Caption- Always lovely getting drunk with my girls even if the morning after is the worst. (P.s. swipe for a surprise @leahwilliamson)
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@katie_mccabe11- Oh Leah you look so beautiful in that pic haha
@leahwilliamson- haha very funny I was a bit drunk when I sent that plus its from ages ago
@rosie_spam06- you weren't just a little bit drunk you were pissed out your head haha
@mbrighty04- glad you had a good time can't wait to find out what the big news is everyones going mad on tiktok snd stuff trying to figure it out
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I am so nervous. I didn't sleep a wink last night because I'm so nervous. What if they don't like me? Am I taking someone else's place that deserves it better than me? What if I'm just in the way?
"Rosie?" Beth says to me her head leaning over me, as I slept with her and Viv last night in their bed "Are you ok?"
"Yeah, i'm fine" I say looking at her properly leaning up in bed. Slightly leaning on Viv who was doing some sort of course work or something. Beth lifts her eyebrows, telling me that she does not believe me one bit. "It's just," I sigh as I know she'll tell me differently. "What if they don't like me, or think I'm in the way? I've already had enough hate saying that I'm taking someone's spot who's more worthy of it" I finally say looking down at my hands picking my nails.
"Bug," Beth says, scooching closer to me and lifting me head up with both her hands ",they will love you I promise."
"And if they don't you can get Leah to tell them off for you" Viv says joining into our conversation. All three of us laughed at that. We stayed in bed for another 10 minutes before Leah came knocking on the door to say that breakfast was ready.
Once we had finished our breakfast that Leah and Rue had made, we all headed off to get changed into our England tracksuits that had been sent out the day before along with all of our training kit and some other few bits.
A knock on my door broke me out of my thoughts.
"Come in," and in walks Leah, of course it is, she always knows when I'm nervous or overthinking.
"Hey, just came to see how you were getting along, the car should be here in 5" we are getting a car to St. George's park with Beth, Lotte and Jordan.
"Yeah, I'm ok just making sure I've got everything," I say, a small smile on my face as she sits down next to me on the bed. She opens her arms up for me and I just lean into her. Leah's the best, she always knows when I just need a hug, she doesn't pressure me to talk or anything, she's just there for me.
After being in her arms for a good minute or two we hear Beth shouting up the stairs.
"WE'VE GOT TO GO IN A MINUTE LOTTE SAYS THERE JUST ROUND THE CORNER!"
"I'm guessing we should go down then shouldn't we," Leah says as I sit up out of her arms.
"Yeah we probably should," I reply knowing what Beth is like ",will you help me with my suitcase please?"
"Of course I can Ro" She says, picking it up and carrying it down the stairs for me like it weighed nothing. I reluctantly follow behind her.
My eyes start to well up with tears, knowing that this would be the first time going away without Viv and Katie. The car pulls up outside, whilst Leah and Beth go out the house to put the cases in the boot. I stay behind, tears starting to trickle down my cheeks.
I feel Viv's arms wrap around me as I start to sob harder, she just comforts me knowing why I'm crying like this. After a few seconds I feel a second pair of arms wrap around me, Katie's.
"It's going to be ok Ro,"Viv whispers into my ear ",we will make sure to be at all of your games so you'll still see us"
"Promise" I say sniffling looking up at both of them
"Promise,"
"Promise," They say in sync bringing me back into the hug for the last time until the first game.
"Come on Roro, it's time to go now." Leah says standing in the doorway, Beth already sat in the car.
I reluctantly bring myself out of the hug wiping my eyes on my jacket.
"I'll miss you lots, love you" I say walking out of the door and towards the car, Leah opens the door getting in first as she knew I wanted to be sat next to the window.
I get in shutting the door waving to Katie and Viv as the driver sets off towards St. Georges park.
Laying my head on Leah's shoulder as the house went out of view getting myself ready for what was to come.
