okay guys this is what you've been waiting for, the trail!!!! okay i'm going to try to have a long chapter but i am sorry if it is not as long as i mean it to be but here it is, lets get started shall we?
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it is the day of the trail and i am having a mild panic attack in the shower right now. i turn off the shower and wrap a towel around me. i step out and sit on the closed towel seat. i put my head in my hands and start to breathe slowly.
i can do this, i can do this, i can do this. i kept repeating in my head. i get up and start brushing my hair. i can face him, i got this. i said to myself. i took the red lipstick that Jane gave me and put some on. i never wore make up but i think it looks good with my white skin. i take some mascara and apply a little of it, same wtih the eyeliner. i towel dry my hair then used the blow dryer. when i was done. i gathered my hair up and put it in a pony tail off to the side so it lays on my shoulder. i put the biretta in my hair and smiled to myself. not bad for someone that has never done this before.
i walk out of the bathroom a little more calmer. i go and grab the dress and the little jacket i'm going to be wearing and the shoes. i slipped on the dress, jacket and the shoes. i stood up and smoothed down the dress. i walked over to the full lengthmirror and sighed. this is as good as it's going to get. i walk out and to the stairs. i started to descend them when i heard voices. Elliot, Landon and Jane must have been waiting on me. maybe i had a longer panic attack then i thought.
when i got to the bottum thye came out of the sitting room. Jane smiled. she is wearing a plain black dress that has a small V in the neckline. she is also wearing a jacket over it. Landon and Elliot were wearing dress shirts and dress pants.
Landon's face lite up in a smile and i looked down feeling shy. he walked over and offered his arm. i took it and we walked outside.
he bent down to my ear and whispered, "are you okay?"
i nodded and smiled. "nerves is all."
"you'll do great." he said and kissed the top of my head.
we go to the SUV and me and Landon climbed into the back while Jane took the passenger seat and Elliot drove. it wasn't that long of a drive but everyone was quiet probably wondering what today is going to bring us or freaking out inside like i am.
when we pulled up to the courthouse cars surrounded the place. Landon came over and opened my door, giving me his hand to help me out. i took it letting him help me but i let go right away. i need my head clear. i took a deep breath, lifted my head and took the steps one at a time. Landon, Jane and Elliot following behind me.
when i pulled open the doors i was greeted by Mr. Jones. i shook his hand and he made a motion for me to follow so i did. we started down the hall and stopped outside a couple of double doors. he turns to me.
"remember what i told you. what to expect and that you might not even have to testify." i nodded. "deep breathe." he said and when i let it out the bailiff opened the doors to the court room and what i saw i was not expecting.
the room was packed. some i recognize as students from our school. i follow Mr. Jones down the walk way and threw the swinging doors and to the table off to the left. i sat down with Mr. Jones beside me. Landon, Elliot and Jane were seated behind me.
"you ready?" Mr. Jones asked.
i shook my head but said, "yeah."
i look over and i can see my father. he stares right back me with no emotion what so ever on his face. i looked way and behind me. i could see a lot of people i know and some i don't. i scan the back row and i find her. my mother is sitting by the double doors with her hair pinned to the back of her head. she looks over at me and smiles sadly.
just then a door opend off to the right and the Judge walked in.
"all raise." the bailiff said.
we stood then the Judge sat down signaling us to sit.
"Mrs. Livingston, i have read your report and seen the pictures. i am very sorry that this has happened to you. i am sorry that the police couldn't help in your time of need." she looks over at my father. "Mr. Livingston please raise." my father stands. "Mr. Livingston, i don'tknow why and i could never grasps the reason's why parents do this but i've seen the pictures, i've read the stories that Miss. Livingston has told and there's only one thing i can say right now is, guilty. you are hear by guilty of beating your own child."
she turns back to me. "once again i appologize for your father and mother. and i am sorry you had to come here today and face something like this." she bangs her gavels. "court dismissed." she stood and walked out.
the bailiff goes over and hand cuffs my father. when he was walking by i stood up and asked, "why?"
the bailiff stops. "excuse me, Miss?" he asked.
"i asked my father, why?"
he didn't say anything just starring straight ahead.
my anger started boiling. "why dad? why me? i was in sixth grade, i was just a kid. why?" he still didn't say anything. "why?!" i screamed. everything went quiet. "after everything, you owe me this one thing."
he finally looked at me. "i was hurt and confused. i couldn't understand what was going on. that's why. i wanted an explanation but no one gave me one. i was angry and pissed off that my son died but you lived." he said calmly.
i swallowed. "so you never loved me?" i asked.
