AYEJAL
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Tatsu:-huh?? How do you know Mr Ayaan...
Ayaan:- Tatsu i told you i know everything about you...
Why Ayaan keep saying that he know everything about me , whatever he guessed was right how??, i become too curious to know about Ayaan more , like the way he treat me, the way he talk to me ye sab mujhe Ayaan ki taraf attract kar raha tha, mujhe samjh nhi aa rha tha ki ye sahi hai ya galat but main uske or karib khichi chali ja rhi thi ...On other side ayaan is someone whom i never met or never knew...then how..
I deleted Rave because of whatever happened there and i come to feel hate with Rave like main irritate ho gai thi Rave se and jo maine ek family bnai thi Rave pe wo kahi na kahi maine kho diya tha, mere apne log jo mere nhi hoke bhi mujhe apno se jada pyar dete the.... Viral bro as my papa , he was the best friend of mine like mujhe koi bhi problem hoti thi My Rave papa always ready to take stand for me...
My brother Joints bro he always teach me to believe myself more than strangers... Aahh i am missing them but it's ok we will come back...
My Rave papa always treating me like his own daughter even he said one day that:-
Viral bro(my papa):-Tatsu why you calling me papa???
Tatsu:- Because I love the way you treat and love me like your own daughter...
Papa:- Tatsu sometimes I really feel like we are father and daughter in real....
Tatsu:- papa we are you also know that..
Papa:- Tatsu bachhe you know na ki papa ki place kya hoti hai hmare life me..
Tatsu:- haanji i know that..
Papa:- Papa ki place koi nhi le skta not even me too..but when you call me papa i really feel too happy after hearing this from you...
Tatsu:- i know that papa is place koi nhi le sakta but you know what, you are always ready to protect me, help me, and when I get sad you too get sad and tensed like me is your daughter..
Papa:- You are my daughter little girl..
Tatsu:- that's it..
Papa:- I think my daughter is growing up now...
Tatsu:- hehehehehe and I think my papa is becoming tharki day by day...
Papa:- Nautanki chup kar..
Tatsu:- Nautanki chup kar (copying him).. hehehe...
After that I started rolling on floor as usual and thinking that life kuch bhi kar sakti hai acha bhi bura bhi...
After that my big brother called me:-
ON CALL WITH MY BIG BROTHER~~
Ayesha:- yooo biggg brother..
Big brother:- How are you Hashi( nickname given by my own big brother)
Ayesha:- I'm ok...i missed you bhai but I know u did not....
Big brother:- I too missed you a lot..you know na your my baccha ...
Ayesha:- Bhai phir aap aa rahe na Rakhi me..
Big brother:- If "I'll" get free then I'll surely come....
Ayesha:- Hmm i know your meetings and your so called people more important than your sister...
Big brother:- it's not like that Ayesha why are you thinking in this way, they are also important like you are for me...
Ayesha:- apko ek din ke liye bhi time nahi hai or important seriously bhai.. Do u even remember when u came last to meet us on rakshabandhan...it has been 5 years..
Big brother:- Ayesha..
Ayesha:- Oh sorry would u even remember these things right bhai?
Big brother:- mood kharab mat kar Ayesha wese bhi i have to attend meeting to main fight krne ke liye call nhi Kiye tumhe..
Ayesha:- ok then bye take care attend your so called meetings and raise your shitty standards...
Big brother:- shutup Ayesha don't forget your limit we are not like you jo har rules break krte aye ho, mannerless ho gayi ho tum yaha smjhe...
And here my big brother Started giving me manners lessons because ye krne me unka time waste nahi hota hai kabhi.. anger flow me unhone bahut kuch kaha jisko sun ke adat si ho gayi hai isliye bura nahi lagta..
After "being neglected by everywhere I locked myself in store room and started writting my dairy
TO DEAR DAIRY🌸📝

I am tired, today I am very tired of pretending strong person, main nahi bolti sbse jyada but jab jisse bhi bolti hu unhe chubhne lgti hu.. main thak gayi hu itna ki agar koi majak me bhi ake puche na to main kuch dekhungi nhi uske samne bas ro dungi, aaj bahut ghutan mahsus ho rahi apno ke yaha to hu but yahi apne mujhe kabhi kabhi mere nhi lgte...
Mujhe bahut kuch krne ka man kar raha, khud ko noch khane ko man kar raha, mere andar kuch nahi hai siway khalipan ke... Aisa nahi hai ki mere pas koi nhi hai, bahut log hai mere paas lekin wo mere log mere nhi lgte..
Aaj main bahut jada thak gayi hu itna ki agar thodi si bhi ajadi mile na to main us time jee bhar ke rona pasand karu jo bhi andar itna sab befaltu ka bhara pada hai use nikal ke fek saku us time jor jor se chilla ke apne sare dukh asaman ko sunau ki dekh na mujhe kya ho Gaya hai din par din main kaisi hoti ja rhi , sabko khush krne ke chakkar main main khud ko khoti ja rhi... Aisi kyu hu main,
Tu akela nhi hai jo itne taaron ka bhoj liye betha hai , main bhi hu jo akeli hu teri tarah, khud ke ghar me ek anjan bnke rhna paaraye logo ke rehne ke barabar hai, log ye dekhte hai ki unhone kitna Kiya ye smjhne ke siwa ki maine kitni mehnat ki ,ki mujhse koi galti se bhi galti na ho but ho jati hai, mana main nahi kar pati iska ye matlab thodi hai ki main koshish bhi nahi krti..
But it's ok everything will be fine soon let's smile like nothing happened..
YOUR
AYESHA.
After that I started shivering as hell And felt like my whole body started freezing...
Because whatever happened and my f@cking past , my family and friends Everyone are like:-
You never gonna change...
Kya change kru main khud me, enjoying my own company is wrong, being straight forward is wrong or breaking f@cking standarded rules made by my family is wrong.. no one here gonna say me that Ayesha you don't have to do this things i love the way you are, No one litratlly there's no one, i started scheming for saving myself but no one is here to save me..
Jo log apse pyaar krte hai apko acha treat krte hai wo log hmesa dur hi kyu hote hai kyuu??
I am neglected by everywhere and everyone, what these people want from me...
Sometimes it becomes very hard to understand when you neglected by everywhere and your mind stop working after these things because bahut mushkil hota hai har jagah se ek baat hi sunna ki you never gonna change in indirect way but people never gonna tell you ki kis baat me change nhi ho skte tum... Jab tum pehle se hi apne past se suffer kar rahe hote ho to or bhi mushkil ho jata hai khud ko handle krna..
After that main kab so gayi mujhe pta nahi chala....
Stay tuned,, let's meet in the next part...
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