Hours pass
Dragging on
And it is not going away
Eyes swollen
From never ending tears
Where is my peace?
Days bleed into one another
Without a change
The sorrow
Doesn't lift
I'm walking in a
State of fog
Holidays are around
The corner
Should be a happy time
A giving time
But I don't want to give
I don't want to take
I just want to be
Free
Free of the pain
All this time
I have been thinking
Over and over
Under
Above
Beneath
Inside
And out
What?
Why?
When?
Did I miss something?
Was I just blindly
Happily not seeing
What was in front of me?
Haven't felt this
Kind of pain
In over 7 yrs
Never thought
I could hurt like this again
Never imagined
He would hurt me so
Now I sit
And stare off into the distance
Wait for the buffalo
To get the hell off my chest
The more I remember
The more it hurts
I can't not think about it
About him
I'm not angry
Perhaps yet
I'm sad
I'm hurting badly
I'm in pain
Stop.....
Just stop.....