"Ro, it's time to get up now we're here" Leah whispers into my ear rubbing my arm up and down. I had fallen asleep in the car, typical me, I can fall asleep practically anywhere. I once fell asleep, stood up leaning against Katie, who didn't notice until Lia pointed it out.
The butterflies came back as I unbuckled my seat belt and got out of the car thanking the driver.
I walked round to the back of the car and Leah handed me my suitcase whilst grabbing her own at the same time. Coming to stand next to me Beth held my hand knowing my nerves were through the roof.
"Right let's go in" Lotte said knowing that I would probably stand out there all day if I could.
As we made our way up the stairs, the nerves started coming up my throat and into my mouth. I ran to the closest bin I could once we had gotten inside the building, glad we were the first ones to arrive as the cameras hadn't started rolling yet.
Leah came up and rubbed my back whilst Jordan went to go and put our suitcases in the meeting room where they would be taken up to our room for us. Lotte handed me a small bottle of water she had gone to get whilst I was hunched over the bin.
"Hey, you alright now" Beth said joking, walking in our direction
"Yeah, I'm alright now," I replied with an honest smile on my face.
Half an hour later and the rest of the girls started to arrive, meaning that I would be meeting every single one of them very soon. That didn't make me feel as sick as I thought it would. Me, Leah, Beth, Jordan and Lotte all sat on the sofa. Me sat on Beth's knee with my legs spread out over Lotte and Jordan, my feet just about reaching Leah.
Surprisingly none of the girls came over to greet us as they walked in, probably the look Leah was giving them scared them off. No one wants to mess with Leah when she glares at you, I have been on the end of some of them and they are not nice.
Another half an hour later and all of the girls had arrived, still none of them came to greet us, even if I had told Leah that it was ok.
"Right girls can you all come into the meeting room please" Sarina said appearing out of literally nowhere. I stood up from Beth's knee grabbing the hand of the person closest to me, which was surprisingly Lotte. She just gave me a smile and squeezed my hand to reassure me.
I decided that I should sit with Lotte as she was calm and collected unlike Beth and Jordan who were like excitable puppies, and Leah would have to get up at some point to make a speech, with her being captain and all.
"Right girls, I'm happy that you could all make it. Most of you know each other, however we have a new face with us today" This made everyone look in my direction, I could feel my face heating up so I just turned and buried my head into Lotte. "Make her feel welcome please, now you all have the training schedule in your email's, and I will now read out the rooms, once your room has been said you can go and grab your keys and make your way up"
"Rooms:
Jill and Ellen
Alessia and Ella
Millie and Rachel
Lucy and Kiera
Jordan and Fran
Georgia and Leah"
My heart started pounding as the list went on. Jordan and Leah already had roommates. What if I got put with someone I don't know? How would I cope?
"Demi and Alex
Niamh and Jess
Mary and Katie
Lauren and Hannah
Nikita and Ellie
And finally Lotte and Beth"
What? Why hasn't my name been called out? I am so confused, and as it seems so is Leah.
"Why doesn't Rosie have a roommate?" Leah shouts to Sarina as she walks back from getting her room key
"Yes I was just getting to that, I was wondering who you would be most comfortable sharing with Rosie" Sarina says walking up to where me and Leah stood.
"Erm," I replied quietly, "probably just the Arsenal girls really. I don't mind any of them"
"Well you can choose for yourself, and if you want to sleep in a different room every night then that's what you can do, we can get you a blow up bed if you want" Sarina replies
"No it's ok, I'll just share beds" I say still quiet but a little bit louder, trusting Sarina a bit more each time we spoke.
"Ok that's fine, you can do that"
"Thank you Sarina" Me and Leah said at the same time, as we walked over to where Beth was standing talking to Alessia, Ella and Mary.
"Will you be alright with all three of them," Leah asked, obviously cautious incase I was going to throw up again.
"Yeah, I'll be fine, I'm not going to be sick again, don't worry," I said laughing as she smiled, shaking her head at me. As we got closer Leah swung her arm around my shoulder, letting me know that she was there for me if I needed her.