Macau's pov
Kim has been going out these day much more than usually , he told me he had works with Kinn , I assumed it might be their own problems , paperwork isn't my thing , Kim asked me to help him the other day , if it wasn't paperwork , maybe I would've helped him , I feel like him and I got more closer , could it be possible? I still like him , I thought Kim was a fucking beast but to my surprise , he's nicer when you're friend with him , well , I remember that one time we got into a fight
That was like 2 years ago , Vegas got a fight with Kinn while Kim stood up for his brother , I stood up for mine , let's say we almost kill each other , it's not very pleasant to remember that , I let out a sigh , yesterday was pouring heavily , Kim has been more nicer to me lately , my heart would race each time we're together , I smiled to myself , I like him a lot , was it possible to be his? Could I ever make him mine? I hope I can..liking someone for years but can only love him from afar and silently
Liking him even when he had a lover was crazy but I never had the intention of breaking their relationship , I felt bad when they broke up because Kim was so sad but at the same time I was happy about this whole contract thing and kinda awkward too , it was currently evening and Kim haven't still came back , I didn't want to cook , I felt lazy , most of the time I'm lazy , I heard my phone ring , unknown?
"Hello?"
"It's Kim"
Oh? Kim? I was confused
"Kim?"
"I got a new number , I'm gonna come home a bit later than usual , so no need to cook food for me , I'll eat outside"
"Oh alright"
"Take care"
I hanged up the phone , phew , I won't need to buy food for him , I went upstairs , a hot shower would be great , I took a shower , almost for 30 minutes , it felt good , I put on some clothes , I guess I will go and buy some food , I closed the door behind me , locking it , I don't really wanna drive today , I will walk instead , plus the stall for food isn't that far , I started walking , people were still working , rain were pouring lightly , seeing an eatery , I decided to went inside , I ordered myself some chicken satay with sauce and a coke , I ate in silence , the rain stopped , I payed and went outside
I was looking around to cross the road until my eyes caught someone , was I being delusional? I blinked but saw Kim , it was actually him , I thought he had some work to do with Kinn? Maybe he went out to eat I guess? My thoughts stopped when I saw..Porchay? They were together..did Kim lied to me? I looked at them , were they back together? What a fool I am..I made a fool out of myself thinking he would give back the feelings I shared with him , guess I was too delusional , I dream too much , jealousy is a strong word , I am fucking jealous
They were walking , a tear escaped my eye , ugh , fuck , I wipe my tears but they won't stop , after a few minutes , I stopped crying , my hands shaking , I took out my phone and rang Boun
"Hey Mac"
"Are you free?"
"Yeah , why?"
"Want to go to the bar?"
"Damn , I thought you didn't like to hang out at the bar?"
"My thoughts changed , let's meet up at the bar next to the Palace Inn hotel"
"Sure , give me five minutes , I'm coming"
I walked to the bar , letting my thoughts take over , those horrible thoughts which I haven't had for months , I thought Kim was finally letting me inside his space but guess I was just someone to comfort him , I'm nothing to him , I was just a fool , a game , it was nothing , I went inside the bar and took a seat then I saw Boun showing up after a few minutes
"Wow , that's new , never thought you would want to come here"
"Just a change of plan"
"So what do you want? Beer? Whiskey?"
"Both"
I want to drown my sorrow , I was silent but I saw Boun staring at me
"What?"
"Got your heart broken?"
"What?"
I scoff
"No"
He continue staring at me , damn it
"We've been friends for years , you don't drink unless it's a special occasion"
"Well I wanted a drink , can't I have some?"
He left the table and came back with a bottle of whiskey , pouring it in a glass , I took it
"Who got your heartbroken like this? It's funny , I've never seen you get your heart broken like this till you want to drown all your sorrow by drinking"
I sip the drink , the bitterness on my tongue
"Some guy , hate to admit that I thought he could like me back , I was a fool , I got played"
I let out a sigh , I look at Boun
"Don't drink without me"
I smiled
"Cheers"
Clicking our glasses together , I realised that Boun is my only realest friend , he's the one who's always with me and cares for me , we're really close , I considered him as my brother
A few hours went by , I was still drinking with Boun but we were actually talking , it's funny how he got Kim out of my thoughts when talking , I wasn't drunk , I was still sober although I had like 15 glasses of whiskey , I don't want to think of Kim , I hate him , hate is a strong word , I fucking hate that cunt , that bastard , he's an asshole , I hate him , a tear escaped my eyes but I wipe it quickly
"Don't think of him , now c'mon , let's have some fun , shall we?"
I nodded and smiled at Boun