This is a request from @Jade29123 hope you enjoy it! Thank you all for giving me time to write, I am still extremely busy and this is a request from November... so I do feel really bad about being so late with it but I really try my best!
There it was again, another messages, that was messing with his head once again. The sweat was standing on his forehead as today was their last full rehearsal for the concert tomorrow, he was still out of breath as he scrolled down his phone.
Hoseok looks around, trying to find the leader of the group and the moment their eyes meet Namjoon knows. It has been a well known secret between the two of them, none of them wanted to included the others. None of them had the intension of making the others just as afraid as they secretly are. Even though Hoseok really tried to hide his fear the messages where going on in his mind like a marry go round.
Wait till I see you there
The colour of you blood will go perfectly with your skin
Did you ever hear a gunshot? Or is this going to be your first time?
The moment the moonlight is going to kiss your face, the moment red will flow.
Even though none of the messages where legally threatening him, he still didn't feel safe. The police couldn't get involve because they couldn't prove it was really against him even though they wanted to help this was just the rule. The security team did indeed upgrade as Namjoon talked to the board about it but still Hoseok couldn't feel any safer.
It wasn't the first time they received messages like this but it was the very first time it was do his own phone number directly. Al lot of their information is out in the open if they wanted it or not it was out there. But they always really made sure that their phone number wasn't going to be one of it and one way or another that didn't work out.
A shiver went down over his body as his phone gets another notification, he takes it out of his pocket and looks at the screen as he realises that it is just Namjoon telling him to go to their little back stage room just so the two of them could talk.
Hoseok nods knowing that Namjoon is looking at him and with that the two of them leave the five other members going to the dressing room to get their stuff to go back to their houses.
"Hobi?" Namjoon speaks as the two of them are alone and he can see that hoseok is going in to a straight panic attack.
Hoseok breathing goes up, his face is getting a bit paler, his body slowly starts to shake and Hoseok vision is starting to get a bit blurry.
"I don't know if I can do it." Hoseok says showing Namjoon the last messages with his shaking hands.
Namjoon needs to take the phone out of his hand in order to read the last messages
Do you know with the right shot, your could be dead in seconds.
The shivers go over Namjoons body the moment he reads it, while Hoseok legs can't carry his weight anymore and sinks to the ground. Not being able to hold himself together anymore. Namjoon doesn't even think a second as he drops the phone which falls to the ground and he kneels next to Hoseok, the man who still can't stop shaking and his breathing is getting more out of control than Namjoon has ever seen before, but what shocks him the most are the words he can barely hear coming out of Hoseok mouth.
"I...I do do don...'t wwan...ant th..themm to g...gg...et hu...rt." He says his voice trembling, out of control that Namjoon has to think really hard to understand his friend.
"You are not hurting them.." Namjoon says trying to calm down the older one. Hoseok didn't tell Namjoon just because he was the leader of them. Hoseok told Namjoon everything as he felt like a true friend, a brother, his leader and a safe place to tell his worries but none of them had ever expected that they would be sitting here crying.
Namjoon couldn't hold back his tears anymore as he also starts to cry softly, softly talking to Hoseok to take deeps breaths, softly telling him that Namjoon will do everything he can to keep Hoseok safe.
"HYUNG?" a voice rings through the silence but the two know exactly who is calling for them. It is the second youngest ready to go home, yet the voice of Jimin is not a second later also calling for them.
Hoseok tries to control his breathing tries to ease out, taking deep breaths, while Namjoon wipes away the tears and tries to hold himself together by looking at Hoseok.
You can see that the boy has a difficult time and they knew they couldn't hide it forever but they would tell after the concert. The moment they are done they would come clean, as the staff, the security team has protected them.
"HYUNG?" Jimins voices is calling for them.
"I be back." Namjoon says standing up, slapping his own cheeks softly as he leave Hoseok who still is in the middle of a panic attack while he tries to over come it by himself now.
"Namjoon-hyunh." Taehyung says seeing his brother getting out of the room.
"we want to go, you ready?" Jimin asks looking at him. "Have you see hobi-hyung?"
"Me and Hobi are discussing some stuff for the concert tomorrow, the last details do you mind tyelling the others? We will be back as soon as we can." Namjoon says smiling softly, the two younger one don't question the leader. Everything always needs to be perfect and this was not any different so a commant like that wouldn't keep them awake at night.
They both smile and nod and Namjoon turns his back again, breathing out as he didn't even notice he was holding his breath hoping his brothers would believe him as he walks back towards Hoseok.
"Oke, deep breath in. deep out." Namjoon says taking Hoseok hands now as Namjoon texts one of the staff members the distress signal they had come up with. A code so that when the staff got that code they knew another messages was send out to Hoseok.
"What if it never stops?" Hoseok says soft after a small 5 minutes as he finally calms down.
"it will stop." Namjoon says. "we will get you a new phone number."
"We already did twice." Hoseok says sounding upset.
"Someone is leaking it, I am pretty sure." Hoseok says.
"I don't know Hobi, I don't know any staff member who would do that and none of the members would either." Namjoon says.
"I know, but it just don't feel right."
Namjoon can't say anything to that, he just hug Hoseok a little tighter as he says that they should get back, the staff will handle more people by the door for safety.
"We should get back to the hotel. The others are waiting." Hosoek says looking at Namjoon who nods and looks at Hoseok.
"I do anything to keep you safe you know that right?" Namjoon says looking at Hoseok who nods.
"I know, but what if it is out of your hands?" Hoseok says before walking out of the small room back to where the others are waiting.
He puts a smile back on his face like nothing has ever happened, but the moment he walks in he can see the five members looking at him.
