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July 14th, Monday 2025
Beyoncé Knowles
1:30 pm
I listen to Megan talk as I sit in the chair next to her. We are currently in her studio, I'm taking a little break in between shows so I have some free time. Megan is recording some music right now and I just wanted to be in the studio with her.
"I feel like I should just use an 808 and make it sound like a drum machine." She says before pressing a button then a 808 starts to sound louder and clearer along with the other instrumental
I honestly have no idea what the fuck she's talking about but whatever she did sounded better than how it sounded before.
"I like that." I rasp out with a wide smile on my face as I nod my head to the beat
"You do?" She asks
"Yeah, it sounds better." I respond and she nods
"Okay wait. This one..or this one?" She asks before clicking something on her laptop
I don't know what she did but the instrumental sounds completely different, it's so smooth and it has Megan's name written all over it. I love this one but I think I prefer the first one.
"The first one." I reply and she nods before clicking on her laptop and the first instrumental she chose plays aloud
I feel myself just staring at her while smiling widely. I love this woman with my entire soul. I have so much respect for her and I admire everything that she does, she's so talented it's crazy. Megan produces 90% of her stuff and she write all of it, sometimes I help her co-write but that's about it.
"So what do you think about these lyrics?" She asks me before sliding me her notebook that has a pen in between it
I smile widely before taking the notebook. I begin to read the lyrics and oh my god they are very detailed, sexually. My eyes widen as I continue to read it.
"Woah." I rasp out while chuckling
"Air out our freakiness why don't you." I joke
"I won't release it, if you don't want me to." She replies
"Oh puhlease, you've been rapping about the ways we have sex ever since you were eighteen. I'm not ashamed of it." I reply before sliding the notebook back to her
She chuckles softly before looking down at the notebook.
"The first time you made a song about us having sex I was so shocked, like I obviously knew you made it because you played it for me before you released it. I was more shocked by the public's reaction to the song." I explain as I spin around in the chair
"I don't really remember the public reactions actually." She respond while she continues to write
"I was still seventeen and niggas were going into DEPTH about the ways they think we had sex." I remind her
"Fucking creeps. I'm sorry I did that to you baby." She tells me
"You didn't do anything, I didn't mind that you made that song because I'm your girl, and you had a right to talk about it. It was just a little crazy to see grown ass men fawn over me like that when I was seventeen." I reply and she nods understandingly
When Megan turned eighteen she released her first song talking about sex and it had the public in shambles. They've always seen Megan and destiny's child as the "innocent girls" because we all came out at the same time and we were signed to the same label.
The song was titled "pillow princess" and it was basically her calling me a bottom and submissive in many ways. One of the lines is literally calling me a bottom like she literally said "my bitch a bottom, gave her head in the limousine" then there was some more outlandish shit after that, I find it hilarious looking back at it.
She didn't specifically say that it was about me but, everyone knew we were together at that time so it didn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out.
"Can I ask you to do something...you can always say no to me so don't feel pressured to do anything you don't want to do." She reassures me
"I'd do anything for you. What is it baby?" I ask while resting my feet on her lap
"This is going to sound so crazy." She replies before hiding her face with her palms
She's embarrassed to ask me something? It cannot be that bad. We've done damn near everything we could possibly do together.
"Ask baby." I reply while rubbing my foot up and down her inner thigh
"Can you moan on this track for me?" She asks making me bust out laughing
"Like for the background?" I ask before pushing my hair out of my face
"Yes, if you don't want to I can just have another girl do it, it's alright baby." She tells me
My eyes widen. Another girl? Moaning for Megan? Hell no.
"Another girl? Absolutely not, I'll do it." I say before standing up
"Are you sure? I'm serious Bey, you don't have to baby." She tells me
"I know, but I want to." I reply
I've moaned on songs before but it's only been little parts. I slowly walk into the booth. I walk towards the microphone then I put the headphones on.
"So do I just...moan?" I ask making Megan laugh loudly
"Wait. I have to press record." She says between laughter
I watch as she clicks a button then I watch the little light on the microphone turn blue. That's how I know the microphone is on. This is so awkward I'm not used to moaning into a microphone like this.
"Do I just.. go?" I ask as I feel my face heat up
"You don't have to do this bey." She replies while chuckling softly
"How about next time we have sex you just record me moaning and put it into the song like that because this is just awkward, I don't know how to fake an orgasm." I reply before laughing loudly
"That sounds like a better idea, actually." She says as I take off the headphones
I exit the booth then I walk back into the main studio. I sit down on Megan's lap, and I wrap my arm around the back of her neck while resting my feet on the side of sofa.
"Hey pretty girl" she says sweetly before kissing my neck softly
"Hi daddy." I rasp out before pushing her hair out of her face
I kiss all over her bare makeup free face. She leans forward then she kisses me harshly.
