Demis POV :
After what happened with Taylor yesterday, I realized that it may be the best thing for her, if she went to treatment.
I mean, she isn't getting better.
At least I don't think she is.
"Mom?" I heard a raspy voice say
I looked over and seen Jess' big tired hazel eyes looking at me.
"Hey, babygirl. How'd you sleep?" I asked walking over to her
"Fine. But my back really hurts. You know, from sleeping in a hospital chair all night." She chuckled lightly
"Oh, I'm sorry." I said
She stood up and cracked her back, neck and knuckles.
"I know it feels good to crack everything, but not your knuckles. You're going to get arthritis when you're older." I said
She smiled
"That's what Miles used to tell me." She said looking down
"Who?" I asked
She looked up at me.
"What? Nobody." She said quickly
"Jess, who's Miles?" I asked
"Nobody." She said coldly
"Well then." I mumbled
Taylors POV :
I woke up to the smell of bacon.
I quickly brushed my teeth and did what I had to do in the bathroom.
I slowly got out of bed and opened my door.
I followed the smell all the way down to the kitchen.
"Good morning." I said
"Morning Chicka." Wilmer said
I walked to the fridge and took out the jug of orange juice.
I grabbed a cup and sat at the island.
I poured my glass of orange juice and took a big gulp.
I spit it out as soon as it touched my tongue.
"What?" Wilmer asked startled
"I just brushed my teeth, and then drank a bunch of orange juice." I said
He laughed.
"You idiot!" He said laughing
I pouted
"Hey, that's not funny!" I whined
"Right, sorry." He said focusing back on the bacon
I went to the living room and grabbed my phone.
I looked and seen a bunch of texts and missed calls from Camila.
And then there was the one stray call from Demi.
I decided to read Camilas text messages.
"Baby I'm sorry."
"I know I fucked up, and I'm sorry."
"If you're going to hate me for the rest of your life, at least tell me that you're okay."
I didn't bother reading the rest.
I texted one simple message back.
"Look Camila, you're right. You did fuck up. Big time. But you also need to understand that I have had trust issues almost my entire life. I actually thought that I could trust you. You were my rock. My everything. But I guess I wasn't the same to you."
She messaged back almost instantly.
"You are my rock too. And my everything. And I'm sorry. You are really are everything to me. You are the only person in my world."
"If that was true, then why did you cheat on me?"
"Because I was dumb and lonely. You weren't there with me. So I called Lauren, and she filled the spot."
Ouch, that hurt.
"Camila, I just came back from the hospital. Anna had a miscarriage. I finally forgave Wilmer and he is helping me in starting my recovery. If anything you weren't there for me!"
I obviously left out the part where I crashed and burned in my recovery.
She didn't reply for a while.
"If you're not going to answer me again, at least call me."
My phone rang almost instantly.
"Hello?"
"I'm so sorry." She sobbed
"Sorry isn't gonna fix things this time." I said softly
"Listen, Taylor. I really am sorry. Lauren was just a one time thing I swe-"
She was cut off by someone calling her name.
"Mila! Are you coming back to bed baby?" I heard Lauren say in the background
"Taylor don't hang up. It isn't what you think." Camila said quickly
"Camila, it's fine. Be with Lauren. Clearly that's what you want." I said surprisingly keeping my cool
"I really am sorry, Taylor."
"It's fine. I just want you to know that I will always love you, Karla Camila Cabello Estrabao. And I wish you and Lauren all the best."
"I will always love you too, Taylor Lee Matthews-Lovato. And I truly hope you find someone as good as yourself and that they won't fuck up like I did."
"Have a good life babygirl. I'll see you eventually."
"I'll see you around Taylor." She said hanging up
I took a deep breath and turned off my phone.
"Wow, that was a surprisingly calm conversation." Wilmer said behind me
I turned around.
"How long have you been standing there?" I asked
"Since your phone rang. I wanted to make sure that you were alright." He said
I smiled
"Thank you, for everything." I said sincerely
"No problem squirt." He said
"No! That sounds dirty!" I squealed
He laughed
"Fine. How about Shorty?" He suggested
"I can handle that." I shrugged
"Good, cause I wasn't going to change it again." He smirked
I smiled and rolled my eyes.
