? Theres a seat next to Calum over there." He does this really cute thing whenever he's nervous or in a awkward situation where he plays with his lip ring and scratches the back of his head. "Sure." I couldn't help but smile and admire him. I was looking around the room and I couldn't help but wonder where Izzy was, she would never miss a school dance. Julie and Shane finally joined me, Luke and Calum at the table. We all talked for a while, laughing a having a good time when I noticed Izzy walking through the gym doors. "Hey there's Izzy." Julie says. "But who is she with?" Calum asks. "She's with Ashton." I say. I could feel my heart dropping to the floor. Out of all the people she could have gone to the dance with it had to be my best friend, or at least he used to be. I don't know why it bothered me so much it's not like he signed an agreement for me to be the only girl he talks to. A photographer takes there picture together. They looked perfect together. Her height was up to his shoulders and she was wearing a skin tight dress that hugged her curves. He was wearing a black suit with a bow tie. He had his arm wrapped around her waist with her looking up at him and him smiling showing the dimples on the side of his cheeks. I've forgotten how adorable his smile was. Have I been so busy with Luke and Julie that I didn't notice what was going on between them?
"Do you want to dance?" Luke asks. "No not yet." I felt bad for turning him down but I wasn't really in the mood. "Okay then i'm going to get something to drink do you want anything?" "No thanks." As soon as he leaves I could hear someone taking his seat.
"Hey."
"Hi." I say back.
"You look beautiful."
I blush. " Thank you. You look pretty good too."
"Thanks."
"Where's Izzy?" I ask.
"She's talking to her friends."
Of course she is. "Listen Ash-"
He cuts me off mid sentence. "Do you want to dance?"
"Sure."
We make our way to the center of the dance floor. It was a slow song. His hand was on my back and mine was on his arm. Our other hand was intertwined. Ive never slow danced with anyone before so I was just following his lead.
"Look Ashton I'm really really sorry about what I said."
"We don't have to talk about this." He was taller than me so he just kept looking right over my head.
"No but I really am. It was torture these past few months not talking to you everyday."
"It's fine Lydia. It's not like we were really friends to begin with."
I was surprised. "What?"
"We never really defined each other. I came in after your mom died watching over you and I gave you rides home from school. I don't think that's what friends do." He couldn't even look me in the eye. His eyed wandered all over the gym.
"He hates you." I could hear Skinny but I think she actually might be right this time.
"But I thought we were." I thought my heart couldn't have dropped even more.
"Can I cut in?" Izzy stands in front of us looking annoyed.
I forgot about her and Luke. "Sure. Have you seen Luke?"
"I think he went outside of the Gym." She pointed to the door as she replaced my position with Ashton. I walked away but couldn't help but look back. I can't get over on how good they look together. I see her laughing at something he said. At this moment all I felt for her was hatred.
I didn't blame Luke for disappearing I was with Ashton after all. I was walking through an empty half lighted hallway trying to look for Luke when I hear two people laughing near the water fountain. I couldn't help but look to see who it was. I hear them talking when their voices sound familiar. Even though there was little lighting I could spot that blonde hair from a mile away. It was Luke and Emily, they were kissing. Everything looked so natural for them as if they've done it countless times before. I kept walking backwards in shock when I hit the lockers behind me. The sound of the clang of the metal attracted their attention. Luke looks me in the face before I ran out of the school.
"Wait! Lydia! Please don't leave." He tries to run after me. "I'll meet up with you later." I could hear him saying to Emily.
"How could you?" I had left my jacket inside and it was winter and cold outside.
"Its freezing outside, here take my jacket." He started to take off his jacket but I scoff at him.
"I don't want your stupid jacket Luke."
"I'm sorry Lydia. I never intended this to happen." I shiver in the cold but at this point I couldn't care less.
"Was I not good enough for you?"
"Of course you aren't good enough. You never were and you never will be." Skinny's back.
"No of course it wasn't because of that." He tries to grab my hands but I quickly took them away and turned around. I couldn't stand to look at him.
"Then what was it Luke. I thought we were fine." I noticed that I was shouting. I broke down in tears. He hugged me and I suddenly wasn't angry anymore. We sat on the bench and puts his jacket around me. I put my head on his shoulder and tuck my legs under my dress.
"You don't like me Lydie." He wraps both his arms around me and wiped away my tears.
"I do."