"I love you so much." She mutters before kissing me again
"So so much." She adds on before kissing me over and over again
"And I love you so much more." I whisper
My mother wanted to spend time with her grandchildren so I dropped them off with her. They are spending the day with her and I told her to call me if she needs anything. I'm silently praying she doesn't call me right now, because there's nothing that I want more than I want Megan.
"I need you baby.." I add on in a soft tone
"You need me?" She asks
"Mhm.." I whisper
"Take off your shirt babygirl." She replies and I immediately does as she asks
I throw my hoodie to the floor allowing her to see my body. My breasts are slightly spilling out of my black mesh bra. My hair is tied up in a messy bun my face is bare just how she likes it. Megan loves it when I'm in my natural state.
"My sexy ass wife." She mutters before kissing my hand
"Take this shit off." I rasp out then I begin to unbutton her blouse
I take off the blouse then I throw it on the floor on top of my hoodie. She's wearing a sexy red mesh bra. She quickly stands up, and she picks me in the process.
I wrap my legs around her waist and I wrap my arms around the back of her neck as I look in her eyes.
"God you're so sexy, how did I get so lucky with you?" She asks aloud
"I got lucky with you too baby, you're my world." I rasp out while resting my palm on her cheek
"Let's go to the bedroom." She rasps out
"No. I want you right here." I tell her
She raises her eyebrow before nodding then she lays me down on her black leather sofa.
"I'll be back." She says
"Okay." I rasp out as I watch her walk out of her studio
Once she leaves I unbutton the little button that's holding my skirt up then I pull it off. I throw my skirt on the floor leaving me in my bra and panties.
After a few minutes Megan comes back into the studio with her strap and something else, I can't really see what it is but I'm excited either way.
"What's that baby?" I ask
"Camera." She tells me before showing me the handheld camera in her hand
"While you're gone on tour, I want a little video to remember you, is that okay with you?" She asks me
"It's more than okay with me baby, but don't you have at least forty videos of me in that camera?" I playfully ask while laying down on the sofa
"I want a new one." She says while chuckling
"Okay." I rasp out
She turns on the camera then she puts it on me. She rests her hand on my thigh then she spreads my legs so my mesh panties are visible.
"Goddamn." She rasps out
"This feels like a casting couch" I joke making Megan laugh softly
"Shut up" she playfully
"I'm auditioning you" She jokes and I giggle in response
"I'm gonna get the job." I respond as I grip her chain then I pull her closer to me
"We'll see" she jokes before handing me the camera
I turn the camera to myself then I smile widely before putting up a peace sign.
"I look so cute right now." I say before blowing a kiss at the camera then I turn it around so it's on Megan
"Take this off." I say as I extend my foot out to put it on her sweatpants
She smiles then she pulls down her sweatpants leaving her in her bra and panties. She looks at me then she drops down to her knees, I raise my eyebrow then I scoot down the sofa. I rest my hand on the back of her head and I rest one of my legs behind her leg.
She kisses the top of my foot as she looks up at the camera. This might sound weird to some people but Megan loves my feet. I don't know if it's in a foot fetish way, but she loves to kiss my feet and she loves to praise me. I find it very sexy, I love the little things like that.
"My baby is so sexy.." I rasp out as I run my hands through her natural black curls
She has so much fucking hair it's like a lion. I have a lot of hair as well but her hair is also thicker than mine, so it definitely looks like she has more hair than me. Her hair is covering her face, so I can barely see her pretty face.
I grab the hair tie on the table, then I grab her hair before tying it up into a messy bun as she kneels in front of me.
"There you go, I wanna see that pretty face." I rasp out
Megan smiles then she stands up then she grabs her strap before buckling it around herself. She takes the camera out of my hand then she turns it onto me.
"Take that bra off before I rip it off." She tells me in a dominant tone
I bite my lip then I sit up slightly before unclasping my bra, allowing my breast to fall into place.
"Then pretty ass titties. You put your nipple rings back in, you know I like that shit." She rasps out while groping my breasts
"Put them back in just for you because I know you missed them." I say as she scoots in between my legs
She places the camera in front of us so it's at the perfect angle. She pulls down my panties then she presses up against me so I can feel the tip of the silicone on my clit.
"I love you so much." She mutters as she slowly slides inside of me
"I love you more daddy.." I whisper in her ear before gasping at the intense feeling
We are so close to each other that I can literally feel her heartbeat. Our sex is always so intense, we aren't even breaking eye contact. She holds my hand while slowly pushing inside of me.
Once she's fully in she doesn't even give me time to adjust, she just begins to pound into me with so much force. I let out a loud squeal as I claw at her back.
"Oh my fucking god..baby" I moan loudly
She grips my hips then she thrusts harder. I close my eyes tightly as I let her have her way with me.