"Such an idiot." I mumbled
"What?" He asked
"Nothing." I smiled innocently
Annas POV :
I'm still in this stupid fucking hospital.
And now they've diagnosed me with fucking depression.
I'm not depressed!
At least I don't think I am.
"Babe?" Shawn said
I turned and looked at him.
His eyes were red and puffy, bags under his perfect eyes and he looked dead.
"Baby, i'm so sorry this happened." I said feeling genuinely terrible
"Anna, this is not your fault!" He said sternly
"Yes, it is! I'm the one that was carrying the baby and I was the one that lost the baby." I said emotionless
"But that was not your fault!" He yelled
"Maybe not. But I still feel like it is, and I can't help that!" I yelled back
He didn't say anything.
"I feel horrible, Shawn. That baby was MY responsibility, OUR creation, and I'm scared, okay! I'm scared that because the baby is gone, you'll leave me." I said
He got up and hugged me.
I hugged him back like my life depended on it.
"I'm so sorry." I cried into his shoulder
"It's not your fault, Anna." He said
I nodded
"Are you going to stop blaming yourself now?" He asked
"I can try. But it won't be easy."
"That's all I ask." He smiled
He kissed my forehead.
"Can we cuddle?" I asked giving him puppy dog eyes
"Of course baby." He said
I scooted over so he had room to get into the tiny hospital bed.
He climbed in beside me, and I immediately found myself laying my head on his shoulder.
"I love you, you know that right?" He said
I nodded not looking up at him.
"Anna, i'm serious. No matter what happens, I will always love you." He said with so much sincerity in his voice
"I love you too, Shawn. I really do." I said
He kissed my head and moved around a litte bit to get comfortable.
I soon found myself falling asleep.
Jess' POV :
I need to get out of this hospital.
I've been here for 2 fucking days!
Anna still isn't out. But I need to be here for when she gets out.
I wonder what Taylor and Wilmer have been up to.
Taylors POV :
"Can we go to Skyzone now?" I asked Wilmer
"Yeah, go get ready and we'll go." He said
I nodded and went up to my room.
When I got upstairs, I jumped in the shower.
I reached for the shampoo bottle and lifted it up.
I seen the thing I don't want to see anymore.
I quickly poured the shampoo into my hand and slammed the bottle back down.
I lathered the shampoo into my hair lightly until I was sure it was enough.
I rinsed it off trying to be careful.
But not being careful enough, I got it in my eyes.
"Ahh, shit. Fuck!" I hissed
I started rubbing my eyes, after rinsing them off first.
I finally got the burning to stop.
I sighed in relief.
I then grabbed the bottle of conditioner.
I seen another one!
Shit, I really need to get rid of those.
I took some conditioner and slammed it back down.
I massaged it into my hair and rinsed it, carefully this time. So I didn't get it in my eyes again.
I washed my body.
As I was washing my body, I finally took time to look at all of the scars on my body. There were big ones, little ones, jagged ones, deep ones, red ones and faded ones. They were everywhere. On my arms, on my thighs, on my stomach, on my hips, on my ribs. Wow, I really do have a problem.
After inspecting my cuts, I rinsed my body, and hopped out.
It was really cold, once you got out of the warm water.
I quickly grabbed my towel and wrapped myself in it.
I got out of my bathroom and sat on my bed.
I don't know why, but I started contemplating how my life might be, if I had never met Demi. Would I still be picked on by Ashleigh? Most likely. Would I still be cutting? Probably. Would I be skinnier, because I starved myself? Maybe. Would I even be alive right now? No, because Demi saved me.
I started to panic, which led to me crying.
I got my breathing to slow down, but the crying didn't stop.
The sobs escaping my mouth were heart wrenching. How could I be so stupid!? How did I get to this point? My life, went completely downhill.
My sobs didn't stop.
I heard someone walk into my room, but I ignored it.
I heard footsteps coming towards me.
Then I realized that I was still in a towel.
"Wilmer, I'm basically naked! Let me get dressed and then you can come back in." I sobbed
"Shh, it's okay." A feminine voice said
The fuck?
I looked up and seen Demi.
I froze.
