This is a one request from @Inasa27, I thought I already had a chapter like this but I am not sure so please enjoy this chapter!
Hope you all had a wonderfull Christmas for the people celebrating the holiday! THis is my little present (a day later) for you all. it might not be the best work i put out there and i am sorry for uploading so little wish i had more time!!!
Taehyung was looking at his phone, it was 3 am in the morning and he was staring at his schedule for the day.
First he needs to be at the filming set for Hwarang, than right after that he needs to go to vocal practice, than back to the set to film another scene. The members told him if he could make it he should also go the dance practice right after.
But right now, he was just sitting on the edge of his bed struggling to get out. The pain in his body was too much, the muscles are hurting with every move. He had a headache for the last week but the medication he took was not helping him at all. If anything it was making him feel more sick by the day.
Maybe it was due the fact that he hasn't had a proper meal in weeks as filming his first drama was also coming to gather with the big tour they are going on and have to prepare for and he is just running around from one point to the other without even realising the time. He hasn't had the feeling of feeling hungry at all as his body was just to busy.
He needs to remember his lines, he needs to remember his dance steps, he needs to remember the way the character shows emotion, or how he himself, V, was doing on the dance floor or how his voice sounds in the microphone in the studio.
He didn't want to complain to any of his bangtan brothers, he also didn't want to complain to his Hwarang brothers.
Over the months of filming Taehyung has gotten close with a few of the cast members making him feel totally at home. He was struggling at first with his new busy lifestyle and some of the cast members, mostly Park Hyungsik and Park Seojoon are helping him out a lot with the way he should acted. They loved Taehyung like a little brother but they couldn't lie that they saw that the young man was struggling in life.
Every single time the older man tried to talk to taehyung about his health the boy simply laughs and says he is ok, he is just tired as it is just a lot on the moment but he is doing just fine.
Just fine...
If only that was close to the truth.
If the cast members didn't worry about him, his band members would. They kept on asking the same questions over and over again. It was like he was having the same conversation at two different timepoint on the day, he didn't want any one to worry about him but it was getting harder and harder to hide what he felt.
Taehyung was staring at the lines in his script as he was trying to remember the words he needs to say. But his eyelids are getting heavier the longer he was staring at the letters and for the first time in weeks the letters seem to dance on the paper. He tries to focus but the letters just keep on dancing in front of him and it even makes him feel dizzy just to look at it.
He puts the script down and stands up to walk towards the fridge to get a cold bottle of water to keep him awake. As he is standing the room starts to sway a bit and he stumbles but doesn't fall, still catching the attention of the other actors in the room.
"You ok?" A voice asks looking at him worried.
"yeah sorry Hyung, I just stood up to fast." Taehyung answers looking at his friend. "I'm going to grab a bottle of water you want some too?"
Seojoon looks worried at his younger friend as he shakes his head no.
"But let me get it for you. We can go over the lines if you want to." Seojoon asks a bit worried as he sees the black circles under Taehyungs eyes, a pale face and he is softly shaking. Taehyung smiles, thanking the world for having such good friends as he nods and sits down again as Seojoon walks away but come back within seconds with two bottles of water.
"I thought you didn't want one." Taehyung says a bit sassy to get the mood up.
"Yeah but I thought why not, gotta keep my voice smooth you know." Seojoon says smiling as he opens the script and Taehyung struggle to open te bottle for a second.
It takes him a few tries before his strength comes back and the bottle opens, he takes a few sips and can feel the cold water running down his throat, he breaths out relieved feeling better than before and maybe a bit more awake.
He lets a little bit of water into his hand before throwing it into his face to keep him awake, just enough to let the make-up stay.
"Why?" Seojoon asks.
"Didn't sleep well last night. You have that sometimes it is not big deal." Taehyung smiles but he knows that Seojoon doesn't believe him. On this moment Taehyung doesn't really care he pick the script back up and he and Seojoon start to rehears the lines.