"Open your mouth." She demands and I immediately does as she asks
My mouth falls open and she puts her thumb in my mouth making my mouth open wider. I'm literally so submissive for Megan whatever she wants me to do, I'll do it.
She rubs my saliva down my chin and onto my breasts making me gasp softly. She grips my face then she forces me to look at the camera.
"Say something for the camera babygirl" She demands before slamming into me making me gasp louder than before
"I'd do anything for you baby, you know how nasty I am..I take whatever you give me, whenever you want to give it to me.." I rasp out
"My nasty little slut." She whispers while playing with my bottom lip
"Yes! Fuck daddy please.." I whimper loudly as she goes faster
"Say it.." she mutters before biting and kissing my neck
"Say what baby?" I moan while resting my hand on the back of her head as she continues to kiss my neck
"Say you're my slut..say it baby." She demands
"I'm your little slut, all yours and only yours. I love to please you, my body was made for you..it was made for you to fuck and use." I vulgarly tell her in her ear before nibbling at her ear lobe
I love her so much and I trust her with my life so I have no issue with submitting to her. She kisses me over and over and she begins to tell me how much she loves me.
"Mmm." I whimper while bouncing up and down on the silicone
"I love you so so much." I whine
"There you go." She whispers while resting her hand on my lower stomach
"I'm so close baby..I'm so close." I moan softly as I hold her hand tightly
"Let go mama. I got you pretty girl." She tells me
I feel my stomach tighten up and my legs begin to shake. I wrap my legs around her waist while tugging at her hair. She groans softly at the feeling before smirking at me. She wraps her hand around my neck then she forces my head up so I'm looking directly in her eyes.
"There you go babygirl." She whispers while holding my waist with her freehand
She's kinda choking me and I love that feeling, it's very overstimulating because I can feel my orgasm coming over me. I gasp loudly then I close my eyes tightly before everything goes white. There's a ringing in my ears and my body is shaking so much.
"Fuck.." I hear Megan whisper
"You squirted all over me babygirl. Open your eyes" she adds on
I sigh softly then I slowly open my eyes. I look down at her thigh to see that her thigh is soaking wet.
"Sorry baby." I whisper
"Don't apologize, you know I love that shit." She replies with a smirk on her face making me smile
I reach behind her and I unbuckle the strap before taking it off of her. I kiss her softly then I flip us over so I'm sitting on top of her.
"I love you baby." I whisper
"I love you too lil mama." She says making me smile
I look at the camera then I smile before taking her hand in mine. I put her hand on my breast then I grind on her.
"You like my tits baby?" I ask
"You know I do babygirl."
July 20th, Sunday 2025
12:00 am
"It's one in the morning where you're at baby..you didn't have to call, you could've went to bed." She rasps out
"It's only twelve." I reply
"I wanted to call so I could say goodnight to the love of my life." I add on
"I missed you so much." I whisper
"I missed you so much more babygirl." She replies making me smile
"I'm going to go take a bath..where is my daughter?" I ask
"Which one? Blue and Rumi? They are with your mother. Amaya? Yeah, She's right here." She says before panning the camera down
Once she pans the camera down I see Amaya being breastfed. She look up at the camera then she immediately pulls away from Megan.
"Ma! Ma!" She babbles making me smile
"Hi my sweet little princess, I love you so much." I rasp out feeling a smile form on my face
"Say we love you mommy." Megan says before kissing Maya's cheek
Maya continues to babble making me smile wider than before.
"My sweet girl. Mommy loves and misses you so so much." I tell her feeling myself getting emotional
I've missed my children so much, I haven't seen them in person since July 15th.
"I have to go before I burst into tears." I say while chuckling as I wipe the tears that are forming in the corner of my eye
"Say bye bye mommy." Megan says before waving
Amaya looks at the camera before copying Megan's actions, Maya waves her tiny hand at me making me smile widely.
"Bye bye baby I love you so much." I rasp out
Megan smiles widely before putting Amaya on the side of the bed allowing her to crawl away.
"I love you babygirl." She tells me
"I love you more baby." I reply before blowing kisses at her
"Goodnight." She tells me
"Goodnight my love." I rasp out then she hangs up
I sigh softly as I cuddle my bear that Megan recently got for me. This may be a little childish but I love stuffed animals, especially when I'm on the road.
Whenever I'm on the road alone I always think about my father, when I was younger I was never alone I always had my father with me. He was very strict when I was younger, but as I got older he became more sweet and gentle, I think he became like that after he found out what William had done to me.
I feel myself drifting into a deep sadness. I miss my father, I miss my wife, and most of all I miss my children. I feel so lonely right now, it's kind of nauseating.
I don't really drink but I just want to get so fucked up right now. The sound of a knock on my hotel door snaps me out of my thoughts. I quickly let go of my bear then I stand up.
