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"I love you."
What?
I slowly turned around, quickly walking back over to him. "What did you say?" I asked trying not to seem nervous. He opened his mouth but no words came out.
"Malfoy say it again or i'm leaving."
Draco took a deep breath, "I-I love you Y/n."
I froze.
Draco Malfoy just told me he loved me. And I didn't know what to say. If I told him I felt the same, it would completely demolish my friend group. But If I left right now it would all be over.
"Y/n?" He began to stand up.
It's crazy.
This was crazy.
"I-"
I didn't know what to say. Deep down I wanted to say it back. But my friends, how would they react? They'd hate me.
They probably wouldn't even look at me after. He was now in front of me taking my hand in his. His eyes never left mine. "I-I love you too Draco." Before I thought about it anymore I kissed him.
It wasn't rough or angry. It felt pure and soft. For the first time in a long time, I felt at peace.
"Go," He whispered against my lips. "I'll come and see you tomorrow when I'm out of here." His lips quickly pecked mine before returning to his bed.
On my way to my room all I could think about was that moment over and over again. I felt like a child twirling my hair, smiling about a boy. But I couldn't help it.
My back hit my bed and I continued to think about him. Then suddenly the guilt washed over me.
What have I done?
I turned to my side. I wasn't sure what this feeling was. It didn't feel good, it felt weird. I realized this tiny lie is going to form into a way bigger one.
Though all I had to do was just keep it a secret, and nobody would get hurt. If nobody knew then it would be fine. In my gut I knew it was still wrong no matter how I put it. But I truly do want to see where this goes.
I'd never forgive myself if I never gave it a chance. I was crazy for him and now I knew he felt the same.
The door to my dorm opened and in came a drunk Allie and Nick. "See Nicholas I told you she's right here." She hiccuped falling onto my bed.
"I'm going to throw up," Nick groaned as he placed his hand over his stomach. "Those extra shots were not a good idea." He complained making Allie giggle.
She rolled over and faced him. "Don't be such a baby it's not that bad." She slurred, basically half asleep.
Our happiness was quickly interrupted when Hannah walked into the room. Nick blankly stared at her while she walked to her bed.
"Are you alright Nick?" She asked grabbing her bag.
"What's the bag for Hannah?" His brow raised.
I tried to hold in my laughter remembering he was drunk and Hannah was a hundred percent sober.
When Hannah didn't answer he stood up and walked over to her. "Got a secret lover? Hm?" He tucked a piece of hair behind her ear, she immediately slapped his hand away.
"You smell of alcohol as if you sprayed it on yourself this morning," She scoffed pushing him away. "Get some help guys seriously." With that she stormed out of the room.
The sound of the door slamming apparently woke Allie up since she was now eating candy from her pocket. "That's disgusting." I laughed.
"They're new I just grabbed them from the bowl downstairs." She rolled her eyes continuing to eat her germ infested pocket candy.
Nick fake gagged before walking towards Hannah's nightstand. "Nicholas i'm pretty sure you know better than to rummage through someone else's things." I scolding crossing my arms.
He shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly as he continued to snoop. His mouth dropped as he picked up a tiny booklet from inside one of her drawers. "Her diary." He whispered.
"Nobody is here no need to whisper," Allie said as she snatched the book from his hands before placing back to where it was. "If someone went through my diary I would commit murder so let's not do this." She scoffed.
Nick mumbled boring before laying on my bed. "Anyways, anything new with you Y/n?" He asked slapping my knee with the back of his hand.
I really wanted to tell them about me and Draco, and know would probably be a good time since they're drunk. Maybe they wouldn't remember tomorrow. But I also couldn't risk the possibility.
I decided maybe I was thinking too hard about an answer since I looked up and they were both just staring at me. "Um, no." I shook my head.
Allie lifted one of her eyebrows, "Are you lying?" She asked. My heart stopped before I noticed that she was trying to hide a smile. "I'm just kidding Y/n! You're so tense lately." She laughed.
I smiled, finally being able to exhale.
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Mondays.
I hated Mondays. Though this one in particular was different. Because this certain Monday I get to see Draco, the guy I love.
My heart was beating game, I was so excited. I knew I wouldn't be able to talk to him in front of anyone and that we had to be secret but it was ok with me.
While I was walking down the hall I saw him walking with Daphne smirking at me. I was confused before I felt his shoulder harshly hit mine. Nicholas quickly turned around, his balled up. "Watch yourself Malfoy." He yelled.
Draco turned around with an amused smile, "Or what?" He grinned making his way back to us. Allie stood in front of Nick as if Draco would be intimidated by her small figure.
Nick moved Allie out of way and pushed Malfoy's shoulder. "Hasn't your mother taught you to be kind to Women Malfoy? Or does she despise you as well?" Nick taunted.
Draco pushed him more harshly. "Don't you ever speak of my Mother!" He spat defensively. Nicholas scoffed giving Malfoy the same amused look from earlier.
"Or what?"
Before Draco could even lay a finger on Nick, Allie pulled out her wand and quickly pointed it to Malfoy's neck. "Back off Draco, unless you want to return back to that dreadful hospital bed." She said angrily, pushing the tip of her what deeper into his neck.
He shoved her hand away, returning to Daphne's side. Allie looked at me as if she wanted me to say something as well. Maybe it was just me overthinking but I felt like I had to tell him off too, or else they'd definitely know something is wrong.
"Careful Draco, you already fought Blaise and lost," I crossed my arms and tilted my head before grinning. "Don't do this yourself you'll look like even more of a little bitch." I smiled sweetly.
His eyes landed on mine, his jaw clenching along with his knuckles. If looks could kill i'd definitely be dead right now. I regretted those words as soon as they left my mouth. But what did he expect me to do? Stay silent?
I can't.
Without saying anything else he stormed off, taking Greengrass with him. "I-I have to use to bathroom." I mumbled before basically running to the stalls.
My stomach felt nauseous, but it was more nervousness. While I was freaking out I felt something In my pocket. Reaching into my pocket I pulled out a note.
Meet in my dorm 8pm
- Draco
After reading it I crumpled it up and shoved it into my pocket. Did I even want to go? Yes. Did I also want to stay in my dorm? Yes.
But I knew my consequence would be even worse if I ignored him.
He wouldn't do anything that bad to me?
Right?
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ok fineeee
fun time in next chapter