If y'all have any idea for the story or something lemme know!I also just want to say thank you for reading. Even if it's only one person. When I was little I was told to give up on writing, my dad hated the idea of me writing and wanted me to be more realistic. When I uploaded the first part of this story I wasn't expecting anyone to read it so when I saw that one person read it I started crying, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
T.W
Rape
Abuse (sexual,physical, emotional and probably verbal)
Self harm
Suicidal ideation
E.D
Intrusive thoughts
Drugging
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Again this is bkdk and this is written in p.o.v.
- izukus p.o.v -
As soon as kacchan left the room I laid down and fell asleep, sadly it wasn't dreamless and it included a very vivid nightmare.
I run down a street and alley and am suddenly frozen, there's no body just a hand touching me
I tried screaming but my mouth wouldn't open. I try to move but I couldn't I had to just stand there while I was being raped.
I shoot up in a cold sweat. Just a dream. I get up I throw my cover off and stand up grab my clothes and see that most of the cuts on my wrist have faded. I frown at the sight and open the drawer. I grab the box of blades. I grab on and blink back tears. I roll up my sleeve and press the blade onto my skin. I drag it across my arm until I'm met with a burning and stinging sensation in my arm, I put the blade away then pulled down my sleeve, I cringed as the blood smeared into and stuck to the fabric
I left the room only to be met with an angry blond cooking food at the stove.
"Sit down and eat." Kacchans tone seemed still mad but coated with worry. Why was he worried? I sat down and last night came flooding in. So that's why.
I didn't want to eat, I didn't feel like it, but the food did look pretty good so when he put it down in front of me I froze. I debated eating it, eating it and throwing it up, not eating it , actually eating part of it. I think kacchan read my mind cause he sat down next to me and tapped my shoulder gaining my attention
"can you just take five bites?" He shot me an affirming smile that, I have to admit made me melt inside a little bit. I did want to eat but I can't gain weight I just can't. I hated that idea. I refocused my attention back to the plate of food in front of me. I hated the numbers I saw. The number of calories per egg floated around '70' the number kept repeating when I snapped out of it I was brought into a hug with the blonde. I felt tears on my cheek. So I had been crying. I hugged back. Not immediately but I still did eventually.
" four bites deku. I'm not leaving till you eat and don't even think about puking it up." The math circulated and I took three bites I tried to get away with getting up but he stopped me. If I ate another bite I would probably have eaten an entire egg. That's 70 calories I can't have that but I also didn't want to upset him any more so I took another bite.
"Now that that's over, sit on the couch. we need to talk." I didn't want to talk " It's the weekend why don't we just relax and revisit this on monday-" I was cut off "No. Now sit.down." he seemed angry so I complied and sat on the far left next to a window. I squeezed myself into the corner. I didn't want to talk I tried to come up with excuses but I couldn't. "I just have some questions, just answer them honestly please deku please." I debated it for a second while chewing on my bottom lip "ok" I whispered it but he heard it.
"What happened last night?" No no no he wasn't asking that question was he he couldn't know he can't know he would see me differently I don't want him to know. I started shaking and crying. I remember what happened and very vividly and I hated it I wanted to tear off my own skin. It didn't feel like mine I hated it.
"Hey take a deep breath, what's wrong?" I get brought back to reality with a hand on my back. "I-I don't think I-I can tell you." I don't want to be suspicious but I didn't lie. I didn't want to lie I hated it.
"I won't judge, I just want to know why aizawa said to leave you alone, why you freaked out, and why you said please stop dad multiple times in your sleep. So I'll ask again, what happened?" I wanted to tell him at this point but I didn't want him to know I wanted to rage and cry into his shoulder. " My dad drugged me and I ran out of the house and someone found me and-and raped me." I wanted to cry but I just bit back the tears. I hated being vulnerable.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" he was choking on his own sobs. Did I do this? "Don't cry, it's fine I know how to deal with it" shit. When I said that I just wanted to suck all the words back into my body but it doesn't work like that. "What do you fucking mean by ' I know how to deal with it ' like its a normal fucking thing." I wanted to answer but I didn't know what was going to happen if I did.
" DEKU WHAT DO YOU FUCKING MEAN?" I jumped at him yelling. But after about five minutes of debating my answer I wanted to tell the truth "cause it is a normal thing for me, I've been dealing with it since 4th grade I know how to deal with it!" I was angry. Not at him. But I was so mad. "W-what?" I took a deep breath in.
"M-my dad raped me. My mom picked up alcoholism, mom and dad hit me. They insult me and sometimes when my dad rapes me he decides to Invite his friends over but it's fine I-" "No. No deku it's not fucking fine so don't even think of saying that. I'm going to murder the bastard that's what I'm going to do!" Fear coursed through my veins when he said that as I realized how big of a secret I just shared. "Don't tell anyone PLEASE please please-"
" I have to. Besides aizawa knows. He has to tell someone as a hero and a teacher-" I panicked; I started hyperventilating and crying I couldn't breathe, I didn't know what to do but I hated the idea of either one telling anyone it made me nauseous and dizzy. My head was spinning. My chest tightened and my eyesight was disoriented "deku what's wrong tell me I need to know so I can help" I tried to talk but I couldn't just like in my dream the thought of the event invaded my mind making its presence sickeningly noticeable.
"M-m-my dads go-going to-o b-be so ma-mad" I let out between choked sobs. I had to face him and he was going to know. So would Mom though. I grip my hair and let out muffled screams " shit shit shit where's my phone I need to call aizawa fuuuuuck hah found it" he dialed and called sensei but that wasn't what I was focused on. I was scared about what would happen when I got home. I sat there for a while letting choked sobs and cries fill the atmosphere that surrounded us eventually my teacher opened the door and ran up to me who collapsed on the floor with kacchan sitting next to me
"Hey kid it's okay, you're okay-"
he was lying
" NO, NO I'M NOT HE'S GONNA HIT ME SO FUCKING HARD WHEN HE FINDS OUT IM NOT OKAY OR -OR SAFE IM IN DANGER!!" I yelled but I didn't regret it. I meant every single god damn fucking word I had just fucking said " kid neither of us are letting you go home to that shit show okay so try and calm down" I bumped into a wall that reminded me of what happened the other night my surroundings flickered into the alley way the people in front of me shifted into my dad and the person who raped me.
It flickered in and out and I couldn't tell any more I started screaming " NO NO NO STOP PLEASE PLEASE STOP" I repeated each segment with so much meaning. I felt like it was happening again I thought it was happening again. I felt something really cold on my neck I moved my hands down and felt cold plastic I was confused so I grabbed it the alley way flickered out of my vision the ice pack proving it wasn't real. I saw the two people in front of me go back into my teacher and roommate. Slowly it completely turned into my dorm I looked down and some of the cuts on my wrist were noticeable. I tried to pull my sleeves down but kacchan stopped me. Aizawas went into the bathroom and bandaged my arms up. It was nice having people care for me. "W-where will I go now?" " The last time I went into foster care it was hell, will I have to go back?"
"No" both of them said and looked at me. "Th-then where will I go?" Aizawas looked at me and smiled "well if you're okay with it me and my husband would like to take you in" I was stunned. Stunned that someone would want to take someone like me in. "You alright with that kid?"
"Yeah that would be awesome"
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