Brad's POV
What have I done? I shouldn't have let my mind take control of me. Now Tristan knows what I feel for him. I rushed to my shared hotel room with James. As I opened the door, James was there, as usual, picking up my stuff from the floor
"how the hell do you live in such a mess?!?" he said disgustedly. He looked at me and saw the tears streaming down my face. "Are you okay?" He asked me. "No, nothing's okay" I sobbed while plopping on the bed face first.
"What's wrong Brad?" He asked while sitting beside me. "I-I kissed T-Tristan" I stuttered. God was this tearing me up like, a lot.
"You....what?!?" He asked shocked. "I-i said I kissed T-Tristan" I said a bit louder. I sobbed even louder.
"Isn't that good? Why are you still crying?" He said. "Because, he might hate me after what I've done" I said while facing my face to his.
"He won't. I told you so many times already" James said while patting my shoulder.
I wish he wouldn't hate me
"uhhhhhh I hate myself so much" I mumbled. Then James also lay down and hugged me
Then there was a knock on the door. "Come in" James said. As the door opened, The person I wanted to see the least came inside
You guessed it
It was Tristan
"Hello" he said. I just looked at him wide eyed and fell on the bed again. I do hate myself. "What are you doing here?" James asked. "I-uh just wanted to see if Brad was okay, and I wanted to say sorry" he said while looking at his feet
"Sorry for what?" James asked while grinning, "for kissing him" he mumbled. "I didn't quite hear you" James teased. "I said because I kissed him" he said a little louder.
"I forgive you" I said while giving him a small smile. He then went over to me and hugged me tightly.
Don't melt. Hold it together Brad
Then he let go, wish he didn't. "Ookay, so I'll be going to my room then" he said while approaching the door. "Bye" I whispered
He shut the door and left. I looked at James who was smiling like an idiot. "What?" I asked while raising my eyebrow. "You want him to kiss you again, don't you?" He said. "No.........maybe........yes" I said while putting my face in my hands.
"Awwwwww Bradwee wants to be kissed by his boyfriend" he said. "We're not even together Mate!" I said while smiling
I wish we were
"I know you want him to be with you" he smirked. I swatted his arm and fell back on the bed. "In you're dreams" I said. "You're lying, you want to be with Tris" he said
I closed my eyes and smiled. What if we were together? Would people actually accept the fact we were gay? Or will they just try to tear us apart
That's the only thing that scares me the most, the public. They could judge you really harshly.
"I'm tired" I said while yawning. I crawled on the bed and pulled the covers over me. So warm. After a few minutes, I could feel myself drifting to sleep.......
A/N: sorry for not updating in a while and for the bad chapter. I'll make the next chapter better😝🦄