After maybe a small hour of practicing the lines it is getting ahrder and harder for Taehyung to stay awake but on the other hand. With the stress going through his body he can't sleep,
He feels how his blood levels are rising as the scene he ahs to shoot is getting closer by the minute. The swaet on his forehead is forming as he feels like a failure. the heartbeat doesn't go down as he keeps on going over the lines inside his head but he keeps on forgetting.
"Why can't I just remember!" Taehyung says a bit annoyed to himself.
"Hey, its ok. We all have days like this." Seojoon says trying to calm the younger but he notices the stress Taehyung is feeling. Just as the two want to go over the script the director walks into the room looking at the actors.
"We will e cancelling the scenes for today. It is way to hot on the moment I don't want to repeat what happened yesterday." The director says as everyone nods thankful, they have been filming midsummer and it has been hot. Really hot.
"Do you mind if I call you tonight to go over the lines again?" Taehyung asks looking at his friend as he picks up his things to go back to the dance studio as his brothers will be there in like two hours and he still needs to learn new steps.
"You really want to? I mean, we can go over them tomorrow morning?" Seojoon asks wanting to give the younger one time to relax, but Taehyung shakes his head.
"Yes, it would be helpful to do both, like tonight and tomorrow if needed." Taehyung says.
"Are you sure you're alright? I mean Tae look at yourself, you must be tired take some time to rest." Seojoon says.
"I am alright, I mean tired. But I will get there just like everyone else." Taehyung says smiling again as he now has collected all the stuff in his backpack and waves at the older.
"See you tonight. Thanks hyung." Taehyung says as he walks out of the set and to the car that is waiting for him.
"Sir." The driver greets him with a nod in the review mirror.
Taehyung smiles and waves as he takes his seat in the car.
"Hi, how long is the drive?" He asks looking at the man.
"lets say about a hour." The drivers says and Taehyung nods, this is his moment to catch some sleep before practice.
And so he does.
****
"Sir. Taehyung?" a voice rings through Taehyung ears as he opens his eyes and blinks a few times as he fastly looks at the time on his phone.
"You let me sleep 30 minutes longer." Taehyung says tired and a bit sad.
"Sorry the traffic was just a mess." The driver says, Taehyung feels bad about the words he had just spoken and bows before saying he is sorry.
"Have a nice day see you and the end of it." The driver says as Taehyung waves and get out of the car, feeling everything coming back to him again making him feel sick to the bone with how much stress is right back into his life just as he thought he had slept it off.
He walks into the now still empty room and starts to music, he loves the muscle memory that his body had created over time and he loves the fact that his body is still willing to dance.
But as he watches himself in the mirror, his moves don't seem to make sense anymore. He sees himself move but it is nothing like it is supposed to be. He stops as the music still continues as looks at himself and sees the pale skin, the tired eyes and an overworked person standing there.
"You can't give up! See how much your lacking! Come on dance!" Taehyung says angry towards himself as his body starts to move again.
"I can dance and practice my lines all at the same time." Taehyung says softly to himself as he takes the script out of his bag and tries to read and speak while he dances.
Sweat is forming even more than he already felt, he is happy with the airco in the room otherwise he would be dead from the head. But even now the letters are dancing just like him and he can feel how his breathing is picking up so much that he just needs a break.
"I can't have a break, I don't have time." Taehyung says as he picks up again after a fast sip of water.
This goes on till someone stops the music and Taehyung looks up to the radio seeing one of his brothers standing there.
"Hey, how long have you been here?" Hoseok asks as he walks up to the sweaty boy. "You're alright? Did you ea something?"
"Only a hour I gues." Taehyung says not really sure how long he has been in here.
"ah, did you eat?" Hoseok asks again knowing the answer, Taehyung just nods.
"Sure, I have a protein bar if you like?" Hoseok asks making Taehyung smile a bit at the fact that even now he can't lie to his brother.
"Thanks hyung." Taehyung says taking the bar Hoseok is handing him. Hoseok sees how much Taehyung is shaking while opening the protein bar.
