I really can't believe that in a month we are already passing the stage of being in highschool..im happy for cheryl and karen...cheryl is our valedictorian and karen us the salutatorian...kami naman nila carol and nathan we are in honor list..kahit maraming nangyari sa past years we made it and we all know that we are successful, even we miss one friend which is tony..we haven't had any news from him..he really shut us all.
All im just thinking his doing fine and made his on success in life.
Me and derrick we are ok and sometimes we go out with his girlfriend but we are not that close as before he focuses in his career which he is in his last year as a psycology student. And he and the girlfriend izzie is doing fine.
We hangout in a coffee shop near sa school campus..dito kami palagi pag lunch and after school.
"So guys..what courses are you taking after highschool? Same school parin tayo?" Tanong ni nathan
"Me..nursing..pareho kami ni cheryl...ikaw karen?" sagit ni carol.
"Journalism..siguro di ko pa alam..baka yun nga"
"Business management ako..gusto ko kasi mag manage ng sarili kung company..ikaw mark?"
"I don't know...maybe psycology..i wanna go to med school or wanna be a doctor"
"Ohhhh...susundan mo si derrick noh? Sabi ko na nga ba..gusto mo parin siya" lintanya ni carol
"No! Its on my list"
"Nasa list mo si derrick?"
pabiglang tanong ni nathan
"No! I mean nasa list ko yung course na yun..maybe hrm"
"Indenial ka na? Grabe ka talaga" sabad ni karen
"Im not..its just that..im not sure"
Habang nag uusap sila..biglang naring yung phone ko..its derrick and im not expecting him to call.
"Hey..napatawag ka?"
"Can you come over? I need someone to talk"
"Why you call..derrick may girlfriend ka, you can call her to talk"
"Can you go here or not?"
"Ok, wag kang magalit"
Nagpaalam na ako sa grupo para puntahan si derrick...syempre puro tukso ang inabot ko sa kanila. Im in our car and still wondering why he called me not his girlfriend..is there something wrong..i know in myself that i still like him and im in the right age to like someone..but the feeling i have for him is there..but i want to stepback kasi alam ko mahal niya girlfriend niya..nakikita ko yun everytime they were together.
Nakarating ako sa bahay nila..bukas ang gate..wala ang parents niya..pumasok nalang ako derecho sa kwarto niya. Pagbukas ko ng kwarto he is just setting on his bed holding a vodka bottle and wasted.
"Hey..are you ok?"
kinuha ko yung bote na hawak niya.
"Were over...she broke up with
me"
"What why?"
"I don't know"
"Hey..its gonna be ok!"
Tinignan niya ako sa mata...nakikita ko sa mga mata niya that he is really devasted. Suddenly and im not expecting it..he kissed me.
"Wait, Stop!"
"Why, you don't want me?
" i do..but this is not right derrick..we're friends..i treat as my brother"
"Then stop treating me as your brother"
He then continue kissing me and i submit on his kiss...slowly and very intimate. I just go with his lead and everything happens in that night on his room.
After that...he fall asleep and my eye's are still wide open..im not virgin...i had sex with a man.
The day after...we all meet in the graduation rehearsal. Im not in myself..and im still in pain and shock.
"Hey..what happen with derrick, is he ok?" tanong ni cheryl
"Hoi! Tulala ka? Ok ka lang?" dagdag ni carol
"Yes! Im ok! We had sex!"
"What?" Karen
"Anu?" Carol
"Paano?" Nathan
"Bakit?" Cheryl
Hindi ko alam kung paao sila sasagutin..ang daming dagdag na tanong..hindi ko na alam kung anu sasabihin ko sa kanila.
"Please..shut up!"
"Hindi ko alam kung paano kayo sasagutin...i just happen..he said they broke up at malungkot siya..tapos yun..bigla nalang niya akong hinalikan at yun nangyari na!"
"Anu sabi niya sayo?" Tanong ni carol
"Umalis ako pagkatapos...hindi na kami nag usap"
"Kakausapin mo ba siya?" Tanong ni carol
"Hindi ko alam!"
"Wag kang mag alala..andito lang kami..kung anu ang gagawin mo..we're here for you!" pagdamay na sabi ni cheryl
"Thank you guys!"
Nagsimula na ang graduation rehearsals namin
Since wala na kaming formal na pasok..kasi tapos na ang final exams and all we judt need to do is to go the rehearsals for attendance and practice.
