Evangeline Carter
Fifty-seven days since I last spoke to Malfoy.
Fifty-seven days since I accepted that he's no longer in my life.
Fifty-seven days since I felt like I was whole.
Fifty-seven days since I fell to pieces.
I haven't acknowledged Malfoy since the fight. Although, there have been times when I have caught him staring, and he has caught me as well. We both have come to terms that what we had is long gone in the past, and all we have left are memories of each other.
Despite me and Elliot spending almost every day together, he hasn't tried to kiss me again. I enjoyed spending time with him whether it was studying, late-night talks, or going to Hogsmeade alone together. He meant what he said, he has been very patient with me.
"Elliot, are you sure this is safe?" I asked as he was securing my spot on a sled on top of a hill. Even though we were together this entire week, we were in Hogsmeade for the weekend. Snowflakes fitted down from the white skies above. Some even landed gently upon my eyelashes and in my hair, the heavens had opened and let the snow fall this day.
"Positive." He proceeded to sit in front of me and I grabbed on tightly to his waist. I closed my eyes, held my breath, and before I knew it we were rapidly going down the hill and both fell on our backs.
"Still think this is safe?" I had trouble getting up, laughing helplessly with every attempt. Elliot quickly got up and stood over me with a big smile.
"Is your back glued to the snow?" He teased as he offered his hand to pull me up. I gave an innocent smile and pulled his arm, landing him on top of me in the snow.
Our eyes locked and we stopped laughing as he caressed my cheek and took a snowflake from my eyelash. We stared at each other for many moments, I watched as his eyes went down to my lips and then back my eyes.
God, is he beautiful.
There's something of a romantic beauty about him. His perfect jawline took my breath away, his pupils dilated as soon as he looked at me. His piercing green eyes felt like they were staring into my soul and I watched as a piece of his curly hair fell by his forehead.
He hesitated, but then slowly went in for a kiss as if he was waiting for me to pull back.
I didn't.
My hands played with his hair and pulled him in closer until there was no space left between us. I felt his body warm me up from the snow as I went from freezing to suddenly feeling hot. This kiss was exhilarating, soft, and slow.
We pulled apart and held each other's arms as he placed another kiss on my forehead. I grabbed a scoop of snow and placed it on his head laughing playfully. He shook his head as it fell onto my face and I turned my head to avoid the snow.
I heard chimes from a coffee shop coming from people exiting. My smile quickly disappeared as I realized who it was. Malfoy had a hurt look in his eyes. While Blaise had his arm around Tracey both looking around not realizing what was happening, Malfoy continued to keep eye contact with me. None of his muscles moved, it was as if he was frozen. Eventually, he shook his head and walked the opposite way.
"Are you alright Eva?" Elliot asked with a concerned look on his face. I avoided the question. Being with Malfoy felt like it was just yesterday. I remember every single sinful detail. Looking at him made my heart beat faster.
No, stop it, Eva. You're with Elliot now and he's everything you've ever wanted.
"Shall we head back to my dorm?" I asked with an innocent smile.
Once we were in my dorm, Elliot turned the fireplace on and we were both lying on the floor covered with blankets. I made sure to change from my cold drenched clothes to shorts and an oversized Ravenclaw sweater. We put on Minions because apparently, it's the only movie Char had when she was my roommate. At this point, it was dark out.
Elliot noticed I was freezing so he moved closer to cuddle me, using his body heat to warm me up. I felt touch deprived. Although I loved the fact that Elliot was respecting my wishes, I've been secretly waiting for him to make a move.
I turned around, and this time my back turned to him while he was still cuddling me. I slowly began to place my ass on his crotch. I noticed a sudden movement from him and his breathing getting heavier, but he tried to play it off. I tried to act like I didn't know what I was doing to see if he would do anything.
Nothing.
I decided to challenge him and went harder so he could feel it more. The more I did it, the more I began to feel him get hard. I repeatedly did it again and felt his tool grow behind me. I was highly enjoying this and honestly didn't want to stop. I moved my ass in circles to do it once more.
"Eva, what are you doing?" His voice cracked with every movement. I rubbed myself up and down on him. I could feel his breath on my neck and a soft whimper escape from his mouth. He began kissing on my neck and began gently massaging my ass. "What about Luna?" He questioned.
"She's with Ginny, we have the room to ourselves." A sudden rise of confidence rose over me, "Good luck ever touching yourself without thinking of me," I teased.
"I do that all the time anyway," he muttered exasperatedly. My grin somehow got even wider. "Oh, God Eva," his voice quivered. I got his hand and placed it on my breasts which only excited him more.
