Silence hangs in hallways that were so evergreen
Probably will not
Come back here
Ever again
I've lost home
I've been orphaned
My people have left me
Or did I leave first?
I don't know
I just live so hazily
It's not the drugs
I don't take them everyday
But I don't know
When the day began
Or when it ended
It is all so mixed up in my head
But it's not the drugs I take
Or the ones I don't take
Even when I should
Once a fortnight when I don't feel so strong
He says, "Turn it off when things go wrong"
He thought that was the exception
He's wrong
Because I have good intentions but things never work out for me
So he is wrong and I turn it off
How do I love again?
When I reach for my heart
It is cold and hard
So how do I feel again?
I cry at the slightest inconvenience
How do I risk it again?
It is annihilated
There's nothing but bitter resentment
And I'm not to be taken in by the faint hearted
I have issues with attachment
So once every fortnight when I don't feel so strong I run away
Even when staying is perfectly natural
I had a feeling
It was strong
I was Standing on my cliff of sadness
Listening to my favourite song
Watching my city burn
Crackling when I knew it was wrong
Something I think about sometimes too less sometimes too long
Before dreamless sleep traps me in madness
Before I lose myself to my thoughts