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"And now what, girlfriend?" Luke asks kissing my forehead.
We left the park and went to my parents house. Right now we're lying on my brother's bed.
"What?" I laugh
"I mean, there must be some kind of magic beneath it. So what happens now?" He says tracing circles on my shoulder "Maybe I could magically make your dress disappear" he smirks and I kiss his lips
"I love this dress, did you like it?" I kneel on bed and spin side to side, he's staring me with a silly smile on his lips
"No matter what you wear, I will love it" he's so happy. I'm so happy. He wraps his hands around my legs, with his open palms on the back of my thigh
I place my legs around his body and sit on his lap. I feel a bit uneasy to have sex with him right now because it seems we only work out our problems through sex and thats not right.
"Luke" I lean back, backing off of his embrace
"What babe?" He mutters against my jawline
"Let's put our pajamas on and get some sleep, we have a plane to catch first thing in the morning" I climb off bed and take one of his black shirts from the edge of the bed to put on
"Pajamas?" He twitches his forehead "Don't leave me hanging here. Whats wrong?" He sits on the bed and I lean against the wooden dresser from across the room
"It just feels like we only solve our problems through sex and thats not healthy" I look at him, his eyes seem confused "We're beginning a new chapter and its important to talk things out not bury our troubles in sex"
"But there's no problem!" He waves his hands "We literally just made up"
"Exactly!" I nod "Thats why we must make things right not rush into sex, lets just talk and get some sleep"
"You and your theories" he rolls his eyes "Fine, lets talk and sleep" he frowns his face and I smile
"Can you help me with the zipper?" I walk towards him and turn so he can zip me down
His fingertips touch my skin and I regret saying no to the sex. I slide my dress down and put on his shirt then climb back to bed. I lie on my side and rest my head on his chest, his hands go straight to my back.
"I really missed you" he whispers "I'm sorry I was a dick that day Jonah asked you out"
"Its okay" I run my hand over his abs "I used to freak out every time you were out with Megan"
"I'm glad we worked things out" he kisses my forehead "I'm not good at this stuff but I think we can work"
"I do too" I smile and snuggle myself deeper in his embrace.
Luke sang me to sleep to make sure I would have good dreams. I kissed his lips and feel asleep.
When morning came I woke up before him and tip toed back to my old room to gather my things then came back to Luke who had just wake up.
"Morning cutie" I leaned to kiss him
Luke's not a morning person, he tolerates people in exchange for coffee. He doesn't smile much or makes any effort to be kind, sometimes he doesn't even wants to talk to people in the morning.
"What time is our flight?" He rolls out of bed and hugs me, resting his head on my head with his arms around my chest
"11 o'clock" I can feel his heartbeats "We have four hours to get ready and leave" I turn to face him and kiss his neck
"Then why am I awake?" He makes his pouty face and I smile
"I'm about to take a shower, I was going to invite you but since you're still tired and want more sleep I could shower alone" I shrug my shoulders
"I'm wide awake" he smiles and kisses my lips "See you in the shower" he squeezes my sides and walks to the bathroom
Luke's POV
When would I ever find myself being someone's boyfriend? Probably never. Even most Alaska's boyfriend. Of course I had my feelings for her since day one but I could never imagine where we'd end up.
It wasn't on my plans to tell her I love her, but being shout at by her angry words made me realize I could've lost her because I wasn't showing her my true feelings. In the minute those 3 words escape from my mouth it felt like breaking free from all of my worries and insecurity to run towards my happiness. And it just actually made me wanna say it even more.
Now we're on this happy place. We both love each other very much and she knows my problems and my habits and is completely okay with that. Maybe thats what love means. Knowing the flaws and accepting them because the big picture is worthy.
I walk in the bathroom and she follows me, hugging me from behind and wrapping her tiny hands around my bare waist. I couldn't quite understand why we couldn't have sex yesterday but that's fine, we're together and hopefully that will stay like this for a long time.
"Can you please let me make this bun?" She rolls her eyes. She's trying to hold her hair but I keep getting in the way by kissing her neck
"Relax baby" I kiss her shoulder and start to fill the bathtub
"You make it impossible for me" she smiles. I love the way she smiles, her mouth curls up at the edges and the upper side of her lips shape into a heart
When the bathtub is filled up we both strip and get in. She's at the other side of the bathtub staring at me. Her hair is in a messy bun, her entire self is so natural and so perfect.
"What?" She asks
"What what?" I frown my forehead
"You're staring" she blushes
"I love staring you" I say, leaning forward to kiss her
"Creep" she blushes and kisses me back
I adore how she still blushes when I stare or compliment her.
"What are you gonna do about UCLA?" She asks "The band is getting big and now with the label deal"
"We'll probably drop out" I nod and bite my lip "Mike already did" two days before we came to Canada he dropped out
"Really?" She frowns her forehead "Maybe that's why he's acting so weird"
"You do know he has a crush on you right?" I say, hoping she doesn't care
"Yeah, I kinda knew it" she looked down to the water "Couple weeks ago he walked in while I was changing and almost fainted"
"He saw you naked?" My eyes grow big and this uneasy feeling grows in me.
"I had underwear on" she blushes "But I knew before that. He says nice things to me all the time, normally boys don't do that"
"I do, I tell you nice things all the time" my voice is pitchy. Do I?
