Seven Weeks.
Seven whole weeks have passed and I was freaking out, my head has been in a toilet bowl constantly for the past week and half. I knew I was pregnant right away with the fact that I had steamy all night long sex and now I was missing a period.
Never ever missed a period before so I was just stating the huge obvious.
I stood in the bathroom after hurling my breakfast up for the second time this morning, not fun at all when it's soggy toast coming up mixed with orange juice, even thinking about it makes me want to vomit again.
I now stood here staring at the three pregnancy tests, because one mixed with my period being late just didn't cut it, I needed to actually see the words pregnant for me to believe it and even now I still can’t believe it. Not even after three little sticks with the words PREGNANT staring back at me.
I, Lily Jane Marsden was pregnant to a man I didn't know.
Now I needed to tell Emma who I guarantee will flip out, long gone are our drinking and partying days, now it was staying up all night with a little baby screaming.
I picked up the tests and unlocked the bathroom door, making my way towards the living room which felt like one thousand steps away instead of twelve. Emma was sitting on the couch reading a magazine, and just my luck it had a pregnant woman on the front cover, yeah fuck my life.
“Me” I spoke quietly, since that's what I do when I'm nervous.
She looked up but still kept her eyes on the book “Yeah babe?”
“I'm pregnant” Well that got her full attention.
The book was tossed to the floor and her jaw was hanging open as I held the tests up “Who are you pregnant with?”
I rolled my eyes at her, I knew who the father was, and hell he was the one who had made me unable to walk all Sunday. My legs felt like they had been run over by a truck, I could barely even spread them apart, it would have been tough luck if I stayed another night, there definitely wasn't going to be any sex for him that day.
Her eyes widened even further if that was even possible “No way, with the sex crazed Alex?”
“Yes” I puffed my cheeks out “I have to be around 6 or seven weeks since he was my last guy” I then laughed “He's been like my only guy”
“Shit, you’re really preggers, wait how will you tell him?” She looked confused and then that was when I found out how hormonal pregnant women really are, I burst into tears.
I cried for ages because she was right, I had no way in hell of finding him, I barely even remember where he lives and if I stalked out at the bar where we first met, then he would think I was an unfit mother who hangs around in pubs hoping to see the guy who knocked her up.
Yeah that wasn't going to happen at all.
After I calmed down a bit and Emma finished crying as well, Yes, she cried with me and she had no idea why she was crying for which made me laugh at her, she truly was the best friend I could ever ask for.
“I don't know where he is or how to contact him Me, I'm going to be a single parent” I wiped the tears from my eyes on the long sleeved shirt I wore.
“Lily, its ok and you’re not alone, we're having a baby, a little girl” She laughed, but disgustingly blew out a snot bubble from her nose at the same time.
Safe to say it was the third time I threw up that morning.
Emma being the kind hearted friend she was called the doctors to make an appointment for me, her mum was a nurse at the hospital so she could get fast appointments which we never ever needed until now, nine months of doctor’s appointments. I was freaking out, how the heck was I going to raise a child on my own, a little baby that was growing inside my stomach, a human, a tiny human.
I shrugged on an oversized top and a pair of black ¾ leggings, I didn't feel like dressing up much, I tossed my hair up into a messy bun and put some mascara on, I didn't wear much make up unless I was working or going out with Emma. Ugh no more going out... my days are going to be filled with staying in, eating and gaining weight like an elephant.
Honestly it doesn't sound so bad, the more I think about it the more my worries vanish, I'm having a baby, a mini me or Alex, ugh why do I have to think about him again, I highly doubt he even remembers who I am, he probably has a lot of women in his bed each night, that soft bed of his.
Emma came bouncing into my room with the biggest smile over her face “Good news is at eleven today you’re going to get your bubby checked out, bad news is I have to work” She then pouted.
“What, Today?” I looked half shocked, I wasn't expecting it to be so soon
“Today, you need to hurry up or you'll be late” She tapped her watch giving me a look that said 'get your lazy ass up'
“I'm coming” I called out.
“Yeah and that's what got you in this situation in the first place” She sang poking her head out the door, I didn't bother argue with her since she was right, dead right she was. I pretty much raced around the house trying to find my handbag and car keys, I didn't want to miss this appointment, I also didn't want to miss out on a car spot at the hospital.
I let out a sigh, I hadn't been in that hospital for years, and I remember the last time I was here. Everything about that day is still clear in my mind, I looked at the photo on the wall of Jamie and smiled, god I miss him so much.
The traffic thankfully was light and even better when I found a park close to the entrance, I felt nervous as I walked in those big sliding doors, not much had changed in here since last time, sure there was new chairs but that was about it, even the paint was the same. Even the old familiar smell.
I made my way up the huge flight of stairs and down to the corridor to the maternity wing, I could hear the crying of babies which only made me even more nervous than I already was. A young woman greeted me and signed me in then pointed to a row of chairs where I went to sit down, I didn't feel as nervous anymore which was a good sign, I would hate to throw up on the doctor.
“Miss Marsden” A man's voice spoke, I now became nervous again, I thought the doctors were all women?
I followed the man in who looked around 30, he was actually quite cute looking with dark blonde hair, I quickly shook those thoughts away since the last man I thought was cute obviously knocked me up and now I had no idea how to find him.
“I'm Dr Mar-” He stuttered looking at me “Just call me Josh” please lay down and we will get the scan up and running” He gave a warming smile as I sat on the uncomfortable bed laying down.
His hands prodded around my stomach for a while then wrote something down, then he picked up the tube of gel and placed it over my stomach, Yes, It was freezing and I squirmed which made him chuckle slightly.
After a few seconds of running the scanner over my stomach he turned with a grin “Well, seven weeks and three days, Healthy little baby your growing there Miss Marsden”
“Call me Lily” I offered, I definitely wasn't into the formal speaking and I sounded older than I was which in my eyes I was still young for being only 24.
“I have a friend who spoke nonstop about a Lily for weeks” he chuckled “So your husband couldn't make it?”
I shook my head, I guess this was going to be asked a lot “Nope just me, One night leads to 18 years later” I smiled, and realised he probably thinks I'm a huge slut.
Something in his eyes changed, they widened as he had a sudden light bulb moment but then he composed himself and acted normal “Well, I will print out a photo for you, but come back in three weeks for another check-up but I'll do your bloods and everything today”
Half hour later I could finally leave the room, I got two print outs of the scan, so Emma would be excited she didn't get to miss out.
I walked out of the room and placed a hand over my stomach, I was actually excited now seeing the little baby on the screen, it felt 100% more real, but it wouldn't get more real until I had a belly.
I walked around the sharp corner only to be knocked flat on my ass, some hard body toppled on top of me, their head knocking into my nose which now felt broken and was starting to bleed, I opened my eyes groaning only to be greeted with the very familiar deep blue eyes, and I should remember them so well since I spent a lot of time underneath them.
“Lily” he spoke shocked as he lifted himself up giving me a hand.
“Alex?” I looked at him dazed “You work here?” I noticed he was in deep blue scrubs
He gave me a grin before he bent back down to pick my things up, I was holding my nose when I realised he was staring at the ultrasound photos, he looked up as his face paled slightly and looked ready to start his own round of morning sickness “Your pregnant?”