My ship went down in a sea of sound
When i woke up alone I had everything
a handful of moments i wish i could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade
In a city of fools I was careful and cool
But the experts say I'm delerious
A handful of moments I wish I could change but I was carried away
Give me therapy
I'm a walking travisty
But i'm smiling at everything
Therapy
You were never a friend to me
You can keep all your misery
I love that song because it unleashes my inner rage. It makes me so upset that it makes me angry. Harvey messaged me back saying:
Harvey: Okay, if that's how you feel!?
I also discovered my own secret about Harvey.
Me: Just explain something to me?
I got to school and still had no reply from him. This is going to eat me alive all day.
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I get to second lesson RE amd see that I have my favourite cover teacher, Dr Parrie. She is my fave. Her aussie accent is what gets to me.
When she isn't looking I get my phone out of the front pocket of my bag amd turn it on. I have to be discreet.
I read my message from Harvey.
Harvey: Yeah?
Me: You have a girlfriend right!?
I sweae if he lies to me. I spoke to his girlfriend Harley last nighy.
Harvey: No, I don't.
Now I'm mad!
Me: Who's Harley?
Harvey: She is my ex. I used to date her.
Me: Used to!?
Harvey: She still likes me...
Me: Okay. I'll be out of your way anyway.
Harvey: No. Don't go
I didn't reply. Harvey makes my stomach hurt and not in a good way.
I really don't think I trust him. It honestly breaks my heart.
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Me: Meow!!
Matt: -Scoops up kitty-
Me: Hehe. -Smiles-
Matt: How's my babygirl!?
Me: Fine!!
Matt: Just fine!?
Me: I'm great because I have you
And that's the truth!
I felt my phone vibrate. I had a message on facebook message from Harley.
Harley: Hay Bailey
Me: Hay, How was college!?
Harley: Harvey and I broke up. Please don't talk about it.
Okay something really isn't right here.
Me: Oh, I'm so sorry. Like I don't talk to him much.
Harley: Can you not talk to him please?
WHAT!?
Me: Okay
Me: I promise I won't talk to Harvey.
I had my fingers crossed while I promised that.
Harley: Oh wait! Can you convinve him to take me back!?
This girl is weird..... I don't even know.
Me: Okay
I create a new message.
Me: Harley said can you give her one last chance. She didn't mean to hurt you.
Almost instantly he replies
Harvey: Wtaf are you doing talking to my ex? :/ don't ever talk to me again :/
Oh... Well I guess Harley got what she wanted. I still think they are working together to wind me up but I think Harvey is being serious about never talking to me.
He always does this but I think this time it's perminant...
Me: He never wants me to talk to.him. I guess you got what you wanted. Me never talking to him
Harley: I'm sorry
Me: No don't worry
Harley: I'm so sorry
I ignored her. I am in no mood to talk to anyone now. My life actually suck.
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I've seen love die way too many times when it deserves to be live
I've seen you cry way to many times when you deserve to be alive...
My life is messed up. I feel like everyone is against me.
Bailey Vs The world.
God is punishing me and I should suffer the consequences of my actions.
I close my eyes and the tears begin....
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