I leave the bedroom then I walk towards the hotel door and I peek out the peephole to see Kelly standing at the door. I smile widely before unlocking the door then I open it. Once I open the door I immediately fall into her arms.
"Kells...I've missed you so much." I whisper while hugging her tightly
"Hey Bey..I've missed you way more." She rasps out before pulling away and kissing my forehead
"Get dressed." She tells me
"What?" I ask in a confused tone
"Get dressed, we're going out." She responds quickly
"And going where?" I ask before walking back into my hotel
Kelly follows after me then she closes the door behind us.
"The club." She replies
"Okay, what should I wear?" I respond as we go into my bedroom
"I don't know wear whatever you want, something sexy maybe." She suggests
"Okay, sit down." I say then I grab my suitcase
She nods then she plops down on the bed before crossing her legs. I go into my suitcase then I pull out a long checkered patterned dress.
"How about this?" I ask
"I mean it's cute but it kinda gives school teacher that's going to church after school." She tells me making me chuckle
"Okay, how about this?" I ask before pulling out a two piece version of the dress
It's a checkered patterned skirt and a matching cropped shirt.
"Ohhh, this version looks better." She says
"Okay." I say with a smile on my face
I turn around so my back is facing her then I begin to undress. Kelly and I grew up together so we are used to seeing each other naked, it's nothing crazy or sexual.
I let my pajamas fall to the floor leaving me in my brad and panties. I reach behind me then I unclip my bra and I let it fall on top of my pajamas. I begin to put on the checkered skirt. I let the skirt sit over my hips then I cover my breasts before turning around.
"Can you grab my strapless bra, please?" I ask
"Yeah." She replies before going into my suitcase
After a second she pulls out my beige strapless bra then she hands it to me.
"Thank you." I rasp out before taking the bra then I turn around
I drop my hand then I put my bra on before clipping from behind. I quickly put the shirt on then I try to reach for the little zipper that's on the back so it'll tighten up, but I can't reach the zipper.
"Do you need help?" She asks me
"Yes." I rasp out
She stands up and after a few seconds, I feel her hands on my back then I hear my zipper being zipped up.
"There you go." She says before pushing my hair out of my face then behind my ears
"Thanks Kells." I rasp out
"Of course." She replies making me smile
Kelly looks so beautiful, I feel like I'm being out dressed right now. I look at her then I look back into the mirror. Kelly looks so gorgeous I feel like I need to up my look a little bit more.
"What?" She asks
"I feel underdressed." I tell her making her chuckle
"Shut the hell up, you look gorgeous BB" she replies before hugging me tightly
"Thank you Kells, come on." I rasp out before grabbing my purse
I grab my purse then I put my phone into my purse. We leave my hotel room, I close my door behind us.
After a few minutes we finally get to Kelly's car. We get into the back of Kelly's car. I close the car door behind me then I lean back as I watch Kelly lean forward to talk to her driver.
"Can you take us to the Rex Club?" She asks him
"Yes ma'am." He replies then the car drives off
"I'm gonna text Meg." I rasp out before going into my purse and pulling out my phone
"Okay..I should probably tell Steph that I'm with you." She says
"You're still with that nigga?" I ask while looking for Megan's contact
"He promised he would change. He hasn't hit me in like..a month." She explains
That's it?
"Well I hope he changes.." I whisper
"He is changing." She replies
"Okay Kells." I rasp out
I click on Megan's contact.
Me: "hey baby just wanted to let you know that I'm going out to the club with Kelly, I love you so much."
After a few seconds Megan starts to text back
Wife👩🏽❤️💋👩🏾: "alright babygirl be safe, I love you more."
I smile widely before putting my phone in my purse.
"Steph thinks we're at your hotel, I didn't mention the club." Kelly tells me
"Okay." I rasp out before resting my head on Kelly shoulder
I watch as she leans forward then she pulls something out of a bag. I look up to see it's a bottle of Dussé. I smile slightly as she opens the bottle then she takes a sip before handing it over to me.
"Here." She says as I take the bottle from her
"Thank you." I say sweetly before taking a bigger sip than her then I hand it back to her
1:15 am
I lean back in my chair as I watch Kelly flirt with the make bartender. I've had at least 4 shots and 2 drinks. Like I've said I don't normally drink but when I do, I get so fucked up.
I lean over then I grab the drink that's in front of me then I begin to drink it. Kelly comes back to the velvet sofa that I'm sitting at then she places four drinks in front of me.
"Got two for you and two for me." She says
"Thank you." I say sweetly
I watch as a group of guys walk towards us and I slightly roll my eyes. The guys look very young, maybe in their early 20's so I'm automatically not interested.