She'll see all of my scars and cuts!
"No, get out. I'm basically naked!" I said
I tried to hide under my blanket, but she wouldn't let me.
"No, you're not allowed to hide them anymore. I know about them now, so I want to see them." She said
"God, you're just like Camila." I mumbled
Then I realized that I no longer have Camila. She isn't my girlfriend anymore.
I started sobbing again.
Demi quickly hugged me, despite weither I was in a towel or not.
"Demi, you're going to get wet!" I said trying to push her away
But she only tightened her grip around me.
"I don't care. You're more important than dry clothes." She said
I put my arms around her and slowly relaxed into her embrace.
"What are you doing today?" She asked
I shrugged.
"Nothing without Camila." I thought to myself
"Where's Camila?" She asked
"Um, we sort of aren't together, anymore." I said trying to hold back tears
"It wasn't my fault again was it?" She asked quickly
"No, Mom. It wasn't your fault." I chuckled
"Good. So what happened?" She asked
I took a deep breath and told her what I had heard over the phone.
"I swear, i'm going to kill her!" Demi shouted
"No, you are not!" I shouted back
"And why not? She hurt you again! She cheated on for weeks, and you didn't even know. She told you, not to worry about Lauren, but then she cheated on you WITH Lauren! Do you not see the problem here!? She has been lying to you, for weeks!" Demi exclaimed
I started sobbing again.
I can't believe it took me all this time to realize that!
She has been lying to me and ditching me for weeks now.
But that one time she got caught.
"Taylor, i'm sorry. I didn't mean to go off like that. Please don't do anything stupid." Demi said quietly sitting beside me
Instead of answering her, I got up and grabbed my outfit for the day.
I walked to my bathroom and slammed the door, and I also locked it.
"Taylor, i'm not going to bang the door down because I trust you. So please, don't lose my trust." Demi pleaded from the other side of the door
I quickly got dressed.
I started looking for every single blade that I keep in my bathroom. (20)
I'm taking my recovery seriously now. Before it didn't matter to me. But now, it's my number one priority.
I had 20 in my hand, by the time I opened the door.
I seen Demi sitting on my bed, waiting for me to come back out.
"You okay?"
"Yep." I said popping the 'p'
She walked over to me, but I quickly walked over to my dresser.
I opened every droor, and pulled out 5 blades from each of them. (20)
Then I went to my side table and and grabbed every blade from there too. (10)
I then walked to my bed and stood in front of Demi.
I asked her to scoot over for a second.
She did, and that's when I reached under the matress and grabbed three more.
"I am holding 53 blades in total, and I want you to get rid of them all. Weither you flush them, put them in a dumpster on the outskirts of town, or just hide them. I need them gone." I said bravely holding out my hand for her to take them
She nodded.
"Wait, I want Wilmer to do it. You both have helped me come so far in my recovery. But I want him to do it." I said pulling my hand back
"Why?" She asked
"Don't take this the wrong way, or get offended. But I don't want you touching a blade. Or 53 for that matter." I said
She looked slightly hurt.
"No, mom. I didn't mean it that way. I just meant that I don't want you forcing yourself to do something that you might regret later. Like hold 53 fucking blades!" I said quickly
"No, I know what you meant. I'm upset that I'm just realizing how broken you are, and how much effort you're putting into your recovery. I'm proud of you T. I really am." She said hugging me
"I love you too, mom." I said
Jess' POV :
God damn it!
I never wanted to talk about him again, but I did.
Fuck!
Miles is my ex boyfriend.
He died in a car crash a few years ago. He was my first boyfriend. I really did love him. He was my everything.
My eyes start to water just thinking about him.
About 2 years ago, Miles and his family were driving home from the airport. They had just gotten back from Australia. I hadn't seen him in about a month, that was a long time for me to go without him. He said he had a surprise for me. But the only surprise I got, was a phone call saying he was dead.
A drunk driver had smashed into his family's car on their drive to my house.
I can never talk about him to anybody.
Annas POV :
I'm finally going back home.
Shawn has not left my side since the day I got here.
I'm so glad I have him.
"You ready to go?" Shawn asked
"Yeah." I smiled
Taylors POV :
Instead of going to Skyzone today, we decided when Anna is ready to go, we will all go together.
