I crash into my bed, clawing at my skin until I bled.
"Baby, please, please don't hurt yourself," Eddie said, lying down next to me. The boys were in the living room sitting around awkwardly.
He grabbed a cloth and soaked it in cold water, cleaning up the bits of blood.
"I'm okay. I'm okay." I said, getting up from bed. Eddie followed me into the bathroom where I washed my face and fix my hair. The purple had slightly faded. God, I need to dye it again.
Eddie rubbed my back and kissed my head. I gave him a passionate kiss and held his hand as we walked into the living room.
The boys were in clown costumes. Even Heath.
"What in the fuck," I laughed.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VIOLET!" they yelled. It wasn't Thursday yet, it was around noon. The rest of that day we drank a bit, smoked a bit, laughed a lot. These fuckers distracted me from everything that was going on.
And then we all crashed around midnight.
The next morning, I awoke and saw Eddie sitting in bed, waiting for me.
"Eddie?" I said, sitting up.
"Oh, Amanda, Happy Birthday, I love you," he said, kissing me.
"I love you too," I said, smiling.
He handed me a small box, with a shitty looking bow on top, and said,
"I know it doesn't really look presentable but it's my gift to you,"
So I took the box and opened it.
Inside revealed a silver locket in the shape of a heart. It was so beautiful. It was perfect. I opened it while Eddie sat there with a mischievous but happy look on his face.
One one half was a picture of me and Eddie, one taken by Stone with a poloroid. He was holding me so close, kissing my forehead. I cried at the beautiful sight. All I saw in his eyes, in my eyes, was love.
And in the other half was one of Eddie and me singing together. We performed together sometimes. I loved it.
"Oh, God, Eddie. I love it so much," I said, kissing him again.
"Oh thank God. And hey, look at your stomach. I'm surprised you didn't notice but you've got a baby bump," Eddie said.
I did, and cried some more. I was overwhelmed with happiness.
"Oh, God, best birthday ever."
And then the other boys came in.
Stone gave me a big ass bag of weed and one of his baseball caps.
Mike gave me a guitar pick and a Pink Floyd shirt.
Dave gave me a flannel and a bottle of beer.
Jeff gave me a raccoon hat, and a hug because he's cheap.
And finally, Heath gave me a box of purple hair dye.
"Thank you, so much, my stupid brothers, I love you so much,"
Everybody changed and got ready to spend a day in Seattle. We got lunch, and just enjoyed the city. It was rainy, like always. And then the day became the night, where we'd take a flight to Miami.
But I got an eerie feeling as I packed my things up in the apartment.