"You're Beyoncé and Kelly Rowland." One of the guy's say
"That's correct." I say before chuckling softly
"Mhm." Kelly agrees before taking a sip of her margarita
"You guys are so hot." He rasps out
"We're also married." I remind them
"And you guys look twelve, Bye." I add on before waving them off
"We ain't twelve. I'm twenty-five, I can handle older women." He tells me before sitting down next to me
This boy is the same age as my nephew, hell no.
"Well sweetheart, I'm forty-two. You're too young for me." I say to him making him suck his teeth
"Toodles." Kelly leans over then she playfully waves him off
"Byeee." I say before waving him off with her
He sucks his teeth then he stands up before walking away then his group of friends walk away with him.
"I need another drink." I sigh before picking up my vodka lemonade
It's more vodka than lemonade but it's still good. I play with the ROC chain that's dangling on my neck as I sway side to side while listening to the music in the background.
"Oh..the bartender wants to talk to me, are you good over here or do you want me to stay?" She asks me
"Go Kells, go have fun." I say sweetly
"Are you sure BB?" She presses further while I dig into my purse
"I'm sure. Go have fun, I'm just gonna light up." I tell her before showing her the joint in my hand
"Okay, just come get me if you need me." She reminds me before getting up and walking over to the bar
I put the joint in my mouth then I light it. I take the joint out of my mouth for a second before putting it back in my mouth and inhaling. I lean back as the smell of weed fills my nose.
After a few minutes of scrolling on my phone I hear small footsteps but I don't look up because it's probably just some people walking by.
"Beyoncé Giselle Knowles." I hear a males voice making me look up
My eyes widen once I realize who it is, I haven't seen this man in forever.
"Shawn Corey Carter." I say before standing up
We were friends in school but he was always two grades above me, then he became a rapper so we've hung out at certain parties however, the last time I've seen him was...when we had sex.
"I never got that call." He playfully tells me before hugging me tightly
"Sorry, I just..got sidetracked." I admit making him chuckle
"For years?" He asks
"Yeah, something like that." I respond before sitting down on the sofa
"Come sit." I add on while scooting over so he can sit next to me
"Ight." He replies before sitting down then he grabs a chicken wing
"Damn help yourself why don't you." I joke making him laugh
"My fault." He apologizes
"It's alright." I respond and he smiles in response
"How have you been?" He asks while looking me up and down
"I have been great, I'm actually on tour. Why are you here?" I ask him
"I know, I heard about it. I'm just here because I had a few meetings." He tells me
I swirl my drink around as I listen to him talk. He has freeform locs and I actually think he looks more attractive than the last time I've seen him. I've always seen him around but we've never talked personally.
"That's great I'm glad you're doing well for yourself." I say graciously before taking another hit of my joint
"What about yourself? I heard you had another child." He says
"Yeah my wife gave birth to a beautiful babygirl, her name is Amaya." I say sweetly
"That's a gorgeous name." He compliments my daughter
"Thank you." I reply
"Of course." He responds
"Speaking of gorgeous.." He trails off while looking me up and down
I chuckle softly while shaking my head
"You look stunning." He says to me
"You're not so bad yourself, Mr Carter." I reply before offering my joint to him
"Thank you." He responds then he takes the joint before inhaling
I play with the ends of my hair as I listen to him talk about how his life has been going. I can't really focus on anything except for how good he looks. I know I shouldn't be having these thoughts because I'm a married woman but I can't help myself.
"Earth to Beyoncé..hello?" He says before jokingly waving his hand in front of my face
"I'm here, Shawn." I reply then I smile widely
Once I smile at him, a wide smile forms on his face.
"Why are you smiling?" I ask
"Because I've missed seeing that beautiful smile in person." He replies
I look down at my lap as I feel my smile get wider.
What the hell? I don't know what's going on right now. I have to go, I shouldn't be feeling like this for anyone that isn't Megan.
"Are you nervous?" He asks
"No, I'm never nervous." I reply before playfully snatching the joint out of his hand
"Whatever you say shawty." He jokes before leaning back making me laugh
"Ugh I have the worse headache." I rasp out while leaning over
"Do you want me to drive you home?" he asks me
"My best friend.." I trail off
I look up at the bar to see Kelly sitting at the bar and talking to the bartender.
"Kelly!" I call out making her look at me
"Yes Bey?" She rasps out
She turns to the man and she says something to him then she gets up and walks over to me.
"Shawn was gonna take me home..do you want me to stay with you?" I ask her
Kelly looks at me with a suspicious look in her eyes then she nods.
"You can go..Tim is going to drop me off at hotel." She says
"Okay, be safe. I love you so so much Kells." I say before standing up and hugging her tightly
"You too BB, I love you more." She replies before kissing my cheek
"Use a condom." She says in my ear making my eyes widen
"Kells!" I squeal and she laughs
"I'm serious Bey." She replies
"Go be with that nigga." I jokingly wave her off making her laugh while walking away
She blows kisses at me making me smile before putting up a peace sign then she turns around.