It is something in his eyes, it is something that trigger a hyung instinct and Jin and Yoongi both feel it.
"Ready?" Hoseok says, the smile is not even reaching his eyes but none of the members say anything except that they are ready to go.
The drive to the hotel goes smoothly nonetheless Hoseok still feels a bit sick, he doesn't know if it is the carsickness of the feeling but it feels of.
They get out of the car and the three younger who share one room walk away leaving the four other members also getting ready in their room.
They booked only two rooms, one for four and one for three and of course for all the staff members. The moment the door closes, Jin can't hold it back anymore.
"What is wrong?" he asks looking at Hoseok, who looks surprised.
"Car sickness." Hoseok says not wanting to go into it.
"No, you know what he is talking about." Yoongi says looking from Namjoon to Hoseok not sure if Namjoon knows.
"I didn't feel right after rehearsel today and needed a breather, I think I might get sick." Hoseok says not wanting to tell the others now, while Namjoon just smiles but doesn't look at Jin or Yoongi as he starts to take a shower not ready to face more lies.
"Its fine, I will get some sleep and probaply be fine tomorrow." He says, the two older smile but don't believe the younger one that crashes down on one of the kingsizes beds before getting themselves ready for the night.
****
It feels almost impossible as Hoseok is standing there with his 6 members on the huge stage. The lights are shining, the fans are screaming and the world feels like fireworks.
Everything is so beautiful everything is so pretty and amazing that Hoseok forgets, for the first time in months he forgets. He can feel the soft breeze of the wind going over his skin, he can feel the light kisses his body and the sweat dripping down his bag from the dancing and singing.
The cheering is making him feel like he can be free and happy for the first time in forever, but nothing ever last.
The song finishes, this was there last song, the boys look at each other happiness is spreading around their face just as sadness as they releases that the show has ended after two hours. None of them is ready to leave the stage and Hoseok takes a deep breath as he puts the microphone to his mouth to speak.
"Thank you all, You don't realises that this is just as amazing for us as it is for you. I really hope you all had a good night." Hoseok says now thinking back about the messages.
"I sometimes forget why I love this so much, being a idol is not always easy but this reminds me every single time that I never want something di.." Hoseok can't finish his words as the microphone drops out of his hand, a pain in his stomach and he falls to the ground feeling nothing but a strong power and warm liquid coming over his body.
He can't even hear the screams around him as he tries to figure out what is happening as the world sounds are slowly turning off, his vision disappears slowly and there it goes.
The darkness took all of it.
"No! HOBA" Namjoon screams just like the members and ARMY seeing their beloved idol fall to the ground as a big pool of blood is coming out of his body.
Jungkook is the first one to reach the rapper but is frozen in place two steps away from him. Jin takes Jungkook and tells him to go back stage as he and Namjoon run closer. Namjoon covering up the gunshot wound and waiting for the medics to show.
ARMY is screaming loudly, yelling in fear, how can a night so perfect turn into something so ugly. Medics are running towards Hoseok, while Yoongi is looking how the whole crowd is being taken care of. Nobody is going to leave the area, but a screen is being put in front of Hoseok and ARMY is no longer in side but the screaming is still there.
"I should have been next to him." Namjoon says.
"I didn't even hear the shot." Jin says looking at Namjoon.
"I should have done better." Namjoon says.
"You knew this was going to happen?" Yoongi asks looking at Namjoon but he is in to much of a shock that he can't answer that question.
"I am so sorry." Namjoon says his hand covered in blood of his friend as a medic carries away the lifeless body of Hoseok while keeping his heart on the move by using CPR.
****
The members are waiting in a small waiting room in the hospital close by the hotel, none of them wanting to leave. Jin and Namjoon are still covered in some blood of their brother but most of the blood o there hands is gone.
Namjoon hasn't said anything the moment they walks into the hospital, like he is in some kind of shock while waiting for the news.
"We removed the bullet, but we can't say he is out of danger just yet." A doctor says before walking away again.
Days go by, Hoseok isn't waking up and it is getting more critical by the day. It feels unbelievable long how long that boy needs to recover and still none of the members have left him alone, not even for a slight moment.
Any minute, any second and at any time of the day the boys are in that room with Hoseok.
Jimin is holding Hoseok hand as he softly feels a finger move, he looks up, waiting for a movement more but than the machine starts to beep and he lets go of Hoseok hand as he steps back closer to Yoongi who is in the room with him and not a second later a nurse come running in.
"Give me..." But Jimin can't hear a word the nurse is saying as more people run in and surround his brother he can feel panic in his veins but Yoongi tries to calm the boy down. They look at the team as they all put their hands of the body hearing the word clear following by a electric shock and waiting a second.
The heart monitor starts to beat normal ritme and one hour later Hoseok eyes slowly open meeting no other that Kim Namjoon and Kim Taehyung sitting closely by him.
The moment Namjoon and Hoseok eyes meet, he starts to apologize feeling more than guilty and happy as he and Taehyung both start to cry and Taehyung sends a message in the groups chat but through all his tear nothing more than:
Hr if aakr
Is leaving his phone before turning back to Hoseok crying his eyes out feeling nothing but relieved that the boy is finally awake.
"I am so happy to see you." Hoseok says but talking is difficult as he hasn't used his voice is a few days now and his throat feels a bit dry but Namjoon ahdns him a little bit of juice which feels like little angels on the tongue the moment he taste it.
"How is ARMY?" Hoseok ask.
"Doing amazing now that we all now you are awake." Taehyung says. Namjoon can't say anymore than sorry but Hoseok takes his hadn and sqeeuzes is softly.
"You did everything you could and look I am still here, not going any where any time soon." Hoseok says smiling getting back to his sunshine self.