Having alone time is a very precious time that you should always cherish.
I've been having two weeks just for me and nobody else. I've actually thought about life.
Will the job I have support me and my future?
I'm old enough to make my decisions.
The real world is hard.
I do miss Jai a lot but I actually don't see myself with him anymore.
I guess I lost interest in him. Or maybe I'm just in denial?
I was sat drinking my coffee to go off to work when there was a knock on my door. I walk over to it hoping that it wasn't someone ding dong ditching again.
When I opened the door I was surprised with couple dozen red roses.
"Heather Smith?"
"That's me" I said liking confused at the guy.
"These are for you" he said handing me a clipboard and a pen. "sign here please"
"Sure" I was still very unsure on who could've sent flowers. I usually get them when I get a new photoshoot invitation or something along those lines, but someone from the company brings them to me or they invite me over.
"Thanks" I smile at the guy. I take them and he walks off.
I walk inside and put them on top of my piano.
I looked at them. I took out the envelope and knew exactly who it was from the handwriting on it.
I opened it carefully and took out multiple pieces of paper.
Princess,
I love you. I can't get you out of my mind. It's not like I'm complaining, I just miss you. I miss having you with me. Its been too long and I want you with me, nobody else. I know I'm sounding very..... possessive. But I love you so much and can't see you with anyone but me. Selfish I know but that's what I want.
That was the first one.
Princess,
I was meant to send that to you a one Monday but I didn't know your address and I can't really mail it because the postal office might take longer. I really need your number. I want to talk to you. I want to show you something. I'm also sorry for what happened at your house.
that's was after it.
Princess,
I want these roses to represent you. Beautiful from the inside, but most importantly the inside. The inside is what's the beautiful part of it. You're my rose. You're not just a star in the sky, you're the whole damn sky. Baby girl, I never thought I would fall deeply in love with someone like I have with you. I love staring at your face because everything about it is perfect. Your eyes. your lips. your nose. those lips. your teeth. them lips. The way you make random faces when your confused or don't like something. I love your awkwardness. I love your inside. I love your personality. I love your jokes even though other people find them lame I fine them funny as fuck. Anyways, what I want is for you to forgive me.
Love you.
Jai
Jai is honestly very sweet but there's something stopping me.
I grab my keys and head off to work.
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I couldn't get Jai out of my mind, but also I couldn't get Joshua out either.
I'm so confused on my feelings. I don't know who I really like and who I just like as a friend.
I'll let this thing calm itself down.
I eventually know who I want to be with. Now I have to focus on what I'm here for. Work.
No more boy drama in the moment.
Why do I always confused myself with feelings. Why is it hard to pick someone? Why don't I feel the same towards Jai anymore?
James:
I,um. I might've gave Jai your number. Sorry Heads up.
Of course he did. Note the annoyance there.
I didn't respond. I went to change back into my normal clothes and walked out of the building I was in for hours.
I honestly do enough my job but the lights kind of blind you at one point.
"Shit, my keys" I mutter to myself. I walk back into the building and head to my dressing room. I started looking for them but couldn't find them anywhere. I went to the front desk maybe they found it.
The hall was so silent I hear myself breathing.
"Hey Macy, by any chance have you found car keys?" I asked her.
"No ma'am" she looked at me. "nobody has either because nobody has brought them in"
"Oh okay thanks" I search in my pockets again.
"Did I leave them in the car?" I asked myself and began walking out again.
I got to my car and tried to open the door. It opened with ease.
"What the heck?" I look at the car. "I swear I locked it" I began searching all over the car but it wasn't there.
"You know, you shouldn't leave your keys out in the open, someone might take the keys and accidentally take the car" I heard a voice from behind me. I felt myself turning red. Mostly because he was behind me and I was wearing a short skirt and my position right now wasn't very professional.
I got out the car and turned around.
"Where did you find them?" I questioned him.
"In the changing room."
"Did you take my car?" I looked at him.
"Maybe" he smiled.
"Jai!" I crossed my arms. "first of all, who let you into my dressing room?"
"Myself, security here sucks by the way"
"You can't just do that"
"But I did, nothing happened. And plus I wanted to see you. But you took long so I saw your keys and took them"
"Jai, you can't just take something that doesn't belong to you"
"I know, but I wanted to get you something"
"Stop, you can't solve things by giving someone something"
"I'm trying my best to show that I care and love you" he looked at me.
"I know Jai. Just don't do that again, you're lucky I didn't call the cops or something"
"You didn't even know your car was taken" he looked at me.
"Actually, I noticed it was moved because I didn't park here" I smiled at him.
"Why you so smart" he rolled his eyes at me.
"Hey! Do t do that" I pushed him playfully.
"Come on, I want to show you something, but first I need you to go change into something... well, you always look beautiful in everything so I can't say that, so in something more fancy?"
"Alright Brooks" I smiled at him.
"Give" I extended my hand to him so I can get the keys but instead he got into the car and signaled me to get in the passengers seat.
"You know how much I hate not driving" I get into the car complaining.
"I didn't know that" he looked at me confused.
"Oh... yeah." I said awkwardly.
"why? What happened?"
"Accident" I answered. Nothing else was said
"Don't worry Princess, I'm here to keep you safe." He turned to face me before he started driving.
"Thanks for the flowers" I told him.
"I know you don't like flowers but I found them beautiful and they reminded me of you." he grabbed my hand.
At that moment something went through my body.
I didn't realize we were already outside my place. I was too busy looking at his and My hand intertwined together.
Our hands molded perfectly with each other.
"I love you"
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Sorry this chapter is crappy.
New Luke fanfic up. read and vote.
This is just one of those filler chapters.