My last day will end here in this lounge. I will watch till sunrise will arose on the sky, it's currently 2 am in my pocket watch, I like how the blanket soothe me, watching the glowing insect's flying around, I'm starting not to regret the curse in fact I may encounter this place and the village to set me free, even if I don't like crowded but how the people treat me in their way in the village make me believe that somehow there some people in the earth was a person to make you feel your existence, even i didn't know this book has connection in real life.
Those who have privilege of being poor is kind enough to treat each of person they meet, not like who have their own land and bunch of gold you don't necessarily know what they really intention to you, like someone said in my world, poor people is not a threat in fact those who has in high level of living is the one who is the threat on one society.
Being kind is not doings of stupid, being smart is ego who can harm someone.
If I just had bought my computer and my phone in this world I really gonna enjoy doing something in front of this beautiful vibes of the balcony.
"Are you still up?"
"Ah, just enjoying the last view" demon? Maybe he took sip of he's tea
After that I fall asleep I wake up 5 am in the morning and I transfer to my room and sleep.
Brother knocked in my door to wake me up, at expected I woke up late,
"My lovely darling sister"
"Don't call me that I'm not kid anymore"
I dash and took my luggage to carriage, I just change my clothes didn't take any breakfast because I don't feel to.
"Hurry up"
"ALREADY THERE"
Three carriage just arrived one for me and Selena, one for the two boys and one for demon.
We start the journey to the next neighboring kingdom to visit the beach, mhm I think this is the day where I lost my happiness cuz you know I hate water that much, not that much and maybe this is the last chaos cause why not I'm gonna lose my life in the water.
I already took my last view in the balcony of manor and that's enough.
"What are you thinking for?"
"Nothing hehe I'm just tired, I'm gonna sleep if we arrived in the beach"
Ah! I'm frustrated getting back the day when I was in my world I was just wandering around the tight clouds, no one's bothering me, then I came up with the words in my head blaming the reaper who would put me in this world without yet my knowledge, is it not just unbearing to put my self here when I don't want this, but make me want to leave, is there a place I need to go back upon?
Ah. I really don't know how to swim even just a simple basic floating I can't do that! What I'm gonna do if they found out I'm not real sphere living in their side? I'm gonna die is there someone there for me to help me. I have fear when practicing swimming then what else?
3 hours had passed and we arrived to our destination, I've been tired the whole time I didn't sleep last night and I didn't even tried to close my eyes in the carriage.
"I'll rest you guys can go swim now"
There's a special room for duke's to warmly welcome us in their kingdom, I'm thankful for that.
"You'd don't want to look or paddle your feet in the water to test out?"
"Ah, no I'm really tired"
"....."
I've been in ups and down this day, and I want to be lively again so this frustrated and irratated feeling I've been holding lately I'll put it to rest the whole day.
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"What's wrong with her"
"I caught her last night in the balcony of the manor zoning out, I guessed she didn't sleep well so...."
"..she's strange lately"
"I guessed she don't want to leave the place that's why"
"Well Selena you know her well"
"Hehehe"
"Let's go dive in!"
"Your not that tired"
"No"
"Ah, father I need to talk to you"
"Sphere been mentioning she want to camp, the time you were in the village and we're having tea in the garden in the manor but I guessed it's a little bit dangerous"
"I've been thinking for that lately for the last vacation"
"Really?? So what's your plan, I recommend after we finish having time in the beach we can move out to the woods"
"Well, ask you brother to talk he has a lot of nice ideas for that I'm quite old for the stuff's like that"
"No, not your not old how old are you?"
"35"
"See, hmp I'll get going"
"Childish"
"Hi demon hi bro"
"Talk"
"Then I'll get to the point, we're planning to camp in the woods after we finish having time here"
"Then...."
"I bet you have better ideas for our safety"
"Then we're not going cause I also think it's not safety after all"
"Tskk bro here me out first the opinion of your sister"
"You know sphere want to go......"
"That girl has really strange plan"
"Just let her, it's the last vacation after all were coming back in the kingdom and sphere will be stuck in void"
"Okay I'll think for that well, just give me a few more days"
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"Yawn" I think my sleep is enough, umm 123... I got 10 hours of sleep.
"....." (Thinking) But... If I'll set foot outside of this room, high expectations they will force me to enter the water, so there's possibilities I'll get drown
Then if I'll stayed here I'll get bored as well, I can take a peck what's going on outside though
I have books after all, we didn't have maids here so no one will accompany me here, this family is really that independent huh?
I shut the door off
"Knock, knock"
??? Is my time but no? I won't go out even-
"SPHERE?"
"?..?" If I answer my whole mood is mess up
"She's not up yet"
"I think she's still sleeping"
"There's no way, we need to wake her up she didn't eat any breakfast earlier and it's already lunch"
Lunch? I need to go out but still.... I don't want to.... after I eat my lunch they will invite me or neither force me to swim.
Author's note: actually it's coincidence that I write the part where the vacation is going in, and we're having swimming lesson where I lost off, (actually the whole story of this novel is already planned out and only thing is I need to write it following the list of events) I get vip treatment in the pool, my teacher put me in kiddypool [also is quite deep] which is I feel bad for myself I'm really disappointed, while all the student is in adult pool learning different types of swimming stroke so I'm having hard time to learn it while soobing, she didn't even let other students to enter kiddypool which is the pool is only for me, luckily I learn how to float learning on my own but didn't learn freestyle yet, how I badly wanna try out but my fear still going in, and everytime I saw water I always get anxiety attacks or breathing heavier what is called panic attack? I really hate my self and how other think about me, I also don't want to walk the same in my path over on someone I know, I just don't know how to talk about or put expression, social anxiety and being introverted is really sucks. (Character's are not related irl)