"once." he said then looked away.
the bailiff started pulling him away. i looked down on the verge of tears. i take a deep breath and straightened up. i nodded at Mr. Jones who nodded in return. i walked past him and everybody out of the courtroom.
i went out into the hall and sat down at the bench, putting my head in my hands. i honestly thought he loved me. i don'tknow why but he was my dad i figured whatever he did he still loved me. i jumped when someone touched my shoulder. i looked up to see my mom.
she knelt in front of me. "how you holding up?" she asked.
"i'm fine." i said straightening. i smoothed my dress even though it wasn't even creased.
she sat beside me."i'm sorry, honey. you know, he wasn't lieing."
"who? about what?" i asked.
"your father. he did love you. when you were first born, he cried. he said he couldn'tbelieve we made such a beautiful thing. then you two were attachedat the hip. you were his little princess, that's what he called you." she sighed. "but then i lost the baby and he was devastated. i don't know if he told the truth about he reason behind it, sadly i wouldn't know."
i hadnt notice but i was crying. i didnt know i was ever that close to him.
"i'll get you some water." she patted my knee and stood.
"thanks."
she nodded and left.
i sat there and waited for her but Landon was the one to walk up. "hey." he said.
"hey." i said but my voice was hoarse.
he sat down beside me. "well that was intense. how you feeling?"
"like punching next person who asks me that." i say.
he laughs and pats my leg. "i knew you would be okay." he leans on his elbows and turns his face towards me. "i also knew you would do good today."
"i didn't even do anything."
"you talked to you dad. you handled everything very well."
"i don'tknow about that, i'm crying obviously not." i said, wiping away the streaks the tears left. oh i forgot i was wearing make up. i wonder if it's smeared. "is my make up smeared?" i asked him.
he smiled and leaned forward, wiping his thumb under my eye. "your beautiful." he whisperers.
"no but i am hungry. i skipped breakfest afraid of throwing up because of nerves."
he laughed. "i'll go get my parents. we could go to the house of pancakes." he stood and started over to the doors.
"thanks." i said.
when the door closed my mother appeared. "so that's Landon?" she asked, handing me my water.
"yep." i said downing the whole thing.
"well he's cute." she said.
"mom."
"what? i'm just saying, don't go all protective on me."
"i wasnt, were not even dating, it's fine." i said in a rush.
she raised an eyebrow. "oh honey, it's far from fine."
i sighed. "i know." i said and leaned my head on her shoulder.
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after eating out and having the best breakfast ever, i went into my room and got out of the shoes. God my feet are soar. i took out the biretta, not wanting to lose it and got out of the dress as well, putting on my favorite PJ bottoms. they have rubber duckies all over them and there really lose and comfortable. then a white beater tank top.
i went into the living room and put in the movie just go with it.with Adam Sandler in it. it's really funny so far. that's when the doorbell rang. i jumped up and went to answer it. i opened the door and Kate stood there.
is she here for Landon? oh god, i think the breakfast is coming up. "hey can we talk." Kate said stopping my breakfast.
"sure." i open the door wider and she walked into the TV room. she sat down on one end of the couch and i sat down at the other. "what about?" i asked.
"Landon." she said.
"what about him?" i asked wearily.
"i want to apologize. i didn't realize you two were dating, see Landon's not one to gossip and when i kissed him, it was because i missed him. it wasn't anything towards you. see we've dated for years and i just missed him. but after he pushed me away, he-"
i interrupted her. "wait, he pushed you away?" i asked.
she frowned. "yeah kind of abruptly to anyways, when he did that he explained about you, so i've been feeling awful about this whole thing and i just wanted to come over here and explain. it's not his fault."
"thanks Kate." i said.
"i just hope we can go back to being friends."
friends? i didn't know we were. oh well i get a friend, sweet! "sure. do you want to watch this with me?"
she looked a the TV. "oh i love this movie. sure."
i pushed play and sat back and watched the rest with her. when dinner time came i offered to make sandwiches for us. she said she'd help and that's how Landon found us.
"Kate?" he asked surprised.
"hey, Landon." she wave.
"what are you doing here?" he asked.
"hanging with my new friend." she said nudging me.
i grinned at Landon. it's so funny how uncomfortable he is right now.
"right, okay." he said leaving the room.
me and Kate laughed at this then we went back in the TV room to watch more movie.
so there it is!! the chapter you all have been waiting for. sorry if i got some of the court stuff wrong or if it was to short. i've never been to a trail so i kind of winged it. so tell me what you think of the trail.
i think i will continue this story but i might not update for a few days because i dont know what should happen next. thanks for all the support guys!!
i know Kate didn't turn out to be the person you thought she would be but i thought Aubrey needed a friend and who better then the EX?! right? hey keep you enemy's close.
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