"You know you scare me a bit. You don't look that good Tae." Hoseok says making Taehyung look up from his bar.
"I am sorry, I don't mean to scare you." Taehyung says.
"Not only me, everyone even the drama squad." Hoseok says making Taehyung smile a bit.
"You all don't need to be scared, I am fine. I will be totally alright." Taehyung says with his mouth filled with the bar.
"Pleas tell us when you need help ok? I mean I can teach you on different moments."
"No, I can't let the others down. We all need to be together."
"Yeah but you will need your rest."
"I take my rest."
Hoseok smiles sadly at the young man but lnows that he is not going to get through to the younger.
"Hey!"
"TAE!" Jungkook screams running towards his youngest hyung and hugs him tied.
"Kookie." Taehyung says hugging him back.
"gross, you're all sweaty!" Jungkook says letting go of his friend while the others member laugh as everyone walks into the room.
"Everyone ready?" Hoseok asks looking at everyone and then at Taehyung who doesn't look at him. Hoseok starts the music and everyone starts to dance.
Taehyung is struggling to keep it up, it is getting harder and he is missing the steps he thought he just did but now he is seeing the truth.
"Tae keep up!" Hoseok says. "Jungkook feet! Joon-ah faster."
It is not that Hoseok is only focusing on Taehyung but you can't miss the big mistake the younger one is making. He misses the steps and he is fast enough. Hoseok hates that he needs to yell at the younger but right now he is the dance leader and he needs to...
Hoseok stops the music and everyone looks at him confused, Taehyung whole world is spinning and everything is getting to much. The lights are to bright, the sounds are to loud, the eyes, so many eyes are staring at him.
His knees give in and he can hear someone yell his name before his world goes black.
****
"Tae?" Jimin soft voice is bringing Taehyung back but the thought that he just passed ut is giving him a harder time.
"I am so sorry." Taehyung starts to cry as his breathing is slowly getting unsteady.
"Hey it's ok. You ok?" Namjoon asks now worried.
Taehyung wants to answer, but he can't, he simply can't. the world is spinning, his mind is going crazy the lines are going around in side his head. The moves he needs to do are stuck in his body and he wants to get up. Wants to continue everything.
"Tae?" Jin says trying to get the attention of the boy that is slowly panicking.
But he just doesn't listen. His breathing goes faster and faster, it is getting harder to breath and the voices around him are disappearing as he keeps on crying and saying he is sorry with every breath he is breathing out.
"It's ok. Take it easy, take your time." Yoongi says now taking him into his arms as he let the bigger person lean against him. He is a very calm person and most of the time when he lays one of the younger one against his chest they calm down.
It always works.
It works everytime.
Taehyung hugs Yoongi closer as his breathing is slowly down over the minutes.
"it is just so much." Taehyung whispers letting out his worry for the first time in months.
"I don't know if I can go on like this."
The members look at their friend, breaking down at the sight of seeing one of their own so broken and totally in a panic attack a minute ago about the busy life they have. He has.
"Everyone can do I why can't I?"
Everyone just looks at him before Jimin takes Taehyung hand.
"You don't have to do it all by yourself. We can help you. You can make it through just let us help you."
"I am surprised you were holding on so long like this." Jin says making Taehyung teary eyes look up. "You have been working so hard, you didn't even take care of yourself look at you."
Taehyung smiles at the thought of having such amazing friends around him.
"I am so sorry." He keeps on saying.
"Don't worry. For today you are done. we will discuss a better week schedule after you have a proper meal." Hoseok says and the others nod in agreement.
"Now let's go home." Jungkook says as he and Namjoon help stand up the younger one. He is realy unsteady on his legs and they have to carry him inside o the car where he fastly falls asleep.
"Taehyung wake up. We are home." Jimin wakes him once again making Taehyung eyes look more sleepy than before.
With the help of the other taehyung gets inside their house on the couch, they decide to order take out and watch a movie while cudding and taking the time they have with the second youngest before discussing the schedule for the upcoming weeks so he can go on.