So instead, I am watching Orange is the new black.
As I was a few episodes in, I started to realize something.
My doctor, Alex Vause, IS Alex Vause from Orange is the new black!
How did I not realize it before!?
"Holy shit! Wilmer, get up here!" I screamed down to him
I started pacing around my room.
I heard heavy footsteps coming towards my room.
"What, what is it!?" He shouted
"Look!" I screamed pointing to my computer
He walked over and looked at the screen.
His face went pale.
"That is my fucking doctor! Her name is not Alex Vause, it's Laura Prepon! God, how did I not figure this out?" I said pacing back and forth
He stayed quiet.
"I need to google her more." I said grabbing my macbook off the bed
I quickly typed her name into my computer.
I seen Wilmer slowly get off my bed and try to walk to the door.
Before he could get to the door, I ran in front of him and slammed it.
"Where ya goin, Fez?" I asked angrily
"Shit." He cursed under his breath
"What, didn't think you'd get caught?" I spat
"Look, Taylor. I didn't tell you because she quit acting and became a doctor. She got back into to acting when Orange is the new black started. But, she still works part time at the hospital." He sighed
"That doesn't matter! You still didn't tell me! You let me flirt with your previous co-worker! Dude, do you know how weird that is!?" I screamed
"I'm sorry." He said
"Take me to her." I said
I stopped pacing and looked at him.
"What?"
"You heard me. Take. Me. To. Her." I said getting impatient
"Fine." He sighed
I ran out of my room and to his car.
We drove to the hospital in less than 5 minutes.
As soon as he parked the car, I ran into the hospital.
I finally spotted her walking in the hall.
Her back was turned to me and she had nothing in her hands.
I felt this burst of energy surge through my body.
I sprinted to her and jumped on her back.
She stumbled at first but soon got her balance back.
"What the hell? Get off of me!" She yelled
I put my hand over he mouth.
"Shut up! People are going to think I'm trying to kill you!" I hissed quietly
She stopped moving.
I jumped down and she turned to look at me.
"Oh, Hi Taylor." She said
"No, no. Don't 'Hi Taylor' me! You lied to me!" I snapped
"Excuse me?"
"You're not a doctor, you're an actress. Your name is not Alex Vause, it's Laura Prepon! You lied straight to my face!" I shouted
"Okay stop shouting! I'm sorry, I didnt know what else to tell you." She said sadly
"Are you really married?" I asked
"Yes."
"To who?"
"My girlfriend on Orange is the new black, Taylor Schilling." She said smiling
"Aww, Taura forever!" I squealed
She blushed
"So, when can I meet her?" I asked
Just then Wilmer came around the corner.
"Taylor, there you are!" He said out of breath
"Jesus man, get yourself together!" I chuckled
He glared at me.
"Sup, Fez." Laura smirked
"God, not you too!" He groaned
"You know, I'm never gonna stop calling you Fez now." I smirked evilly
"Fine, I'll just call you squirt." He smirked back
"Fine, Dad it is." I said
He looked shocked.
"Oh close your mouth, it was bound to happen soon." I said
He smiled
"I'm happy it's now then." He said hugging me
"Hmph." Laura coughed awkwardly
I turned around.
"So, when can I meet her?" I asked again
"Right now." She said pointing behind me
I turned around and seen a blonde walking towards us.
"Hey babe." She said giving Laura a quick kiss
"Hi. Taylor, this is my wife, Taylor." She said introducing me
"Wow, this is weird. It's nice to meet you." I said shaking her hand
"Pleasure's all mine." She said
"Okay, well we have to get back." I said
"Alright. I'll see you around. If you need me, you have my number and you know where to find me." Laura said
I nodded.
She stepped forward and gave me a quick hug.
"Bye, Wilmer." She said giving him a quick hug
I seen a hint of jealousy flash in her wifes eyes.
I walked over and whispered in her ear.
"Don't worry, he has a girlfriend." I said quietly
She nodded.
"Alright. Lets go!" I said to Wilmer
We walked out of the hospital and back to his car.
I finally know the truth.
Hopefully, there's no more secrets.