Without warning I felt myself lose all sense of control. My thoughts had become what my mouth refused to hide. Maybe it was because of his fresh, cool, and bracing minty scent that I couldn't control what I said.
"...mark me."
I instantly began to wonder why I'd even say that. Everything was so new. Why would I expect him to mark me when this was our first time ever kissing, let alone touching so intimately? I had never felt such an intense need for him like this. It was worse than before. The pain inside of me was enveloping my entire body and the burning at my neck begged for his bite. My body physically needed him as if it were already addicted.
"Walker." His deep voice raddled me. I felt my insides twist and turn with torment. Why was he stalling? Why wasn't he fixing it? Did he not want me? Was he rejecting me for falling into heat at such an inconvenient time? Was he...
Every question, concern, and insecurity was answered when I felt him pull my head by my hair in one direction and my shoulder down in another to expose my neck. I could feel his breath hit the bare sensitive skin as his teeth grazed over it. He was going to do it. He was going to mark me. He was going to bite me and claim me, so that no one could ever take me away. He was going to fix it. He was going to fill me with him.
That was until I felt my body being pulled away by my security. Malachi held onto me, but there were to many of them pulling me for him to keep me in his arms. I was torn away from him as he began to get aggressive and fight the security guards who struggled to keep him near the Vehicle as I was carried into my house.
I began to kick and scream as much as I could knowing there was nothing I could really do. I was far too weak to break free.
"What the hell are you doing!" Blair shouted, causing the security guard who was holding me to let go. I fell onto the softness of my couch, to weak to move.
"I'm sorry Blair, but this is protocol. Mr.Scobell went into grave detail about this kind of situation. As discussed before I was hired, marking is prohibited and is to be taken with extreme caution," the guard explained.
"They're pair bonded you dumbasses! That's literally the only stipulation! Where the hell is Malachi!" Blair was furious as she walked outside where Malachi had somehow gotten up and was trying his hardest to get to me.
"Let him go you idiots!" Blair yelled. Within seconds I felt Malachi swoop me back within his arms as he ran with me to the furthest corner of my house and sat me within his lap. I began to tremble again. I could hear him breathing harshly, his chest rising and falling with a pant before slowing to a steady rhythm.
I wanted to apologize again, but I couldn't speak anymore. All I could do was lick and suck at his neck, wishing he'd take me now. Deep within me I wished the moment wasn't ruined. He was so close to marking me. The wishingand hoping had boiled over and I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted Malachi to be mine.
"I lost control." the alpha's voice was low as he spoke. Like he was afraid he'd break me if he spoke any louder. I continued to lick at his neck in an attempt to seduce him into losing control again, but there was no luck. He was to conscious now and my licking only made him hold me tighter to him.
"M...M-m-m..." I trembled and shook as I attempted to say his name only to be shushed by his lips pressing against mine. They were so soft and plump, that I couldn't help but moan. His hands kept my butt from moving away from his lap, forcing me to feel what I had thought about just as much as him marking me. The member between his legs was erect and push against my butt, teasing me with its length. I had imagined that it was big, but what I felt was much more than I was prepared for.
"I want you so badly," he hummed into my ear when he broke the kiss. I whimpered into his neck, begging that he take me at this point. Anything to deal with the need and pain.
Anything to...
Malachi's P.O.V
Within moments he was out like a light bulb. His limp body cuddled into me as I stood up with his legs tightly latched onto me. I waited a moment to calm myself down then I carried the markless boy back into the living where Blair was giving the security an earful.
"Are you out of your minds! Malachi is the only alpha allowed to touch him that way! Do you all understand! They are paired bonded! You could've seriously hurt one of them! Your lucky Walker's father wasn't here! I swear when he hears about..."
"Blair," I interrupted. The irate woman turned to me, her eyes landing on Walker's neck, then me.
"You didn't..."
I shook my head no. It wasn't the right time. I was well aware of how much he wanted it and how much I wanted to do it, but it was to early. These feelings were to fresh and new and I needed time to digest what I was feeling and why I felt so anxious about everything.
However, it still didn't change the fact that I was about to do it. I think it was the fact that he wanted me to do it. It triggered something in me that I couldn't quite understand or control.
"Malachi..." Blair frowned at me as she lead me towards Walker's bedroom. "...he's talked non stop about you since he left the hospital. He wants nothing more than for you to solidify things, but he's to afraid to flat out ask you," she explained.
I knew that. His heats were the only time he'd admit something like that. He couldn't help it. His body wanted it. His mind wanted it. I just didn't want to burden him with my life. There was so much we had to discuss.
"What's that look on your face?" Blair asked.
I laid Walker down on his bed and watched him sleep. I wondered how many people ever got a chance to see him in this state. He looked so at peace. I wondered if he was happy with his life? The things he had accomplished. Was his family proud of him? Did he have the kind of support that he deserved? I didn't have any of that. I really didn't add anything besides being an alpha to him.
"I'm useless. Mrs.Scobell was right. I don't really add any worth to Walker's life. I don't have any family that I actually claim. My last relationship ended and I let it end because I wasn't willing to fight for someone who didn't even want me. Today I got jealous because he was kissing someone else when that's literally his job. I just don't want..." I turned towards Blair who looked at me with an unreadable expression. "...I don't want him to feel what it's like to be me. It doesn't feel good at all," I explained.
"Do you think Walker cares about any of that?" The beta woman asked.
I didn't want to take the chance. I was so damaged beyond repair and Walker didn't need to feel that. The kind of anger and frustration inside of me was too much for even me to handle.
"Malachi, you don't think Walker has things he doesn't want you to feel too. Trauma that he doesn't want you to know about. Just because you assume he's perfect doesn't mean his life is," Blair argued. Her energy was a bit different from before. Like she knew more than she'd ever tell me.
"I get that. I do...I just. My last relationship kind of fucked me up. He literally didn't want me anymore and it broke me inside. I thought I was in love with him too, but now I'm starting to realize that it was just because I felt like I was required to. How I feel about Walker...it's completely different from how I felt about my ex. It's so much stronger and it happened so much quicker. It was like the first time I saw him I couldn't help but fall for him. It's like I'm pulled towards him. Every little thing he does, from the way he blinks to the way his eyes light up when he's sees me. I'm obsessed. I've never felt like this before. I've never lost control like that before. He makes me..."
Blair began to laugh as she walked over to the side of Walker's bed and sat down on the edge. "It's almost as if your pair bonded," she said sarcastically.
I gave her a small smile, realizing that everything I was feeling was completely natural. Ben wasn't the boy I was meant to be with. Maybe part of me knew that I was never really attracted to Ben. That's why it was so easy for me to ignore his heats or not question him about why we never had sex.
"Also, I heard that you live alone. Walker wanted to ask you if you'd stay with him here. I know it's a bit early to request that sort of thing but he's extremely unhappy when you aren't near him," Blair told me. I guess I never took into consideration just how bad it was for him. The constant need for me. I was so used to being unwanted that I couldn't see it when he looked at me.
"Okay," I replied. Blair gave me a big smile, standing to her feet. "He's going to be so excited!"
She exclaimed. I watched as she floated out of the room, leaving me with a heating Walker, who was still fast asleep.