"You ready?" Shawn asks me before standing up
Once he stands up I actually realize how tall he is. He's at least 6'3, I look up at him while he rests his hand on my back.
"I'm ready." I rasp out before grabbing my Birkin bag that Megan's got me for my birthday
2:30 am
"Thank you for walking me to my room Shawn." I rasp out while opening my hotel door
"Anytime. I'll see you around Beyoncé, don't be a stranger." He says before turning around
Don't say it. Don't say it. Don't say it.
"Hey, why don't you come inside?" I ask making him turn around
Fuck.
"Really?" He asks
"Yeah. Of course." I rasp out and he nods in response
I walk inside and he follows after me. Once we enter my hotel, he closes the door behind us. The sound of the door closing makes me feel so guilty even though I haven't even done anything yet.
"Do you want to watch a movie?" I ask while walking into my bedroom
"A movie? Don't you have a show tonight?" He asks me as he follows behind
"I do. I can't watch movies on days that I have shows?" I reply making him throw his hands up in defeat
"You got me there." He replies
"Let me get changed." I tell him before resting my hand on his chest and pushing him out of my bedroom
He nods then he backs up as I close the door behind me. I remove my shirt and skirt then I take off my chain before putting it in the case. Once I remove my clothes, I put a oversized hoodie then I put on oversized sweatpants.
When I finish getting dressed I open the door to see Shawn leaning against the sofa.
"Come on." I whisper
"Do you want me to take off my shoes?" He asks
"Yes please." I reply and he nods before taking off his sneakers
I sit down on my bed then I crawl backwards so I'm laying down. He looks at me then he sits on the other side of my bed before resting the back of his head on the pillow next to mine.
I grab the remote then I turn on the Tv. I just put it on some random movie before laying down.
After a few minutes I feel him rest his hand on my waist then he pulls me closer to him. I look at him then I look down at my lap.
"You're so beautiful Beyoncé.." He says
"Thank you Shawn." I whisper before pushing my hair out of my face
"Seriously you're so gorgeous, it's insane." He adds on making me smile
Fuck, what am I doing right now?
"Thank you Shawn, you're very handsome as well." I reply
"Please tell me if I'm crossing any boundaries." He says before pushing my hair out of my face
"Okay.." I whisper then he rests his pointer finger on my chin
He uses his pointer finger to turn my head so I'm facing him. I feel my breathing pick up and my heart begins to race.
"Is this okay?" He asks before kissing me
I know I should push him away but I just..don't want to. He rests his hand on my face as we continue to kiss. I run my hand through his locs as he slips his tongue into my mouth.
I'm a little tipsy but I'm not drunk, I know what I'm doing. I know that what I'm doing is wrong, but I don't want to stop.
I don't know what's happening to me right now I've never been like this before. My body and my soul has always been with Megan, so I'm so fucking confused.
I quickly pull away then I look in his eyes before looking down at my wedding ring.
"Fuck." I rasp out before taking off my wedding ring and putting it on the nightstand
I don't say anything else I just take off his jacket then his shirt. His chain rests on his chest, the chain looks familiar but I don't know from where.
We begin to kiss again and his hands begin to wonder. He takes my hoodie off then he throws it on the floor leaving me in my bra.
"Do you have a condom?" I ask
"Fuck..no." He rasps out
"Are you clean?" I ask
"I am, I just got tested." He replies
"I'm clean too and I'm on birth control. Come on.." I whisper the end of my sentence
He nods then he pulls me closer to him before kissing me roughly. He lays down on his back then he pulls me on top of him.
"I don't have much experience with like..actual dick..so if I suck I'm sorry." I rasp out before chuckling softly
"Last time we did it you ain't suck." He tells me making me chuckle
I pull off my sweatpants then I get off of him. I kneel on the bed then I begin to unbuckle his belt. Once I get his belt undone I pull down his pants and I'm met with a huge boner in his boxers. My eyes widen then I look up at him making him chuckle.
"You scared?" He jokingly teases me
"I ain't scared of nothing." I say in my thick accent making him smile
I take his jeans off then I throw them on the floor. This'll only be a one time thing, nobody will have to know.
I pull his boxers off and his dick immediately stands at attention making my eyes widen. I've only had sex with maybe two men my whole life so I'm not that experienced but I'll try my best.
"My hair tie, can you grab it please?" I ask him
"Where?" He asks
"On the nightstand." I reply then he quickly leans over and he grabs it before handing it to me
"Thank you." I reply before tying my hair up so it's in a ponytail
I grab the base of his dick then I lick the tip before slapping it against my tongue. I'm used to Megan being vocal during sex so it's a little weird to hear him not moan.