"You did." His words hurt but I knew he was right. "I saw the way you were looking at Ashton. I know that look because that was the way you used to look at me." He puts his head onto on mine.
"I really did love you Luke." My voice was breaking.
"I know you did." It started to snow. The scenery looked so beautiful.
"You that every time it snows I always remember our first kiss. Do you remember that?"
I started to laugh. "How could I not. For the first few seconds we had no idea what we were doing and it was so bad." We both started go laugh. "I thought you forgot all about that."
"I would never. You were my first kiss and the first girl I ever liked." We both fell silent but it wasn't the awkward kind of silence.
"Luke?"
"Yeah?
"Why did you stop talking to me?" I never would have thought that I would get an opportunity to ask him this.
"After your mom died I wanted to give you some space but I didn't know how much space. I always thought that you would tell me when you were ready. I tried calling you and talking to you but it was like you couldn't hear me. It was like you were a totally different person. I was really young and I didn't know what to do. I think after that we both just gave up."
"Oh." That was the only thing I could get out of my mouth. It was never Luke. It was the memories that I missed.
"But I don't want to loose you again. I don't want us to stop being friends again."
"I don't want to loose you again either." I looked up at him and for the first time I felt okay.
"Friends?" He asked.
"Friends." I hugged him and I wasn't cold anymore. I felt so warm and safe with him, the way I used to feel. I no longer felt like he was a stranger and I felt no pressure with him. "I think we should go back inside, i'm so cold."
While I was walking inside I saw Izzy go into the bathroom. "I'll catch up with you later." I say to Luke. He nods back.
"Hey Izzy." She was touching up her makeup while she looked at me from the mirror.
"Hi."
"So you and Ashton?" I tried to seem as calm as possible. Luke made me realize that I did like Ashton and as much as I wanted to tell him I also wanted him to be happy and if being with Izzy made him happy then I won't mess that up for him.
"I guess so."
"Look Izzy, he's a good guy just don't hurt him okay?"
"I can't do this." She puts her makeup brush down and turns to me.
"He likes you Lydia. He's only here at the dance with me because I asked him. He wanted to ask you but Luke already did. You were his first choice. You always were." He turned back around trying not to look like she didn't care but I knew she did.
"I'm sorry Iz."
"Don't be. It was always so obvious that he liked you. You were just too oblivious." We both started laughing. I think thats the first time I ever saw her laugh with me.
"What happened between you and Luke?"
"I think he likes Emily." Saying that didn't even bother me at all.
"I'm sorry Lydia." I think thats the first time she's ever felt compassionate for me.
"Its fine. We're friends now." She hugged me. I was surprised but I hugged her back. "What was that for?"
"I know what that feels like." I didn't know Izzy didn't have a bitchy side. "You should go tell Ashton you like him."
"No no no I couldn't." I felt flushed.
"Yes you can because if you don't, you never will. I know how you can be. Don't worry about it i'll be right there with you." We made our way back into the gym and I looked for Ashton. I found him standing near a fake tree on phone.
"You were right you know." Ashton looks up from his phone.
"About what?" He asks confused.
"We were never friends to begin with. We were best friends and you know it too."
"I know."
"Then why did you say we weren't."
"Because I missed the sound of your voice so I wanted to talk to you but then I remembered that you came here with Luke."
"Actually we had a long talk and now we're fine now, we're friends again." I smiled when I said that.
"But you like him?"
"I liked him but I love you."
He's eyes widened. "You what."
"Nothing."
"No you said you loved me?"
"No I didn't." My cheeks became red and I looked at the floor. Ashton placed his finger on my chin and lifted it up slowly when my eyes met his he leaned in and before I knew it my lips were on his. I was kissing Ashton Irwin, my best friend.
After that I never heard Skinny's voice ever again.
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Hey guys. I always felt bad about leaving this story on a cliff hanger so I decided to just write the ending. I hope you guys enjoyed it and I didn't proof read it so i'm sorry for all the errors. I only came back just to write this but I did read all the comments and I was so surprised about all the people who were sad about this story ending. To this day I still think the remade it pretty crappy. I also decided to write this for us guys because Im in a better place than I was I was before. Also for all the people that left messages asking if they could rewrite this fanfic it wasn't really my story to begin with. It was originally a book that I turned into a fanfic. So I guess you can.
For all those Lydia and Ashton shippers I hoped you liked this. Also Lukes a good guy !!!! I hope you guys don't hate him anymore.