"So guys...are you planning to go the graduation ball?" Tanong ni karen
"Ofcourse lahat tayo pupunta walang mawawala ha." dagdag ni carol.
Naging tahimik lang ako habang nag uusap sila about the graduation ball..im not in the mood to talk something else..gusto ko kausapin si derrick about sa nangyari.
"Hey..are you ok?" kinakausap ako ni nathan.
"Yes i am"
"Gusto mo puntahan natin siya..kausapin mo siya"
"No! Yes! I don't know nate...nalilito ako kung anung gagawin ko"
"Its better to talk to him"
"Really? tara samahan mo ako"
"ngayon agad?"
"Wala na akong time..tara na samahan mo na ako"
"Sige..girls aalis mo na kami..kita nalang tayo lahat later sa coffee shop ok" paalam ni nathan sa kanila
Wala namang sinabi sila nung umalis kami ni nathan..una pinuntahan namin sa building nila kung andun si derrick...we even saw his ex girlfriend flirting with another man. Gusto ko sugurin at hilahin ang buhok niya para malampaso ko ang mukha niya sa sahig.
Imagination:
( "walang hiya kang babae ka! Ang landi mo! Kakabreak niyo lang nakikipaglandian kana sa iba?"
"Do you care because?"
"I care kasi kaibigan ko si derrick"
"Kaibigan o may gusto ka sa kanya? Bakla!"
Biglang hila ko sa buhok niya at kinalakad ko sa buong hallway ang mukha niya..wala akong pakialam kung anu gawin ng tao sa akin...she just shouts so loud which is im enjoying it)
Kinalabit ako ni nathan..
"Hoi! Ok ka lang?"
"Wala siya dito..tara puntahan natin siya sa bahay nila..im sure andun siya"
"Ok, pero ok ka lang ha"
Pumunta kami sa bahay ni derrick.. nadatnan ko ang parents niya which is kilala ako. Pinapasok kami ni nathan agad sa bahay..pinahintay ko lang si nathan at dumerecho ako sa kwarto niya...he still not ok..
"Hey, lets talk"
"Get out..wag mong lagyan ng meaning ang nangyari sa atin"
"What? Ouch! Derrick"
"Im sorry..if i did that to you..im drunk and emotional and..."
"At anu? Nabigla ka? Tarantado ka pala eh...ginawa mo lang yung anu..heartbroken sex? Ganun nalang yun? Kasi sa akin hindi! Oo dati pa..may naramdaman na ako para sayo...pero i did step back kasi nakita ko sa mukha mo na masaya ka sa girlfriend mo! Binaliwala ko ang nararamdama ko..i even hurt my friend..para sayo! Tapos ganun nalang yun! How dare you...( umalis ako ng kwarto niya) by the way..nakita ko si izzie kissing another man and it seems that she's happy and forgets about you..sana hindi mo tinoturture yung sarili sa taong hindi karapat-dapat sayo"
Umalis ako ng bahay niya ng mabilis..sumunod lang si nathan sa akin. Dumercho ako sa bahay namin..pinasunod ko si nathan sa coffee shop and tell him not to say anything to them.
Pagkadating ko sa bahay, i directly went to my room and slowly cry...im an emotional person..mabilis akong umiyak.
Maya maya pa...may kumakatok sa pinto ko...pinunasan ko agad yung pisngi ko..pagbukas ko si nathan ang nasa labas.
"Sorry...pinilit nila ako..andito sila"
"Ok lang..pumasok kayo..magpapahanda lang ako kay manang ng makakain natin"
"Actually we already did...ihahatid nalang niya later" biglang sabi ni karen .
Pumasok silang lahat sa kwarto ko..masaya ako dahil anjan sila para sa akin and in reverse i will always be there when they need me. True friends talaga.
"Naku..wag mo iyakan yan..makakahanap ka pa ng iba"
as for carol
"Oo nga..kung wala sa kanya yun..he is not worth it" dugtong naman ni cheryl
"Ang mabuti pa...wag kana umiyak at mag shopping nalang tayo para sa sabado na graduation ball" sabi naman ni nathan
"Salamat guys ha...im really happy that you are here with me, so lets go mag shopping na tayo"
Naging masaya sa sandaling yun..dahil may mga kaibigan ako na anjan palagi sa akin. Handang dumamay..handang magpasaya.
And im super blessed to have them. Lumabas kami at pumunta sa mall to buy new clothes para paghandaan ang college life at bumili ng damit for the graduation ball. And the day always end in a happy moment.