A lot of men say they think it's gay to moan during sex and that is really fucking weird to me, because you're literally having sex with a woman.
After a few seconds slapping his dick against my tongue I begin to suck on it. As I continue to suck on his dick, I can tell he's trying to suppress his moans, I raise my eyebrow then I look up at him. I push myself down a little further until I feel the tip of his thick dick literally hitting my tonsils.
I feel salvia roll down my chin and onto my chest. He looks like he's trying his hardest not to moan. I feel him grip my hair then he pulls me off of his dick.
"You can't be doing all that, you're gonna make me moan like a lil bitch." He says in his thick New York accent before kissing me softly
"I want you to moan, I like hearing that shit." I rasp out
"You do?? All the bitches that I've fucked with don't like that shit." He tells me
"Well I'm not other bitches." I reply making him smile
His smile is so pretty it makes my stomach flutter a little bit. Fuck I don't know what's going on with me. I love my wife so much but this man is making me nervous and I don't know why.
"Stop staring at me like that shorty." He tells me making me giggle
"Shut up." I reply before lowering my head back down
I wrap my lips around his tip and he immediately lets out a sexy ass moan. I feel his hands wonder then I feel it go to my bra. He unclips my bra then he lets it fall onto his lap. He throws my bra on the floor then he begins to grope my breasts.
I pull away before kissing the tip of his dick. He smiles then he grips my hair making me whimper softly.
"Lay down." He tells
"Alright.." I whisper before laying down on my back
He gets on top of me while pulling down my panties. Once my panties are off I feel his tip pressing against my hole.
"Sexy ass." He compliments me before pushing into me
He lets out a loud groan once he's inside.
"Holy fuck you're so tight." He groans while slowly moving in and out
I gasp softly before closing my eyes tightly. He leans down and he kisses me softly. I can't believe I'm doing this right now, I'm gonna feel like shit tomorrow.
I sigh softly as I close my eyes. I wrap my arms around the back of his neck then I pull him closer to my breasts are pressed against his bare chest. I softly moan in his ear as I run my hands through his locs.
He continues to thrusts into me with so much force, he's literally brushing against my cervix. He rests his hand on my throat then he squeezes a little. I bite my lip harshly as I look in his eyes.
"Sexy ass." He rasps in my ear
"Fuck.." I whimper as I feel my stomach tighten up
My toes begin to curl and I grip his hair tighter as I pull him closer. Everything goes white and I feel an orgasm come over me. Shawn looks in my eyes while resting his hand on my waist.
"I'm bout to cum, Bey." He groans softly
I don't say anything I just nod as he continues to thrust into me. He rests his hand on my thigh then he spread my legs further. He lets out a loud ass groan then I feel warm liquid shoot inside of me.
I let out a soft moan as he holds me tightly. After a second he slowly pulls out then he gets up.
"Fuck.." I whimper at the feeling
"You okay shorty?" He asks me
"I'm okay." I rasp out
I feel a warm towel on my leg. I open my eyes to see him wiping the cum off of my inner thigh.
"Thank you." I whisper while running my hands through his hair
"Of course." He replies
"Where is your phone?" He asks
"On the nightstand, why?" I respond
I watch as he gets off the bed then he puts his boxers back on before going to the nightstand and picking up my phone.
"What's your password?" He asks
"My birthday." I rasp out
He nods then he begins to type.
"What are you doing?" I ask
"Putting my number in." He replies and I nod before smiling weakly
"Okay." I reply
He puts my phone back on the nightstand then he walks back over to the bed.
"You cannot tell anyone about this." I tell him
"Not a single soul." He replies before leaning over and pecking my lips
I look over at the clock and it read 3:59 am. It's damn near 4 in the morning I need to go to sleep.
"I'll see you later Shawn, hopefully at my show.." I trail off as he gets dressed
"Yeah, I'll be there. See you later shorty." He replies before kissing my hand
I smile then I close my eyes.
August 5th, Tuesday 2025
Megan Knowles
8:30 pm
My wife is currently on stage and I landed Germany maybe an hour ago. I didn't tell her I was here because I want to surprise her.
She's performing Levi's Jeans right now there's a speech that she does after this song. So I'm gonna surprise her during that speech.
"Can you hand me the flowers?" I ask my assistant as I hold the bear in my other hand
"Here you go Meg." She replies before handing me the bouquet of Orchids
Orchids are Beyoncé's favorite flower because they last so long, she's not a basic rose type of woman. Nothing about Beyoncé screams basic and I love that.
I hear the song stop so I stand on the trap door. I signal for the man to lift me up and he nods before flipping the switch.
"Thank you Beyhive. I love you all so so much." She rasps out
I finally hit the stage, the fans on the side see me and they start to scream ap I put my finger over my mouth telling them to be quiet. They quickly nod as I slowly walk behind Beyoncé.