I felt so powerful hearing him like that. Hearing how his breathing got heavier and how hard he tried to control it. Feeling how hard he was behind me, the way he said my name.
"Eva"
He said it almost like begging, begging me to keep going. Just like how I begged Malfoy.
"Eva, I'm going to cum," he warned in a low whisper. He turned my head to reach my lips and I felt his dick through my shorts. "Can I cum?" He asked. The fact that he asked permission was so cute. After a couple of moments of me rubbing myself on him, he shook profusely, trembling in orgasm.
I stared at the ceiling feeling underwhelmed. Am I always going to be this bored without Malfoy? He always made sure to make me cum, sometimes even more than twice. I would do anything to experience that again. No, this is wrong, I shouldn't be thinking about this. I shouldn't be thinking of another boy while with Elliot.
I turned onto my side to face Elliot. His eyes were sparkling and he had the biggest smile on his face. "You're amazing," he placed a soft kiss on my forehead. I should feel lucky to have him, he's perfect. He wrapped his arms around me as we both fell into a light sleep.
We woke up the next morning to someone entering the room. "Rise and shine Eva, quit snoring and wake up." Oliver was distracted until he spotted Elliot and me and immediately closed his eyes and headed out of the room. "I didn't see anything!" He yelled outside the door.
Me and Elliot giggled and got ready to head out to the great hall for breakfast. "You two missed dinner, although from the looks of it this morning you two were having fun last night," Oliver teased as he shoved pancakes down his mouth. "Eva, what happened to your hair?"
I immediately felt my cheeks turning red as I quickly tried to fix my hair, trying to make it look as neat as possible. Elliot was soon being called by his friends and he gave me a quick kiss on the lips, catching me by surprise. "I'll see you later?" He asked. I nodded my head and as soon as he left his table began cheering.
God, is it really that obvious? Why is everyone getting involved?
"She's no longer a virgin!" Oliver yelled, causing the whole Gryffindor table to look at us. This included Char, Hermione, Harry, and Ron. It was quite obvious they were whispering about me.
"Oliver shut it! I didn't lose my virginity to him!"
His face went from enthusiastic to disappointed. "Word around Hogwarts is that you two are a thing now. I heard from Elliot the other day that he's been meaning to ask you to be his girlfriend."
What? I didn't know how to react. My heart began beating rapidly. Part of me felt guilty, When I should be feeling happy, right? I don't know if I'm ready to take that next step with Elliot yet.
"I—. I'll be right back. I have to use the loo." I get up from the bench and proceed to walk out of the great hall. Once I reached the hallway, I felt as if someone had been following me.
"Eva!" Charlotte raised her voice. I turned my head around and stood there with a blank expression.
"Char," I said softly, "Yes?"
I heard her gulp and bite her lip, she seemed nervous. "Uh, I was just wondering how you were doing," she pushed her hair behind her ear.
I opened my mouth slightly, about to speak, then looked around in disbelief. "I've been doing great. Yeah, things are great."
She smiled. "I see. I heard you're with Elliot now, I called it. I knew you two would end up together." At this point, we began walking down the hallway together.
"Oh, right. You sure did," I giggled. "How is the golden trio treating you?"
She huffed, "It's great. Not as funny as you and Oliver, but bearable. But you're happy, aren't you?"
I hesitate to answer. I mean, why would I not be? This is the happiest I've ever been. I finally got rid of the one thing that constantly added to my pain. I nodded my head yes.
"I'm glad," she answered as we both shared a smile.
Silence.
"I should get going~"
"I'm sorry," Char lamented impulsively. I stopped in my tracks and faced her with a surprised look on my face. "For a lot actually. I'm incredibly sorry about what I did, and the things I said. I heard about what happened between you and Malfoy. I'm sorry, I didn't want to be right." Tears began to pool in her eyes and I immediately gave a sniffle too. I pulled her into a hug as she cried into the nook of my neck.
"Don't worry about it, alright?" I continued to comfort her as she bawled in my arms. "We have forever to spend time with each other. I still love you, idiot," a soft giggle escaped from her lips. I giggled as well.
"I was afraid you and Oliver hated me. You know, for completely shutting you guys out."
I grabbed her shoulder and looked her in the eye. "We grew up together, for Merlin's sake!" It doesn't matter how much time goes by, you will always be my sister! I love you." I placed a kiss on her forehead.
She pulled away and laughed. "Does this mean I can move back in?"
"Of course."
"Oh thank God, Hermione snores and sometimes doesn't let me sleep."
We both began laughing hysterically until we heard the sound of someone crying. We looked behind and realized Oliver had been hearing our conversation. "Does this mean we've made up?" He asked. Char and I immediately pulled him into a hug.