Pairing: Azriel x Reader
Summary: Azriel and Reader are falling apart and there is nothing reader can do about it.
A/N: angst because I'm sad by Dove Cameron. Inspired by Sand
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I feel Azriel drift away from me.
Day after day, I notice him distancing himself from me. He doesn't spend much time with me now. Doesn't talk to me. Doesn't hold me like he did before.
He is spending much of his time with Elain now.
I see them in the garden, walking beside each each, her hand held in his. They talk and laugh with each other, lost in their own world. He even makes time for her.
Just like him did for me before.
He only comes home to eat, sleep and make small talk to me and then goes back to her again. Every morning I watch him get up from bed and get ready for the day, silently. He pecks my lips, whispers a small 'I love you.' and leaves.
I feel like a stranger to him now.
Whenever I try to talk to him about his day or literally anything else, he turns me down immediately, only giving me short responses. He doesn't ask me of anything in return, never wanting to talk me for more than 5 minutes.
It makes me feel unwanted.
When we accepted our mating bond, I had issues with trusting our future together. Azriel assured me we would be alright. He told me over and over again, that he loved me.
"I love you so much. You are my everything. I promise you, I will spend the rest of my life making sure you know that."
I could hear his love in his words. It was almost a century ago. That promise is what I remind myself of when I start to question his loyalty for me.
I've lost count of how many nights I've spent crying in my pillow, everytime these little things cut deeper wounds in my heart. None of which Azriel heard in his slumber.
The silence is uncomfortable.
The clicking of spoons against dishes help in filling it a little but the awkwardness still stays. I look at Azriel, eating without glancing up. I made his favorite tonight. He still hasn't commented on it, not that I expected him too. ł did.
I clear my throat to catch his attention but he still doesn't look up, so I ask,"How was your day?".
"It was normal." He says without looking up, not say anything else after.
"I made your favorite today." I try again. That finally catches his attention. Hazel eyes look into mine containing what it seems to be realization. I tilt my head in confusion. "Did you not realize that? I hadn't cooked it in so long so i thought you'd be happy to eat this."
"Oh, um, no you're right, I didn't realise it. I actually was trying to hurry up." He gave a apologetic smile.
"Hurry up?" I ask. "Yes, I have business with Rhys today. And I actually ate this a week ago." He looks at the plate.
"Oh?" I frown. "Yes. I mentioned to Elain once that I like this and she surprised me by cooking it and forcing me to eat and review it." He chuckles. "It was quite good." He continues eating as if he didn't just broke my heart to complete pieces.
My shoulders drop and eyes burn with tears threatening to fall. I look down to hide my crumbling face from him. I clench my figures around the spoon, trying to keep my emotions in control. I somehow manage to not cry until he is gone for the second time today.
But the second he leaves I drop on our bed and sob until my eyes are raw and sleep takes over me.
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