"You know...being on tour can be really lonely because a lot of the time my wife and my children aren't with me. So I try my best to keep myself busy." She explains as I stand behind her
I decide I'm gonna let her talk because I really want to hear this speech. The audience is literally screaming loud as hell but I guess she didn't catch on yet because she hasn't turned around.
"I really love and miss my wife and my children, no offense because I love you guys with my entire heart but I'm so ready to get off this stage and call my wife." She says before laughing softly
I chuckle then I tap her shoulder making her jump. She quickly turns around and her eyes widen, within a second she launches herself into my arms making me drop the flowers and the bear.
"I missed you so much more babygirl." I whisper as she wraps her legs around my waist
"I missed you so so fucking much baby I'm so sorry" she immediately begins to apologize while holding me tightly
Sorry? Sorry for what?
"Sorry for what?" I ask
"I..nothing I just missed you so much, I'm sorry for being away from you for some long." She explains
"It's okay baby..I'm here now..it's okay." I reply
All I can hear is the audience screaming and cheering. I run my hands through her hair as I let her go. She kneels down then she picks up the flowers and the bear.
"You got these for me?" She asks before standing up straight
"Of course mama." I reply before kissing her softly
"Imma let you finish now mama." I add on then I kiss her temple
"Thank you baby." She says before putting her bear and the flowers on the staircase
"Give it up for my beautiful, amazing wife." She says softly into the microphone as I walk away
I laugh softly before throwing up a peace sign then I walk towards the trap down. The trap door begins to lower then it finally takes me backstage.
11:30 pm
She lays on my chest as I play with her hair. I feel her chest rise and fall then she bursts into tears.
"Beyoncé?" I ask
She doesn't reply she just continues to cry and wipe away her tears.
"What's wrong babygirl?" I question
"I..nothing I've just missed you so fucking much." She rasps out
"Is that all?" I respond
"Yeah..yeah that's all baby." She replies as I use my thumb to wipe away hee tears
I've never seen her look like this before and it's very confusing. She looks sad but it seems deeper than her just missing me.
"I love you mama." I tell her before kissing her softly
"I love you too baby.." she whispers while looking in my eyes
"Get some rest I know you're tired." I say softly
"When are you leaving?" She asks before letting out a soft sigh
"Tomorrow morning." I respond
"I only have you for a few hours.." she pouts
"I'm sorry baby..I have to get the kids ready for school and stuff." I explain
"It's okay though, we'll be together after these last few shows." I add on
She only has a few more shows for her European leg then she'll have a little break before doing her North American leg. After the North American leg she's going to be doing South America, then some parts of Asia, and last of all Australia.
"I've just missed you so much.." she replies
"I know. I've missed you more babygirl, what have you been up to?" I change the subject
"Oh! I got you something!" She exclaims before sitting up and getting out of the bed
"Ohhh a gift I'm excited." I reply with a smile on my face as I lay down
"So you know that perfume you always get when you're in Paris?" She asks me
"Of course, I haven't got any in a long ass time." I respond
"I got you some." She replies before going into her bag
She pulls out the glass bottle, the perfume is called "Angels Share Eau De Parfum" and I love it so much because it reminds me of Beyoncé.
"Thank you babygirl." I say with a wide smile on my face
"Well that's not it, I got you something else." She rasps out before pulling out a velvet sunglasses box
I smile widely as she crawls back into bed. She sits on her knees as she hands me the box.
"Thank you." I reply out and she nods in response
"Open it." She mutters while smiling
"Tiffany...oh what's the occasion?" I ask before opening the box
"Because I love you so much." She replies
"And I love you more." I say then I take the cover off the sunglasses
The sunglasses are black and covered in diamonds, they are beautiful. They remind me of some sunglasses Beyoncé had on her last tour. I look at the glasses then I look back at Beyoncé who's looking at me with a smile on her face.
"Do you love it?" She asks
"I love it." I reply before hugging her tightly
"I'm glad you love it." She whispers as we sway side to side
"I'm gonna wear it always." I tell her while kissing the top of her head
Once Beyoncé gave me that pendent a few years ago I've barely ever taken it off. The only time I've taken it off is to get it cleaned or to get the chain changed.
"I love you so much." I add on
"I love you too baby." She replies
"Come on let's get some sleep and in the morning we can get some breakfast before I leave, how does that sound?" I ask her before placing the sunglasses on the nightstand then I lay down
"Sounds amazing." She rasps out before laying on my chest and closing her eyes
"Goodnight." I say
"Goodnight my love." She replies as I close my eyes
After a few minutes I begin to hear her soft snores, it brings me so much peace. Next thing I know I'm fast asleep.
(A/ N: don't forget to check out my other Meyoncé books, thank you so much! I love and appreciate you all 🫶🏾🫂)