"You know what I mean" she bends her head to the left then back again "He's too sweet and carrying. You are too, in your own way"
"What do you mean? In my own way?" I shift my head as a sign I can't understand her point. She rolls her eyes, probably regretting mentioning it in the first place
"You have you own way to show you care" her voice is sweet and peaceful "You're not the clingy type that craves for attention or anything like that. You show you care about me by being protective" I can feel she's choosing wisely her words
"So basically what you're saying is I'm not very romantic?" I stare her eyes and see herself infuriated by my many questions.
"I'm saying that I love the way you love me. Period" her mouth is a straight line "Next subject"
I roll my eyes but let that go. It's such a silly thing to get caught up to.
We finish our bath when we heard Calum calling for breakfast. I'm not very sure if we'll go wide open to people telling everyone we're together or we'll keep it for ourselves right now. She got dressed in silence and so did I. Before we get into the kitchen I stopped her to ask, feeling very afraid of screwing things up
"Alaska, hold up" I hold her hand and she look me in the eyes "Are we telling people we're together or no?" I'm not very good at small talks and she knows it, so its better ask what I want to know anyways
"Yes, I guess" she blushes "I mean, they're our friends and my family. Let's just be comfortable and roll with it" she smiles and kisses my cheek
Since when she's not crazy about planning every move? She loves to make up one million plans and play by the rules, whats going on?
We walk in the kitchen with her pinky tangle in mine. Everyone notices but it doesn't feel weird or anything, I guess they all suspected so it won't be that hard. We eat, laugh and start to get ready to leave. Alaska went upstairs earlier to find one purse she wanted to bring back to Cali, so when I made my way up her mum asked for me
"Luke?" Mrs. Crawdford calls my name from the living room. I walk in with a smile, I like her mum
"Yes, Mrs. Crawdford?" I smile at her and she smiles back, Alaska got her smile. She points to the couch and I sit down
"I can see you and Alaska are in good therms" she fixes her hair and looks at me. I nod and she smiles "That's good, thats really good" I can see her eyes glowing "You love her, don't you?" her voice is sweet and sharp, just like Alaska
"I do, Mrs. Crawdford" I look down and smile. Just thinking of Alaska makes me go all goofy "I really do"
"I saw that glow in your eyes that day we met, I knew it was love" she smiles "Promise me you will take good care of her, she needs a good man to care for her" I can see in the bottom of her eyes that she means every word. Alaska is so lucky to have Stephanie as her mum. "Sometimes she gets grumpy and will probably push you away but that's just a defense mechanism"
"I will take wonderful care of her" I promise her "I'll guard her with my life if necessary" and I really mean it, she means the world to me.
"Good" she smiles "Make sure she calls me too, sometimes she's so focused on improving herself that she forgets her family" there's a pain beneath those words, I can relate to.
"I'll make her call you every now and then" I smile "Your daughter is amazing, Mrs. Crawdford" I look into her eyes and she's so happy. "Of course she has her flaws but she's radiant"
"She's one of a kind" Stephanie smiles and nods "Make sure she goes out to have some fun, the last thing we want is sad Alaska" she smirks and I nod.
"Don't worry, she will never be sad around me" I smile, knowing that most of the times on these past few weeks I was the cause of her sadness, but things will look up now.
"I like you, Luke" Stephanie nods her head "You have a good heart, take care of my baby girl" she stands up to hug me and I hug her back "Go back to pack your things, and thank you for coming and bringing my little girl back home" I can see she's crying so I just smile and nod.
I make my way upstairs to finish packing and find Alaska standing up in front of her old room looking inside. She doesn't seem to notice me so I lean back to stay hidden. Her eyes look so sad, like she was reminding all the bad things that happened there.
I wont lie, when she said she tried to kill herself half of me just froze. Why would she do something like that? She's so gorgeous and crazy intelligent, so full of life and kindness it makes hard to believe that she could ever stop believing in life and in herself.
She leaned against the doorway, looking so depressed. Her face wasn't glowing with happiness like usually is, now is a mix of pain and open wounds that can never heal. Her brown eyes are looking at the space beside her bed, the spot where she lied down after she took all those pills. If I had found her like that I would absolutely snap and go completely crazy, probably cry and shout at her to come back to me then go find the son of a bitch who did that to her.
I'm currently so pissed off at Kyle, at the Benefit what I wanted was to take him by his neck and throw him against the wall and punch his face until all of his bones are broken, then push him under a bus while drinking my beer. Just by looking at her expression when he approached us I wanted to kill him with my bare hands, I want never to see her in pain like that. If I could trap her in a tower to keep her safe from this fucked up world I would, but of course she's too stubborn and would probably snap at me saying she's a big girl and can take care of herself.
I know she can but she shouldn't. She's too pure for this world. For me.
I see she's crying and swiping away the teardrops from her cheeks with her fingertips. She twitches her jaw and lick her perfect full lips then closes the door. She leans against the wall and I keep walking like I saw nothing.
"Hi bab-" I start saying but she runs to me and jumps in my arms, crying like the usual "Hey, I'm here" I hold her back and keep her as close to me as possible
Her sobs are quiet but heartbreaking. This crazy rage grows in me, if I see Kyle around he's in trouble.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" she pulls away and dries her face "I just needed that" her face is red and sad.
"Don't be silly, I'm here for you babe" I dry her cheeks and kiss her forehead.
I will protect you, my Little Girl. And believe me, Kyle will pay a high price for hurting you like this. I promise you, you will never feel this pain again.
"I'll take care of you" I smile to cheer her up and she smiles back "I love you, Alaska"